Sometimes I Just Feel So Lost. Like, How Am I Supposed To Know What I Wanna Do With My Life Before My

Sometimes I just feel so lost. Like, how am i supposed to know what i wanna do with my life before my 20s?? How do i know if im in the right place, doing the things that will "lead me to sucess"? Is there a thing that you do that guarantees you a great future? Or every bad thing is a part of the process also?

“Perhaps we were friends first and lovers second. But then perhaps this is what lovers are.”

— Andre Aciman, Call Me By Your Name

“But to feel nothing so as not to feel anything. What a waste.”

I just finished reading Call Me By Your name and OMG. At the end I was just out of breath, the book is so crude and real and raw. It is sad and at the same time astonishing. I finally understood the Elio that we see in the movie and also Oliver. The love that they had, even if short, marked them for a lifetime, and even if they never got together again it was worth it and there was no regret

So, I watched Enola Holmes yesterday with my friends and rewatched it today with my parents and wow, i have some considerations to make

Firstly, how wonderfull are the costumes of this movie, like omg, they all look so pretty and hadsome in every fucking scene(I dont even have to talk about the amazing cast have i?)

Secondly, i just wanna say how absolutely obsessed i am with Louis Patridge aka Tewksbury(he is a Lord or something like that wow), because he is so adorable and his caracter is such a sweet, charming and kinda funny guy, super well played

Thirdly and not lastly, it was awesome to see the Holmes's family interaction. Sherlock showing a little more emotion was so nice, their mother/Eudoria was the amazing feminist creator and Mycroft was the tipical english conservative kind of guy

So that's it, i just wanna say that if you're thinking of watching this movie i TOTALLY recomend you to. Even I, who am not the greatest fan of mistery and investigation movies, loved it

Why do i feel so left out? Why cant i be happy for my two best friends bonding together? I just wann feel included but im too damn jealous of absolutely everyone. I feel so powerless and alone and im always fearing that people will get tired of my some time and just go away. I wish i was more independent and could just let it go and be happy with myself. What if everyone just talk to me out of pity? Arghhhh i feel so ridiculous