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LAUFEY REAL
"FROM THE START!"
SAE ITOSHI X READER !
GENDER NEUTRAL!
warnings : sae being a cutie patootie

From the day Sae arrived in Spain, it was not going well. He had just met up with his competitors in the Royal Madrid club and he had felt absolutely, utterly defeated. There was no way he was going to become the world's best striker. It was out of reach, for a nobody like him.
Not even in academics can Sae outshine them. Although it was obvious that he clearly wanted to at least try to best them in something, not even trigonometry was on his side. In many ways, Sae had already given up on his dreams.
Merely a month has passed and Sae still has not found any sort of joy since coming to Spain. Everyday, even after merciless professors unleashing questions that required at least 18 scholars and 23 trained council leaders at the Agora from Ancient Athens to decipher (his classmates solved it in approximately 0.394 seconds), he also had to face brutal training sessions from his dog-like coach, barking orders at him day after day, week after week. This torture sessions continued on for weeks on end, until Sae could not take it anymore. He just really wanted a break, and just really wanted to see Rin again. Sae shut the door to his apartment, and really, REALLY wish he did not break down in his paper-thin dorm walls. That all went down the drain when he turned his phone on and saw Rin, 5 year old Rin, smiling back at him. Soon, one tears turned to two, two turned to three, and three turned to many. Itoshi Sae, Japan's child prodigy, the treasure of Japanese Football, was having a mental breakdown in his dorm room in Spain.
Who would be the knight in shining armor to save his day?
...You, of course. This wouldn't be a Sae x reader fanfic if it weren't you.
Kind-hearted you living next door overheard his sobbing and got worried. Who would be crying at 6.50 pm in the night? You were tired from studying about the law from the Roman Empire anyways, and thought you deserved a break from the mind boggling questions posed to you. (Seriously, who asks people to find the cause of the downfall of Rome? As a LAW STUDENT?)
So, you did only what your tired mind could think of. Bake some cookies for your neighbour. Do you have all the ingredients? Yes, since you bought them on a whim, albeit losing the motivation to bake immediately. You got up from your chair and decided to head to your kitchen. (LET HIM COOK 🔥🔥🔥)
Although the cupcakes were baked on a whim, you can't deny that the sweet strawberry scent was in fact, quite convincing that this cupcake was most definitely one of the best things you've baked in a while (being a law student doesn't really allow for leisure activities..), and it did help get your mind off the excruciatingly painful essay questions anyways. Now, all you have to do it just pass it to him. Easy, right?
The doorbell rang once. Twice. Thrice, and you hear heavy footsteps trudging to the door. You took a deep breath as you hear the door handle turn, and tired eyes glanced at the cupcakes in your hand before turning towards you. All you could do was give an awkward smile to the eyes, covered by the bangs and looking absolutely demolished. "Um, You...sounded like you weren't having the best of days. You, um, do you want a cupcake?" A deafening silence fills the room. "Okay. Thanks." Sae gives a small smile. An approval.
You and Sae's "neighbourliness" got closer and closer, until Sae and you actually were considered best friends. Best friends that attended everything together, from Sae's soccer matches to your court proceedings, and even Sae following you to every frat house party (in the breaks given, of course.) to ensure that nobody dares to even come one inch closer to you when you're intoxicated.
It was actuallg at this particular party when you realised your true feelings for Sae. And that's when you're sober, so you REALLY know it's real. The realisation hits you when you come back from the toilet to see Sae pushing someone away approaching your drink with a ... something in hand. They were then engaged in an argument, and then, Sae just...slapped him. It was like everything happened in a flash, but the constant increase in your heartbeats sing a different song. Sae eventually was so done with the guy he went upstairs, dragged your arm and found a quiet place to sit at to calm down.
"...fucker. What a bitch. Can't believe he would even think I would let him touch that." Sae kept grumbling and mumbling about it, but your mind was only focus on how his long lashes fluttered when he batted his eyelids, or how he crumples his cup in rage when bitching about that guy.
For you. For you, for you, for you, for you, for you-
Thoughts were swarming your head right now, and Sae, seeing the distressed look on your face, got worried for you.
"You kay?" Sae's worried voice asked.
"Y-yeah, thanks." You meekly reply.
The music from the party slowly drowns out. The Spotify playlist that Sae made (for you too, by the way) was all you could hear beside the blood rush in your ears.
"Mmn, this song is good." Sae commented.
Have to get this off my chest, I'm telling you today..
"Sae, can I tell you something?" You raised up.
"Hm? What's up?" Sae questioned, his eyebrows raising.
That when I talk to you, oh, Cupid walks right through, and shoots an arrow through my heart..!
"Promise, PROMISE, you won't laugh?" You had to make sure. It's gonna be very extremely embarrassing if he does.
"What's got ya so worked up? I won't, I promise!" Sae ruffed up your hair adoringly.
And I sound like a loon, but don't you feel it too?
"Well, I-" You hesitated. Will he reciprocate your feelings? What if he doesn't and finds you annoying? What if he didn't even like you as a friend? What if-
"Hey, you're off again. What did you want to say?" Sae's voice takes on a sterner tone, concern etched all over his face for you.
"Well, I confess I loved you from the start.."
