Rises The Moon - Tumblr Posts
on self love + care:
1. "I treat myself like I would my daughter. I brush her hair, wash her laundry, tuck her in goodnight. Most importantly, I feed her. I do not punish her. I do not berate her, leave tears staining her face. I do not leave her alone. I know she deserves more. I know I deserve more." (i know i deserve more, michelle k)
2. “Don’t forget to love her. The little girl you used to be. Perhaps She lies within you. Untucked. Sleeping peacefully.” (nurture, kiana llanos)
3. "These days I wake up crying
holding myself in my arms
rocking myself like a mother
repeating
it's all right- i'm here." (rocking, nuela archer)
4. "There’s a little girl in my head & she screams 'unloved! unloved! unloved!' every moment of my life (@star-eaters)
"There’s a woman in my head now & she holds the little girl and says “I will take care of you and we will be alright” when the little girl screams and together they are learning how to trust each other" (@antidecay)
it’s the smallest habits. how you spend your mornings. how you talk to yourself. what you read. what you watch. who you share your energy with. who has access to you. that will change your life.
things will change when you start to consider yourself as a person— a friend, a child, a stranger— and realize that you deserve comfort, care and love, too. you’re not the exception. practice talking to yourself, practice looking at yourself, practice thinking of yourself out of the frame you’ve been confining yourself to.
how you program your mind when you’re at a low point is so impactful. resorting back to toxic patterns when you’re low is only strengthening those neural pathways and programming your mind to make those unhealthy choices or think those unhealthy thoughts every time you’re not feeling well. alternatively, trying your hardest to cope in a healthier way every time you’re feeling bad will strengthen those positive neural pathways, and as time goes on, it will become easier to make healthy choices and say no to toxic patterns. this of course isn’t to say that you should feel guilty if you relapse, it is not by any means easy to reprogram your brain and sometimes we relapse and that’s okay, so long as we’re trying our best to treat ourselves better.
get in therapy. become conscious to your childhood traumas and wounds and heal them. we don’t know what we don’t know and until you prioritize your healing you will remain unconscious to your wounds and you will attract and choose partners that will rewound you.
your future self loves you. they will look through old photos of you with affection, not disgust, nor embarrassment. they wish they could tell you stories of your future, of how much you’ll change, of the people you’ll meet, of how you’ll eventually learn to accept yourself, then love yourself. they will read your diary entries and poems and favourite lyrics, heart aching, tears in their eyes. if only you knew...
your future self loves you. if only they could show you. they are living proof. you’ll turn out okay after all. they wish they were there to console you, dance with you, and make you write it a hundred times: “I AM LOVED”. they will listen to playlists you made, just to experience you again. they will write you a letter - of forgiveness, longing, reassurance. you will never read it. but you will know.
it’s true that growth doesn’t usually happen when you’re comfortable, but at the same time you have to understand that sometimes growing can also look like setting boundaries, knowing when to stop and not continuing to push yourself. there might be something inherently romantic about escaping your comfort zone and doing everything you’re afraid of, but that doesn’t mean that your entire life should be spent doing things that make you uncomfortable. know when to say no for the simple reason that the timing isn’t right, that you don’t see the benefit or that you just don’t want to do it.
“[…] there are no real endings, just as there are no real beginnings. There are just imaginary borders, signs, and marks that we put in place in order to structure our irrational existence in this random universe. We dress it up with meaning to cover its nakedness. They are bridges we build over the eternal river that flows, indifferent to us. This truth set me free and opened a new horizon for me.”
— Sinan Antoon, from The Book of Collateral Damage (Yale University Press, 2019)
“Start to cultivate self-discipline. Become a person who can make a decision and carry it out. Set yourself a task and follow through with it. It doesn’t have to be anything spectacular. I’ve advised people to just take a walk around the block every evening after dinner. Literally, just walk once around the block each night. Do that simple thing for one month and you’ll have power. Power you can use to take the next step. But no, most people think that’s too simple. That’s not worthy of their great spiritual potential. They want to get right into the heavy work and do something big. The result is that they end up doing nothing.”
— David Gold, After the Absolute: The Inner Teachings of Richard Rose (via zerogate)
This is where I post from☆
Storytime cuz it's 5am, can't sleep, and I want to gossip bout a blog who's name I will not be revealing (probably):3
Gadies and lentlemen pls tell me I'm not crazy for thinking this. But I sometimes get this feeling that some of y'all wake up with a stick up your ahh or smth *wink wink*. Cuz y'all are SOURRR for absolutely no reasooon. Anyways STORYTIME:3
I messaged a blog a couple of months ago asking if they'd like to be mutuals because I actually like making friends and connecting with ppl on here.
(omg😨😨 wow shocker i know )
And yk I'm waiting...and waiting....and waiting... for a reply as one does. I get a notification from miss girl like a week later or sum like okay you might be busy that's not THAT crazy yk.
BUT I've sent you a whole paragraph of praise telling you I think you're the coolest most wonderfully beautiful person in the world and I would do anything to be mutuals with you because you're a literal goddess and you reply "sorry no!".
Girl...count your days🩷
So I'm confused, conflicted, you could even say my mind was shook, my flabber was gasted, and I was surely not expecting THIS kind of asshole behaviour. Like omg girl you're so nonchalant baddie you slayed ate and puked it all up ☺️.
idk what to do atp, do I say smth even though this girl doesn't deserve my time (I'm writing a whole novel abt her rn as you can see so my morals are in a garbage truck rn getting dumped somewhere far far away) do I just leave her on read?
And yk what my dumbass decides? to reply obviously and ask her in the nicest way possible these two words:"why not?"
And yk the cycle is always continuous and so I wait...and I wait....and I wait and miss girl does not reply.Again omg girl you're so nonchalant baddie.
I check my phone every. day. ready to have the most heated argument ever. You know damn well I was coming up with comebacks, was coming up with names to call her ykyk was watching "how to doxx someone" on youtube. (Jkjk..unless🤨) Anyways you get the jist?gist?idk how it's spelled.. I was prepared.
xoxo gossip girl😘
Then one day I open our messages and it says "you can no longer message this account" the fucking chicken blocked me ☺️. Anyways bye or should I say:
Warning: I might get an insane cringe lingering up my nose when I read this tomorrow and might delete this so enjoy it while it lasts pookies
The vibe I bring to the function:
