At 4:30am - Tumblr Posts

Crying at 4:30 in the morning.

I'm not sure why but somehow i felt good while crying. Maybe coz I can't see anything. Just the darkness filling the room. Or maybe cause i felt like the same person i was back then? I felt i was the old me. I felt like a human again that is allowed to cry and not told to not to be weak and small at any circumstances. Or perhaps because no one's around to hear my sobs and witness my weakness?... I am definitely feeling lonely and disappointed. Like no one cares about me and they just want to ignore me like i don't exist. I guess this is how my life is. I just hafta accept it. I just hope i'll be stronger so i can carry on & live my life the right way. I wasn't sad coz i cried or coz i was weak. I cried coz i was alone and no one cares to show how i am loved and how they appreciate my existence. Oh and wanna know another sad part of it? The after effect. I had a bad headache but it didn't last that long which is good. Aja! I need to start this day with a smile. It may be a forced one but i bet it's better than showing a frown and making other people show some pity at me...