Trauma Dump Ig - Tumblr Posts

I just remembered that around a year ago, i was watching smth on ig reels and it said 'tinder date gone wrong' and shows their date lying next to them, and he looks like freddie mercury. my mom walks in, sees im on my phone and takes it away and starts looking through it as she accuses me of watching inappropriate/adult content bc 'it clearly implies that they had sex' meaning that i was definitely watching adult content as a minor

I actually dislike my mom

now I'm not gonna say hate cuz I don't hate her. We've had a ton of issues in the past and it's gotten better but sometimes I genuinely just need to hit her. Like she'll do the most degrading, insane, abusive shit when she's drunk or upset. When she's having a bad day suddenly we all have to have a bad day too.

Just earlier she came home being all bitchy. She hadn't taken us to a water park that my dad had paid for, instead going out on the lake to get drunk with her friend. She left us home alone for like 6 hours and didn't answer her phone. When she came back she was like "why didn't you go outside its so pretty? You're so lazy like get up and do something." And like bitch? Tf? You were gonna take us to the waterpark. We were waiting for your bitchass. Then she lied to my dad and said we didn't want to go. We damn well did.

Then earlier I was sitting on the couch minding my business trying not to let my mom's mood affect me and then my dumbass dog (whom I love very much) came and started pawing at me and getting me wet cu he went to the lake too. I was like "stop touching me you're wet" and my mom was like "BE NICE TO HIM HE JUST WANTS TO BE YOUR FRIEND!!!" and I was like "okay but I don't want him to touch me" and she started getting all pissy. BITCH NO MEANS NO. IF I DONT WANT SOMEONE TO TOUCH ME THEN DONT FUCKING TOUCH ME. and she started belittling me because I was "being rude". I was getting upset. Like I started standing up to her. Genuinely she makes me so mad. She's always embarrassing me and belittling me when I don't do what she wants. She has such a hard time understanding that I'm autistic. I don't want you touching me all the damn time. I don't just brush things off. No means no. I don't want to be yelled at and I don't want to be told what to do when I don't even know what it is exactly that you want me to do. I fucking hate her sometimes.