Why Am I Here - Tumblr Posts - Page 2
I’m not saying I’ve found my spirit animal (pace actual bunnies), but never has there been a clearer picture of me first thing on any given morning.
Just had a flashback from a decade ago.
I was chillin with one of my good friends and he was snacking on peanut butter (spooning it out and just nommin) while we were sitting on his couch watching tv.
I looked at him. Looked at the jar. And in .02 seconds scooped a blob out with my hand.
*smack-a-roo*
Handful of pb to the face.
A delightful reminisce.
Zero impulse control that fateful night.
As a homosexual who decided that going to the gym multiple days a week was a great idea, I now highly regret my decisions. I just want to be an amazing muscular, goblin-core, bitch, but here I am dying. Anyway here’s a funky word.
The new fic I wrote <3
Felix needs more love and I have too many ocs. It's perfect. Anyway have some mild hurt/comfort with domestic fluff (Happy ending)
Finally thought of a title (it might change in the future 😭)
I cannot send to this him, I can't lower my self-respect anymore it already in the ground (It's been 6 months of no contact after he rejected me and I blocked him)
I am really anxious. Can you talk like you did that day. Anxious like my bones are shaking. I am about to do something crazy and super important but I don't think I possess the guts to do it. So before that I am going something crazier so that the thing I will do next will seem pretty normal compared to this. Dude I miss you. You have no idea how many times I have dreamt of you. It's like you have left my life but still with me almost every night. I promised myself never to say your name again but it is your name that I see everywhere. Like it's impossible to forget you. There are times I suddenly miss you a lot like my brain is only capable so saying your name and then it appears that you posted something on social media or changed your profile pic. Like I get this intuitive hit that you have posted and I need to give my brain my dose of dopamine by seeing that picture. You said you were never interested in me. OK fine maybe not in this lifetime but maybe in the next. Or maybe after that one. I don't care. Just stay with me for one life out of the many you and I are going to have. And I don't need us to be humans also. You can be a monkey and I can be your favourite stone that you keep with forever till the day you die for all I care. I just mean that in any life we meet again, do not ever dare leave me again once you come in my zone of awareness. It will take me half a lifetime to forget you and I don't want to go through this agony again
Heyyy, first time posting! Well now I am here and I don't know why. so Have this picture of Airy I drew on Gartic Phone.
I love you alright
Okay so maybe love is too much of a word to describe this shitty feeling inside my chest but I do. So God help me please let me salvage whatever is left to be salvage so you'll continue to think of me as this extremely clueless, gay disaster that is totally so not in love with you because fck I'm so happy you're not leaving me after all but how can I possibly show my face now?????
I HATE BEING BI
I HATE IT FUCK
(not really...sort of)