burned0utstar

Finns thoughts

vent blog | Tw: sh, ed, suicide, sa | trying to heal | asks open

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I Miss Him. I'm Also Crying. But I Don't Think It's Because I Miss Him? Maybe It Is? Maybe I Just Don't

I miss him. I'm also crying. But I don't think it's because I miss him? Maybe it is? Maybe I just don't want it to be?

I want to text him. I want to text him please. But I don't want to be too much. I don't want to be too much again.

I don't know what to do. I can't breath. I can't fucking breath anymore. I want him to hug and hold me.

I need to breath again. Please?

I want to text him.

I miss him.

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burned0utstar

1 year ago

My mind is running, I wanna do everything all at once now please!

Give me somethinggg to doooo.

Pleaseee??

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burned0utstar

1 year ago

I hate being a boy on his period.

I hate the hormones and the pain and the cravings and the dysphoria. It's all shit.

Why am I craving cheese? Why does it feel like my guts are tangled up in knots? Why do I even have to get a period? I don't want to birth children.

Fuckkkkkk

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burned0utstar

1 year ago

Tw: sh and suicide

I'm gonna fucking cry. I am so sad and lonely and alone and hormonal.

I don't want to exist anymoreeeee.

I miss feeling whole. I miss sleeping. I miss everything.

Why do I feel so empty? Why do I need to cut myself open to feel whole? Why? WHYY?

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burned0utstar

1 year ago

Sometimes I forget that I am a whole person. Like, with feelings and experiences.

I don't have to feel only one thing at a time. I am a complex person and I can feel as much and as deeply as I can.

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burned0utstar

1 year ago

Tw: sh

Sudden urge to cut myself open...

Blade beside me I'm just side eying it...

I want to feel anything else than this...

Ahhhhhhhhh!!!

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