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damnit

I have fallen back into the Geronimo Stilton fandom. In this very year of 2023.

12.14.23, 12:24am

I've decided to journal, maybe to feel less small on this website. Hopefully someone finds me relatable but just to help with myself and others. So hi!

I am dealing with a lot right now and it sucks. I wish I could just open up and not have everything pour out and not be upset when someone gives me solutions even after saying I want them to just listen. It just hurts for no reason, cause they want to help. .

I was told today I bruised someone's heart. And they can't trust me (which has been a fact for about 2 months) and it sucks. I love them so much and I've made mistakes but I just always feel like the problem at times, maybe someone else feels this way?

I go to therapy. So my problems I feel like should be fixed in a way? But I'm working through them at least. I know that much. I'm trying to be better about communicating but its hard cause when I know someone doesn't trust me then I can't seem to trust them either. Again hopefully I'm not the only one...

Now the thing is the world is lonely, even when surrounded by people who love you, it's something I've learned to be ok with. Bit now I have someone actively around me all the time. And now it's harder to be ok with the loneliness when I'm craving love more and more. But it seems to be too much for them to handle, and I understand it completely cause I feel like I'm always spilling at the seems lately.

Always like one more pebble and I'm spilling all over the place. I've had all this pent up everything and I let it out to bare and it just wasn't recieved how I wanted it to be. I also have been dealing with medical issues and it's changed completely who I am.

So thanks for letting me get this out.

Thank you to whoever is reading these, and I hope you feel less alone in the world if I'm relatable to any extent. I hope life gets better for all of us, as it most likely will. But hope is good and I'm sending it your way.

Last thought of the night, i found out you can pay to go cuddle cows. Literally my dream, enjoyed knowing that's a thing and I can hopefully do it someday. Maybe for my birthday when I turn 21?

Anyways goodnight to my anonymous readers, and goodnight moon. 🌙

-wonderlandishere-alice

I thought 'We' were in the rain,

but I guess it was only 'Me';

And when I opened my eyes,

It turned into a storm