I Have Something To Say About This But I'll Reply Later.

I have something to say about this but I'll reply later.

"I am out with lanterns, looking for myself" (E.Dickinson)

© Jee Won Park (ig: zeewipark)

Who am I?

Okay so like, I think I just accidentally became a fan of BTS?

Like I stumbled on a Christmas version of Butter, and I thought it would be funny to reference that in the Christmas novel I'm working on. But when I did, I ended up needing a random second BTS song. I've only heard Butter and Dynamite, so I thought I'd dig deeper for a song to reference. I found a list of their best songs and randomly chose a couple to listen to. All I wanted was an interesting song to reference and then like... Black Swan? Blood Sweat & Tears? Why are they so fucking good? And why did I listen to Singularity five times in a row and I'm about to listen to it again??? Is this how it happens? One moment you're happily living your life only sort-of tolerating the song Butter, and the next thing you know, you're down a rabbit hole of reading English translations and saying things to your husband like, Oh, those wings in the Blood Sweat & Tears video are the same ones in the Black Swan video, I'm sure of it, and I Need U is definitely not about someone getting stabbed right? and Ah, okay, Jungkook is the one with the lip ring and Suga is the laugh/cry emoji in my fanfic discord.

Today has been very, VERY weird.

@mrsbsmooth

I felt this deep.

Really deep.

Balls deep.

If I could do it all over again, I'd definitely be a slut. I always wanted to be one, but I was too self-conscious because I didn't like my body and I thought no one else would either. It took age to understand that there's literally always someone who wants to fuck you at any given moment. Like right now, there's someone within a mile of you who will happily blow your back out if you give them the green light. But now I'm married and monogamous and boring, but I'm a slut in my heart, because honestly, I never had any interesting experiences NOT being a slut, and that seems a waste.

non-practicing slut. is this anythign

Um. Uh. What are you...why...I can't...