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Way Back Home | jjk | Prologue
pairing: jungkook x reader
au(s): exes to lovers, single mom reader
rating: 18+
genre/warnings: parents au, single parent, coparenting, chaebol jungkook, ceo jungkook, assisstant reader, angst, pregnancy, jungkook's dad is a dick.
authors note: hey guys! here's the prologue to the new story! i surprisingly finished it much faster than i thought, but here you go! let me know what you think.
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“Congratulations! You’re 9 weeks pregnant!” The doctor states as he rubbed the probes around your abdomen.
You felt your heart drop in your chest as you looked at the screen. You knew, God of course you knew. You took 6 tests and every single time it came out positive. But for some reason, you just couldn’t wrap your head around it.
You were pregnant.
“And look here, there are two sacks.”
“That means…”
“Yes, you’re having twins!”
You felt your eyes tear up as you looked at the two little black and white peas in your uterus. You were pregnant, with twins too. You would’ve been surprised but honestly, since you’re a twin…It’s just inevitable.
You felt your nerves kick in. Would Jungkook be happy?
The two of you have been together for almost four years now. And you’ve never been happier with the man of your dreams.
You haven’t been able to tell him because you only recently found out a few days ago. Jungkook is currently out of the country for business. His father is the CEO of one of the biggest food manufacturing companies in Korea.
Jungkook so happens to be the heir to the company, getting ready to take over for his father.
For a chaebol, he was probably one of the most humble and caring people you’ve ever met. He doesn’t gloat, he doesn’t flaunt. He wants all of his successes to be his own.Although the company is being passed down to him, Jungkook went to university to learn everything there is to know about the business community.
He wanted to be good at his job, to make his father proud.
So, aside from school he’s been learning the ropes from the ground up. Starting off as an intern, to a regular worker.
He’s doing it all so he can do well, and you admire him for that.
Now that you guys are in your last year of university, he’s getting ready to take over for his father.
So he’s been quite busy, he tries to talk to you as much as he can but since he’s currently on the other side of the world, you guys miss each other pretty often.
He still texts you good morning and goodnight, and tries to contact you as much as he can during his day.
But it’s sad, because you find out you’re pregnant with his children and he isn’t here.
You understand though, this is important to him and he wants to do right by his family. Who are you to stop him from achieving that?
So, here you are at the OBGYN looking at your twins who sit at the bottom of your belly.
You felt happiness burn within your chest as you gazed at the monitor. You can’t wait to tell him.
You were currently sitting at the bus shelter, waiting for the bus so you could go to your afternoon classes. You were wondering how you'll tell everyone about your pregnancy.
Of course, you’re scared out of your mind. How can you not be? You’re 22, working at a cafe for a part time job, and you're still in school.
You know Jungkook will be here every step of the way, this man is constantly telling you about how he wants to marry you and make a family with you one day. He even teases it during…ehem…that he can’t wait until you’re pregnant with his children.
Deep in thought, you notice the bus roll up in front of you when suddenly you get a call.
You look at the caller I.D to only be surprised.
Jeon Estate is calling…
You sucked in a breath and answered the call.
“Uh, hello?”
“Hello Y/N” Jungkook’s father says.
You felt your heart stop. Jungkook’s father was probably one of the most intimidating people you’ve ever met. When you first met him, you knew he didn't like you from the start.
Jungkook’s mother unfortunately isn't in the picture. His parents got a divorce while he was still in high school but he’s still on good terms with her.
He told you if he had the choice, he wished he could've stayed with his mom instead. But his father ended up getting him while she moved back to Busan.
Anyways, every time you saw Jungkook’s father at either company parties or dinners that Jungkook had to attend and took (dragged) you along.
You saw the insincere smile on his father’s face and the mirth behind his eyes.
“Hello Mr. Jeon, how come you’ve called?” You asked, nervously.
“I would like you to come to the Jeon Estate, there is something I wish to discuss with you.” He replied. You looked at the time on your phone and noticed you had class in an hour.
Knowing you didn't really have a choice, you knew you had to spare some time.
“Alright, I’ll be there in 20 minutes.” You told him as you got onto the bus, scanning your bus card.
He hung up the phone without any goodbye. You nervously chewed on your lip as you sat down on the chair in the bus.
You gazed out the window as you made your way to the Jeon Estate.
Why did he want to meet you? Does Jungkook know about it?
You wish you could call him but he's currently sleeping and you don't want to wake him up after the long day he’s had.
