Adhd Inattentive - Tumblr Posts
I wanna take a break from existing for a little while
It's not all in my head. It's in my chest and stomach too.
If I died now, I'd go straight to hell.
Sense of urgency doesn't cut it anymore. I need someone to pick me up and hold my hand.
Too self aware to be happy, too oblivious to be sad
Being exposed to porn as a child didn't do me any favors. I've been entirely too overly sexual ever since then. I didn't know just how awful that was at the time. I'm scared that I tried something on one of my brothers. I'm even more scared to ask.
I think I'm just chronically wrong
I feel like I'm having a panic attack but without the panic. My heart rate is normal, my temperature is fine and stuff. But I just feel wrong. Idk how to explain it. My chest is heavy, I feel gross, I'm squirming, and I just feel this massive guilt on my conscience. I feel like I should be panicking even though I have nothing to panic about.
Need to scream but I live in a dorm
Using Tumblr instead of being honest in therapy >>>>>
[EDIT] nevermind they had s'mores :)))
I have to do something for the first time later. I think I'd rather die tbh
"My executive dysfunction isn't that bad" babe you haven't showered in three months. Please acknowledge the problem.
It's me, I'm babe. I just showered for the first time in like three months 😭 i started having dreams about showering, that's how fucking bad it is by now.
"hey y'all" and it's just seven bots that follow me
My therapist moved away and I don't really feel like seeing anyone else so fuck that I guess
I rlly think I know everything til you ask me to do anything (narcissistic bitch with no self esteem ugggghhh 🥲✌🏻)
relationships
if i were to describe my personal relationships with other fleshy pink meat creatures, It would be that everyone i know is a judgemental biological flesh computer jotting down and computing every mistake i have ever made. with this, the fleshy meat computers calculate how hate-able and like-able i am, and is set to explode if i exceed my "being a crappy person" debt. my social life consists of me trying to disarm ticking time bombs where i can't tell what time they are all set to and then i mentally crucify myself for every little mistake i have made my entire life.
does anyone else struggles watching "bart gets an F" because it hits close to home ? that end scene where he still failed the test even though he studied hard just hits me hard man. this fucking episode-
Beat it into your head until it sticks, like repeatedly. If it's a passage from a textbook read it once, read it again but define unfamiliar words, read it again, and find key terms. Usually, a textbook has them in bold or highlighted if not ask your teacher, p.s. write down any questions you have as they come to you and then give them to the teacher I find this helps.
Once again you reread the passage as you summarize. Then you reread the passage as you look at your notes to make sure you didn't miss anything, and read it again as you write down a "cheat sheet." At the end, you have read the passage 6 times if you need to reread your notes as many times as needed.
This is a marathon, not a race you can take as long as you need to.
How does one with ADHD get information to just fucking stick in their brain goddamnit I have a squiggly brain just like everyone else get in there you fuck AND STAY THERE