Blacknoiseabyss - Tumblr Posts
Two middle aged women passing me and friend on the street.
Friend: Did you see the woman on the right? I loved her hair.
Me: Nah.. I only noticed them bitching about how people on welfare is taking their money..
Friend: ..... I changed my mind. She looked so fucking stupid omg.
Tomorrow is the anniversary of your death.. It's been a few years now, but it doesn't seem to make it any easier.. a huge part of me died along with you that day. I've been trying to find a new normal but I don't know how. The change was too big.. and I'm tiered.
I love you and I miss you 🖤
I've mentioned before that I've never wanted children.. that is true. Exept for when they died. Right then I really wished we did.. purely for selfish reasons of course.
But at the time I couldn't stop thinking that if we did there'd still be something left of them in this word.. and maybe that vast emptiness I felt wouldn't have been as overwhelming if I'd had a part of them still with me to love and care for..
Friend who moved away a couple months back has decided to make a surprise visit today. Mental health wise this couldn't have come at a better time tbh.. Highly needed 🖤
Trying to allow a healthy, reasonable amount of emotions to seep through at any given moment is damn near fucking impossible for me..
Feel like I'd need an emotional engineering degree to open the valves just right to avoid causing a complete psychological meltdown.
That must have been the shortest termination in Tumblr history.. lol
Like 30 minutes? This stupid ass site tho.. 💀
Random nugget of wisdom:
Don't use steel wool to try and get tattoo ink stains off you.. your skin doesn't like that 💀
Just finished rewatching The Cell and it reminded of this pic I took that's been laying in my drafts since spring 💀 [Really been on top of the posting game on here, ey?] Anyway.. I liked the contrasting colors with the bright blue sky and the pink petals.
And back into the abyss I go.. 🤘
Me having a cold and cooking dinner:
I'm gonna make this chicken so fucking spicy it burns a hole in my throat and makes my nose hairs fall out.. 💀
Realized I never reblogged the results of this poll and I totally need to cause I would've bet everything it was going to end up being pretty even between non talkers and talkers.. so about 50/25/25.
Holy shit was I wrong. Apparently I'm very much in the minority here 💀 Lol
Had a conversation about this with a couple friends the other day and I'm now very curious about it.. Do y'all talk out loud to yourselves? Cause I never ever do [excluding swearing when stubbing my toe or occationally talking to the cats]
Leave a comment telling me what you picked if you feel comfortable with it, since I can't see who's voting for what option.. cause I really wanna know 💀
Just gonna do some quick tweaks to this drawing..
*2 hours later*
Oh for fuck's sake 💀
1h + 20min + 40min
That's a good nights sleep right there.. 💀 only took me 9 hours too
Cheers ya bastards 🫗
When you're so fucking tired you just can't keep your eyes open anymore, but everytime you doze off your body jerks you awake in a panic.. over and over and over again.
So.. been pretty down lately and a friend suggested we'd go to this lil petting zoo thing they always set up for rescue animals at a local park during the summer months.. How could I ever turn animals down? Not possible.
I vibed with big boy here.. we're buds now. 💀
Don't judge me.. lol
[shoutout to friend for making a cameo]
Plot twist: No one but my immediate blood relatives calls me by my birth name. Everyone else uses a nickname my then friends gave me way back in like 2nd grade.. and I still use it when introducing myself so apparently it stuck.. lol 💀
🌈 The More You Know ⭐️
She found a bug and the afternoon peace was lost..