Trans Rambles - Tumblr Posts

Been feeling insanely dysphoric and awful since i left home & it’s making me just fall back into the “i’ll just be ‘girly’ bcuz the people around me view me as that and i get weird looks when i dont” mindset, which has pushed me yet again into the “maybe i should just quit trying to be me, it’s easier to just give up” mindset…

Which in turn is makinf me feel even more awful but also making me feel like maybe im lying to myself about being trans (im not, ive been doing this shit on a loop every few months since i was 14) GODDDDD

Anyone else been kind of socially detransitioning recently? Ive been out since 14 but im so tired and so scared and i just cant keep fighting for who i am anymore. I’ll never really be happy as a girl and i know that but i cannot keep fighting to exist anymore it just hurts because i know either way i wont be happy