Secret Life Pearl - Tumblr Posts

I love this.

The use of colors to create mood.

Cold dark colors to create a sense of loneliness and sadness contrasting with the bright variety of warm colors creating a happy, companion relief.

In the tower, there is no light. Nothing but cold stinging snow stained with blood as stimutation besides the numb emptiness of the dim environment.

In the mound, there is light. The room is lit with a warm lamp, eliminating the environment and showing the variety of warm colors and companions, happy and caring, filling the room with laughter and love.

The expression and body language of Pearl.

In the tower, Pearl is closed off, lonely, tucking into herself because that is the only thing she has to cling to, to trust for comfort. She sits in the snow because it bites and it stings, either to distract from numbness, sadness, loneliness, and/or guilt, or possibly to punish herself as a way to please the guilt that haunts her from her last mistakes and faults.

In the mound, Pearl is open, still noticeably tense but no longer closed and isolated. Her scars that bled in the tower are not hidden, open for the world to see; she will not be silent about her past battle nor will she be ashamed of it. She knows what happened and she won’t hide it away. She doesn’t bury her face in her arms, instead, she shows her smile, laughing with her friends and leaning onto Gem behind her. She has people now, friends she can trust, laugh with, talk to, and even find comfort in.

How deep this is; the meaning in the contrasting pictures.

In the tower, Pearl is alone. She is trapped in her isolation, no one to watch her cry and bleed into the bitter snow. She wraps her own wounds but seems to have given up at some point, letting her cuts and scratches drip blood down her skin and onto the cold stone ground of her empty tower. She doesn’t care that it’s so cold her breathe comes out in smoky plumes or that the snow will worsen her injuries; she sits the snow anyways, wallowing in her guilt and sadness because no one is there to comfort her or even care. She’s only been met with anger so why even try anymore.

Yet, in the mound, Pearl is surrounded by joyous, trusting, trustful friends. She is not alone; she has dozens by her side, there to help if she ever needs it. Her life has changed and she’s grown with it, opening herself up to those her love her and showing her true self, not having to hide away her feelings or trauma.

She used to be in her worst state, truly alone and dead; though, somehow, through all of that horror and ache just to survive, hurting herself as a way to escape from the cruel world she was forced into, she was the last to die. But now, after years of recovery, healing, acceptance, and learning, she’s found a better life; one filled with love and joy, warm and open. She no longer has to tense her muscles and growl through her teeth just the survive. She can live, she can thrive, not having to run on fumes and the sting of pain to stay functioning.

Pearl has learned to be open, to be herself, to love and care for herself.

As someone who has gone from have multiple panic attacks per day and not daring to tell anyone about my struggle out of shame and fear of failure and miscommunication, I can relate to this artwork. After years of barely making through each day, I’ve finally healed enough to feel that I can live, enjoying everyday knowing that I won’t make it my last. The feeling to recognizing her progress, how you’ve changed and developed from her past self, and realizing how much better you are living is so incredible.

In other terms, I love this duo piece; it really tells a story and helps create a feeling by showing the contrast between the past and the present after years of healing.

Incredible use of colors, detail, and expression! have a good day! :3

something something she left the tower

been thinking about traffic pearl too much

this was done fast because i have school work to do, so thats why its messy

SO, that finale. Ive been having too many thoughts about life series pearl. not even just secret life BUT OMG MOUNDERS RAHHH(below cut)

pearl is loyal. i dont know how else to say it, she would do anything for her team and she would do anything to keep them together. she would sacrifice herself for her team.

and if she cant help them, shes failed them.

those were her exact words after bdubs and joel died, that she had failed them. amd then she immediately went to help scar because she needs to help SOMEONE and have some sort of friend, otherwise she has failed and she has no purpose, no reason to be there in the first place if she cant help her friends and make them happy or be useful in any way.

last session, it was hinted that bdubs could have been teaming with martyn behind the mounders' backs, and pearl was MAD. but it wasn't really anger, it was panic because she couldnt have the mounders fall apart, otherwise she would have lost her purpose in the series. she had to be there for her friends and make them happy, and if there were no more friends what could she do?

it makes her story in double life that much more tragic, because she and scott were so close in last life before.

and then, she got lost in her own world and failed him by not finding her soulmate in session 1, and couldnt help him, so she was alone and had no purpose because she had failed him. and now she had nothing. it makes sense she would go a bit insane.

she tried to be friends with box boys, but she failed them too. she killed them.

and finally, at the end, scott forgives her and dies for her, as if she never failed him. she wins, but is it really a victory if she lost all her friends? what does she even have left? why did she have a right to be there?

and now back to secret life--she NEEDED one of her friends to win. she helped scar win. she's satisfied.