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Happy late birthday ig

Not me forgetting it was by birthday last week 

ALSO I CELEBRATED IT I JUST FORGOT TO TELL YALL

Question

Do ya’ll think id hypothetically I started doing book reviews and hypothetically started posing them on yt and here that hypothetically they would be okay. I’m asking for a friend.

I need to sleep

I’m currently experiencing the part of a John Mulaney special where I'm debating if all my friends hate me or do i need to go to sleep. 

its 00:57am.

I'm going to bed.

I had parents evening today. And there wasn't a single bad thing said about me. I was almost perfect. I was so close to being perfect. Anyways I'm going to go study now.

(Note: this is me being dramatic but I'm for real going to study rn )

I just finished the secret history. Ima need a minute.

No, because in starting to hate Richard like why has he become so annoying recently. Like I understand it's the point that they all become unlikable towards the end but still, it's like he can't make one decent decision. Anyways I'm a continue reading.

I just lost one of my friends 😃

What a cruel world.

(And we were so close before too)

Reality's kinda boring. Ngl.

i have no motivation to do anything sooooo I'm going to go into a deep dive on reddit and procrastinate even more why cant i focus on anythingggg.

kill me pls

I hate my school so much who gives summer homework and WHY is there so much 

I didn't know you could put spaces between tags

*insert that apple emoji of that person standing but I don't have it bc Samsung for life 😤 even though it doesn't really matter*

* insert that apple emoji of that person standing*

Hold up does this make sense cause I may be into summit i-

Blessed are the cursed that see both sides of the same coin

WAIT AM I ACCTUALY ONTO SOMETHING NAAAA CAUSE 👀

Or would: cursed are those who carry the baggage that is the truth

Maybe the first one doesn't make sense I really thought it did

Explanationnnnn

I was basically thinking mmm u know when people figure out the truth that shit can suck but before I thought of this shit and was like mmm what does that mean then I thought about it and I was like holy siphti I'm a genius now I'm questioning that.

Ughhhh I just wanted to be edgy and cool whyhyyyyyy 😭

help me for I have lost myself in lies

Rakelmi (Me ig )

death /dɛθ/ Learn to pronounce noun the action or fact of dying or being killed; the end of the life of a person or organism

Death is a peculiar idea the reason I call it an idea is because as humans we all think that death doesn't exist. As to truly die isn't just the end of your physical body but the end of your consciences as a whole. That is what death is the very end of the thing that makes you, you. We cannot comprehend being without consciousness therefore we don't think that we can die. Interesting fact I would say credit to the person who said it on tiktok but I would like to somewhat expand on that. Humans don't think that we cant die we think that we just wont. There's somewhat of a difference there although small its there. Thinking we cant die is assuming the idea that something is preventing us from taking that final step from completely not existing whether that be a God or Gods or nature itself. Therefore by saying we cant die is basically implying that there's some higher power that exists that refuses to let its creation die. However, if you say that we wont die isn't really implying that there's some God its just humans thinking that it isn't possible for us to actually die. Essentially, its humans being stubborn fucks and saying 'Death yeah we don't know her'. We think were immortal. Which in a way we are. You are made up of atoms and particles that are 13.8 billion years old (how old the universe is according to scientists) and these atoms are probably gonna be here until the end of the universe which will be in a couple trillion years. We'll all be dead by then which is a weird thought as though you may not be conscious for it parts of you will see the end of it all. Even if its only one particle you would have seen the end. What's confusing for me is the idea that I'm actually gonna die. Like I'm going to die. Like I'm not immortal the fuck. So your telling me that I don't have forever to do everything im gonna grow old and die. Shit. So then this leads me to thinking what now. Do i try and live my life to the fullest or go back to sleep nine times out of ten i choose sleep cause I'm tired. But I guess you should try and live your life to the fullest I guess cause you only have one (unless you believe in reincarnation or an afterlife). Anyways you could say none of that really matters as in the end were all gonna die but we'll live forever. That's nice I guess. Well nice until you think of the idea that the entire of our universe’s history will be erased at some point by well the universe and well no longer matter not like we ever did. But other than that its nice.

Its the way my school computer won't lemme download the song of Achilles AND I lost my physical copy. 😭  honestly at this point just kill me

Logic.

Man's worse enemy

Trigger warning: hints at suicidal thoughts

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I'm studying to get a good life

But I don't want to even be alive.

Ha.

The irony.

If life was voluntary

Then I'm a dumb bitch

Here's me over analysing things from what I thought happen and what actually happened so what I had two ideas of what was going to happen in it (also I haven't finished the book yet I just want to say what's been in my mind). Update I finished the book 😃

Spoilers

In the prologue of act 3, three people have been mentioned: Alexander is in New York, Meredith who is somewhere and we know that fillipas there as she picked up Oliver from jail (and then there's Oliver too).

We can see that three of the seven people are missing so we can infer that either Richard, Wren or James are dead.

As you read onwards and the tension starts to build up you can see that there is a significantly lower chance of Ween being dead (or the murderer). And that leaves only three viable options: James, Oliver and Richard.

