Reading This Book Just Makes Me Feel Very Specific Emotions - Tumblr Posts

currently reading The Stranger by Albert Camus and even though I know it‘s not the point of the book (I don‘t think lol, frankly I have no idea), I think I‘ve never read anything that captures the feeling of growing up neurodivergent in a neurotypical society as well. it’s not that I sympathise with the protagonist directly, but it’s what happens to them and the dichotomy of what goes on on the inside vs how the outside world perceives it and treats you as a person. like everything you are is constantly put on trial, things you thought of as normal are apparently a crime, the fact you’re not performing something everyone else seems to just do naturally is held against you, and everyone gets so fucking mad at you and yells at you and tells you that you did that or this because you are a horrible person- that the only explanation for your behaviour is intentional maliciousness. while you’re literally just trying to exist and not break down from sensory overload. and even when you explain to them what your actual thought process is they think you’re making it up because it‘s that ludicrous to them that anyone would think that way.