Out Of All The People I Miss Right Now, I Miss Myself The Most.

“Out of all the people I miss right now, I miss myself the most.”

-gemma troy 5°55

“I spent my childhood learning how to fear, and now I spend my adulthood learning how not to.”

— Gemma Troy

The Deal (Sneak Peak)

Summary: You are at the very edge of failing when your saving grace appear in the form of top student Kim Seungmin. But what happens when he doesn’t agree to save you? The only option is to strike a deal with the devil. And a deal should always be fair. So your grades in exchange for his dream girl sounds simple… Right?!

Kim Seungmin x reader

University! Au

Slightly enemies to lovers

Word Count till now is 30k and I have still 2-3 scenes to go! But I felt bad that I wasn't uploading! So here is a sneak peak till the real deal is here!! Read below and let me know!

@lethallyprotected

A typical Wednesday and you were staring blankly at the entrance wondering if a future as a barista was the only option left for you.

Your train of thought was rudely interrupted by a tall figure getting all up in your face. A tall brown haired menace. As the days flew by your polite smiles turned into sarcasm filled giggles and a pressing desire to annoy the fuck out of his majesty, the genius. So you looked up to meet his eyes and you were met with the usual picture of him frowning down at you.      

 "Can I help you?" You asked monotone, already moving away to prepare his order. He never tried anything else besides the bland americano.      

  He didn't move, only looked at me decisively. He leaned over the counter as much as he could "I don't want coffee. I want to talk to you" You stared at him. Did you want to be rude and deny? He deserved it but that would require your downfall so you swallowed your pride and nodded.       You quickly told  Shushua you would be a minute and leaded Seungmin into a quiet corner of the shop. You sat down and the staring match began. You knew this, this was a war of nerves. As a business major you knew he wanted the deal you presented but he was stubborn enough not to begin the discussion. " You thought about my proposal?" You probed gently.   

  After a brief hesitation he nodded and finally spoke. "I would be willing to help you" he stated simply. He was truly a man of few words. You hoped that didn't include his teaching.      

 "Wonderful!" You cheered " When can you start? I am in immediate need of attention" you joked just to see him squirm. He didn't disappoint as he light shifted his weight in the comfortable couch he sat.    

    "I don't work so we can follow your program" he stated dismissively. "Where do you lack?" He seemed more comfortable focusing his attention on your academic problem than his unrequited crush. Cute, you thought. 

     "Math is my main problem. I fixed my physics grade enough to pass through this semester. Maybe a lesson or two in exam season if you are kind enough." You listed, resting your head in your hand. You should sound dismissive and aloof and play your cards right this time.  

    "Okay we can work on that.." he trailed off,not knowing how to get on with the conversation. 

     "You should open an Instagram page" you suddenly said. He needed the exposure you had decided. He had the looks, he was smart if we worked on his manners he could get Soojin. 

      He scoffed, right back at his usual self. "And why would I do that?" He asked, now that you knew him a little, his voice filled with disbelief and irony.     

 "So you can show off your good looks to Soojin obviously "you stated, smirking. His relaxed, albeit a little uncomfortable, pose tensed. "It's adorable how tense you get when I mention her" you teased, lips curling a little not able to resist."What made you change your mind?" 

  "I thought about it. That it"  You looked at him. His jaw was clenched, his posture still tense and he was looking you straight in the eyes almost as if he was daring you to say it. 

 "Are you sure? Are you sure that someone didn't help in changing your mind? Like someone trying to get your girl. Someone named...Eric?"you waved your fingers together and touches your chin lightly on them.From the way his body tensed, his mouth was pressed into a thin line concealing his full lips and the slight of his head, you hit bulls eye."Well.. appearance wise I don't have a lot to fix. Personality wise though..we could do so much better." You innocently smile. "Anyway she is on social a lot, she often comes to take photos here, she even followed me. The first step we have to make is her acknowledging you. So genius boy... When are you free?" 

I have some minor changes to do!!! If I have some mistakes forgive me, English is not my first language!

Writings.

SKZ in Borderland (series of shorts) • Seven of Hearts  • Four of Clubs 

Everything Has Changed (Felix one shot)

Gone Away (Hyunjin ft. Changbin and Felix one shot)

Red Lights (Hyunjin ft. Chan one shot)

7.03 (Bangchan one shot)

Untitled. (Bangchan one shot)

please do not repost any of my works, thank you!

