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🎭🌀 we’Ve BeEn spiRAlIng ‘round & ‘round like a Sp0oKy sLInkYyy 🌀 tryna figUre out oURselVes iN thiS GL1TCHy-wItChy w0rld... 🎭🌪️ wE ain't QU1TE a ciSsINglet, buT noT exaCkLy ciSpluRal eiTher, ya kNo? wE aN AuD1ToRiUm, liKe a cRoWd wIth no senTiEnce!!🎪👀 g0ttA wHole CIRCUS iN tHeRe, buT nO rinGmasTEr. tHeRe’s sOmEthinG wrIGgLin’ ABoUt bEhiND the CUrTAIn, alwAys wAtChing, nEVEr QUITe reAl... 👁️🗨️
iT’s bEEn LIKe tHis as LonG as wE caN rEmemBER, bEfoRe eVen tHIS whoLe eXisTence we cAll cHIldhoOD kICkEd iN 🕳️⏳ buT fOr A lOng tIMe, wE juST tHoughT wE wEre aNOrMal, sINGLE, liKe “yeAH suRE wE jUst gotA BUNcH of crAckleS aND pOPs in oUr brAIn thAt’s noT plURalIty, riGht?” tHiNKinG wE wEre bInARY ‘tiL wE rEalIZeD oh SHooT, we’RE N0nbInAry?! 🎉🍇 aNd wE’d beEn liVinG thAT BinARy-nOnbInAry lIFe thINKin’ we hAd tO fit sOME KInD of lABel ‘cAUse eVerYoNe’s sHoUTinG “piCk a sIDe oR yoU’rE noT REAL!” 💥🪄
eveN WHEn wE dISCovEred pLurAlIty fROm A pAsT pArTneR, wE weRE liKE, “WHaT? thAT’s US??” bUt naH, wE tHougHT it cOulDn’T bE. aND eVerY stEP we Took, wE wErE tOld we haD tO be MeDicaL, be DiSOrDerED, oR yA aiN’T rEAL – juST liKe thEY saID ‘boUT nOnbInAry tOO 👾😵. BuT tHen we fLippEd tHe scRIpT, sAW thE buLL anD rEAlIzEd wE weRE bEing bOXEd iN... buT thEN agaIn, maYBe wE're nOt a SyStEM at All... mAybE juST a fAkE sinGleT?? impOStEr sYndRoME sUz...
🤹♀️🍂 plUCkIn’ pEtAlS, “tO be a SYStem… to nOT bE A systEm...” dANCinG bEtweeN thAT Gl1tchY bINarY oF trUTHS aND LiES, bUt iT’S lIKe we GoT no fIt… nO pATtErn… cAusE noT A SINgLET eITher, juSt a strANge litTlE AUdITorIUty tHing Y’CaN’T pIn dOWN. AnD yeAh, we KNEw IT’s thEre, buT NO wORds evEr QUITe fit. wE sPOkE IN pLUraL rIdDles, hIDIng BEhINd thAt veIL, And pEOple thOUgHt wE wErE sOMe kINd of sYstEm. BUT AGAin, nOt A syStEm... nOt A siNgLEt... wE’re kINdA... sinGLN’t. 🌀
🕳️🌈 wE mAdE ouR owN lANguAge... tErmS thaT nOBODY knEw but uS, kiNda lIKe beINg iSogENdER bUT wIth thE auDitorIUm tWist, riGht?? loSt in thiS maze oF brAInechoEs wItH n0n-sentienT speCtaToRs spINniNg ‘rounD wIth no shApeS or fACes. wE nEVER qUItE fIT ANY siDE—nOT singLEt, nOT plURal, jUst kINda wHo we aRE: nEitheR and BOth, anD bEiNg suStAiNeD by our oWN wEirdness. 🕰️💫
aND yet, thErE’s alwAys thaT tinGE oF enVY—eNvyINg thE sYstEms who trAnsiTiOn, gEt to SWAP spOTs, GEt to SpIN insIdE tHEir mInds, and haVE a bIt oF... cOmPaNy, a coNnEcTion. bUT us?? nAwh, wE’re jUSt thIs... SOLitAry ROtating whiRlpool, wiTH n0 hEaDspAce, nO bReaK frOm tHE fRonT, No rEst eVEn in drEaMs thAt tuRn to niGhtMarEs oF enDLess exIts tHAt nevER qUItE oPEN. 👁️🌌