You have never seen Sae's face so red before.
words i want to say



synopsis: four times itoshi sae wanted to tell you he loved you, and the one time he finally did.
pairing: itoshi sae x gn!reader | words: 1.6k | warnings: established relationship, fluff
notes: why hello! i'm back with this 4+1 prompt that i absolutely love, i wrote this in like an hour so this is definitely not proofread lol and istg i'm writing the kiss prompts so bear with me :((
masterlist

i.
it was a game like any other. at a certain point in his life, sae didn’t really felt a huge thrill by entering a stadium, already knowing he would win easily and beautifully destroy his enemies. this time, however, there was electricity dancing through his veins and prickling under his skin — and it was all because of you, who was sitting in the stands, wearing his jersey, for the first time.
and sure, he could swear such a thing did not affect him at all; he was the itoshi sae, after all, and anyone would die to wear his original jersey at one of his games.
but you weren’t just anyone. you were his partner of three months, and everything about your relationship was still fairly new, and for the first time in forever, sae really, really didn’t want to mess this up.
you were beautiful, sitting prettily in the special section of the crowd, reserved for family, partners and very rich people. sae could distinguish your smile from miles away, because it shined like nothing he had ever seen. he felt his heart beating faster, and it was not from all the running around the field.
as expected, his team won, with sae scoring a gorgeous final goal that made everyone jump in the stands. though, he didn’t care about the pats in the back from his teammates, the thumbs up from his coach or the shrilling screams of the crowd — all he could focus was on you, hugging his neck and beaming like the sun.
“you were amazing, sae!”
it was fucking early. he knew it.
but as he hugged you back and buried his nose in your hair, the words i love you flew through his mind.
ii.
“this is stupid.”
you giggled at his words. this sound always sounded more like a melody to sae, but he would rather die than admit that. instead, he just glared at you, sitting right beside him at a stupid photobooth.
“c’mon, baby, it’s gonna be fun!” you said, completely unaware of how the word baby did bad things to his heart. he wasn’t brave enough to call you pet names yet, but you were always more outgoing than he was.
“don’t wanna.”
“please?” you pouted, your eyes becoming googly like a puppy. he could only mouth a tsk, knowing he couldn’t say no to you even if he tried (he didn’t).
“fine. just do it already.”
you happily bent your body forward to click at the screen, starting the countdown for the pictures. then, returning to your place by his side, you lay your head on his shoulder and smiled for the first picture. sae did a simple peace sign, face still stoic as ever.
on the second pic, you waited until the last second to do fishy lips and cross your eyes, and that caused sae to snicker, which was fortunately caught by the camera. happy by that, you laced your arms around his neck, squishing your cheeks together in a cute pose for the third picture.
on the fourth and last one, you separated slightly, looking sae straight in the eyes with that sparkle that made his stomach churn.
you smiled, and he kind of stood there, dumbfounded, barely listening to the click of the photobooth. an i love you was the only thing he could hear.
iii.
seven months in and sae thought he had already seen all of you. despite his busy schedule, you saw each other quite frequently because of your flexible job, meaning you could travel along in his trips around the globe. he was used to your soothing presence and he loved every second of it.
but this — this was something that he wasn’t used to.
he hated to attend gala parties just to appease sponsors and snobby people, but he had agreed for the first time because you said you wanted to see how it was, and that it would be good for his career. you were always so thoughtful, and that never failed to make his chest fuzzy. but he did not expect to almost have a cardiac arrest seeing you all dressed up.
“do i look good?” you asked, bashful and uncertain. he wanted to scream. good wasn’t even close to what you were. you were perfect, divine, an angel on earth.
you were everything he needed.
“you look beautiful, baby,” he said, smiling ever so slightly in hopes of convincing you of the purest truth. his hands found home on your hips, and he gave you a little peck.
“thank you.” you smiled. “you look very handsome, too.”
then, you proceeded to fix his tie like it was already muscle memory, despite it being the first time either of you did this. you smiled again, sweetly, once you finished.
“all done. you’re good to go, mr. itoshi.”
the domesticity hit him like a truck. a lump formed in his throat, and it tasted a lot like i love you.
iv.
the beach was his favorite place in the world. being around the calmness of the sea always brought him peace, much like when he was with you. so combining both of his favorites was a bonus sae couldn’t deny.
the sand was warm and soft beneath his feet, and he sat on top of a towel, observing you standing nearer the ocean. the wind blew in your hair, and he could hear you laughing and squealing every time you tried to feed a seagull and they ran after you and your food.
“sae! help me, baby, they’re gonna kill me!”
“you can do it.”
“what if i can’t?!”
“i’ll cry at your funeral, don’t worry,” he answered simply, snorting when you gasped in pure offense.
when you finally got tired of running around, you sat next to him, panting a little. though you didn’t stay put for long — you never could. you grabbed a stick and started to draw on the sand, doing little shapes and words.
sae could only watch, mesmerized, as the orange hue casted a heavenly glow around your frame, almost like a halo. it complimented your skin perfectly, and he cursed himself for not having the guts to take a picture so that he could remember this moment forever. he wasn’t sappy, after all.
he casted his eyes down, only then realizing you drew the letters ILY inside a heart, looking at him with a fond gaze he didn’t deserve.
i love you, too, was what he wanted to say. but itoshi sae was never good with words, so his hand reached for yours and he gave it a little squeeze, before bringing your knuckles to his lips in a tender kiss. with the way the corners of your eyes crinkled, he knew you understood.
and he loved you even more for it.
v.
you worked a lot. despite your adjustable routine, you often had to bring your laptop everywhere, just in case your boss needed something more immediate. in sae's penthouse, it was no different, and that specific day happened to be one of those urgent matters.
sae was grumpy. he wanted your attention for a while, but he would never stoop so low as to ask for cuddles, so he just sat by your side on the couch with his arms crossed. you’d say he was pouting, but that was absurd. itoshi sae didn’t pout.
you were pretty, he thought, all focused and dedicated like that. you were like a painting that sae could spend a lifetime admiring, without ever getting tired. the slight furrow of your eyebrows, the curve of your nose, the crease of your mouth… oh, he got distracted. you were now facing him and saying something he didn’t catch.
“what was that?”
“i said, let’s go.”
he grimaced, confusion etched in his face. “where are we going? i thought you had urgent work.”