I will remember you.

Extraordinary you!Au x Zombie Apocalypse!Au

Summary: The world was damned. A deadly virus going around turning everyone in zombies? Yeah, the world was definitely damned. But that was the least of his problems right now. Time was slipping by him..he had been hearing weird sounds. He decided that he was going crazy. Until a certain someone appeared and told him not to worry because apparently this all a fiction, more specifically a comic?

AN: Hi! This is the very first piece I am writing! I am sure that it is not quite as good as the rest of the amazing works that exist here but I wanted to get the idea out of me and entertain whoever wants to read it! I will be making a part 2 for sure!

Words: 5k

Part 2

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The morning was quiet, if you don't count the inhuman grunts and moans that were surrounding them.

    Felix was perched in the highest point he could reach and was just crouched there, watching the school below him. Approximately 6 months ago everything he knew changed. A virus, that was supposed to never see the light of day, was leaked and the world went to shit after that. People screaming on the streets as their flesh was being ripped from their bodies, the population filling the streets desperate to escape, concerned family members trying to find each other, destruction of human kind as we knew it..You know the usual drill..

   He shook himself out of whatever daydream he had fallen into.. Now it was not the time to daydream... He scolded himself as he adjusted his position. He looked over the school that had became both their salvation and prison. It was for sure big and by now, so unkept that it truly looked haunted. Being on top of the second floor helped him have that eagle vision he needed to examinate their safe keep. He scanned over the fake little garden that was was once filled with flowers and trees were they lounged upon back in the good days, over the old road that was once filled with kids and laughter as it leaded to the main gate, over-.

    A gasp left him. There was movement. In the corner of the football court, that was in the far right side, there was movement.

   Swoosh!

  What was that?

   "Did you see something Felix?" Asked over his shoulder the dark haired boy on the other side of the roof. Usually the look out consisted of two people that made their way from the bottom of the school to the top. The small bit they managed to secure at least. The whole thing was too damn big to manage it all, they had succeed in securing quite a few rooms, that were in the left side of the building.Such as mediocre classrooms, a janitors closet that was the source of weaponry for them and the teacher's office. The rest was up for the taking for the leaches.

    "I think I saw something moving by the court" he answered as he scanned again the yard for signs of life. Could I really be that wrong?

   Changbin left a grunt as moved near his side of the roof. He perched on the edge as carefully scanned the court. He shook his head, messy unkept locks following the movement. Changbin looked rugged, he realized, they all did, with a T shirt a few sizes too big and green cargo pants rolled up so they can fit his height. They raided a couple of lockers and found clothes that remained there. The clothes a painful reminder that their owners would not come to pick them up.

    "Are you sure? Maybe you saw a squirrel or something.. If they are still alive, I mean «he reasoned as he wiped his forehead.

    "Maybe I am tired" Felix agreed, shaking his head as well. Yeah, he could be tired. The sun was glaring down at them and he was taking on more and more shifts recently. This could be a sign that he needs the rest. Maybe he could speak with Chan so he can rearrange them.

    "Or maybe you are on edge." Changbin said as he hoped back on the safer ground of the roof." I mean a new face, in this environment, is not always welcomed. You can be cautious"

     "I am not. I believe she deserves the benefit of the doubt. She survived a God knows what, all alone, out there. I mean if you were on her position wouldn't you want shelter and food?" He answered as be scanned the yard for the last time.

     "Yeah...you could be right" Changbin mumbled.

Swoosh!

     "You heard that?" Felix asked, looking around.

   Changbin stilled as he listened. After a moment or two he opened his eyes and looked at Felix "No..Nothing" 

   He stilled as well and then let out a big breath".. let's just go mate" he mumbled and started to make his way down the stairs.

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  Swoosh!

"I am saying that she shouldn't have been here in the first place"

 Felix blinked as he refocused on the conversation that was taking place in front of him. Seungmin and some other kids were taking a stand against the new girl that arrived on the campus. They were totally tearing the poor girl down, he thought. Useless, in a prime condition and had never gotten her hands dirty were some of the comments that were thrown in her face. 

    He approached slowly, arms raised, as if to show that he meant no harm " Guys, let's not says things we don't mean" he tried to reason with them. He knew that all was in vain as Seungmin and the girls were all furious. The girls could understand why, they never really resolved anything, always picked fights and recklessly dived into difficult situations that they couldn't get out. Seungmin, on the other hand, was a tactician. He knew that one more person , meant more hands, meant more eyes to keep them safe , so he couldn't understand what the boy had against her that he would go to such extreme lengths.