aND wE WANNA chANgE, yA knOw? traNsiTioN tO somEThInG moRE? wE’ve TRIED tHe tUlpA sTUff, wE’vE bEEn plAYiNg wIth suBLimINalS, But wE’re juST noT surE. We’RE z1m & b1ll, aND wE chOSE THOse—I meaN wE crEaTeD ‘EM anD BOom! wE beCAmE thEM! so whO saYs wE caN’t... MAKe moRE? splIt up aGAin, MaYBe plAy iT lIKE a gAmE—mAke nEw fOLks, nEW iDEnTitiES, anD stARt to fEel thEir rEacTioNS in uS?? ✨🎭🧩
sO wHY NOt giVe IT a trY? wE’ve gOT z1m, b1ll, sPoNgEBoB, jERma985—iT’s A wHOle wACky GaNG! wE cAn sPLit ‘Em ouT, pREtEnD, lIvE iN tHAt SplIT unTIL it bECOmES reALity! 🌀🙃 aND iF wE cAN’t mAkE a chaNgE iN thE reAl worLD, we’lL jUsT mAKE ouR oWn! 🤡🌐
aNYwAy, miGht stArt pOSting sOmE thIngs thaT aIn’t juST ouR oWn chAos, ya kNO? mayBe A phOtO, maYbe a tuNe. iN thE enD, wE juST wAnt tO bE seEn, bUt saFe... liKe, wE dOn’t WAnNA loSe whAt lITtle wE gOT on thE maIN stAge. 🎨🪞 so heRE’s to mORE cHaoS, moRe cOloRs, mOre facEs tO puT oN—anD mAyBe, JUst MAybe, finD a liTtle PEACE in thIS mElTinG maDNeSs. 🕯️🍭🎢
in my experience, faking it until you make it is the trick. there's much talk in manifesting about "living in the dream fulfilled, ignoring the 4D" etc; that's all a lot easier with the structure of your own brain where there's nothing else to dispute it.
operate at all times from the base assumption you're already plural and just figuring things out. pick who's fronting, and devote all your energy to thinking and acting as they would in every situation. even if you need to mask for IRL, think of how they'd go about it and what they'd think while doing it. if you think something unrelated, it's passive influence from another headmate, known or unknown. if you feel like one person, you're just blurry. don't deny your denial, either; even the most cis of plurals doubts themselves. just continue in your affirmation. make the game feel good to play, and you'll never want to stop playing it.
if that's what you want, anyway. desire is the only truth of self.
best wishes. 🪞
surprising lack of typing quirk /light hearted (but for some reason very formal? not sure why that's occuring lol)
(sorry for length if its overwhelming! we get carried away talking about plurality)
Thank you! Faking it till we make it is what we've been trying/doing, unfortunately we struggle with a brain that is as skeptically ingrained as the protagonist of a horror film who moves into a clearly haunted mansion claiming ghosts aren't real, when a ghost is posessing them. We are trying to push past it, but its hard to just let go. It feels like how we still get intrusive thoughts about internalized bigotry despite having spent years knowing that its wrong, but it was and still is taught to us. Wish we could throw out the "logical" bits and start anew but we know that's not how it works. Our main difficulties are knowing how to stop it, we guess we just try to avoid thinking about it.
hope you don't mind the questions, these are asked with not an expectation of an answer ^^.