“to bed, baby. it’s your nap time, isn’t it? i can finish this later. i know you sleep better with me in your arms.”
you grinned in a smug kind of way, but sae could barely register anything besides the three magical words that were hammering inside his heart, coming up to his tongue until all he could do was say…
“i love you.”
fuck, he thought. now the cat is out of the bag. he fucking loves you.
your eyes widened slightly, as if you weren’t expecting such a declaration, but your expression softened and your hand came up to cup his jaw. your thumb did a small caress at his cheekbones, and sae felt goosebumps rising up his skin.
“i love you,” he said again, because now that the dam had broken, nothing could stop that phrase from flowing. “i love you so much.”
your smile could rival the sun and light up any darkness. he loved you like this. he loved you in all your ways.
“i love you, too,” you answered, all soft and giddy, and sae finally released the breath he didn't even realize he was holding. “so much.”
his hand came to meet with yours, and he interlaced your fingers, standing up and pulling you along. you stumbled a bit, but he steadied you by gripping your waist, as if scared you would let go. his lips met yours almost urgently, but they were still soft nonetheless — because with you, sae knew to be soft, to be gentle. it’s what you deserved, after all.
when you parted, lips swollen and a little breathless, he showed you one of his rare smiles; the ones that always came easier when you were in the picture. you felt butterflies swirling in your stomach watching itoshi sae beam to you. because he loved you.
your fingers interlaced again, and he started to drag you towards the bedroom, ready for his 3pm nap.
“you’re right, by the way,” he confessed, and you looked at him, puzzled. “i do sleep better with you in my arms.”

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wrong move
sae x reader
genre: fluff

sae has no clue why you’re mad at him. sure, he’s an asshole sometimes, he admits, but he didn’t even say anything bad? besides, aren’t you supposed to be happy after eating? why’re you still mad?
he could only glare at your back, which was a sight you gave him whenever you purposely ignored him, while you brushed through your hair. you had been ignoring him ever since you both visited his parents, which had been a couple of hours ago. how long could you go for? he couldn’t help but feel annoyed.
“why’re you upset?” he finally asked, breaking the silence that had been surrounding the both of you for hours.
“nothing—.”
“shut up and tell me the real answer.” he quickly cut off your attempt to avoid the situation. you let out a deep sigh, now turning around to face him while acting like it was a bother.
“why’d you tell your parents that?” you asked, frown on your lips as you watched his deadpan expression turn into a mix of confusion and disgust—an element he liked to add in a lot of his expressions.
“tell them what?” he was now scanning his brain for all the possible things he could’ve said wrong, but none came to mind. his ignorance only made your frown deepen. how could a man who has been remarked as a genius of his sport be so dumb?
“why’d you tell them i was hungry?” you now crossed your arms, the same upset expression on your face that had sae contemplating if you were serious or not. his brows furrowed further, causing a slight scrunch of his nose that you bit back an awe to.
“what?” he had to ask, pondering if he had heard you right.
“sae, i’m serious.” you indirectly answered, showing that you hadn’t been joking with him.
“because you told me you were hungry?” he was biting back every insulting nickname that came to his mind because he knew that would just make you more upset. but, man, he couldn’t help but feel a “dumbass” would perfectly explain his thoughts.
“yeah, and then they went and did all of that just for me!” you spoke as if you had caught the male red-handed in a serious crime. sae was still confused. before he could speak another word, probably one that would just annoy you more, you took the honors from him. “you’re supposed to say that you’re hungry too or something.”
sae didn’t know what to do. if he spoke he wouldn’t be able to hold back his sharp tongue and he couldn’t do any physical moves here, that would just be dumb. so, he stayed silent with his furrowed eyes staring at you. it would’ve been awkward had you not found his expression and silence funny. you couldn’t help but let out a small giggle, your frown lifting only a bit before you silenced yourself.
“so, you’re joking?” he asked after seeing your smile and hearing your giggle.
“no! you made me look bad in front of your parents, sae!” and we’re back to square one.
“so you would’ve rather starved?” he rebuttals.
“you’re missing the point, sae.” he only sighed at your words, getting up from the bed and walking over to your vanity to where you had been seated. he stopped right in front of you, his left hand grasping your jaw to where his fingers indented the skin on your cheeks.
“you’re the stupidest person i’ve ever met,” he claimed before leaning down to plant a kiss on your lips. your annoyance was long gone at that moment, caving under his touch and gaze, despite his words being mean. once he parted away from your now wet lips, he saw you looking up at him with that smile he always deemed “dumb”.
“stupidest isn’t even a word, stupid.” his deadpan immediately turned into a glare, a sight that had your smile widening.
“shut up.”

unedited thanks for reading!
baking disaster (ft. itoshi sae)


synopsis: you try to persuade your boyfriend into making cookies with you, but he's not the best baker.
cw: lots of fluff!! mentions of making out, i think sae slaps your butt once
author's note: i literally had to watch a cookie tutorial to make this fic because if baking were a sport, i'd definitely be on the bench permanently. so, i apologize to all bakers out there.

here you were, sitting on the couch next to your boyfriend, desperately clinging onto his chest as he fixates his bored gaze at what he called a 'pathetic excuse' of a football match. the only somewhat affectionate gesture he's giving you is an unexciting arm slung carelessly around your shoulder.
while sae was in practice, you had dedicated two hours dolling yourself up; attending to every little detail of your appearance carefully. you even lit a few vanilla-scented candles in the living room to romanticize the atmosphere, all in order to have a fun date night and bake cookies together. so, why have you spent the last thirty minutes attempting to convince him to follow through with your plans?
"sae," you whine softly, deliberately pressing more of your body against him as you bat your eyelashes pleadingly in an attempt to get his attention, and hopefully change his mind.
