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Once I start losing all the weight I gained during “recovery” it’ll be over for you bitches
Bodies I wish I had but don’t think I can achieve
Y’all see my dilemma right? I wanna be skinny but I wanna be thick and curvy. But most of all I just wanna be beautifully perfect. But if I gain weight to get the curves my face n arms n shoulders are fat. If I lose the weight, my face is skinny n dainty n my arms n shoulders, but I lose my ass n hips n chichis. To add to that if I get to my ugw I’ll be called a tweaker or crackhead bc of how skinny I’d get.
Liquid Fast
Started: September 11, 2022 10:06AM
Ended: September 12 , 2022 10:17AM
24 hour liquid fast
I like fasting after relapsing bc it’s like a kick start I guess. But I’ve been having the shits all day n they’re runny as fuck too. But I also got the little euphoric feeling of fasting n I love the skinny high.
I wanna post my body ch3ck$ but I don’t want my account deactivated again n again
Any tips to be able to post without getting banned?
pov: me purging after eating half a cupcake
Liquid Fast
August 4 2024 - August 5 2024
I’m rlly disappointed with myself for not fasting for a whole 24 hours, I was 4 hours away and still fucked up. I forgot how it felt to fast n how much I piss out my ass.
Food Log: Aug. 4, 2024
Breakfast:
Half pita bread (138cal)
Ground beef (187cal)
Total: 325cal
Lunch:
Nothing
Total: 0cal
Dinner:
Peanut butter cup ice cream (210cal)
Powerade (142 cal)
Total: 352cal
Exercise:
Walking, 635 steps (19cal)
Total burned: 19cal
Todays total: 677 calories
Notes:
I broke my fast with todays foods. I regretted it but goddamn that meat n ice cream was good. I really wanted more of that ice cream. I also had ONE taki n it took everything in me not to fuck up the whole bag. But anyway I’ll try to have better organized food and get some exercise in as well plus more protein.
(27 grams of protein)
BE CAREFUL
Food Log: Aug. 5, 2024
Breakfast:
Coffee (278cal)
Creamer, half a cup (276cal)
2 tsp instant coffee (2cal)
Menudo, 2 cups (359cal)
Total: 636cal
Lunch:
Nothing
Total: 0cal
Dinner:
Nothing
Total: 0cal
Exercise:
Walking, 1,503 steps (36cal)
Total burned: 36cal
Todays total: 636 calories
Notes:
Didn’t have the time to eat enough protein or do more cardio because I was trying to stay up all day to fix my sleep schedule. I was rlly anxious n paranoid so I took a 5 hour nap, I’m gonna try to sleep tonight n hopefully I’m able bc I’m still rlly tired. The menudo was so fucking good and it was low in calories but still filled me up.
(32 grams of protein)
Food Log Aug. 6, 2024
Breakfast:
McDonald’s caramel frap (426cal)
Total: 426cal
Lunch:
Carrots & tuna (250cal)
1tsp mustard (0cal)
1tsp mayo (100cal)
1tsp relish (20cal)
Tuna (100cal)
Whole carrot (30cal)
Total: 250cal
Dinner:
Nothing (0cal)
Total: 0cal
Exercise:
Walking, 270 steps (17cal)
Total burned: 17cal
Todays total: 676
Notes:
I should’ve done more cardio today but I was wayyyy to sleep deprived n hungry which resulted in me being rlly anxious n paranoid. Anyway tuna was rlly good but I hate how high in calories mayo is. AND THE MCDONALDS CARAMEL FRAP?? crazy good but crazy high in calories. I also tried to make a wrap with the carrots but it got all messed up so I just mixed it and it bothered me how messy it was n not organized.
Today I’ll be having a sleep over with my friends so I’m trying to make sure I burn as much as I can because we be eATINGGG when we’re together. I’m so excited but I’m so fucking hungry, I’ll be watching what I eat but if I end up binging I’m gonna fast the next day for as long as I can. I made my bf chorizo n papas with egg n I wanted to make some for myself but I remembered how august is my month for a restart, I NEED to be skinny for autumn. I still took a bite tho just one bite, one bite won’t hurt right ?
