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so... among the apparitions/curses you've seen so far, which was the strangest?

You know, now that you mention... I often see a one-eyed cat-shaped figure in random places. Not sure if it's a type of Fly Head or if it does have a level and type of curse.

𝕀 𝕨𝕠𝕦𝕝𝕕 𝕟𝕠𝕥 𝕒𝕡𝕡𝕣𝕠𝕒𝕔𝕙 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕠𝕟𝕖 𝕚𝕗 𝕤𝕖𝕖𝕟 𝕒𝕘𝕒𝕚𝕟. 𝕊𝕠𝕞𝕖𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕚𝕤 𝕕𝕖𝕗𝕚𝕟𝕚𝕥𝕖𝕝𝕪 𝕠𝕗𝕗 𝕨𝕚𝕥𝕙 𝕚𝕥.

(art by @ultfreakme)

𝕋ℍ𝕀𝕊 𝕃𝕆𝕆𝕂𝕊 𝔸𝕄𝔸ℤ𝕀ℕ𝔾!

I agree! Although, If I'm not wrong, your Cursed Corpse's carved lines don't show up to non-sorcerers...

𝔼𝕧𝕖𝕟 𝕤𝕠, 𝕀 𝕝𝕠𝕠𝕜 𝕤𝕠 𝕓𝕒𝕕𝕒𝕤𝕤! 𝕃𝕠𝕠𝕜 𝕒𝕥 𝕞𝕪 𝕡𝕠𝕤𝕖 𝕨𝕚𝕥𝕙 𝕄𝕠𝕠𝕟 𝔻𝕣𝕖𝕘𝕤!

If you don't mind asking or if your sensei don't mind answering... what exactly was that "misunderstanding"?

As far as I know, it had something to do with a window seeing Meguru-san doing something suspicious far from Jujutsu High. Only later on, Yuuji-sensei would get the full story and thankfully it wasn't anything illegal or life-threatening to anyone. He was just packing things to leave.

𝕊𝕠𝕣𝕣𝕪 𝕚𝕗 𝕚𝕥'𝕤 𝕤𝕠 𝕧𝕒𝕘𝕦𝕖. 𝕎𝕖 𝕕𝕠𝕟'𝕥 𝕜𝕟𝕠𝕨 𝕒𝕝𝕝 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕕𝕖𝕥𝕒𝕚𝕝𝕤, 𝕓𝕦𝕥 𝕒𝕥 𝕝𝕖𝕒𝕤𝕥 𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕪 𝕟𝕖𝕧𝕖𝕣 𝕝𝕠𝕤𝕥 𝕥𝕠𝕦𝕔𝕙 𝕨𝕚𝕥𝕙 𝕖𝕒𝕔𝕙 𝕠𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕣. 𝔼𝕧𝕖𝕟 𝕚𝕗 𝕄𝕖𝕘𝕦𝕣𝕦-𝕤𝕒𝕟 𝕥𝕠𝕠𝕜 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕤 𝕙𝕚𝕜𝕚𝕜𝕠𝕞𝕠𝕣𝕚 𝕝𝕚𝕗𝕖𝕤𝕥𝕪𝕝𝕖…

Update: it's an exceptional Fly Head type. I dub him "Aku-tan". DO NOT MESS WITH IT; if you decide to capture it, have a backup plan for your backup plan, because it is a clever lil' b-word.

𝕐𝕖𝕒𝕙, 𝕤𝕙𝕖 𝕙𝕒𝕕 𝕒 𝕓𝕒𝕕 𝕖𝕩𝕡𝕖𝕣𝕚𝕖𝕟𝕔𝕖 𝕝𝕠𝕠𝕜𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕗𝕠𝕣 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕤 𝔸𝕜𝕦-𝕥𝕒𝕟 𝔽𝕝𝕪 ℍ𝕖𝕒𝕕, 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕚𝕤𝕟'𝕥 𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕕𝕪 𝕥𝕠 𝕥𝕒𝕝𝕜 𝕒𝕓𝕠𝕦𝕥 𝕚𝕥. 𝕀𝕛𝕚𝕔𝕙𝕚-𝕤𝕒𝕟 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕐𝕦𝕦𝕛𝕚 𝕒𝕣𝕖 𝕒𝕨𝕒𝕣𝕖 𝕠𝕗 𝕚𝕥𝕤 𝕖𝕩𝕚𝕤𝕥𝕖𝕟𝕔𝕖.

so... among the apparitions/curses you've seen so far, which was the strangest?

