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Tbh in the d day movie there was a real moment of healing watching this guy fully embody and express things that I've been afraid to admit to myself about loneliness and self hate and suicidal ideation -- that are so associated with these memories of loss and isolation, of shutting myself away and losing months and years to this darkness, like there are these empty holes in my past where there's nothing but loneliness and loss and I'll never get it back. And he's not just singing the words, he's taking those smoldering, suffocating feelings of shame and regret and anger and churning them into a fireball, making it all finally explode. And then seeing the whole crowd go insane because they all feel it too, they're all on fire for this too, they've all hurt in the same way and are afraid and ashamed in the same way -- and in that moment of connection with complete strangers across a screen all those memories laced with fear and shame are suddenly alive with hope. And it's like being given back a piece of your past. And you think, fuck, he was right. The future's gonna be okay.