I remember posting this on my old old account so here’s a repost
My friends say I look like beabadoobee but I looked at her measurements n I am naWt BUILT like her (more motivation)
Food Log Aug. 11, 2024
Breakfast:
2.5, short ribs Hawaiian (250cal)
Green tea (2cal)
Steamed cabbage (40cal)
Total: 292cal
Lunch:
Nothing (0cal)
Total: 0cal
Dinner:
Mac n cheese Velveeta, 1 cup (380cal)
Blue Powerade (142cal)
Half a can of tuna (49cal)
Total: 571cal
Todays total: 863
Notes:
I had some coffee at lunch but very little I couldn’t finish it bc I got nauseous. So I made myself eat some Mac n cheese mixed with tuna (sounds nasty but don’t knock it till u try it). It was rlly good but I still felt nauseous so I took some midol n took a nap but still woke up nauseated. Sooooo I took a shower. I feel a lil better but still bleh. Bc of the nausea n heat n my cats kittens I didn’t get any cardio in. I’ll try to burn some calories tmrw.
There’s no way I could’ve made the Mac n cheese look appealing so there’s a lack of mealspo in this log n it low key bothers me😭
Food Log Aug. 12, 2024
Breakfast:
Mac N Cheese, 1 cup (380cal)
Tuna, half a serving (50cal)
Total: 430cal
Lunch:
Nothing (0cal)
Total: 0cal
Dinner:
Coffee (120cal)
Instant coffee (2cal)
Half a cup of creamer (118cal)
Total: 120cal
Snack:
3 bites of a BLT (32cal)
Exercise:
Dancing, 8 minutes (36cal)
Total burned: 36cal
Todays total: 582 cal
Notes:
Didn’t finish my coffee because I was sleepy and starting to get anxious. Didn’t get a picture of the BLT bc it was my bfs. Got some dancing in but not enough but at least I restricted rlly low.
Food Log Aug. 13, 2024:
Breakfast:
Oatmeal (420cal)
Extra crunchy peanut butter, 2tbsp (190cal)
Oats, 1 cup (150cal)
Strawberry jam (80cal)
Total: 420cal
Lunch:
Nothing (0cal)
Dinner:
Carne asada burrito (486cal)
Total: 486cal
Exercise:
Yoga, 26 minutes (70cal)
Total: 70cal
Todays today: 836 cal
Notes:
I missed pb&j oatmeal so bad so it was nice to have it again. My bf gave me his burrito bc I didn’t eat I felt rlly bad. His grandparents keep asking me why I’m not rlly eating n I just tell them I’m trying to lose weight. His grandma n niece keep asking if I’m pregnant bc of my belly growth n I just ugh more motivation I guess.
Food Log Aug. 14, 2024
Breakfast:
Chorizo with potato and bacon (320cal)
Fried egg, 2 (215cal)
Total: 534cal
Lunch:
McDonald’s medium fries (339cal)
Medium sprite (46cal)
2 plain cheese burgers (566cal)
Total: 951cal
Dinner:
Nothing (0cal)
Total: 0cal
Exercise:
Dancing, 12 minutes (54cal)
Total: 54cal
Todays total: 1432 cal
Notes:
I didn’t finish all of the chorizo n eggs n stuff which is good n all but I still went over my cal limit ☹️. I’ll do better tmrw. The McDonald’s was so good I couldn’t help it. I need to stop losing control over food let alone food that isn’t healthy.
Food Log: Aug. 15, 2024
Breakfast:
Rice cake (35cal)
25 grapes (85cal)
Cookies n cream spread (105cal)
Total: 224cal
Lunch:
Nothing (0cal)
Total: 0cal
Dinner:
Thin steak, 2 servings (378cal)
Homemade salsa (19cal)
Total: 398cal
Snack:
Cherry pastry (210cal)
Mango dragon fruit refresher (86cal)
Total: 296cal
Exercise:
4,592 steps (163cal)
Total burned: 163cal
Todays Total: 755 cal
Notes:
My breakfast was really cute it looks like a moon and sun. I walked a lot today maybe not as much as I wanted but at least enough to lower a good amount of calories. I went to the mall with my bf n got some supplies for school. I’m gonna try to go to the mall again to get some hygiene n clothes for school with my friend maybe.