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I did a Q&A with Melora on my personal instagram account and these are the results!

Two extras:

Would you like me to do the same dynamic here?

Tw! Alcoholism

I am not afraid of death! But- that thing-

Present Mic's implied alcohol abuse coming back in the manga

It- it scares me

Angst Hc #2: Drinking. Just for one moment. One fleeting moment where he can be happy. Where everything and everyone is fine. Just one moment. Please.

This is one HC I'm most scared to become canon. The light novels just talk way too much about Hizashi's relationship with alcohol and how it brings him happiness. I'm very scared

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Do you remember when fanon Meiko was an alcoholic? Good news! She's addicted to coffee now lol

ACT 1 // CHAPTER 1: Heart

beginning // previous // next

Idk bout you but i am absaloutely living this✌️

headcanons: Goto Ryuji

content warning for mentions of alcoholism, domestic and child abuse, and murder

Quick headcanons - 

Name: Goto Ryuji

Age: 32

Gender: Male

DOB/Place: April 8th, 2028 in Okinawa, Japan

Rank/Type: S Rank Fighter

Guild/Occupation: Draw Sword Guild Leader

Past Occupation(s):

Skills:

Weapons: Sword

Family: Hoshino Jun (brother in-law) (deceased)

Wakabayashi Anzu (mom) (alive)

Goto Isamu (dad) (alive)

Goto Fumiko (older sister) (deceased)

Hoshino Minoru (nephew) (alive)

Core headcanons - 

Hidden talent: Pretty good at cooking

Favorite food: Crab legs 

What motivates them: Minoru and the rest of his family, 

Treasured possession: Any of the presents Minoru got for him (pots and pans, a fluffy blanket, a few cat themed things) 

Deepest secret: He’s killed Minoru's father and hid the body and no one knows what happened to him

Best/Worst thing to happen to them: His family and his hunter family/His sister marrying that man

Random memories: Picking up Minoru in the pouring rain from his dad's house and the way he was clinging so tightly to him Goto had to let him keep his jacket, meeting Reiji for the first time and thinking he looks so edgy, watching an old lady feeding the cats in a nearby alley and doing the same when she stopped coming around, going out for a walk in the fields nearby with a friend and stargazing and realizing how he felt, going to his sisters baby shower and immediately picking up on husband's weird behavior when he caught him glaring at everyone behind their backs, 

Best friend/Worst enemy: Hoshino Minoru/Nishimura Oniyuri, the founder and original leader of the Draw Sword Guild

Good/Bad traits: Practical, relaxed/Stubborn, literally suicidal, insensitive, possessive, 

Things they’ve done/like to do: Cook his parents recipes, feed the neighborhood cats, help his parents out with various chores like picking vegetables, cleaning the dishes, setting the table, etc, collect various vinyl albums, 

Personality type: “Virtuoso” ISTP-A (11% extraverted, 89% introverted; 26% intuitive, 74% observant; 69% thinking, 31% feeling; 33% judging, 67% prospecting; 71% assertive, 29% turbulent)

Nervous habit: Goto doesn’t get nervous (he gets infinitely more trigger happy), drinking, 

Things they’re afraid of: Minoru losing faith/trust in him, 

Things they want to accomplish: Befriending the pregnant neighborhood cat, getting the courage to teach Minoru some cooking recipes,

Additional headcanons -

He collects swords and also vinyls

He day drinks a lot

Has the patience for physical brain teaser puzzles, like Rubik cubes

He's a great cook but is too lazy to go out and get groceries so he just orders out a lot

His laugh is kinda obnoxious and he's quite self conscious of it

He really likes sunlight

He lives outside of the Draw Sword Guild dorms, partially because the house he got has such large windows that Ryuji absolutely loves

Really likes studio Ghibli movies and most old anime movies as well (Ponyo, Howl's Moving Castle, Spirited Away, Akira, etc)

Their Timeline -

Age 12: his sister gets married + moves out

Age 13: announces child + Ryuji picks up on abuse happening + Minoru is born

6 years pass; sister breaks her leg + leaves her job + returns to japan

Age 20: finally gets to see sister and Minoru again

Age 21: ryuji is confirmed A rank (still can't decide - flip a coin decided for me)