     "We mean everything! She is longing around! Asking stupid questions! Not helping at all!" Squealed one of the girls, all red in the face and hands moving rapidly around her.

     Seungmin, still sitting on the chair not far from him, said " Felix we can't welcome anyone and not ask questions. Besides even though the screaming doesn't help" he said throwing a dirty look to the girls" they got a point. This is kill or be killed now, I am just saying in case you forgot "

     He allowed himself to fall back against the window. He put his hands deep down the pockets of the oversize pants he found. He couldn't deny what Seungmin said. He scanned the rest of the room. Changbin was sprawled in one of the comfiest teacher's chair he could find , not a care in the world could be found on his face. On the top of the desk in front of Changbin, sat Jisung. He stared at the fight that was taking without a word. He didn't really get involved in fights as he once did. The whole situation was proven too much for him, slowly his jokes and bright energy gave to a solemn face and keen eyes that saw it all. Seungmin and Minho, as well as a few other kids from the classes that managed to stay alive, were in the middle of the room. Seungmin and Minho made quite a duo. Clever and sharp-tongued they may be, but they kept them alive. Along with Chan they were the brain of the operation, as he liked to joke.

      Not everyone from their classroom managed to stay alive. That resulted in fights and distress in the beginning but as the months went by we all came into an understanding, we have to work together to make this whole damn thing work. He knew some of the faces and names but not all. Faces came and went by, some familiar, some completely unrecognizable. He didn't understand what the fuss was about, it would simply be another face in the crowd.

      "So what? We should close the gates and shun outsiders? We won't be better than monsters!!!" Hyunjin protested. But in return he earned only scoffs but the other boys. He grided his teeth, annoyance clear on his handsome face. With long strides he came to the side of the girl, which he strongly protected. " Besides you don't run the place. I say we vote. Let the crowd decide" he concluded, smirking arrogantly. With his long black hair framing his face, his tall frame stood over the girl protectively. Felix wanted to scoff to himself. Why don't you shoot hearts from your eyes too? He though. He didn't really know Hyunjin that well, even back to the old days they didn't really talk. But he found his whole demeanor ridiculous, especially when it was about a girl he barely knew.

       "Okay, let's do that. To be fair to everyone involved" said Chan standing up. He clapped to get everyone's attention. "Tomorrow we will vote. Make up your mind until then." He turned to Seungmin and Hyunjin "Happy now?" They both nodded.

      Hyunjin turned to the girl who watched the whole scene stunned and murmured something Felix didn't quite catch. 

      Swoosh!

     He immediately looked around him, alarmed. What was that damned sound? He didn't quite have the time to figure out as he ran up to Chan. 

     "Hey mate!" He called you the older boy.

     "Hi Felix!" Chan greeted with a big smile. Felix immediately smiled back. He quite liked Chan. He was an easy going guy, fair to all, never had he seen him pint point and be cruel to others. A perfect leader and friend. They were lucky to end up here with him." How was the watch?"

     "Actually that was what I wanted to talk you about. Is there a way to get me out of watch the next 2 days or so? I have been keeping watch for 5 days now and I am begging to tire" he explained, tone annoyed and shifting his weight from foot to foot.

    Chan looked him concerned, he closed in on him and put his hand on his shoulder massaging him gently "Felix.. your last watch was 2 days ago."

     What?

    "What? No no! I was on watch this morning.." he shuttered. He was, wasn't he? He remembers it as it was this morning.

   Chan didn't speak as he looked him. "Maybe you should rest either way" he concluded. "If you don't feel well or something, you can always -"

   "No no.. I.. I am fine. Just tired I guess, I can do my shift if you have no one" 

    Jisung, much to his surprise, stepped up. Felix knew he didn't really like keeping watch as he felt paranoid so near the zombies. " I can do it, man. Go rest, you look like you need it" he lightly joked, showing his bunny teeth at him. Felix just looked at him. He looked tired as well, he looked tiny as well, outfit to big on him, a black hoodie jacket that he had thrown over his shoulders made him appear even smaller. He looked at him knowingly though, his eyes telling him that he was underestimating him and that he could see everything coming. As he looked at them, he found himself nodding. " Thanks, Sung" he said in the end.

    The brunette smiled and made his way to Changbin to tell hima about the changes.