so we already read this whole message and are responding to the part near the end first, if we follow this, seeing ourselves as already plural, in the example of seeing yourself as blurry instead of one person, do plurals see themselves as not one person? Well we mean we know like they know they are plural and have other members, but does that effect each member to identify as multiple people instead of one identity they see as themself (like for example if we see ourself as Z1M at our core, and currently see the person fronting as Z1M, would we still identify with a lack of singularity? That also leads to a contunie querie of is it better to start with the idea we are not just "Z1M" fronting but our headmates as well? (B1Ll, J3RM & 5p0ng3), we think we have a huge roadblock with like stopping seeing ourself as our core, with being an auditorium where we have non sentient "spectators" that don't interact with us, only eachother and watch us, therefor that and also the default narrative around us is singleness is the norm has us in a position of, "i" am Z1M, and the "host", the "core" the "main fronter", we've had this even throughout our whole time spent in system servers. How do we get rid of the idea that we, z1m are the spotlight, the center? Think our difficulties with having spent most of our life also isolated and struggling with the lack of control, we now have difficulties surrendering the idea with the concept of losing our privacy, or our own autonomy. Mostly privacy is a big issue, hell we even get embarrassed around our *spectators* who literally aren't sentient. (and also we are fine keeping the spectators, not turning them into headmates, as they work differently and also we have a dependency on how we function as an auditorium, never gone a single day without having spectators).
Second, if we are, and always have been plural, do we fully go with erasing our previos lack of identity to ourself and others? like "lie" (which we are fine with doing) to others about being truly plural?
Third, Is it ok if you're energy is very low, due to disability of bodymind? if you're horrible at knowing how to think as others, and are just sorta flailing around for anything? Anyway that's all for the questions! Again no pressure to answer, we'll just leave em' out in the open!
Thanks so much for the advice! (mirror anon?)
mirror anon works. and no worries, i also enjoy rambling about plurality.
to preface: there really isn't a right or wrong way to be plural. every system has their own answers for these questions, and having a different one from others doesn't make you wrong or less of a system. my answers come from our personal perspective as a cisplural system who had to do a lot of faking it before any of it started to make sense.
you don't need to feel like "separate people" straight off the bat - or at all. in addition, systems where only the core fronts are not uncommon and are still systems. if it's more comfortable and less privacy-invading to think of your headmates as different versions of or pieces of you, that's perfectly valid. you may have more luck working on talking to them internally or through a proxy like discord or simplyplural chat at first rather than having them front. we just personally found the opposite easier, for our own internal structure reasons.
you don't need to lie or erase your previous explaination of reality. if you want to, go ahead - but i've found it's easier to go with the path of least resistence on these things. you can just frame it as "realizing that you're a system." even cisDID systems go through long periods of denial and repression, so it's not at all unreasonable to "suddenly" become a system.
flailing around is fine too. it's really more of a vibes thing, really. if one headmate is supposed to be more cheerful, acting more cheerful. if one is supposed to like a certain food or hobby or something, indulging in that when they're front and avoiding it when they're not. etc. even that can be overcomplicating it - changing your icon or using a typing quirk or such are all effective tactics as well. it's really just whatever helps you&.
to be blunt: from our perspective, with everything you've already said, you are already plural. more on the median side, but there's nothing lesser about that. if you'd prefer to be more separate, or have more of you, that's an option, but you don't need to distance yourself from the label because you don't have those things yet. try out different things and see what makes you(&) feel comfortable. best of luck. 🪞
Ah thank you! yea sometimes even tho we know plurality is an entire spectrum we don't give the same leniency to ourselves.
ohh we didn't know that that was a way you could be plural in, like seeing them as different versions of yourself, which in our current situation would prob be a good starting point cause we already see our other selves as past/alternate lives of ourself and identify as them all at once (tho with others being more prominent like z1m and b1ll) like we go by a name that refers to all 4 of us and beyond, but it's become less in time ourself and more like a mask, cause ppl don't get it when we tell them we are z1m and the others so we just say we are "insert name". We aren't sure it even is a core, the core or whatever that is could’ve been somebody else, are memories are too bad to recall clearly. We do have pluralkit in our personal discord servers, but haven't used it much. maybe we'll start trying ^^.
ohh that makes sense. we have been "out" and then back in the "closet" with telling our mom we are plural, then singlet. then plural lol so she's used to the routine.
