Moodboard 2.1

moodboard 2.1

"Whenever you read you go somewhere forgetting about the reality, so at least nourish yourself for your new journey" were the words he said while bringing me a cup of coffee and some deserts. He's too good for me!

- dreams to reality

moodboard 4.1

"What happened?" he asked, the man standing in front of me, whom I've been in love with since the day I laid my eyes on, whom I spent most of my reality with, whom I explored this surreal dream world with. I don't know how to explain everything I've got to experience just now but one thing that's true is reality or dreams he's the only one I have.

- dreams to reality

moodboard 4

"you gotta stop reading those books, you got a real boyfriend why are you still obsessed with these book men" he teased. "Cause they're far better than you" I teased back, but added "don't sulk now idiot, it was you that I always dream about, happy?". "So it's only me?", "Only you idiot!", then he held my hand firmly as if to never leave it. I did the same because I don't wanna leave him either. Never.

- dreams to reality

The last summer dairies

To my someone :

I don't know about happily ever after, cause I feel we're not meant for 'forever', we part and we live life on our own and might never get to see eachother or even if we do we may be too grown-up or too hesitant/awkward to start a conversation like we do now.. who knows? Who knows what future has in store for us..

Eventually everything ends like it meant to be, not everything can stay with us for an eternity, not even our own flesh and blood. Then why shall I dwell on the possible loss or departure in future, instead of cherishing the moment cause it won't last long, why shall I fear all the what if's and destroy what's happening?

So for the every moment that I've spent with you, I've learnt to cherish it, I've learnt to cherish our time together. It's like a part of you, part of us - a memory - that I'd carry with me till my last breath, even if we're together or just somewhere far away.

I realised I don't wanna name 'us'. I feel we're beyond every bond, every relationship tag that we humans invented. I believe, to love someone doesn't require any tags, all it requires is a heart full of love. To name us or to tag us, is to limit us, to limit our love only to the tag that describe us. If I tag someone as a friend or family I can only love them as such, nothing more. And I feel I love you limitless, tho platonic it has no limits I guess, so I don't wanna tag us and hope you never ask for one, it might sound silly or look like a messed up situation ship, but trust me I just love you, like a person who love another person without any reason, without any tags.

Sometimes I feel like we're romantic in a way, like damn I flirt with you more than I possibly could with my future someone, and we're definitely the friendliest cause we are, we're what not?? We're everything! So baby why limit us with a tag? Why limit our love?!

After all I've said and wrote for you, if you still question your position or the priority I give to you in my life, you're as dumb as a rock! I said what i said.

No tag means no importance?? Just cause I said you're more than a friend but couldn't say what you exactly are meant you mean nothing to me?? You think! When I wanted tagless and limitless love for us, you - unaware and insecure of your role - asked me to limit us?! I understand your inner turmoil but bruh you're dumb sorry!

I may have many people in my life with different tags and different priorities,some might even meant more than you but that doesn't mean you're any less, you remain the same, you remain as the same tag less, strong, pure and silly bond I've got. You're not this, not that, you're everything. Not romantic nor platonic, just soulful.

Remember even if I got hit by a huge, like very huge truck (if!!) And got diagnosed with amnesia, then remember that it's the body, the mind that is effected not my heart or soul. I might forget about your existence, the bodily materialistic existence, but your love remains the same. I might still feel the tears forming in my eyes when I see you in the hospital ward who came to check on me after the incident, I might struggle to remember you but my heart already dwells up and squeezes out the love in form of tears off my eyes, a heavy unknown yet familiar lump forms in my throat cutting the oxygen supply, all cause my heart still loves you while my mind forgot about your existence.

That is how pure our bond is..

That is how pure my love is..

I loved you, neat and clean..

Soulfully and heartfelt..

and will ever do! 𖹭

Tags : #the last summer dairies

Author's note : Idk why half my summer dairies were filled with the love letters I wrote to my bestie (ik I said no tags but it's as in the love, it's beyond the love I show for any friend, while l call her ma or momma, I still describe her as my bestie to the world) but trust me there's other stuff too.. right?!

I have an habit of making scenarios in my head.. be it while listening to music (sometimes listening to one particular song on LOOP) or just staring at the ceiling.. being idle in any way, mentally, makes me imagine beautiful stories for myself, with things I Iove to explore or a guy I never met or know.. and I was just dumping all my ideas here.. trust me it was way better in my head !!

Short stories :

Dreams to reality

moodboard 2

"He looked at me as if I gave him the whole world, who knows perhaps I'm his own whole world and letting him into my own personal little bubble of books made him as happy as I am to let him in."

- dreams to reality