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ɪ ᴡᴀꜱ ʜᴇʟᴘɪɴɢ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴄᴏꜱᴛᴜᴍᴇꜱ ᴀᴛ ᴍʏ ʟᴏᴄᴀʟ ᴛʜᴇᴀᴛʀᴇ ᴡʜᴇɴ ɪ ᴇxᴘᴇʀɪᴇɴᴄᴇᴅ ʙᴇɪɴɢ ᴘᴇʀᴄᴇɪᴠᴇᴅ. ɪ ᴡᴀꜱ ᴛᴀʟᴋɪɴɢ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴀ ɢᴜʏ ɪɴ ᴄʜᴀʀɢᴇ ᴏꜰ ᴛʜᴇ ᴘʀᴏᴘꜱ ꜰᴏʀ ᴀɴ ᴜᴘᴄᴏᴍɪɴɢ ꜱʜᴏᴡ ᴡʜᴇɴ ʜᴇ ᴘᴏɪɴᴛᴇᴅ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɪ ɢʀᴇᴡ ᴜᴘ ᴄᴀᴛʜᴏʟɪᴄ.
ɴᴏᴡ, ᴛʜɪꜱ ᴡᴀꜱɴ'ᴛ ꜰᴏʀʙɪᴅᴅᴇɴ ᴋɴᴏᴡʟᴇᴅɢᴇ. ɪ ᴍᴀᴋᴇ ᴊᴏᴋᴇꜱ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ɪᴛ ᴀʟʟ ᴛʜᴇ ᴛɪᴍᴇ, ʙᴜᴛ ɪ ɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ᴍᴇɴᴛɪᴏɴᴇᴅ ɪᴛ ɪɴ ꜰʀᴏɴᴛ ᴏꜰ ᴛʜɪꜱ ᴍᴀɴ ᴏɴᴄᴇ. ᴀ ʟᴀᴅʏ ᴡʜᴏ ᴡᴀꜱ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴜꜱ ꜱᴛᴀʀᴛᴇᴅ ʟᴀᴜɢʜɪɴɢ ʙᴇᴄᴀᴜꜱᴇ ᴏꜰ ʜᴏᴡ ᴡɪᴅᴇ ᴍʏ ᴇʏᴇꜱ ɢᴏᴛ. ɪ ᴀꜱᴋᴇᴅ ʜᴏᴡ ʜᴇ ᴋɴᴇᴡ ᴛʜᴀᴛ. ʜᴇ ꜱᴀɪᴅ ʜᴇ ꜱᴀᴡ ʜᴏᴡ ɪ ᴅɪᴅ ᴛʜᴇ ꜱɪɢɴ ᴏꜰ ᴛʜᴇ ᴄʀᴏꜱꜱ ᴀꜰᴛᴇʀ ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴏɴᴇ ᴇɴᴅᴇᴅ ᴘʀᴀʏᴇʀ.
ɪ ᴘʀᴏʙᴀʙʟʏ ꜱʜᴏᴜʟᴅ ʙᴇ ᴄʀᴇᴇᴘᴇᴅ ᴏᴜᴛ ʙᴜᴛ ɪ ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ʀᴇᴍᴇᴍʙᴇʀ ᴛʜᴇ ʟᴀꜱᴛ ᴛɪᴍᴇ ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴏɴᴇ ᴘᴀɪᴅ ᴀᴛᴛᴇɴᴛɪᴏɴ ᴛᴏ ᴅᴇᴛᴀɪʟꜱ ᴏꜰ ᴍᴇ. ɪ ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ʀᴇᴍᴇᴍʙᴇʀ ᴀ ᴛɪᴍᴇ ᴡʜᴇɴ ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴏɴᴇ ᴀᴄᴛᴜᴀʟʟʏ ᴋɴᴇᴡ ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴍᴇ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɪ ʜᴀᴅɴ'ᴛ ꜱᴘᴇᴄɪꜰɪᴄᴀʟʟʏ ᴀɴɴᴏᴜɴᴄᴇᴅ. ʟɪᴋᴇ, ꜱᴏᴍᴇᴏɴᴇ ɴᴏᴛɪᴄɪɴɢ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ꜱᴏᴄᴋꜱ ʏᴏᴜ ᴡᴇᴀʀ.
ɪꜰ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ ʟᴏᴠᴇᴅ ɪꜱ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ ᴘᴇʀᴄᴇɪᴠᴇᴅ ᴛʜᴇɴ ɪ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ꜰᴇʟᴛ ɪᴛꜱ ᴘᴀꜱꜱɪɴɢ ɢʀᴀᴢᴇ.
most days are fleetings and we all are busy trying to make a sense of our being but sometimes you see a thing and linger around the feeling, like seeing a puppy jump out of happiness at the sight of a person and seeing the person be equally gleeful, listening to your friend talk about wanting something and then trying to find it in every place possible, seeing your mother cook your favourite things when your back home from uni because you wouldn't have gotten to eat all of that while living alone, your loved ones mentioned something they really liked and now you find yourself bringing it back to whenever you find it, and so many more little things, so what I am trying to say is that somedays you see things and you realise that the urge to do things for the people you love, to go out of your way to bring stars for them has gotta be one of the purest forms of driving force there must have existed all this while and I am aware of the other side of the spectrum, of the vile nature of hate driving people to the heinous ways of life, to war and genocide..and it would be naive to think of a superhero fight with justice prevailing but to hope and to see and to feel this love shaping our acts is something so profound. I will always live by the fact that love isn't always found in the big boxes, it can be found in the small lunch boxes you get to take to school or work, in the smiles and checking ons, in holding the doors open, in finding you wherever I go because everything reminds me of you and I look for you in everything I see and I see things that you love and I love them too.
and maybe i am a little bit in love with all of my friends. how could i not be when they place their whole heart in my hands and trust me to carry it safely home? lazy days spent in comfortable silence, tearful nights spent giving each other a reason to live. the exhilaration of learning your little quirks melting into a future where i know you better than the lines on my open palms. mutual understanding to be forever gentle with one another. inside jokes that follow me long after you've gone, reminding me to slow down and laugh a little more. your eyes are the lens through which i can see the world with love. your embrace is the shelter under which i find strength to continue on.
Every time I have tea in the morning After I've put my makeup on, I leave a little stain on the edge of my cup.
And I wonder whether this is something some will notice, If they knew me enough?