"pleasee, just this once! bake chocolate chip cookies with me!"
he cocks his head subtly, looking over at you with half-lidded eyes. "i told you already, darling. i can't bake for shit."
"i know you're probably more likely to start a kitchen fire than bake a decent cookie, but that's why i'm here!"
you look up at him lovingly as his hand travels to your cheek, giving it a light squeeze.
"if that's what it takes to shut you up, then i guess i'll make these lukewarm cookies."
he quickly plants a chaste kiss on your lips as the trace of a very unnoticeable—yet unmistakable— smirk appears on his mouth.
in the kitchen, you rolled up your sleeves and gestured towards the pantry and cabinets, instructing sae to look for the dry ingredients with a rather authoritative tone.
"sae, find the flour, baking soda, and salt. they should be in there somewhere."
he rolls his eyes and gives your ass a light slap, "when'd you get so bossy, pretty?"
you giggle as he disappears into the pantry, turning your attention to the bowl on the counter. with determination, you begin to vigorously beat the soft butter and the brown and white sugar together until it formed a chunky mixture.
"y/n," you hear your boyfriend's frustrated voice call out as he walks closer to you with a displeased expression. "i can't find the ingredients, where'd you even bury them?"
"oh sweetheart," rolling your eyes with a mocking grin tugging on your lips, you teasingly smack his chest and enter the pantry, effortlessly locating the loathsome ingredients that caused your lovely boyfriend's annoyance. "you really couldn't find the ingredients that were practically screaming their location? how lukewa—"
"y/n."
"cute, i meant cute!" you defend yourself with a wholehearted laugh, unaware of the genuine smile forming on sae's lips as he tucks a strand of hair behind your ear (his smile quickly dissipated into a more subtle one once you turned towards him).
"sae, get me two eggs... in the fridge."
he lets out a soft sigh and places them on the counter, looking at you for further instruction. "well?"
you shake your head, feigning disappointment as your hand finds its way to your forehead.
"crack the eggs, silly,"
"oh, right..."
"and make sure to do it gentl—"
crack
sae slams the egg on the counter with an unnecessarily excessive force, sending shells and egg whites flying everywhere across the kitchen.
"oh. oops." he says blankly, staring at the slimy mess in his hands— and the counter. he looks over to you expecting to be scolded, but is instead greeted with your loud laughter, your banging fists assaulting the poor counter.
"seriously sae...haha...ha... what did you expect would happen??"
he glances away in embarrassment and quickly washes his hands. "shut up."
"it's okay, love, you can try aga—"
"no."
"—thought so. okay, i'll do it, can you measure half a teaspoon of salt? the measuring cups are over there."
you point somewhere in the kitchen as you turn your attention back to the bowl, cracking two eggs and adding vanilla extract into the mixture.
"baby, let's mix the dry ingredients now!"
you say excitedly as sae appears behind you, placing his hands on your waist as he gently kisses your neck.
without you noticing, your boyfriend scoops a handful of flour. "y/n."
when you turn around, unsuspecting, he brings his hands close to your face and blows the flour from his hands, dusting your cheeks and nose with the powdery residue.
"what the— sae!" you were caught completely off guard at his playful and not so sae-coded gesture, and after seeing him laugh—a rare sight to behold—you couldn't help but break into laughter as well (his laugh is very contagious).
"you look adorable,"
he teases, caging you against the kitchen counter with his strong limbs, preventing you from returning his pleasant surprise.
"heyy, that's not fair!" you huff in annoyance as you squirm around his arms.
"life's not fair, mi amor."
after (a small session of making out), you instruct sae to mix the flour, salt, and baking soda—which he does uncooperatively— you mix combine the powdery compound with the wet mixture.
"alrightt, time for the fun part!" you exclaim cheerfully, lightly smacking the bag of chocolate chips against his chest as you stare at his powder-covered face. a few moments ago, while you were making out, your flour-dusted hands left many imprints on his cheeks. "i'll add the amount you want because you look adorable."
he rolls his eyes, an irritating smirk ghosting over his mouth as he attempts to brush away the lingering flour from his face. "hm. then don't add too mu—"
"on second thought, your charm won't sway me into accepting your very absurd demand— they're chocolate chip cookies, sae, not classic cookies!" you protest, pouring in a bit more than a cup of chocolate chips into the batter, meeting his gaze with a proud, cheeky smile as he sighs and raises his hands in defeat.
"you're a brat."
—
you sit on the kitchen counter, a proud smile on your lips as you watch him awkwardly roll the chocolate chip dough into imperfect little spheres, then place them onto the baking tray in a slightly messy arrangement. you had managed to persuade him after telling him they would resemble miniature soccer balls, and now looking at his attentive features, you couldn't help but snap a few pictures to treasure this moment.
giggling softly, you affectionately ruffle his hair, teasing, "i've never seen you so focused on anything other than soccer, handsome."
he huffs and presses his lips together before giving you a light nudge. "you brought out my hidden talent."
"pftt. yeah. talent." you snort mockingly, running your hand soothingly up and down his back.
rolling his eyes, he pushes the baking tray in your direction, a faint pout on his lips, "oh, be quiet."
you carefully place the tray in the oven before joining him in the living room, where he immediately plops down onto the couch. attempting to squeeze in beside him, you gently nudge him, "sae, move over," but he looks at you lazily and shrugs, "just lay on the other couch or something."
puffing out your cheeks in frustration, you chose to lay on his chest instead. without hesitation, he quickly pulls you closer by the waist, snuggling you warmly as his hands find their way to your ass.
fifteen minutes later, you cautiously remove the tray from the oven (sae didn't remove it because he was scared of the heat radiating from the oven) and set it on the counter to cool, your eyes sparkling with excitement as you lean against your boyfriend. "baby, don't they look delicious?" you ask eagerly, impatiently tapping your fingers against the marble surface. "meh," he replied nonchalantly, purposely trying to annoy you.
