Rae Speaks - Tumblr Posts
Rant, feel free to skip
Can't seem to put a read more on mobile so I'm sorry for throwing this in your faces -- Jesus Christ yknow it's rly rly fucked up going through, looking for advice on transitioning or just general things about trans life and then getting slapped in the face by the number of trans deaths that happen around the world. Almost all of the ones I saw were trans women, but God it's so fucking ridiculous that people can't just live their own lives without having to worry about being straight up murdered. Like thank god my mom is supportive enough that, even if she doesn't understand and may not always try to accommodate me when it comes to this new identity, she lets me go through and take these T injections and help me keep it a secret from my nosey AF grandmother before the injections rly start to show. I at least have her, because if I didn't have her I know I'd have no parental support, bc I'm like 99.9% sure that the moment my dad finds out he's gonna drop me and cut all ties. Not all trans individuals have support, and some of them are forced to leave their homes and go into potentially more dangerous environments and just... Just die. Christ. Never had I more identified with being trans than when I saw all those pink, white, and blue flags, posted alongside announcements of trans deaths. I looked at them and thought "that might be me one day if I'm not careful" and "I wonder if I could've become friends with this person if they hadn't been killed for being who they are" I'm just Ugh.
Commissions!
So I am SUPER strapped for cash. My current job only just barely pays enough for me to pay for my car loan, leaving my with six other expenses that I can't afford. I'm in the process of trying to pick up another job, but in the mean time I'm gonna try to do commissions to help pay for my prescriptions, doctor visits, and bills. What I'm wanting to say is, please, if you think you'd be interested in commissioning me, let me know. I'll try and make a commission sheet later today, but I'm just wanting to know if there's interest for this.
I hope you guys don't mind that I keep reblogging my commission thing I just Rly need money ;; I'm trying to get a second job but it's taking a lil while... So if you could just reblog it to help me get the word out, I'd be so grateful! To those who already have, thank you so much!
WOAH HOLD UP
I have 500 followers now!!! I'll have to draw something in celebration when I get off work! In the meantime, I'm open for celebration picture requests!!
So it took me awhile to think of what it was I wanted to do in celebration of getting 500+ followers, but I think I got it now! I'm gonna start up the Undershade ask blog again, beginning tomorrow! It's been a while since I last touched it, all cuz life loves to keep me busy. But yeah! I'm thinking that I'll mess around with it for the entire weekend! So reminder, it's called @ask-the-shades Art is old on that, but new drawings will appear if I get asks there!
Hey so.....
My phone got stolen. Commissions are needed even more now, if I can’t manage to get a replacement automatically...
Ugh got hit by a car today. Not hurt, neither the car nor my moped were damaged but Still was scary
Tagged by the wonderful @caelidra! 6 movies that I'll always watch (no particular order) 1. Mulan 2. The Goonies 3. Pitch Perfect 4. Ghost Busters 5. Jumper 6. Literally any naruto movie Imma tag @hoofbeast @determined-day-dreamer and @jessiedressesup !! Don't feel obligated tho luvs
Just thought I’d let y’all know, the next 2 pages of undershade are already up on my patreon!