You know, now that you mention... I often see a one-eyed cat-shaped figure in random places. Not sure if it's a type of Fly Head or if it does have a level and type of curse.

𝕀 𝕨𝕠𝕦𝕝𝕕 𝕟𝕠𝕥 𝕒𝕡𝕡𝕣𝕠𝕒𝕔𝕙 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕠𝕟𝕖 𝕚𝕗 𝕤𝕖𝕖𝕟 𝕒𝕘𝕒𝕚𝕟. 𝕊𝕠𝕞𝕖𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕚𝕤 𝕕𝕖𝕗𝕚𝕟𝕚𝕥𝕖𝕝𝕪 𝕠𝕗𝕗 𝕨𝕚𝕥𝕙 𝕚𝕥.

𝔸𝕥𝕤𝕦𝕙𝕒 𝕙𝕒𝕤𝕟'𝕥 𝕤𝕒𝕚𝕕 𝕞𝕦𝕔𝕙 𝕤𝕚𝕟𝕔𝕖 𝕤𝕙𝕖 𝕞𝕖𝕟𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟𝕖𝕕 𝕋𝕒𝕜𝕒𝕓𝕒-𝕤𝕒𝕟. 𝕊𝕙𝕖 𝕘𝕒𝕧𝕖 𝕙𝕚𝕞 𝕒 𝕔𝕒𝕝𝕝 𝕒𝕗𝕥𝕖𝕣𝕨𝕒𝕣𝕕𝕤, 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕙𝕖 𝕥𝕠𝕝𝕕 𝕙𝕖𝕣 𝕒𝕓𝕠𝕦𝕥 𝕒 𝕕𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕞 𝕙𝕖 𝕙𝕒𝕕… 𝕒𝕡𝕡𝕒𝕣𝕖𝕟𝕥𝕝𝕪 𝕒𝕗𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝕙𝕚𝕤 𝕓𝕒𝕥𝕥𝕝𝕖 𝕨𝕚𝕥𝕙 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕂𝕖𝕟𝕛𝕒𝕜𝕦 𝕘𝕦𝕪, 𝕪𝕖𝕥 𝕤𝕥𝕚𝕝𝕝 𝕧𝕖𝕣𝕪 𝕧𝕚𝕧𝕚𝕕 𝕚𝕟 𝕙𝕚𝕤 𝕞𝕚𝕟𝕕 𝕥𝕚𝕝𝕝 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕤 𝕕𝕒𝕪.

A dark space... streams of light... glimpses of a battle... Then he reached out... and punched. One. Of the. Streams.

𝕐𝕠𝕦 𝕕𝕠𝕟'𝕥 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕜 𝕙𝕖 𝕒𝕔𝕥𝕦𝕒𝕝𝕝𝕪-

O-or it was just some crazy coincidence.

𝕄𝕒𝕪𝕓𝕖 𝕚𝕥 𝕨𝕒𝕤 𝕒𝕝𝕝 𝕒 𝕕𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕞. 𝕃𝕚𝕜𝕖 𝕪𝕠𝕦𝕣 𝕣𝕖𝕔𝕦𝕣𝕣𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕗𝕒𝕝𝕝𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕚𝕟 𝕒 𝕤𝕡𝕚𝕣𝕒𝕝 𝕤𝕥𝕒𝕚𝕣𝕔𝕒𝕤𝕖 𝕡𝕚𝕥 𝕟𝕚𝕘𝕙𝕥𝕞𝕒𝕣𝕖.