"okay pretty boy, you taste it first," you say with a short giggle, offering sae a cookie near his mouth. hesitantly, he takes a bite. with soon-to-be misconceived pride, you optimistically ask, "soo, how does it tas—" your words trail off as he spits the cookie into the trash, his face contorting in disgust. "blegh,"
you were caught off guard, and rolled your eyes in disappointment, "oh come on, sae. it can't be that bad," you say confidently, taking a daring bite of the cookie in an attempt to prove him wrong. however, this fleeting confidence immediately turns into regret as you gag and hurriedly spit it into the trash. "ew, what the fuck?" you choke in disgust, reaching for two glasses and hastily fill them with water. you pass one to sae and quickly chug down the water to wash away the unpleasant taste.
"why is it so salty?" you ask in confusion, closing your eyes as you ponder in thought. you suddenly notice your boyfriend's uncharacteristic type of silence, watching how he presses his lips together and avoids meeting your gaze. there is definitely a subtle hint of guilt in those narrowed teal eyes fixated on the baking tray of cookies. your eyes widen in realization, "wait a minute," you begin, connecting his behaviour with your growing suspicion.
"sae, show me the measuring cup you used to measure the salt,"
"...it's over there," your eyes follow his finger, and eventually settle on the culprit responsible for the cookie failure—the measuring cup sitting innocently on the kitchen counter.
you smack your forehead at the comical mistake sae had made, then turn to look at him. he was still trying to avoid your eyes, but eventually sighs and meets your gaze awkwardly.
"sweetheart, that's a 1/4 cup, not half a teaspoon! that's about eleven teaspoons too many!" you say shaking your head with amusement.
he runs the back of his neck as he yet again focuses his eyes on something else,
"...oh."

bonus:
late at night, you two are cozily draped over the couch, wrapped in each other's arms. sae had ordered takeout to make amends for the baking mishap— although he stubbornly claimed "it was deliberate— to enhance the flavour,". despite the cookie baking failure, you enjoyed you and your boyfriend's special bonding in the kitchen. you wished the next time you two baked together, it would turn out a success.
"don't wanna. also, why am i rolling the dough on your lock screen wallpaper?"

thank you for reading! comments appreciated :)
Pookie
Bros the type of guy to !
a/n: really felt like writing some short drabble in the middle of the evening :3
tags: gn!reader,sitting on lap,kisses,hugs,cliché

✦ ISAGI is the type of guy to watch tutorials on YouTube about how to cook your favourite meal.(he may or may not asked his mother to help after almost burning the kitchen.)
✦ BACHIRA is the type of guy to follow you anywhere you go. no matter what place, he will be there right beside you in a second. except for bathroom,of course.
✦ NAGI is the type of guy to stare with his soft hazelnut eyes at your concentrated face instead of the game you're playing on the screen.
✦ RIN is the type of guy to kiss you breathless and bury his face on your nape from behind a lot when he's really angry at something(-one)
✦ CHIGIRI is the type of guy to let you brush,style and pet his hair. only you are allowed and no one else.
✦ REO is the type of guy to ask you an insane amount of questions like, "how did you fell in love with me?" "what do you love about me the most?" and etc. while swinging his legs with lovesick smile.
✦ KAISER is the type of guy who lets you do his eyeliner and eyeshadow. it could be you either sitting on his lap or carefully holding his face with your hand. as long as he gets to hold your waist or hips, he's totally okay with neither of them.
✦ SAE is the type of guy to hug you from behind when you are cooking, he likes to silently analyze your cooking skills and your calm humming brings peace to his heart.

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study sessions

pairing(s): oblivious!itoshi sae x flirty!male reader
summary: you are giving one too many hints that you like sae, but he gets none of them and assumes you two are a bit too close for friends. you decide to take matters into your own hands and be his secret admirer
warnings: none!
word count: 4.5k
a/n: thanks for the support on my last post i love you guys!! it’s like one of my biggest headcanons that sae is oblivious to things such as romance cuz the only thing he canonically knows abt is football 😭. i had no idea what to write for the notes so...yeah. also, i didn't intend for it to be so long, i just kept writing. anyways enjoy this mess of a fic! <3 (not proof read)

you sat in class, leaning on your right hand, thinking and a bit annoyed. how hasn’t sae taken the hint? you don’t just flirt with your friends, dammit! you probably couldn’t even ask him out cause he’d just assume you were joking. you don’t ask friends out as a joke either do you? friends…that word left a bad taste in your mouth. you were so blatantly obvious, but he couldn’t take the hint? you started thinking of plans that might work. then you settled on one. be sae's secret admirer, then reveal who you are! the more you thought about it, the more the plan seemed like a good idea. it was around a week from his birthday too, maybe that'd be your gift to him, a new boyfriend. you grinned in excitement, this was gonna be fun!
after you got home, you decided to write him a note and put it in his locker. you changed your handwriting while you were writing the note, not wanting him to discover who it was immediately. it was pretty simple, but kinda (very) directed at his obliviousness, but it was nothing out of his comfort zone. the note read "i think you're pretty cute, but you can't take a hint. maybe start paying attention to how others act around you!". you wondered if your plan would work, but only time will tell.
the next day you arrived early and put the note in his locker. you hoped that he wouldn’t throw it out like the other love letters and confessions he got. your prayers were answered though, as during lunch, when you were sitting at your guys’ desks, he said something. “i got a note in my locker today,” he said bluntly. “yeah?” you grinned, “and you didn’t throw it out?” you silently celebrated. “no, something about it was different.” he gave you the note and crossed his arms before leaning them on the table. “what did she mean by ‘start paying attention to how others act around you’?” his eyebrows furrowed in curiousity. “she, huh? you think it’s a girl?” you looked in his eyes. “are you implying it’s not?” sae raised an eyebrow. “just saying, ya never know” you smiled.
