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The reason that fucking Mayu in Taku’s route gives you a bad ending is because Towa is so embarrassed afterwards that as soon as he gets home he kills himself immediately

i dont like who i am but this is it 

Driving down the 70, volume set to 17

My mind scrambles to find meaning as I contemplate the circumstances of your death.

Suicide. One single bullet.

The music and nihilism pit against each other in a painful crescendo.

They fight a battle for the hope living in my soul.

In the end, I really just want a drink.

Good

Lord

I'm impressed that they even got the conscious to backpedal and apologize, many do not

Perhaps they finally grew a spine and some kind of empathy, who knows

But what we do know folks, is that don't be like this. This does not make you better, this does not make you cool, this does not make you anything positive, and only digs you a lonely hole of hate you made. Grow as a person, like they seemed to have, and don't continuously tell someone to die, you might hate what is on the news the next day.

About a week ago I posted this.

I’ve been getting horrible messages like this in my ask for months, including:

and my personal favorite

After getting the message saying “Just go kill yourself” I was completely done dealing with this person’s horrible messages and replied with just an “Okay.” and logged off tumblr.

About a week later I logged back on with 17 messages in my ask, most of them from the anon. I scrolled down and at first when I logged off, the anon messaged me things like

I scrolled up more and all of a sudden they started sending me more and more messages like

This was extremely surprising to me. I thought “After all those horrible messages you sent to me for MONTHS about hating me and wanting me dead, you say ‘sorry’ and that you ‘cant be responsible for someone’s suicide’?”

But I guess the lesson goes like this:

DONT TELL ANYONE TO KILL THEMSELVES UNLESS YOU ARE PREPARED FOR WHAT MIGHT ACTUALLY HAPPEN

Headcanon that mark definitely has a fear of going to hell and KNOWS that killing himself would probably result in that, which is why he stuck around in his room for 3 days even though he knew no one was going to save him.

He thought that if he just prayed and prayed and prayed, eventually god would save him so he wouldn’t have to go to hell, or face what was outside his door.

He only killed himself when he realized that there was no god and he had no idea what he had so desperately been asking to save him that whole time.

His beliefs had been shattered, and with it any fear of hell, so what was the reason to go on?

I can imagine a retelling of Dracula where what Jonathan really encountered in Transylvania was a village struck by a devastating illness that primarily killed infants. The terrifying women who he sees murder a baby are nurses removing a child who has died of the disease; the mother is wild with natural but inconsolable grief. Rather than seeing her ravaged by wolves, he witnessed her suicide. The thing on the Demeter is likewise this illness; the "brain fever" which would explain the "hallucinations" Jonathan and then the crew and captain experience. All that's missing is a couple of scenes showing the transmission of the disease--to the sailors, to Lucy--and you could cut from the reality of it to the hallucinations people afflicted suffer from. It would be a very interesting adaptation, I think.

And pretty timely for our current age, as well.

Fascinating to me how Dracula goes from this regular personified, well, person, into this sort of... Formless, malevolent disease; A faceless and nameless horror, not quite tangible and feeling more like a curse than a physical monster walking around. It’s surreal and even though we KNOW of Dracula, even if you knew nothing until you read the book, even if you read it in the proper order because Jonathan’s journal comes first; It’s still unsettling how Dracula has become this messed up, briefly glimpsed idea of an approaching malady. Like the inevitability of death and doctors and loved ones doing all they can to stave it off.

He almost doesn’t feel real within his own narrative, like maybe Dracula really is just Lucy’s sleep demon that her mind has made up to rationalize and explain this inexplicable condition of hers; Which just adds to her uncertainty and the dream-like surrealism of it all, that gaslights Lucy into not talking about what happened and causes her to forget. Dracula’s like a cryptid you barely catch in the dark with shining red eyes, you can’t quite pin him down because he’s so undefined and thus protean. He’s like a hallucination, an omen of death; A mere visualization of a much deeper and untouchable force, given a face to mock victims with, existing only within the mind because the illness exists in the body like a parasite. It’s creepy.

I’M NOT A YAPPER I’M NOTT

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I love AllEraserMic as much as the next guy, but I also think the idea of Eraser fumbling the bag twice and having them end up together is the funniest thing in the world.