You fidgeted in your seat as the bus halted at your stop. Getting up with a breath, you made your way out and started to walk into the rich neighbourhood that held almost all the most important figures in Korea.
You’ve been here a few times, but each time you're in awe over how large and beautiful these houses are.
“I wonder how many packs of ramyeon I can buy with the amount of money they spend on these houses…” You mumbled to yourself.
You felt more nerves kick in the second you saw Jungkook’s childhood home come into view. There was a security guard outside in a booth at the gate.
You slowly made your way to the security guard with short steps. He gave you a small smile as you approached him.
“What can I help you with, Miss?” He asked.
“Uhh, my name is Kim Y/N and–”
He suddenly pressed the lock that buzzed open. You looked at him in surprise.
“He’s expecting you.”
He gave you a pity look before opening the door wide for you. This is definitely not good.
You felt your hand shaking as you raised it up to ring the doorbell. “Come on, Y/N” You pep talked.
Suddenly someone opened the door revealing Mrs. Cho. She was the one who took care of Jungkook when he was younger after his mother left. She basically became the mother figure for him while she was away.
“Mrs. Cho” You said warmly. She gave you a smile before leaning in for a hug.
You embraced the woman, her hand rubbing your back soothing your nerves.
“You should head upstairs to Mr. Jeon’s office” She said as she let you go. You nodded your head before making your way up.
Standing in front of the big oak doors, you had a strong feeling something was about to happen and you know it can't be any good.
Screw it, you thought.
Taking a deep breath, you knocked on the door. You silently waited for a few seconds before hearing Mr. Jeon granting you access to come in.
You made your way inside his office and stood at the front of his desk. You bowed down as a greeting before standing straight.
Jungkook’s father was clad in a white dress shirt and trousers. He was staring at you with a blank expression as he sat on his chair behind the desk, not saying a word. You fidgeted in place, uncomfortable with the silence.
“Uh–”
“Would you like some whiskey?” Jungkook’s father interrupts. He stands from his desk to walk towards the mini bar he has full of different alcohols on the other side of the room. You just watched him in confusion, not knowing what was going on.
He looks at you, expecting an answer.
You shook your head no, knowing you can’t have alcohol anymore. Luckily, you weren’t much of a drinker so it won’t be that big of a change. He shrugged and made his way back to his chair with a whiskey glass in hand.
He sat down and swirled the brown liquid in his cup. Taking a small sip, he pointed to the chair beside you, urging you to sit down.
You sink yourself down into the chair, feeling small under his scrutinizing gaze.
He put down his glass and looked straight at you. He gave you an unwithered glare. This was definitely not good.
“Let me cut to the chase.” He started. You looked at him, but you couldn’t keep eye contact for long. This man was just so intimidating and you know that he’s not your biggest fan. “I want you to break up with Jungkook.”
Pause. Pin drop.
What?
“I beg your pardon?” You asked, baffled.
Mr. Jeon only raised a brow at you before taking another sip of his whiskey. “What’s not to understand? I want you to break up with Jungkook.”
You felt your eyes burn. “Wh–Why?”
“Jungkook is about to begin his career as the CEO of the biggest food manufacturing branch in all of Korea.” He states. “He doesn’t need a distraction right now, and he definitely doesn’t need someone from your kind to be with him.”
What the fuck? A distraction? How the hell are you a distraction when you’ve not only been the most supportive person and the most encouraging. You don’t come from much, your father dying when you were 12 and your mother owning a bakery here in Seoul.
You don’t come from much, but you've had all the love and support you’ve needed growing up.
Much more than what this pathetic excuse for a father is. How the hell is Jungkook even related to this man?
Taking a deep breath, you furrow your brows at him. “And if I don’t listen?” You threatened.
He scoffed. “Trust me, if you don’t want your life or Jungkook’s to be a living hell. You will.”
Rolling your eyes you stand up. “I’m sorry but I love Jungkook too much to just give him off like that, and I know he would say the same thing.” You stated before turning around to leave. You didn’t bother bowing, he didn’t deserve your respect.
“Are you sure about that?” He questioned. Something about his tone of voice brought shivers down your spine. Glancing back at him, he had a smirk on his face before opening his drawer to take out a stack of papers.
He slammed it down on the desk only for you to find out that it’s not papers, it’s photos.
Photos of you from today, leaving the OBGYN.
You felt your eyes widen in fear. You look at the man startled.
He grinned at your panicked expression. You could see it all over your face. He knows you’re pregnant.
He leaned over his desk, placing his elbows on the wood. “If you know what’s good for you and for your child, you’d leave him.”