you stared at the note a bit longer. “kinda funny how they say you’re cute but then say you’re oblivious,” you chuckled, “can’t blame ‘em” you flirted, but the tone was quite subtle. “what’s that supposed to mean?” sae looked at you curiously, “don’t worry ‘bout it” you waved off. “seriously—nevermind. you’re impossible anyway” he sighed in defeat. you grinned at him, “yeah, i know.”
you looked over at the note again, “honestly, i think it’s a sign to think about anything other than football.” you remarked as you toyed with the edge of the note, your fingers tracing the words as you tried to gauge sae's reaction. “football is not the only thing i think about. it's important to me, though.” sae said, his tone a bit offended. “you literally don’t pay attention in class because you’re thinking about it.” you stared at him with an eyebrow raised, “that’s why we go on like study dates all the time.” you put the word ‘date’ on purpose, wondering how he’d react. “i guess you’re right.” he said indifferently. no reaction... “hey, we gotta test tomorrow, right? let’s go to my place and study for it!” you suggested, “but we have to practice for our upcoming practice match after midterms…” he protested, both of you were on the school’s team and often practiced together. “well you won’t play if you don’t keep up your grades!” you protested right back. “…fine. i’ll go over to your house.”
after the school day was over, you waited at the gates for sae so you two could walk home. he was late, which made you annoyed. so you decided to text him. his contact name read ‘sae ❤️’ which he never commented on, for some odd reason. you texted him “where r u?? i’ve been waiting for like 10 minutes”. after 1 or 2 minutes he responded with “sorry, some girl confessed to me. i think she was the one who left me the note.” oh how wrong he was…
sae finally met up with you and he was as stoic as ever. “well well well, look who showed up,” you got up from the wall you leaned on, “betcha you rejected that girl without hesitation as usual, didn’t you?” you smirked, seeing how she was clearly upset and tearing up. you hoped that wouldn’t be you… “i wouldn’t say without hesitation…” sae shoved his hands in his pockets. “yeah right! you totally did, she’s crying cuz of ya, playboy!” you snickered a bit, “it’s not funny, l/n. and don’t call me ‘playboy’” he looked at you coldly. “you’re such a buzzkill, it was a joke anyways, handsome.” you teased with a coy smirk before putting an arm around his shoulder. “ugh, don’t call me that either, what’s even the point of calling me that?” he replied with a grimace. “ah, just saying cause you are, and all the girls seem to think so too.” you smirked. “don’t joke around like that.” he said, a face of disdain became more evident. “see? a total buzzkill…”
you opened the door to your house before turning and speaking to him, “so, you wanna tell me what happened with that girl?” your curiosity was out of this roof. “she confessed to me like any other girl. but i think she was the one, cause she handed me a letter and the handwriting was pretty similar.” sae mentioned. “that so? and what if it doesn’t stop?” you asked, already knowing the answer. “try to find out who it is, i guess”
the two of you went up to your room. it wasn’t messy but it wasn’t clean either. you grabbed an extra chair, put it at your desk and you two started studying together. you regularly had the urge to stare at him for long moments of time, and “accidentally” brush your fingers on his when grabbing a pen. sae's gaze flickered to the folded paper on your desk, a curious expression crossed his face, “hey, what’s that?” you looked at the note, it was the second letter, but you couldn’t ouright tell him that, “uh, it’s a grocery list my mom gave me for tomorrow, cause she won’t be here.” and he took it, like that. “oh, okay.” then shrugged it off…
“hey, can you help me with this question?” sae asked, you already knew all the material, since you actually payed attention in class. “sure,” and you leaned over, a bit too close (on purpose), and started helping him with the question. “you get it now?” you asked, after some frustration. “yeah, thanks. you’re actually kinda smart.” he remarked backhandedly, “hey! what’s that supposed to mean? i’m very smart thank you very much! i wouldn’t even be in this situation if you actually paid attention in class. stop focusing on football so much!” you hit him on the head lightly, but in a playful manner. he tried to hit you back, but you dodged, right before your chair tipped backwards and you fell. “guess you could say i fell for you— ow!” then your head got hit, not as lightly by sae. “don’t say stuff like that.”
you faked a sulk for the rest of the time he was there, maybe he’d feel bad for you and kiss you or something. “you gonna keep pouting?” he asked, “yeah. maybe you should leave, you’re ruining my vibe with all this negativity!” you didn’t really mean that, but of course he thought that. sae really didn’t get social cues. “wait! i didn’t actually mean that—” then he shut the door. now you were actually sulking. stupid sae…didn’t even give you a kiss either.
it was day 2 of your plan, you bought a cute little seagull plush keychain and wrote a note to go with it. it read “hey, handsome! just wanna say, you’re a bit dense for not even getting one clue. but keep it up! i believe in ya!” maybe he’d get that ‘handsome’ was something that you’d often say to him…yeah probably not. it was a stretch. you did the same thing, go to school a bit early, put the things and his locker and pretend nothing happened. a part of you wanted this to continue, but the other didn't. there was an urge to tell him you liked him and get it over with. but where was the fun in that?
as you sat in class, you finished your test, which was fairly easy. but you seemed to zone out after that, your mind occupied on how to get sae to realize that it was you. the thought got you frustrated, but pumped out as you wondered what sae's reaction would be to your note. after class, there was a few minutes before the next teacher came in. "hey." sae said as he sat next to you, "soo...what'd ya think?" nudging him playfully with your elbow, his expression nonchalant as ever. "about...?" he asked, "about the test, silly! you think you passed?" he had to be fairly confident, i mean you helped him out. "uh, sure. it was kinda easy." he dismissed it, as always. "it's totally cause i helped you out, right? right?" you teased, "...right, whatever you say."
