Struggling Student - Tumblr Posts

me: has an important presentation in the morning and has to get up at 6:30am

my brain at 1am: is wide awake and thinks up ways to deliver the presentation differently from what I had prepared

29|12|19 40/100 days of productivity

Didn't get much finals prep done today, because I did some errands to take care of like submitting my application for a different major, choosing subjects for the next semester and choosing the topic for my final oral presentation in literature. Let's say it didn't go as smoothly as I had thought it would and I just got really stressed about it.

So I did some smaller tasks like proofreading my essay one last time and finally handing it in and trying a sample test for English. Now I'm a little calmer and could do some reading for Intro to information science :')

Yeah, these days I seem to immediately deflate whenever I have any passing thought of the future :( How is everyone else's year ending?

9|1|20 I have my first two college finals tomorrow. I feel fairly prepared for one of them and terribly not prepared for the other. It seems that everyone in my course has similar sentiments, because our prof didn't really communicate what sort of things might be in the exam.

Anyway, wish me luck :') I'm calmed by the fact that I can retake it two more times if I need to and that I don't have to worry about grades, since I won't be pursuing this field any further next school year.

27. 2. 2020 Visited the school library for the first time this semester

We interrupt this successful start to the spring semester for nearly a week of completely unnecessary panic and depression 😐 But I think it's better now and I'm slowly getting back on track 🙂 And to be fair not that much has happened in school, it's only been the first week.

12. 3. 2020 Sorry for not posting...

...my life was kind of a mess to begin with and then schools in my country (among other institutions) got closed down as a preventive measure against the coronavirus. At first I thought: oh, no problem, we'll just get materials and presentations from our professors and we'll do it at home at our own pace. No stress, wash my hands and not leave the house if I don't have to. And then most of my professors got the idea that we would have lectures and tests via the internet, which is my ultimate nightmare, and my parents and classmates started panicking about the current events.

And so then there's my already anxious prone to panick attacks ass in the middle of it like: 'great, I live in hell now.'

I'll be sure to come back at you with some motivational positive energy as soon as I have any 😅

27. 3. 2020 - Has life been serving too much depresso to anyone else? I've done literally nothing since my last post but today I've been summoned from the dead to do an assignment that's due by midnight. I've never before even handed something in the day off (always a few days in advance) let alone less than an hour before the 'homework vault' closes :( But it's still on time so I should be happy about that!

2. 4. 2020 - "I should start charging people money to ask me if I'm okay."

Anyone else a complete mess while having to stay indoors? My sister is going through a beautiful journey of selfcare and selfdiscovery and then I'm in the next room underneath my table going through depression 🙃

Hello :) Haven’t posted for a week again, but I had an assignment to create some sort of infographic and it turned out pretty good. I used Canva and am hoping it’s okay to share my creation like this, since it’s not commercial :D

14. 4. 2020 - After procrastinating heavily for seven weeks I guess I am not in a place to be questioning the time when I get a sudden urge to be productive 😅 Promise to not make it a thing ✌ Goodnight everyone~

22. 4. 2020 - I'm an idiot sandwich

I blinked and now the semester is mostly passed and I didn't have one whole unit done for any of my subjects. 🙃 It's so difficult to get myself to do it, since most of it won't count once I change majors, but I guess now is about time to wake up. 😅

12. 5. 2020 - I haven't posted anything in a while, because I haven't really done anything in a while 😅 Any other students out there that just completely lost any sort of routine. ~We're all in this together 🎶

Thankfully my uni will have an extended finals period from June to September, so I'll be taking my exams as I finish things.

If anyone out there is following me on this 'changing my major journey', the entrance exams got pushed back to late June, which is a bummer but I understand ✌

8. 6. 2020 - I actually did a thing! 🥰

So my information science final is next week and I looked at all of our lecture material and took notes only today. Did anyone else spend the entirety of quarantine just mentally and physically wasting away?

Better late than never but knowing me I will still feel bad about it untill the end of time.

6. 8. 2020 - Took an involuntary break from my studying, because I had some stress registering classes and my brain went ~bloop after that for a couple of days :D But now I'm sort of back with newfound excitement, so I guess taking the break instead of forcing it was worth it :)

28. 8. 2020 - I know I'm not the best at always posting; it's because I often don't have anything to post.

Anyway, the past two days I finally kicked myself to study for my philosophy final. I worked really hard on it and got a full score on my exam, but now I'm really tired :). I hope I can get better at not leaving things for the last minute because I don't think it's physically and mentally good for me in the long run.

Mom took me to see Bring The Soul in the evening afterwards. I didn't even know they were screening at our local theatre!

I'd made an IG account just because none of my friends use tumblr, but they want to stalk my posts :D. So if you prefer Instagram, you can follow me @mymediocrestudyblr; I'll be posting pretty much the same things...

POV: You stayed up past midnight to finish Hamlet for your Literary Studies course and English is not your first language.

source: https://shakespeare.folger.edu/shakespeares-works/hamlet/act-5-scene-1/ 

2. 11. 2020 - Good morning, everyone. How are you doing? I'm watching my livestreamed lecture from my bed, because 😑 Probably will sleep some more once it's over 😅