    "Well I am going to sleep" Felix said as a goodbye to Chan that was still examinating him.

    "Sweet Dreams Lix"

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  Swoosh! 

  Swoosh!

  Swoosh!

 That fucking sound was making his head hurt. He tried to find where it came from, tried to ask the others if they heard it but nothing. And he wished that was where his worries ended. He was losing parts of his day. He remembered being with Jisung, Changbin and a few other survivors on the teach's office and the next thing he remembered was standing watch with Seungmin. He was worried something was wrong with him. Maybe he hit his head somewhere and he had amnesia. Surely he was way too young for Alzheimer? He shook his head as he willed himself to focus. He was keeping watch ..again.. with a random girl. He didn't know her name, he recognized just the short hair and the constant frown on her face. He turned to say to her that the shift was all good and over, when the door to the roof busted open. A panting mess of hair busted through the door and took deep breaths. 

   "Did you came all the way here to die? Speak girl!" demanded his partener, already annoyed with the girl that appeared.

  Swoosh!

   "Z-Zombies! They are trying to break t-through the main hall to our side!" She panted. They all looked each other for a beat and they all took off. Down the stairs they went, as they were running the screaming and shouting could be clearly heard. Felix reached first the scene. The doorway that connected their side of the school was being ripped apart by the constant banging of the zombies. Rotten flesh of grabbing hands and pale hazy eyes were seen through the crack. Several bodies were thrown against the door trying to hold it closed, but more and more grunts started to boom from the other side.

   "It won't hold!" Minho shouted, his usual aloof attitude long gone by now. Sweat dripping down his face, eyes hoping from Chan back to the door.

   " I have an idea! First of all quiet!!!! Second, can we find a broken desk? Any big flat surface will do! And nails!! Tape! Anything that can hold it up against the wall!" A determinated voice was heard across the hall.

   Felix didn't immediately recognized the voice, but he rushed to find what was asked of them. The janitors closet. The first thought that came to mind. Wi th the longest stride he could master he flew up the stairs. He burst into the room and went straight to the drawer to the far right side. He placed them there himself, he quickly grabbed them, dropping a few in his haste and ran downstairs. When he touched the first floor, he saw several people dragging a broken desk to place it against the wall, some were carrying hammers, others duck tapes. He hurried through them to give Chan the screws he got. 

   "Chan! Here!" He panted. Chan blindly thrashed his hand out to him as he continued to shoulder the desk against the door. Felix grunted as he thrown himself into the work. With all his strength he brought the hammer down. He was too fucking weak, he thought. Now was not the time to think about working out. He grinded his teeth and he kept pounding down on the rusty nail After managing to nail the lower part of the desk he turned to see the rest of the project. With relief he saw the rest of the team slowly managed to kept it intact on the wooden door, the duck taping team took over once the grunts were no longer that instinct. 

   He blew out a big breath and slid down the wall. That was a crack away from certain death.

   Swoosh! 

    He clicked his tongue, adjusted to the dreadful sound by now. " Fuck that" he murmured. Changbin and Jisung that had found their way to him agreed silently as they plummeted to the floor. A few girls were heaving next to them. Normally he would try and comfort them, but he found himself not carrying, even scoffing at them. He exchanged a look with Jisung and Changbin. They looked fine. We were all okay. He scanned the rest, except some crying, they were fine too. Another fucking day complete.

   " Oi Felix! Changbin! Jisung! " The familiar voice of their leader called out to them.

   "I guess the crisis is over and the chores must go on" joked the brunette boy. 

   "Can't we take a break first? I am hungry" he complained the bulky mess that was Changbin.

    "Right? We can't catch a damn break around here" he joked, throwing his head back. 

     "Let's just get over it" Jisung signed, standing up. 

     "Yeah let's -Fuck! " He half shouted. A red long angry scratch was on his palm. The nails, he thought. He should dress that, the last thing he needed was an infection.

     "Shit! You alright?" Changbin asked as he checked out his hand. He turned it over to check the angry mark that married his skin. 

     "Yeah some water and dressing and I will be as good as new" he concluded and made his way over to the mass of bodies that were carrying desks to further barricade themselves.

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   Swoosh! 

  He was standing in the teach's office once again as the voting took place. After the whole incident it was revealed that the savior, that shouted the directions and gave the ultimate solution,had been the new girl. Hyunjin's crush or whatever. He had seen them several times in the dark hallways exchanging sweet nothings and catch them staring at each other lovingly. Guess she will be staying after all. 