something seemed to be on sae's mind. maybe it was about the notes. your suspicions were confirmed when he said something, "i got another note today," he mentioned, his expression puzzled. you couldn't contain your excitement as you took the note from him and examined it before giving it back, "wow, another one huh?" you remarked casually, trying to conceal your eagerness. "what's it say?" you asked, your breath hitching in your throat. sae shrugged, clearly confused by the note's contents. "it's just… encouraging me to pay more attention to things," he replied, his brow furrowing in confusion. you tried to avoid yourself from smiling inwardly, knowing that your plan was working. "maybe they're trying to help you out," you suggested playfully, hoping he would catch on to your subtle hints.
despite your frustration, you found it impossible to not admire how clueless sae was, it was adorable, in its own irritating way. you tried to drop hints and flirtatious comments, but he seemed to brush them off without a second thought as you just "joking". but as much as you wanted to reveal the truth, there was a part of you that hesitated. what if sae didn't feel the same way? what if it ruined the friendship you had worked so hard to build? despite all this, you didn't want to give up either. you were so deep into this already.
so, for the rest of every period, your gaze remained fixed to him. thinking on how to confess to him, also admiring him. after a bit of thinking, midterms were the day after sae’s birthday, unfortunately. must suck, must suck even harder because all club activities were canceled for the rest of the week due to midterms too! but, there was a good part to it too, maybe he won’t focus so much on football. after school, before he was going to walk home, you called out his name.
“sae! wait up!” he turned around to see you jogging to him, “what?” sae snapped at you, not too rudely though, a bit annoyed he couldn’t be alone. “you wanna come over to my house to study for midterms? cmon, i know you’re not learning anything in class, as always!” you could see him be reluctant before sighing. “fine, but not today. i’m busy.” fair enough, it was fine, as long as if you got to confess to him on his birthday. “you better not be saying that so you can play football!” you turned to look at him and you saw he was avoiding your gaze. “you’re totally obsessed…” not like you could say anything. you were pretty much obsessed with football too (and him), but not as much.
the atmosphere was kinda awkward after that, so you decided to say something, “did you get another clue to who that person was?” you asked casually, trying to read his expression. “not yet,” he admitted, “but i know it’s someone closer to me. how else would they know seagulls were my favorite animal?” he wondered holding up the keychain, admiring it a bit in the light. “you gonna keep it?” you looked at the keychain as well, hoping he said yes, “yeah, it’s pretty cute. i don’t want to throw something like this away either.” you eyes naturally set on the way his lips curled up ever so slightly, the way his hair fell on his face and caught the sunlight. your face flushed as you scrambled to look away. if you didn’t realize it before, but now was when you realized how much you actually liked him.
“so, this one’s different, huh?” you tried to change the subject, “what do you mean ‘different’?” he asked, raising an eyebrow in curiosity. you fumbled for words, as you thought about if he caught you staring or not, “i mean, normally you throw out any gift and reject every person…what’s so different now?” you swallowed nervously, hoping your words didn't come off too blunt. "i just meant... well, you usually don't keep stuff like this. but this time, you're actually considering it," you explained, trying to sound nonchalant. sae nodded slowly, seeming to think about your observation. "yeah, I guess you're right. It's just... different," he admitted, his gaze shifting to the keychain in his hand. he beat you to saying something else before you could, “it’s like, they’re close to me, right under my fingertip and i want to know who.”
“yeah?” you smiled at him again, admiring his features once more. “hey, hypothetically, if the person was a guy, would you care?” you asked on a whim, “i guess...not really." he replied with a shrug. "why do you ask?" you shrugged nonchalantly, but secretly felt relieved. at least he wouldn't out right reject you. trying to keep your nerves at bay, you tried to justify yourself, "just curious, y'know? it's interesting to think about." sae nodded in agreement, but you could sense a hint of suspicion in his gaze. it made you wonder if he was starting to suspect something, if he was beginning to piece together the puzzle of his secret admirer.
you waved him goodbye as he walked into his house. tomorrow was the weekend, so you couldn't outright give him anything, but you'd still hint at it when he came over to your house to study. that night, you tossed and turned in bed, partly from the thought of confessing, but also how good he looked on the walk back to his house. you rolled around in bed, almost like a middle school girl in a shojo. it wasn't your best of times, but you refrain from the thought of him, and him piecing together the puzzle had you biting your bottom lip in nervousness and excitement.
when saturday came, you paced back and forth in your room, thinking of what to say and do when he came. you felt pretty damn tired, too from last night, barely got a wink of sleep. you mumbled 'don't screw this up' over and over again when you heard a knock at the door. "sae! you made it!" you said with a sigh of relief, at least he didn't ditch you to watch game footage or anything like that, "yeah, i did." you tried to go in for a hug but he quickly dismissed that.
after an hour or so of studying, you got bored so you decided to hint what you were doing for his birthday. “sae, your birthday’s coming up right? october 10th?” you tried to put in the conversation casually, “yeah, why?” he looked at you with some suspicion, "i'm just asking. but, i'm sure you'd love me for my gift" a small, yet cocky smirk crept onto your face, "don't you mean i'd love 'it'?" he expressed, some more suspicion in his tone, "oh no, i know what i meant, you're gonna love me." he sighed in defeat, he knew there was no point in pushing it further.