Hey Friends
Sucks to say it but after today I'm gonna have absolutely no money. 0.00 will be all I see in my bank account. I'm currently sitting on a job-- or rather, I'm waiting for the drug tests to go through so they can call me for orientation. Thing is tho? I've been waiting for 3 weeks and I've still got nothing. I've tried contacting them about it a few times already but the right people to talk to are never around. Gonna try again today, but still. So I gotta ask you guys to please, please help me out. I'm on mobile so idk how to do fancy links but like COMMISSIONS http://betraeyal.tumblr.com/post/151260328037/please-help-me-move-out-im-in-desperate-need-of BUY ME A COFFEE https://ko-fi.com/A274FH MY PATREON https://www.patreon.com/betraeyal If you can't do any of these things I ask that you please at least spread it around. I have bills to pay in January and doctor's appointments and therapy and medications that I rly, RLY need. Not to mention my grandmother lost her job so now it's just my mom supporting the house, and she's struggling with that. Thanks for reading this, Rae
Hey guys, I wanted to say thank you to everyone that's reblogged my commission sheet or the textpost askin for assistance. I really, truly appreciate it! Since I posted the text post, I've actually made enough to cover the cost of my more important medications, which is a really big deal to me! AND I'd like to say that Home Depot, the place that was supposed to call me back, finally called me... after like a month! Orientation will be on Friday, so thank god for that. I'm still not out of the woods yet, but things are starting to look up. There's still a lot of things I need to save up for-- the most immediate being my bills (which amount to around 200 a month), and further ones being things like saving up to move out of this house, or top surgery-- but gosh is it a huge relief to know that things will get better. So yeah, thank you so much guys (*⁰▿⁰*)
Sob I'm annoyed that I won't have my next comic page up till almost midnight tonight. Even more so bc I thought I had today off but when I looked at my schedule yesterday it turns out that oops! It's Sunday I have off, not Saturday
huh, tbh i had thought when i minimized it, the game paused
Just thought i’d let y’all know what’s been going on in my life as of late, since i’ve been pretty silent for the past couple months.
Well, to start with I had become a full time employee at Home Depot, working the closing shift, which is the biggest reason I’ve been absent from tumblr. My drawing hours are late at night, but if I’m too tired at night because I just finished working 3:30 to midnight, I can’t exactly muster up a lot of energy to do more than a doodle in my sketchbook to meet my daily quota. But I’m making decent money, though I’m admittedly still struggling.
The REASON I’m struggling now is actually kind of a satisfying one, though. Guys, I’m living in my own apartment now. It hasn’t even been a month yet, but I’m super happy with the location and the complex itself. Could definitely do with a cheaper rent, but considering the part of town I’m in I’d be hard pressed to find much better.
Let’s see, what else…
Well, I’m sure y’all saw the dub of my undershade comic? If not here’s the link
It definitely inspired me to continue the comic again despite my lack of time, but before I could work on the next page I had to go back and fix the last one I drew—I hated the colors I’d chosen for The Ruins, so it’s better now! It’s still gonna be slow going, definitely not sure I can keep a weekly schedule, but we’ll see what happens.
I’m also gonna open up sketch commissions soon, since sketches I can at least do, and I’ll do that on a separate post, detailing more on my money woes, haha.
Last little thing is that I dyed my hair purple, which is why Lil’ Blu is purple here! Dunno if I’ll keep it but I think it’s a neat lil drawing haha!
y’all can safely expect an update this saturday for undershade! was able to buckle down and finish the next page ;W;
But in short? Yep, my fault. Parked in a reserved spot and thought I'd be able to move it before it got towed, but that didn't happen
Longer story tho is that my apartment complex is doing maintenance work on the asphalt so whole areas of parking are unavailable, making it impossible to find parking that isn't reserved. There IS parking at a stadium nearby, however I get off work at midnight and the last thing I wanted to do was park in a dark unlit area then walk alone to my apartment. I don't live in a sketchy area, however being that it's midnight I feel a little less safe just wandering around. That, combined with me just being exhausted in general made me think that parking in a reserved spot then moving it first thing in the morning would be a good idea. But my car got towed at 4 am so clearly I didn't move it soon enough, since I woke up at 6 to find it gone.
Is it your fault your truck got towed
Hi, I’d really like it if questions not pertaining to undershade were sent to my main blog @betraeyal since I don’t wanna clog this one up too muchI’ll answer on my main blog
Hey friends
Sorry for the long long period of silence! I’ve been pretty much completely exhausted from work. And now, summer classes are on top of that too— but I’ve been recently made part-time at my job so maybe I’ll have more energy.
I’ll have less money, that’s for sure lol!
(Expect a post about commissions from me at some point haha)
But with more time, I’m really hoping to start posting again. Fingers crossed! 🤞
Art trade?
So bc seeing Reagan super improves my mood I want to do an art trade w ppl where I’ll draw whatever for them (simple one character, flat colors) in exchange for a Reagan drawing
Any takers? :3