You felt your heart drop down to your stomach. He’s really threatening your children right now. Luckily he doesn't know you’re pregnant with twins, at least he doesn't know that much.
“Why are you doing this?” You question him, tears streaming down your face.
He rolls his eyes. “Does that matter? You said you love Jungkook–then leave. We don’t need this scandal to ruin our reputation.”
You hold the picture of yourself leaving the building with a bright smile on your face. The day you find out about your babies growing in your belly will also be the day you lose the person who means most to you in this world.
Sucking in a trembling breath, you look at him with dead eyes.
“Fine.”
You have to do this. For Jungkook. For you. But especially for your unborn children.
You’re currently sitting at another bus shelter. How long have you been here? You have no idea. You just left the Jeon Estate with a miserable heart and tears in your eyes as you slowly made your way to the nearest bus station.
You’re pretty sure you’ve been here for a long time. The sun is starting to set and you know you definitely missed all your afternoon classes.
You looked down at your hands and felt your chin tremble.
You don’t want to let him go.
The man you love with your whole heart.
But what other choice do you have? You need to protect your babies.
Taking all the courage you can muster, you digged out your phone from your trench coat pocket and went to the call log.
You scrolled down to pick on Jungkook’s contact and with shaky hands you pressed the dial.
You waited a few seconds. Hoping he won’t answer and you’d never have to do this. But luck wasn’t on your side, by the time it reached the last ring you heard the sweet melody of his voice booming through the phone speaker.
“Hey, baby” He says. You sucked in a breath at the sound of the familiar nickname. “I was just about to call you, I just got out of the shower.”
You were silent. You felt your chin tremble at the sound of his voice. The voice that lulled you to sleep with his beautiful singing. The voice that comforted you even in your darkest nights.
“Baby?”
“Huh? Yeah, that’s good.” You said, absentmindedly.
“What’s wrong?” He questions at the sound of your tone. You felt a sob bubble into your throat but you held it back. You need to do this.
“You know that I love you, right?”
“Huh? Yes, of course I do. I love you too. What’s up?”
More tears started streaming down your face. “I–”
“Y/N, what’s going on? Talk to me please?”
“I want to break up.”
SIlence. He went quiet on the other line and all you wanted to do was take back the words you said.
“You don’t mean that” He said with a broken voice. Of course I don’t mean that, I love you too much to do something like this.
“Why are you saying this? What’s wrong?”
“It’s just…I don’t see us working out anymore. You’re always busy, we barely make contact with each other and I get it’s because of the time difference but what happens when you actually start your real job, huh?”
You were spewing out nonsense. Jungkook was the type of guy who would do anything and everything to make you happy. He was so caring and considerate. It’s what made you love him that much.
“No no no, you don’t mean that. Please, baby. I’ll be better, I’ll do better. Please, just don’t leave me.” He pleads, his voice muffled with tears. You wanted to scream that you don’t mean it but you can’t.
There’s no use.
“I’m sorry, Jungkook” And you mean it, you’re sorry you can’t tell him. That you have to hurt him. That you love has been personified into two beautiful young souls.
You know he would make a great father. And the thought that he won’t know about it breaks your heart.
“Baby–”
“Make sure you eat well, you get good sleep and take good care of yourself. Hm?” You say. You can hear him calling out your name but you press the red button on the phone, ending the call.
You bury your face into your hands as you wail out. This is so hard.
Why does this have to happen?
You cried your heart out for god knows how long. But you know you can’t just stay there. So you got up once the next bus came and made your way onto it.
You had to go back to your college dorm but you can't go back there right now. You can’t go back to an empty room with your missing roommate who spends more time in her boyfriend's room than staying in her own dorm.
And knowing Jungkook, he’ll probably catch the next flight back here to try and get to you as soon as he can.
With that thought, you knew there was only one place left to go.
You got back to campus not long after and made a b line towards the other dormitory where your twin brother stayed.
Taehyung was Jungkook’s best friend. But you and Taehyung have always steered clear from interfering in each other's lives, so nobody, not even Jungkook knew you were twins. You guys wanted to have a life where the term twins didn’t follow you both around all the time. Even though you guys love each other to pieces, two halves of the same whole, you guys wanted to be your own person too.
Of course, being Jungkok’s girlfriend–or ex–you’ve hung out with his friends a bunch of times, including Taehyung. But ironically, even though you guys are twins, you don’t look that alike as long as people don’t study you like weirdos.
You walked up the stairs to the third floor, not bothering to wait for the elevator. You make his door and just as you’re about to knock it swings open to reveal your brother staring at you with wide eyes.