2 years pass; Ryuji spends time with Minoru and his sister

Age 24: Ryuji joins the draw sword guild + upgraded to group leader

Age 25: sister gets diagnosed with cancer and eternal sleep

Age 26: Ryuji is upgraded to vice

Age 27: sister passed away in her sleep, Ryuji didn't get to say goodbye

Age 28: red gate incident + Nishimura Oniyuri dies + reawakening as S rank

Age 29: Minoru’s phone call + killing his dad

Age 30: Minoru is confirmed S rank

Age 31: Minoru joins the draw sword guild

Age 32: now

Being involved in feederism for as long as I have has given me a different, more skeptical perspective on diet culture and health care. I have had my mind changed on accessibility rights issues, I have deconstructed a lot of diet/ diet-based healthcare, and I have unlearned a lot of harmful misinformation about fatness.

But to be honest, the moment I realized it was all bologna was when my dad told me he couldn’t eat apples anymore.

My dad was an alcoholic for a long time. It got really bad after I left my home state for college. He started drinking a handle a night, going through Jack Daniels like it was water. About a year after I left, my sister found him passed out, near dead in the kitchen. His liver was actively shutting down and he had nearly drank himself into a coma.

He survived this. His girlfriend (who has always been a fad dieter and exercise fiend) started convincing him to “look out more for his health.”This, I think, was an attempt to save his ego. It’s difficult to tell the person you love that they have a substance abuse problem that is actively harming them. Instead, my dad agreed to start trying to get “healthy.”

About a year ago, as we were eating breakfast together, I offered him an apple slice.

“Oh I don’t eat apples anymore. Way too much sugar in them.”

And I think about this almost every day. This man was drinking a bottle of rum a night, and when it almost killed him his thought was oh I really gotta cut down on the apples. Diets and dieting have always smacked of bullshit to me, but hearing my dad tell me that actually he should be eating less fruit was insane. I think my entire conception of healthcare, weight, and diet collapsed right there.

🛑School Spirits Episode 7 Spoilers🛑

Okay so I have a theory, for those of y’all who don’t want to read that much just look for the timelines, also disclaimer not everything might be perfect info so feel free to correct me if I get something wrong :)!!!

In episode 7 we see Maddie’s mom, Sandra, sitting in her daughter’s room with a thick envelope. She’s clearly distressed in some capacity by it and decides to hide it in Maddie’s dresser. I think this is the money, and her hiding it in Maddie’s room is important.

Later, we see Simon and Nicole realize someone took the money, and Simon asks if Sandra followed her, to which Nicole reacts confused and a tad spooked, “why would Sandra take this money?”

This immediately triggers a bunch of blurry flashbacks and I think the scenes they show are important.

1. Sandra arriving at the school and hitting a curb, which was shown to us not long after Maddie reveals her mom is not supposed to be home for another 2-3 weeks (iirc).

2. Maddie reacting to the event, showing us that she is aware that her mother is back, first of all, but more importantly that she showed up at the school for some reason. It is revealed in one of the episodes that Sandra was not exactly involved in her daughter’s education so her showing up at the school, even if you ignore her supposedly being gone another 2-3 weeks. So, Maddie sees her mom show up at school weeks early and clearly in a bad state (potentially drunk driving) so she is likely concerned.

3. Maddie walking down the hall looking upset or stressed about something, all while playing with her necklace emphasizing that she had it as she walked toward this destination. I doubt the directors would’ve told her to do this if it weren’t important in some way, as it is a short scene that is very plot heavy so it needs to convey its intended message in a small period of time, so why give attention to something unimportant? She is also, quite clearly, in the school.

4. Maddie and her mom argue. The first time I saw this I assumed it was just a flashback to a fight at home but as I thought about it I realized there is no evidence of this. Despite the previous 3 scenes being fairly linear, I just assumed this one had nothing to do with them. But if her mom is at home, why is she wearing what looks like a coat, and why is Maddie in the outfit she died in throughout this sequence? So, hear me out, this is in the school.

