Things Havent Gone Well To Be Completely Honest, Today Was Bad, He Completely Switched Up His Behavior,

things havent gone well to be completely honest, today was bad, he completely switched up his behavior, and things were super awkward and uncomfortable most of the day, he also insulted me a lot, I honestly dont know how tomorrow is gonna go. For context were staying over at a mutual friends house. If you havent followed any other posts, I recommend reading a few to catch up. So, me and him havent had a romantic thing going on for a while, we had a weird situationship and now were awkward somewhat friends, the past two days were really good, until today, where he completely switched again back to rude comments, etc. I'm not really sure how exactly i feel about him and about everything, but I dont know whats going to happen when we sleep over. I think ill be upset regardless, best case scenario probably is that nothing romantic happens, but we're friendly and genuinely get along well. The worst case is that we dont get along well and everything is awkward. the liminal space I dont know case scenario is that he makes some form of move on me, and I dont know what ill do if that particular thing happens yk? I honestly cant tell if i really want that to happen, or if I really dont want it to happen, if it does we might need to have some kind of talk, if it doesn't, everything is normal and fine and I think id be disappointed but yk whatever. Guuuuuhhhhhhhhh the whole situation is so difficult and i need it to be over already

I wonder if you know. I wonder if you know I still fantasize about the little things. I want you in a way I dont think Ive ever wanted anyone before, but I know you don't want me. You just want someone to warm the bed at night. But no matter how hard I try, you dont want it to be me.

“You always have the choice to be happy. Learn to understand the purpose of bumps in the road, grow from them and stay positive.”

— Unknown

“If people refuse to look at you in a new light and they can only see you for what you were, only see you for the mistakes you’ve made, if they don’t realize that you are not your mistakes, then they have to go.”

— Steve Maraboli

I will not have you without the darkness that hides within you. I will not let you have me without the madness that makes me. If our demons cannot dance, neither can we.

Nikita Gill