Yeah... though you can't deny the possibilit-

ℍ𝕖𝕪, 𝕤𝕚𝕤. 𝕀𝕥'𝕤 𝕋𝕒𝕜𝕒𝕓𝕒-𝕤𝕒𝕟. ℍ𝕖 𝕕𝕠𝕖𝕤 𝕨𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕙𝕖 𝕕𝕠𝕖𝕤. 𝕁𝕦𝕤𝕥… 𝕕𝕠𝕟'𝕥 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕜 𝕒𝕓𝕠𝕦𝕥 𝕚𝕥, 𝕠𝕜𝕒𝕪?

Does the name 'Nobara Kugisaki' reminds you of something?

Nobara-san is so cool! Though I wish our first meeting went better...

𝕐𝕖𝕒𝕙, 𝕒𝕥 𝕗𝕚𝕣𝕤𝕥, 𝔸𝕥𝕤𝕦𝕙𝕒 𝕨𝕒𝕤 𝕡𝕦𝕥 𝕠𝕗𝕗 𝕓𝕪 𝕂𝕦𝕘𝕚𝕤𝕒𝕜𝕚-𝕤𝕒𝕟'𝕤 𝕓𝕝𝕦𝕟𝕥 𝕒𝕥𝕥𝕚𝕥𝕦𝕕𝕖, 𝕓𝕦𝕥 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕘𝕤 𝕨𝕒𝕣𝕞𝕖𝕕 𝕦𝕡 𝕡𝕣𝕖𝕥𝕥𝕪 𝕤𝕠𝕠𝕟. 𝕀𝕥 𝕒𝕝𝕤𝕠 𝕙𝕖𝕝𝕡𝕖𝕕 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕄𝕒𝕜𝕚-𝕤𝕒𝕟 𝕨𝕒𝕤 𝕡𝕣𝕖𝕤𝕖𝕟𝕥.

She was also very mad at Yuuji-sensei. Kiyo-kun said these arguments between them were actually quite normal...

ℕ𝕠 𝕨𝕠𝕟𝕕𝕖𝕣 𝕤𝕙𝕖 𝕨𝕒𝕤 𝕞𝕒𝕕. 𝕋𝕙𝕖 𝕨𝕒𝕪 𝕐𝕦𝕦𝕛𝕚 𝕒𝕧𝕠𝕚𝕕𝕤 𝕥𝕒𝕝𝕜𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕒𝕓𝕠𝕦𝕥 𝟚𝟘𝟙𝟠 𝕤𝕥𝕦𝕗𝕗, 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕜𝕟𝕠𝕨𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕪𝕠𝕦𝕣 𝕤𝕥𝕣𝕦𝕘𝕘𝕝𝕖𝕤 𝕨𝕚𝕥𝕙 𝕤𝕦𝕓𝕥𝕝𝕖𝕥𝕪, 𝕤𝕒𝕣𝕔𝕒𝕤𝕞 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕚𝕞𝕡𝕝𝕚𝕖𝕕 𝕥𝕒𝕝𝕜𝕚𝕟𝕘...

...

ℂ𝕠𝕞𝕖 𝕠𝕟, 𝕨𝕖 𝕓𝕠𝕥𝕙 𝕜𝕟𝕠𝕨 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕙𝕒𝕧𝕖 𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕤𝕖. 𝕋𝕙𝕖 𝕡𝕠𝕚𝕟𝕥 𝕚𝕤 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕚𝕥'𝕤 𝕦𝕟𝕕𝕖𝕣𝕤𝕥𝕒𝕟𝕕𝕒𝕓𝕝𝕖 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕒𝕤𝕤𝕦𝕞𝕖𝕕 𝕂𝕦𝕘𝕚𝕤𝕒𝕜𝕚-𝕤𝕒𝕟 𝕨𝕒𝕤 𝕕𝕖𝕒𝕕, 𝕓𝕪 𝕙𝕠𝕨 𝕧𝕒𝕘𝕦𝕖 𝕐𝕦𝕦𝕛𝕚 𝕚𝕤.

I know... I also can't avoid reacting all the time my traits are called out. It's as imprinted on me as my fairness complex.

Either way, as far as I met her, I like Kugisaki-san.

any actualizations on the JJK trio? We know how Yuji and Nobara look now, but still no clue of Megumi- er, sorry, Meguru (also, funny how the name's meaning remains even with changes)

Hmm... well, looking at a picture of them from those days, Yuuji-sensei is taller now. WAAAAY taller.