The most important part of scene 4 to me is the dialogue, which is the explanation for a huge aspect of my timeline I’ll provide later. It goes like:

Sandra: You’re being a brat!

Maddie: that belongs to me!

Sandra: you have to get over it!

Sure sounds like that might be related to the money that the episode is so focused on, huh?

My theory’s interpretation of this flashback sequence is a prelude to Maddie’s death. While this show doesn’t shy away from darker topics, it has never shown a death scene, rather the build-up and aftermath (which I very much appreciate, but that’s another thing entirely lol) and I doubt they would start right before the big finale, so I think this is the prelude. The timeline would go something like:

1. Maddie realizes her mom is back early, not only that but is at her school (unusual) and might be drunk (alarming)

2. Maddie goes to find her mom, who is very much drunk, and freaks out that someone might see her mom like this so she somehow gets the two of them into the first secluded room she can think of in the middle of a school day: the boiler room.

3. Maddie’s mom reveals the reason she is there is because she found out about the money and wants to use it to pay off debts she’s accumulated over her years of being an alcoholic who clearly is not able to care for herself enough to get a stable job.

4. Maddie, rightfully upset and frustrated, argues that since the money is hers, her mom has no right to take it, and probably provides the many reasons a high schooler aiming for a big university needs money.

5. In a fit of drunken rage, Sandra injures her enough to draw a considerable amount of blood and knock her over. Maybe she uses the crowbar?

6. Out of shock, Sandra runs off, and her brain blocks out the memory through a mixture of how drunk she was and blocking it out because it was traumatic. She is more determined than anyone that Maddie ran away because she’s mad at her, maybe because she’s aware something happened between them but is unaware of the true nature of it all.

I think at some point she takes Maddie’s necklace, because she knows it’s important to her daughter. Why would someone else take the necklace? Idk, I can’t figure this one out but the mom makes the most sense for a potential necklace thief

Here’s where my theory kinda becomes two, sorry

7A. Maddie dies at the hands of her mom.

8A. The counsellor is a ferryman of sorts but has become lonely and jaded and doesn’t want people to move on because it means he’ll be alone again so he intentionally keeps info from them and holds them back.

Where my theory gets foggy is with Maddie’s death. By that I mean how Maddy was hit with a crowbar and dragged through a tunnel to hide the body. Maddie’s mom is not a good person, but I don’t believe she’s a monster who would hit her daughter with a crowbar and hide the body, especially since she’s been shown multiple times to be unable to care for herself or remember things or even clean up after herself. What reason would she have to use the crowbar? How could she have planned a disposal in the state i theorize she was in?

Sandra does seem to show genuine anger towards the janitor suspected of harming her daughter, and while you could argue she did that on purpose to make her sadness believable, with how distraught and mentally frail she is I really doubt she’s capable of scheming at that level right now.

That’s where the counsellor dude comes in. He’s clearly not good, and something is up with him. He seemed almost desperate to know more when it was slightly hinted that Maddie may have contact with the living, and that leads me to wonder if the ghosts may be capable of more, but are unable to find that out because from day one you’re encouraged to leave the living alone and focus on the sessions, and don’t forget, nobody can interact with the living!

Also, a thing I want to point out bc it’s important to the next part is how nobody, more importantly none of the ghosts, were there when Maddie died and her whole situation is iffy, but when the swimming girl almost dies there’s a bunch of ghosts around, so nobody (the counsellor) can mess with her spirit because of the witnesses.

So to continue my timeline, though this part I’m less sure of;

7. The counsellor sees an opportunity to do something when Maddie is on the brink of death and nobody is around.

8A. The counsellor somehow manipulates the physical world of the living and hides her body somewhere

8B. The counsellor either out of cruel curiosity experimentation or a desperation to help has Janet take over Maddie’s body, somehow kill Maddie out of her body with the crowbar, then take over her body and run off with her stuff into the woods in some abandoned house.

Idk what the motive would be for either of these but hey it’s just a theory, a gam-

So basically,

Sandra injures Maddie, the counsellor is heavily involved. Janet will be important later.