  A pencil was going around and small pieces of paper was handed out to all the participants. He was patiently waiting for his turn even though he wanted nothing to do with it. He didn't really care for her. He just wanted to go to the room he shared with Changbin and Jisung and God knows who else and lay down. He was tired as if he was always standing up and moving around. He let out a long breath. Finally the damn pencil had reached him.Sobhe grabbed it and he wrote a yes, stay and handed the pencil to the next person. Now time to wait for the box to it reach him. Just his luck. As he waited he was played with the paper on his hands, he stilled.

  A sudden though cane to mind.

 He looked down .His palm. He remembered it stinging painfully just yesterday afternoon. Now his hand was callused,maybe a little dirty but unwouned.

  Something was wrong...

  Swoosh! 

  He blinked.

  He is not on the teacher's office.

  He was on the roof, perched in his usual spot.

  He almost fell over.

 No. No no no no. That was not happening. He was crazy. He finally lost it. A sob was trying to tear itself out of his throat. Tears sprung to his eyes.

 "Hey guys! There was a change! we will take over your shift! You will take over the night one instead! Get some rest, we got it from here" a smiling Hyunjin announced. A small girl trailing behind him, greeting them shyly.

 But Felix couldn't focus on them. He couldn't focus on his breathing as well. He was slipping. Almost like on autopilot he jumped from his high spot he clapped Hyunjin on the shoulder and said with a cheery voice he didn't recognized as his own at this point. "All yours mate!" And he went towards the stairs.He didn't understand ,his body was moving against his will, against all reason . His watch out mate followed him outside and closed the door behind them

  Swoosh!

 As soon as the door closed that damned sound followed and suddenly he was on the floor heaving. He couldn't breathe enough, the air felt suffocating. His eyes filled with tears and everything turned hazy.

   "Felix!" A feminine voice shouted and suddenly arms supported him. She cradled him in her arms, shooting him the best she could. " Felix breath. Breath with me" she instructed. He couldn't,he just couldn't follow. The air was still not enough. The panick was filling his senses like a raging river.

   Hands pushed back his black hair from his face gently and two cool palms were against his cheeks, the sensation grounding. He felt a little more there in the moment with her. Her voice reached him now more clearly.

   "Look at me Felix.Please." He did what was asked of him. A pair of dark orbs was before him transfixed on his own lighter ones. " Are you with me? Blink for yes"

   He looked at her for a moment before blinking slowly. " Good "she affirmed. "Breath for me"She caressed him gently. He breathed slowly, he holded and released.

   "What's wrong Lix?"

  He didn't answered immediately. Tears came once again in his eyes. 

   "I am going crazy" 

  She looked at him for a moment before asking" Why do you think you are going crazy?"

   "I have been hearing things, I am missing days. I can't even control what I do anymore." He heaved.

   "Shh shhhh. You are okay. You are okay Lix. Everything is going to be okay. The next scene is coming you are going to be alright then." She repeated 

  He sniffled slowly and relaxed against her. Her caressing and kind words mixed with his panic attack made him sleepy. He closed his eyes as she continued to soothe him.

  "You are gonna be alright. It's just the shadow. You will forget. You are going to be alright."

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Swoosh!

Scenes were flashing before him.

Him, Chan and Minho running to get supplies from the near by stores , avoiding all the walkers.

Swoosh!

More swifts with Changbin and familiar but unfamiliar faces.

Swoosh!

Jisung and him laying on the classroom talking late into the night.

Swoosh! 

Lunch at the teacher's office.

Swoosh!

Here he was again. On the roof along with Chan keeping watch. He felt weird. He keeps hearing weird sounds. One minute he stands in one place and the other he finds himself in the complete opposite direction. He keeps getting confused and losing the time. He found himself crying often , worried sick Did he really had amnesia? But that didn't explained the teleporting. In the midst of crying he always remembered cool hands and soft words being whispered against his hair, but he couldn't connect them to a face and he didn't remember what was the sweet words that brought comfort to him in his panic.

 " Felix you alright?" Chan asked him bringing him out of the daydream that consumed him.

 " Yeah.. just thinking" he answered as he faced the yard. The moon was making it seem way more creepy. It gave it that airy abounded feeling that didn't sit quite right with him.