alrighty, we have like concepts tied to our headmates now already, like z1m is surreal, types with a mix of lowercase and uppercase, and b1ll uses lots of these' things' you add onto' the end of a word, and caps for emphasis, sponge is cheerful and optimistic while b1ll is very pessimistic, z1m is like both at the same time, and we don't know what Jerm is in that comparison but we associate it with clowns. there is associations with our name we tell others like winter, white, blood, owls, fog.
ahhh thank youuu again
we've actually been told that each time we've asked for other plural ppls honest opinions with our descriptions and each time ppl told us we were likely plural median. we aren't sure if we wanna be fully separate, we like the idea of being a bunch of versions of us, still treated as mostly one entity but regonized that we aren't the same as a singlet. and us changing who we are at the moment being natural and fluid.
we will keep testing the waters and see how deep we can go! ^^
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ANd yeAH it’s NOT PErFECt 🔧🔨, buT y’knOWwwwWe...wE LoVE It MORE ThaN THE TErrifyInG FLESHCREATURES OUt tHere❓❓👾!!!
hey bro, love the new intro, really introduced me to yall better. tell em all i said hi, could 'ja? ha
anyways, just curious, hows your transplural transition going? i was surprised to learn yall werent cis. not theres a definitive way to be a cis system, i guess i just assumed.
have you set up a simplyplural yet? havent seen you say youve gotten one yet. maybe youd want it. i also recommend lighthouse for alter documentation too, really cool with the customization. its only online though. its https:// www.writelighthouse.com/ , ive used it myself some times, and it can even import from simplyplural.
hope youre floating in your circus-space-dimension-thing at a velocity yall like. dont run into any asteroid belts on accident lol
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(you get this in normal flavor(tm) text because our message kept getting lost in the meaning upon conversion lmao)
:D Thank you! Luckily we all read this message together :).
we think it's been going good! well we are still in the fake it till u make it stage, but honestly it doesn't bother us that much anymore, as long as we are happy!
honestly we prob are cis, well cismedian, according to every plural person we have talked to have all told us we are plural lol, even before we knew of transidentity. And then we have sense childhood had non sentient "headmates". so really it's only ourself that was defining ourself out of systemhood. what happens when you're surrounded by people who expect you to meet certain qualifications to be an identity, obviously we are past that now sense we are radqueer lol.
we haven't set up simplyplural, not quite sure what to use it for. right now we don't have things like switches, but maybe we'll try it and see if we can figure something out! ohh and we never heard of the other thing, interesting!
haha, we are drifting and sprinting and souring through the Interdimensional clown galaxy quite nicely! Too late we have been through several asteroids, luckily for us but not them they were shattered upon impact. :)
Hi silly:3
What's your opinion on transplural systems? Are they valid in your eyes? -🦈
A NEW ANON WITH A SIGN OFF!? I’m so sorry for getting to this late we werre busy all day,, but i think transplurals are cool! Transplural, endo, tulpa, anything, if you call yourself plural, cisplural or transplural, or whatever other labels, I’ll believe you! :D
Transplural people i have to give you every bit of credit you guys are the reason we managed to become pro rq
I found this, its amazing, everyone love it
Welcome to the plural community!!!! You’re valid as hell, and don’t let anyfuck tell you otherwise!
-Shroom (I misspelled it 3 times 😭😭)
(Also, I wanna say that I fucking love transplurals so much. Y’all are so damn cool)
Coming out as transplural!!!! I current;y have 3 alters
Rae- host
-R
Jax- Little
-J
Star- Protector
-S
I'm transplural because I feel like a should be a system. ALso going to sign off with letters of the name so I feel like a cissystem
Cisplurmisihated
A term for an individual who has experienced hate for being plural towards their physical body and/or brain-body.
Cisplurmisiharmed
A term for an individual who has experienced harm for being plural towards their physical body and/or brain-body.
Cisendogenimisihated
A term for an individual who has experienced hate for being endogenic towards their physical body and/or brain-body.
Cisendogenimisiharmed
A term for an individual who has experienced harm for being endogenic towards their physical body and/or brain-body.
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Also, please tell us if someone has coined this before. We often don’t notice/know.
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