ℍ𝕖'𝕤 𝕒 𝕗𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕜𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕘𝕚𝕒𝕟𝕥. 𝕋𝕙𝕖𝕟 𝕒𝕘𝕒𝕚𝕟, 𝕔𝕠𝕟𝕤𝕚𝕕𝕖𝕣𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕨𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕀 𝕜𝕟𝕠𝕨 𝕒𝕓𝕠𝕦𝕥 𝕙𝕚𝕞 𝕟𝕠𝕨…

And Nobara-san has different clothes, new haircut, and also said something about 'scar removal'... though I don't think she removed it all.

𝕋𝕙𝕖 𝕡𝕣𝕚𝕔𝕖 𝕠𝕗 𝕗𝕚𝕘𝕙𝕥𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕨𝕚𝕥𝕙 𝕄𝕒𝕙𝕚𝕥𝕠… 𝕀'𝕞 𝕘𝕝𝕒𝕕 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕕𝕠𝕟'𝕥 𝕙𝕒𝕧𝕖 𝕥𝕠 𝕨𝕠𝕣𝕣𝕪 𝕒𝕓𝕠𝕦𝕥 𝕀𝕕𝕝𝕖 𝕋𝕣𝕒𝕟𝕤𝕗𝕚𝕘𝕦𝕣𝕒𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟 𝕖𝕗𝕗𝕖𝕔𝕥𝕤. Now Meguru-san... he let his hair grow and tied it back? Both Yuuji-sensei and Nobara-san said his hair resembled his sister's, though Maki-san pointed his fringe is more like his long-gone dad...

ℂ𝕠𝕞𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕥𝕠 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕜 𝕠𝕗 𝕚𝕥, 𝕤𝕙𝕖 𝕎𝔸𝕊 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕠𝕟𝕖 𝕨𝕙𝕠 𝕒𝕔𝕥𝕦𝕒𝕝𝕝𝕪 𝕡𝕦𝕥 𝕖𝕧𝕖𝕣𝕪𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕥𝕠𝕘𝕖𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕣 𝕒𝕓𝕠𝕦𝕥 𝕙𝕚𝕤 𝕕𝕒𝕕 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕙𝕠𝕨 𝕙𝕖 𝕒𝕔𝕥𝕦𝕒𝕝𝕝𝕪 𝕤𝕒𝕨 𝕙𝕚𝕞 𝕒𝕗𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝕓𝕖𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕣𝕖𝕤𝕤𝕦𝕣𝕖𝕔𝕥𝕖𝕕… 𝕐𝕦𝕦𝕛𝕚 𝕤𝕒𝕚𝕕 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕤 𝕙𝕒𝕡𝕡𝕖𝕟𝕖𝕕 𝕓𝕖𝕗𝕠𝕣𝕖 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥 '𝕞𝕚𝕤𝕦𝕟𝕕𝕖𝕣𝕤𝕥𝕒𝕟𝕕𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕤𝕚𝕥𝕦𝕒𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟'.

I'm glad he told us about it already. Or more like Meguru-san got him to 'confess' after they came over with their protégés.

a nice cherry mocktail while im in class :)

just because your best friend is long distance doesnt mean you can't study together! we have a shared notion calendar and a pretty great setup with discord and shared music.

also, have yall checked out the trader joe's candles for this fall? the honeycrisp apple one is so nice and helps me get into a studying mood.

don't forget to eat good meals and hydrate a lot when you study.

just because your best friend is long distance doesnt mean you can't study together! we have a shared notion calendar and a pretty great setup with discord and shared music.

also, have yall checked out the trader joe's candles for this fall? the honeycrisp apple one is so nice and helps me get into a studying mood.

don't forget to eat good meals and hydrate a lot when you study.

sushi and bio? i think so.

sushi and bio? i think so.

studying quadratic functions today for math 🕺

hard to do after work, but i can do it!

studying quadratic functions today for math 🕺

hard to do after work, but i can do it!

reading and learning more and more about autistic and adhd. I'm getting the feeling im on the spectrum and now i can't stop looking stuff up and learn even more.