    "The watch is over,mate. Time to go" whispered the older male ,still looking at him with worry in his eyes. " Come on let's get some sleep"

    "Go ahead without me Chan. I will sit here for a little longer " he said making himself more comfortable, even swinging his leg over the edge.

      "..okay. If that's what you want. Good night Felix"he said making his way to the door. He stood there for half a moment and then closed the door behind him.

  Felix stayed there and tried to make it make sense. Of course he couldn't, he tried for days now but nothing was logical at this point.

  He signed as he stood up. Time for sleep. 

He would make it make sense tomorrow. Or never. He made his way to the second floor slowly when he heard someone... singing?

"I got this feeling on the summer day when you were gone!" Loudly enough to alert him..and a handful of zombies that were surrounding them! What the fuck!! 

He hurried after the sounds, jumping the steps two at the time to reach the ground floor

"I crashed my car into the bridge, I watched, I let it burn!!"

He fled down another pair of stairs when he finally reached his destination. The ground floor. He didn't need to scan the spacious room to spot it. A figure climbing out of the ground floor window all the while still singing.

"I don't care, I love it!

I don't care!"

He stood there astonished. What drugs were they on? But he didn't have the time to marvel, the figure was running away! 

"Hey! What the fuck are you doing! Stop!" He shouted-whispered, hurrying after them. By the time he climbed out of the window the figure was walking to the nearest.. window! 

"I don't care!"

He ran without catching his breath. He had to catch them before they made their way through the other window. "Wait!" He shouted as neared them. 

      "Got you!" He said as he managed to catch them. He turned them over and wide dark orbs was the first thing he noticed. 

 The figure, he suddenly noticed, was shorter than him. Long brunette tresses were flowing down her back, barely concealing the large headphones that were blasting a iconic pop song. Her eyes were dark, smart and once the shock faded, the had a playful glint in them. The bright red hoodie she wore swallowed her whole and made her stand out against the night. While he looked at her, she broke out in a big bright smile as if she had not a care in the world. And suddenly he remembered his owns.

 He ripped the headphones from her head and was ready to curse her out to hell and back.

      "Are you crazy? What the fuck are you doing!  Trying to kill yourself and the whole fucking school in the process?!" He growled unable to calm his nerves and speak in a decent manner. 

 She just looked at him , smiling making his eyes twitch and a angry flush to appear in his freckled face. If he could he would be literally fuming in anger.

      "I didn't expect someone following me" she shrugged.

      "D-didn't" he was lost for words. He narrowed his eyes at her ,the cheery smile never leaving her. And then he grabbed her and started pulling her towards the window they just climbed out of.         "Come on! Let's get the fuck out here!" He snapped.

        "Oh come on Felix! It's not like anything is gonna happen!" 

        "You are delusional!"

        "Felix we are in the shadow! Nothing is gonna happen! Come on let me go I have to check out something before the next scene" She giggled as she refused to be dragged to safety.

Shadow..? Scene..?

Why that rung a bell?

He stopped dragging her away and turned to her. "Shadow?" He asked

 She titled her head, still smiling sweetly up at him."It's okay. Even if I tell you, you won't remember by the next scene"

     "What do you mean?" 

     "Never mind, Felix. Never mind" 

     "No. You said something, you will explain" 

     "..Do you hear things Felix? Weird sounds? Do you lose your time sometimes? Do you not know faces, even though you should know them by heart? Teleporting?" She inquired , stepping closer to him.

  Eyes blown wide, mouth half open , he just stared at her. 

      "When you remember this conversation after a scene, Lixie. Come and find me, I will explain everything then" she said giggling

   "Until then" she said her tone light " show time, Lixie"

Swoosh!

    "I really like her guys.. I just don't know if I should tell them. I mean.. it's all too much for her right now. It's a new environment, new rules I don't think I should burden her like that" he exhaled, hiding his face in his hands. All the other guys listened to him and laughed silently. The saw how they looked each other, how they lingered. 

     "Don't worry Jinnie" Chan assured him."You won't be pressuring no one. She looks at you with stars in her eyes, mate" he laughed.

     "You really think so?" Hyunjin asked hopefully. 

     " Yeah! Go and get her!" The leader grinned.

They all followed his example, cheering him on. And poking fun at his embarrassed state.

Swoosh!

The smile fell from his face. He jumped down from the desk he was sitting on and made his way to the door. 

