Seperation - Tumblr Posts

We have never known unity without tragedy.

It was only in death we would be separated.

Myself and I

I am sorry my love

How we cannot be together

Bound as we are

By these verses we have born.

Divided ever

By the width of this mirror.

How my heart would bleed

Were it allowed to cross on over

And there with you entwine again.

What pain I would not endure

Could it but grant me audience with thee.

My darling

My one true love

That all that I could ever long for,

You are everything

The utmost of my need and want.

But for a little while longer must we be parted

Till these eyes close

And there be found

Together

My love and hope.

- Myself and I

Doom scrolling, social media and screen addiction got worse after getting rid of the Axel from my head. Even if I told myself every day he is not real , and not believe tulpas are living beings, and head mates are not from the same kind. I still did. A holdover from highschool thinking I was talking to spirits. Part of me thinks maybe I was better off. There is nobody there, there was never anyone there, there will never be anyone there. I even felt physically different that moment. And I still feel like something is missing

Mountains May Depart (Jia Zhangke, 2015)