i made already sooo many tests, who said congrats you might be on the spectrum... still i'm like yeah... cool but i dont have all things checked out so i cant be ....

anybody else or just me? :D ...

autistic loneliness

i think one of the worst parts about autism for me is the never ending loneliness or the inability to actually connect with others. i have had so many friendless years in the past and even most of my family dont like me or we just cant seem to connect even if both parties would want to.

i have gotten better at social skills, meeting new people and i mask relatively well and i do think most people find me decent at first and kind but there always seems to be a sort of wall between me and others. i have always felt like i lack something but that it isnt just explained by the lack of social skills but something else.

i think handling all the other problems that come with being autistic, would be easier to manage if this one wasnt one for me. i do think that humans including autistics need community and a close support system and not having that is just awful.

maybe not all autistic people feel this way but i can only speak for myself. i have even met a lot of autistic people and very few have talked about a similar experience but i still seem to feel far away from them. i have always needed a lot of alone time and dont need to be social as much as others (like the amount of social events in a week) but i have always wanted close friends to be in reach. i have this terrible longing for community and closeness and i just never seem to grasp it. its all i hope for.

í feel unwanted a lot or at least like im always the place holder friend and never feeling like other people would choose me if they had more options.

i have gotten a couple new friends recently. we see a lot with the other one and get along very well and have similar interests. she has also talked about being lonely and friendless a lot through out her life but one day when i was telling her how i had a friend once that only would see me when others werent free, she said that oh thats kinda like how we are. she said it jokingly and added that yeah there isnt many others and youre the one here so thats why we are friends. it hurt cause it wasnt even the second time this has happened to me. i thought i had made a genuine connection and a friend again but she doesnt see me that way, it makes the joy i have had with her feel bitter.

i didnt have many close friends growing up. i thought i had but later on i have realized this. this one time has stuck with me. this one friend that i thought was a close friend or almost my best friend ever and that i saw a lot after school and for years. at the least this one summer she didnt reach out but one single time that she called for advice on a subject that i knew a lot about and that was it, she didnt ask how i was or if we could meet up just nothing else.

my last relationship if you could call it that, wasnt good. we rarely were officially together, she would get interested in others and leave me alone with no care for my feelings. when they would leave, she would come back to me and pretend like that didnt happen and be all lovely with me and say she wanted to be close with me again and then the whole thing would repeat.

with another not too long ago made friend, i find her easy to talk to and she was been flirty with me sometimes and i do like that but im afraid the same thing will happen again as with my last relationship. we havent known for that long. her last and only relationship was bad and with a man and i think shes trying to find something in me to feel healed from it without necessarily knowing me well or having a romantic connection with me. in my last relationship the girl would leave me for men mostly. i dont know i just have this fear that im only good for as an idea or as an experiment.

my mother has never had many close friends and would use me as kind of a friend. she has felt more like an older roommate to me than a mother. she dumps her interests and struggles on me and then brushes everything i have to say aside. my mother nor my father has ever seemed interested in who i am or what i do. most of the time if im in a group setting and i speak its quickly forgotten what i added into it. others in my family almost every single time brush aside or misunderstand what i said and dont ask for a clarification.

most of the time i feel like people dont listen to what i say even in a casual conversation, people dont respond or they interrupt me without a care for what i was saying. i dont understand how it keeps happening with so many people through out my life. do they notice me as autistic in their own way and place me lower than other people? is it that i dont boast about work or education? or because i dont perfectly conform in other ways? is it my slightly noticeable speech impediment?

i feel like i will always feel like the second option in everything. i have been trying to mask my whole life and i put myself out there and i have nice interactions here and there with strangers and im happy for it. im not going to stop trying to find people like me but sometimes even just sharing something feels pointless.

ATTENTION FELLOW AUTISTICS

INCREDIBLY GOOD TEXTURE ALERT:

Anything with this texture in a satin pillowcase

Oh my fucking lord?

I just got asked about my special interest???

Holy fucking shit??

I am in love.

I found out about symbols, here’s my first actual sprite animation on ToonSquid, and probably ever.

Left one’s first right one’s made a few minutes later.