     "Hey!Lixie!!" A voice rung behind him. He turned and saw Changbin jogging to catch up with him. He nugged him lightly with his shoulder. " What's up man? You look like .. you have been thinking a lot" he traded carefully

     "Yeah you could say that.." Except his situation remaining the same for weeks and weeks now, he was sure he had something to do. Something that he must remember. "Don't fret mate. I will come around when it's all cleared up"

       "You seemed a little cold towards the guys earlier"he implied

       "I am not that close with all of them. Just you and Jisung" he replied evenly.

       "While I am extremely flattered and I know I am irresistible" he poked fun while shutting his lashes at him "I was wondering if maybe you wanted to get a certain something off your chest"

        "A certain something?" 

        "You know.. if you are a little... jealous because things are going well with Hyunjin and his girl.. it's okay" he ranted, fumbling to form a sentence.

        "Jealous? Me?" He quoted, pointing to himself. He cocked his head to the side and wondered when he had gotten lost.

       "Yeah, I saw Y/N looking at you lately"

       "..Y/N?"

       " You know, about this tall" he explained bringing his hand to the top of his head with a grimace,that had Felix suppressing a smile "brunette, dark eyes, permanent frown? She has been watching at you for days now." 

       "I don't know." 

 Changbin stared at him weirdly. "Okay. If you want something, I am here" 

       "Thanks Bin" Felix signed, half hugging his and going on his merry way. 

 The only thing he won't be getting into is girl trouble. He would be leaving all that to Hyunjin, be though as he recalled his embarrassing state in the classroom. He strolled through the halls aimlessly. The sun was going down at this point, everything was showered in a golden hue that was creating a melancholic vibe. He enjoyed walking around, as if he was taking a stroll before leaving the school like any normal student would do. He was looking through the large windows and letting his mind wander, when a figure caught his attention. There, by the small garden outside, was a lone figure lazing around in the sun , flipping a book. Dark hair spread around her , body totally relaxed like her life was not in danger.

 What the fuck she was doing? Was she trying to kill herself and everything in this fucking school? She-

 He paused, a strong feeling of deja Vu coming to him. He recalled moonlight, a girl with a red hoodie and big headphones.. Shadows and scenes, along with vivids memories of him breaking apart in this girls hands.. cool hands caressing him , warm words comforting him...and he suddenly he took off.

 He was running against all reason, heading outside to the unfamiliar girl that he knew.

Heading towards to the answers he craved, towards the proof that he was not crazy after all..

 He finally reached her form that laid to the grass. Arms spread and eyes closed ,she looks the epitome of calmness. With her eyes closed ,she smiled and breathed out "Hey Lixie" 

     "You own me an explaination" he pointed out , towering over her.

Her playful, onyx eyes opened and peeped up at him. "So ...you remember now?" She wondered as she stretched. 

       "Some.Some I don't" He confessed.

 She patted the space next to her. He lowered himself next to her, not taking his eyes off of her. " Explain now"

       " Wow! You are so aggressive in the shadow!"she cheered

       He didn't answered. 

 She mumbled something under her breath.

       "Lee Felix.. you are a character in a comic book. Congrats" she stated inanimate ,but the cheery grin was still on her face... as if she didn't turn his whole world up on his head.

Step 1 : Set Boundaries

Hwang Hyunjin x Reader fluff, angst, friends to lovers, non idol au word count : 5.6k

Step 2 : Distract Yourself

Kim Seungmin x Reader fluff, angst, friends to lovers, non idol au word count : 4.3k

Step 3 : Don't Spend Time Alone

Lee Minho x Reader fluff, angst, friends to lovers, non idol au word count : 4.5k

Step 4 : Date Other People

Bang Chan x Reader fluff, angst, friends to lovers, non idol au word count : 4.9k

Step 5 : Never Confess

Seo Changbin x Reader fluff, angst, friends to lovers, non idol au word count : 2.8k

Step 6 : Focus On Yourself

Yang Jeongin x Reader fluff, angst, friends to lovers, non idol au word count : 4.6k

Step 7 : Don't Live Together

Han Jisung x Reader fluff, angst, friends to lovers, non idol au word count :

Step 8 : Fall In Love Anyway

Lee Felix x Reader fluff, angst, friends to lovers, non idol au word count :

A/N : There is no posting schedule for this series because I have no idea how long it will take me to write each part, but I will try to get at least 1 part out every week. I will also be opening a taglist for this series if anyone is interested in being added.

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