Vent Ramble - Tumblr Posts

Uhhhh imma ramble/vent a little (and also internal scream)

Okay last time i did a ramble i got freaking 5 likes, and normally people are like "eh thats not much" BUT FOR ME WHO'S ONLY SUCESS ON THE INTERNET WAS A STRAIGHT UP SAGE X VANNY SAVAGE LOVE THING ON SCRATCH, WHICH NOW I CRINGE AT IT, 5 LIKES INTENERNALLY IM LIKE "...i dont deserve this much love and attention theres other theories you can like, i shouldnt be the one getting the spotlight ;-;" but at the same time thats probably just my anxiety, theres a reason why most my things i put "cues people like this" i think i should be making people happy, im not even trying to get followers im just trying to have people like the stuff i do, i still post art on here cues i enjoy doing that but im starting to post rambles more and more cues thats what people want to see and if thats what people want to see i'll post more and more of that, even if its not something normally i would enjoy doing, i mean sometimes doing rambles is fun but if thats soon gonna be the only thing people follow me for or like my stuff for, then why should i keep posting my art? why should i keep putting effort into my art if no one will see it? the only people looking at my art are my friends at this point, so why should i keep posting my art on tumblr if the only people who will see my art and see my affort and see how long my art takes are on pinterst a website people say steals art, sorry if this ramble is starting to be a little sad i just wanted to get this off my chest, i might still post stuff but its gonna be mainly rambles and sometimes art

Ya know what screw it vent ramble cues its sad boi hour

So idk if you guys read an older post but the unknown friend is gonna need to unfriend me in july, which hurts cues their my best friend i know i only knew them for like 1 year but it feels like they are my actual friend, not just an online one and its slowly getting closer to the end of june, so my brain is just remembering that soon they'll no longer be my friend, and idk why but i keep all this bottled up, and once its night time my emotions just explode, especially when im tired, so uh yeah i am crying at 10:12 pm and clinging onto my anxiety rabbit plushie, thats mainly it hopefully tommrow im happier

Shit has been rough

So alot has been happening this month and, i just dont feel okay, i thought this year would be better then last year but it really isnt, i just want my friends to be okay, i want one day where my friends are doing horribly, i just want them to be happy, why cant i just have my friends be actually okay, and its not just friends im worried about its pretty much everything, everything is shitty and i just want a day where things arent shit, just 1 day is that no much to fucking ask for? Just a day where it doesnt feel like everything is burning itself down, just one day where people can actually relax, just one fucking day, i want one fucking day where it doesnt feel like im a lab rat trying to find the fucking cheese that doesnt exist

Sorry that this just seems like im rambling cues i kinda am but, everything has just been horrible, this month has been shit and i just want stuff to get better, im probably gonna take a mental health break soon cues i fucking need it at this point, but anyways yeah cya later i guess

Er jeg den eneste igjen som faktisk prøver å hjelpe? :(

Og jeg skulle ønske jeg kunne gjøre mer for å gjøre ham glad, selv om det bare er litt -

jeg skulle ønske han tok rådet mitt, og jeg skulle ønske han ville snakke med meg litt mer - men hva kan jeg gjøre, alt jeg gjør er å starte kamper.

I love when my mom tells me I'm stupid and then says that my emotions are dumb 🙏🥰(definitely not crying right now!! I totally don't feel guilty for having feelings and being upset when I almost just smashed my hand and almost cut my leg open!!!!^_^❤❤❤💘💞💖💓💝💞💝💗)

Never knew someone I knew for so long would wish for me to end my life :3 (why couldn't you have said it directly to my face??? Talking shit about me behind my back is worse than saying it directly :> if I knew that's how you felt at that time I honestly probably would have so you could be happy without me for good because apparently I havent changed^_^ (yes I have changed, thank you very much. And I guess you havent seen my efforts :] )