Now it was a hard decision but I always thought that Richard was going to die mostly (as he did). However I did have an idea that Richard was going to kill someone but looking back at it it wouldn't make sense.

With James and Oliver I could sense they were close so they would either have 1) killed Richard together and then oliver got caught 2) or that Richard killed someone and then either James or Oliver killed him

Now that I finished the book it kinda makes sense that it panned out with Oliver taking the blame for James. I'm sure though if James is still alive I hope he his and that in some alternate universe they find each other. It's quite a sad ending however it didn't make me cry I didn't feel much it was just something like: oh.

In some aspects I could tell what was coming up like I foresaw it coming eg. When Alexander overdosed etc.

Overall I must say that it is beautify written and even though I didn't understand most of the play quotes meaning I do feel as if it still had a great impact!

Rating 4.5/5

It's a good book read it :)

Ok so I'm reading if we were villains I'm on pg.281 and all I have to say is wtf is happening i- 😃

Sometimes I wish I was a bird.

It must be nice to be free.

I wonder why my mind works against me.

Quick update I'm an Entj. 😃👍

Saturday 26th December 2020?

💫updated💫 - Wednesday 26th July 2023

print("Hello world") any computer science nerds out there? Anyway,  welcome to my blog! it's exciting for me to start this blog and see my progress in literature and, I hope, in some science and math-based subjects along the way. This blog is going to mainly be me posting reviews about books as well as ranting about books that I'm reading and struggling with ( I.e. my current read the great gatsby & why it's so hard to read). Also, getting to the stage of writing about something interesting that I found out in some of the stem subjects. In an overall summary, it's going to be filled with lots of random shit about the humanities and stem. 

Now for some basic facts about me:

age:14 nope now 16

gender (is a social construct): female (gender still is a social construct)

pronouns: I vibe with any pronouns, to be honest, but my main one is she/her but you can call me whatever you want you can even use neo pronouns if you want, I don't mind. (still correct)

sexuality: Shii... I don't know!  I might be a Lesbian or Bisexual and the winner is .............

Bisexuality

height: hm......maybe around 4'11 to 5'1 (yes, I know I'm short! I know!  you don't have to rub it in)

Race: Black

Ethnicity: Jamaican

Nationality: British 

Favourite book: Hope in a ballet shoe i don't have one anymore 😃 maybe legendborn?

Favourite food/snack: iced buns (omg they are so good especially the ones you get in Aldi. They taste like heaven I'm not even lying. If you haven't had one yet please go and  try one,  it's a literal delicacy) ICED BUNS SPREMICY STILL STANDS

Favourite colour: So I have a really specific favourite colour it's midnight blue. This is a  really beautiful colour and it makes me feel calm ad safe ( a comfort colour ).

#midnightblueisthebestcolourarguewiththewall

Favourite subject: so I hit myself with a hard one here...... it's a tie between History, Science and English (because for some unknown reason it's getting interesting now) my favs are now English and physics

What I want to be when I grow up: now I had had my life planned out then that went to shambles when I discovered history and wanted to become a historian. Then I wanted to become a writer which honestly I was in love with the idea not the actual act of writing. Then went back to my roots in science. Therefore instead of me wanting to become either a physicist, mathematician or engineer, I'm still deciding. Also, fun fact about me I wanted to become the Prime Minister at one point lowkey... I still do though because I feel with my leadership I could make a big difference in the country. I already have some plans of what I would do whilst I was Prime Minister I would make so many changes that in my opinion will benefit the country. Also, I'm not incompetent like a certain Prime Minister we have now *Borris Jhonson*.  I'm not saying that I could have done a better job than him but it doesn't take a PHD to know that maybe if he applied a bit of common sense and wasn't a greedy capitalist that maybe things would be running a bit smoother. Okay I think I've settled on becoming an astrophysicist

Zodiac sign: Scorpio and a proud one 

personality type: Entj (purr as it should be )

enneagram type: 8w7 oop im a 3w4 now

Stance on politics: I support the BLM movement, Women's rights, I believe in climate change, I support the LGBTQ+ community (in fact I'm apart of it questioning whether im the L or the B). I believe that no human is illegal. I am for the labour party and I would be a leftist if I were in America. I am also a feminist.

There will be zero tolerance for any: Racism, Islamophobia, Transphobia, Sexism, Xenophobia, Anti-semitism, Abelism or any type of discriminatory behaviour allowed on this blog. If there is anything else you would like to know my stance on please feel free to ask. I could also answer any questions that you may have on politics, science or maybe just in general to the best of my ability. Also, I am always willing to educate someone on important topics that greatly affect the way we view the world around us. However, I am not always right and I may get facts, ideas or points wrong so please feel free to correct me if needed. You are also free to ask any questions about me if you want to! Warning, I am also a very inquisitive person who likes to ask a lot of questions so once in a while I may come to you with a question or queries. (all of this is still what I believe )

Oop bye yalll this was fun to add to 😌