I Don't Like Who I've Become So...

i don't like who i've become so...

my old rules that actually worked and that i pray by:

9 hours of sleep

only liquids (and neseccary suppliments) til 3pm

if really needed, oatmeal, chia pudding or a salad for breakfast (right after waking up)

pick a plate to always eat off of and eat the same portion every time, your brain will trick you

portioning is everything! take a bite of everything you're planning to eat, and see if you really need more (you probably won't)

spices are your friends

drinking tea or decaf coffee when hungry, really helps

no sugar in drinks

no alcohol and if, then straight

only really eat when being observed or if people are questioning why you won't eat your own cooking

there shouldn't be food in your mouth and in your hand at the same time

at least 7500 steps a day

cycling is a form of moving that isn't harsh on joints. it's also fun and can keep your mind occupied at the same time. go everywhere with a bike

karaoke burns a lot of calories. always sing along when listening to music

writing or drawing your feelings out of yourself will make them easier to deal with. you might not be hungry at all

re-read your meanest thoughts! it means a lot more coming from your past self

also draw yourself to see how you change for yourself and in your pov (pictures might not be enough, feelings attached to drawings make them more powerful)

on bad days just clean! walk around the house, do chores and let your mind wonder

a garlic glove before bed for clear skin

self-care before going to bed is important! helps not to binge eat at night

eat to get vitamins and necessary minerals! let's keep our hair and nails! and let's feel euphoric all the time!

it's all about control★

ana I'm back.. i'm sorry and i'll be good again<3

Fasting from 7 pm yesterday to 11 am today writing it here so I cannot cheat :D

Allowed: water, 1 coffee

Todays food tracking

TW

Breakfast: Coffee with 1 tbsp of cream

Lunch: 1/2 an egg w 1/2 cup of rice w 1/4 of an avocado

Snack: 1 monster energy drink

Dinner: 240 calories of carbonara pasta

↺ / ♡ real tips

growing up is realising almost every girl you know has some type of eating problems

I need thin arms.