“Jesus christ” He sighs in relief. “I woke up from my nap because I got the most random urge to see you.”
You gave him a sad smile before walking into his embrace. Ever since you guys were younger, you both just knew when you needed the other. It was like intuition. You just knew.
Taehyung was slightly startled at your sudden hug but he brought his arms around you as ell. “Are you okay?” He asked, worriedly.
You shook your head before walking into his room. He closed the door and followed closely behind as you sat on his bed. He sat on the floor right in front of you as you silently fidgeted with your hands.
He sighed and got up to stop you from peeling the skin around your nails. A nervous tell you’ve always had.
“What’s wrong?”
You sighed out before looking at him with tears welling up in your eyes. “I broke up with Jungkook.”
Taken aback he sits down on the bed and wraps an arm around your shoulder. You place your head on his shoulder as you cry. “Why would you do that?”
“Jungkook’s father threatened me to break up with Jungkook.” You told him honestly. Startled, Taehyung looks at you to see if you’re fuckign around with him but with the way you look so empty. You are definitely telling the truth.
“Why the fuck would he do that?” He asked, angrily. He never liked Jungkook’s father, even when he met him this one time he was at Jungkook’s apartment with Jimin and had the most unpleasant encounter with the man.
“Because he said someone like me is a distraction to Jungkook.”
“Well that’s bullshit, you know that’s not true. Jungkook would never agree to that.” He said exasperated. “Come on, Y/N-ah, you can’t just give up on him that easily. Jungkook would never let you.”
You sighed. You know he wouldn’t, that’s what you’re afraid of.
“I thought you love him?” He asks you. You look at him with wide eyes and an angry scowl.
“You have no idea how much I love him, Taehyungie. But I have to do this.” You told him, sternly. Taehyung only shook his head.
“You have to tell him.”
“I can’t, his father already threatened to take away his career and ruin our lives, I can’t do that to him.”
Taehyung let out a sigh as he stared at you. “You know Jungkook would drop anything to stay with you. Why do you think I’ve been okay with you guys together this entire time? Jungkook isn’t like that.”
You nod your head. He has a point. Taehyung was actually very happy to hear that you guys were dating. Although its been four years, he was finally ready to tell him that you guys were twins but now…
“I can’t…”
You grab your bag and pull out the ultrasound pictures you got earlier. You nervously bit on your lip and handed it to Taehyung. His eyes widened in surprise.
“Are you–”
“His father threatened my babies…I can’t–”
He hushed you before bringing you back into his arms. He held you close as you buried your face into his shirt.
“That son of a bitch” Taehyung mumbled. “I’m gonna fucking kill him.”
You shook your head before breaking away. “What do I do?” You question. Taehyung looks at you with sympathy. He knows this must be hard for you. And knowing what you’ve gone through, this is probably the hardest thing you’ve ever had to do.
But now he understands. It’s not just for Jungkook. It’s for the children you’re holding.
“I have an idea” He told you.
You were sitting at the seaside a few days later. Your mom left to get you some food while you stayed and watched the water.
You were right. You stayed with Taehyung for the night and got multiple calls from Jungkook. You turned off your phone so you didn’t have to see that.
Taehyung told you that your roommate, Miyeon, told him that Jungkook came. Of course, you couldn’t see him. It’ll be too much for you to handle and you know you can’t get even more stressed than you already are.
Miyeon was the only person who knew you and Taehyung were twins. She knew the second she looked at your faces.
But she didn’t care and noticed that you guys barely talk about it, so she kept it to herself.
Luckily, Jungkook left because Miyeon said you didn’t come home last night. Taehyung grabbed the majority of your clothes and packed it into a bag. He drove you to your mother’s house and told her what happened.
Next thing you knew, you were on a flight to Jeju Island with your mother while Taehyung stayed behind to handle things from there.
You were on autopilot.
You didn’t realize what was going on. You were so heartbroken and sad that you just went along with what everyone said.
But you’re glad that they did this for you. You know you’ll start showing soon, especially with twins. You can’t hide that while you’re in school. So it looks like you’ll have to postpone that for now.
So now, you’re living with your mom and her sister who fortunately lives here.
You glanced down at your phone in your hands. You changed your number so Jungkook would stop calling you, but you just wish you could hear his voice. One last time.
But you knew you had to do this.
You looked out into the sea with a sad smile. This was your choice, so you’ll have to live with it. You have to be strong, for your kids.
“We’ll be okay. Eomma, will be fine.” You said as you rubbed your stomach.
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