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In truth, I know how unofficial we were, But all the same, For me you were my all And I treated you as my one true love. Now I am fighting through the worst pain I have ever felt And I am supposed to hide it behind a smile. I can't tell you how bad this is, Or share with you how deeply the wound goes. I cannot look you in the eye And then describe this pain in my chest. Letting go of you Is the hardest thing i have ever had to do, With the weight of it ripping me apart. I am holding myself together But I am slipping through my own fingers. Please forgive me if I hurt you, Forgive me when I cannot smile. I am holding on by a thread Praying to God again that I don't let go. Calling on heaven that I do what's right, I know that I will sacrifice my heart Just to see you smile. Even if it means letting you go. Can't help but find myself rooting for you In this love that you have found. It breaks me to admit it And steals what hope I had left. I am down and out. I cannot fight any more. My Heart. My Love. My Unique Joy. I wish you believed me when I said I loved you. I wish you'd believe me when I say I hope you make it. I'm sorry I can't go with you, As the friend you need me to be. With too much love, Andrew