so, that's basically how it went for the next few days. him being stupidly oblivious, you trying to drop the hint even further. you got nowhere, on wednesday, the day before his birthday, you decided to give him a flower. not an overly big bouquet, you'd probably save that for the actual confession, instead, you opted for a single flower. it was a flower he'd seen before, and that you knew he liked. there was a vase with a single flower in your room, his eyes consistently focused on it. it was a light pink hydrangea, it was beautiful, so you understood why he stared at it often. maybe he'd understand then. you decided to take the one that was in your room, when he came over that day, maybe he'd ask why the vase was empty and get the god damn hint already,
as per usual, you went early, dropped the gift off, and went off. there wasn't any note this time, as you were kinda sick of writing them. plus, the big day was tomorrow, you'd save every pent up emotion for then. you waited for him in the courtyard, when you spotted him in the courtyard examining the flower you went up to greet him. "hey, sae! looks like you got a flower now, huh?" you wrapped an arm around his shoulder to break him out of his trance, "yeah. this is the same flower that's in your room, right?" at least he got the hint, you pretended to study it for a bit before replying, "hm, yeah, it is. funny ain't it? maybe they know you really well." you looked at sae to gauge his expression, he did a simple nod and kept his blank expression. you clenched your fists in frustration as sae brushed off your flirtatious comment, a knot forming in your stomach. whatever, he'd have another shot when he went to your house anyway.
you were right, because when he went to your room, he noticed the empty vase immediately. "the flower is missing." he pointed out, "gave it to someone real special" you looked at him as you said that, "it was a nice flower, you should've gave it to me...but i can't really complain if they're that special to you..." you were instictively drawn to the way sae's expression softened when he talked about the flower, a hint of vulnerability shining through his normally neutral face.
you stared at him in a 'are you serious?' look. well yeah, you did give it to him, and he was special, "sorry, was that rude?" sae took note of your expression, "oh no no, it's something else," you quickly went back to focusing, "let's just cram for midterms" you muttered, hoping to divert the conversation away from your failed attempt at dropping another hint. you couldn't help but feel a twinge of disappointment that sae didn't seem to catch on to your subtle gestures. but you pushed those feelings aside and focused on studying for midterms.
nothing special happened, just some plain ol' cramming. but, you failed to focus on it. all your thoughts went to the day tomorrow. the thought had you feeling all sorts of emotions. sae noticed your unusual quietness and said something on the matter, "is something wrong? you're being awfully quiet." you felt yourself tense up, "just nervous for midterms...don't wanna fail...haha..." you made a pathetic excuse of a lie, he narrowed his eyes a bit, trying to examine your actions before ultimately deciding to drop it. at a desperate attempt to change the subject you decided to point something out that you noticed, "hey, the bracelets you normally wear, you don't wear them anymore," you pointed out, "oh, i lost them. hadn't gotten the chance to get new ones." you kept that in mind, you'd probably get him a new bracelet for his birthday.
you could barely sleep that night, you stayed up thinking what'd you say, do, act. everything had to be perfect, it probably wouldn't end up that way, but you tried your best. a voice popped up in your head that made you not even want to confess in the first place. it said the same things that made you reluctant before, 'what if he didn't like me back? what if i ruined our friendship?' what if this and that. but what if he actually liked you back, and everything turned out even better than you hoped? every thought was about the next day, it made your head spin. after a bit of staying up, you realized being all tired and having eye backs wasn't cute and a good look for a confession, so you forced yourself to sleep.
on the morning of sae's birthday, you woke up with a flurry of emotions swirling inside you. today was the day you would finally reveal your feelings to him. you couldn't focus on anything else, not even the midterms the next day. every thought was consumed by sae and the confession that awaited. as the day progressed, you found it increasingly difficult to contain your excitement. you kept glancing at the clock, counting down the hours until you could see sae and tell him how you felt. It felt like time was moving at a snail's pace, each minute dragging on endlessly. you went to his locker and put in the last note, 'meet me at the rooftop at 7:30'. it was short and straight to the point, no cryptic messages or hints.
you stood at the rooftop, your back leaning on the railing. your palms felt sweaty and you could hear your heartbeat get louder. your mind was full of feelings you wanted to get out. you were looking up at the sky to get your mind off of everything. the scenery was beautiful, you were lost in it until you heard the sound of the door opening, and there you saw him. the man you've liked since forever. his face was a mix of a lot of emotions, it was hard to read, to be honest.
as sae stepped onto the rooftop, the setting sun casting a warm glow around him, your heart skipped a beat. you felt the breath get sucked out of your lungs, he looked stunning, more than usual, actually. "hey, sae," you began, your voice trembling slightly with nervousness but filled with anticipation. "i'm so glad you actually came." his eyes widened in surprise, his gaze flickering between you and the breathtaking view spread out before him. "it was you?" he breathed, his voice tinged with disbelief. you chuckled nervously, your fingers fidgeting with the delicate bracelet you had carefully chosen for him.
"surprise…? if it wasn't obvious enough…" you paused, your heart pounding in your chest as you took a step closer to him. "there's something I've been wanting to tell you," you confessed, your voice soft but determined. with trembling hands, you slipped the bracelet onto his wrist, the cool metal contrasting with the warmth of his skin. "i really like you, sae," you whispered, your gaze locked with his. "it's been this way for a while, but I never had the chance to say anything." you reached out, presenting him with the bouquet of pale pink hydrangeas, their soft petals illuminated by the fading light. "these are for you," you said softly, a shy smile playing on your lips.
taking in a deep breath, you continued, your voice filled with sincerity and vulnerability. "i've been dropping hints since the beginning of time and i was hoping you'd catch on, but i realized i had to take matters into my own hands. i needed to tell you how i felt eventually. sae's eyes softened as he listened to your heartfelt confession, his expression shifting from surprise to something warmer, something more tender. "i…i didn't realize," he murmured, his voice barely above a whisper. "i never knew you felt this way." you took a step closer, your heart pounding in your ear with anticipation as you reached your hand out to gently cup his cheek.
"i've been waiting for this moment for so long..." you admitted, your voice barely audible over the soft rustle of the breeze, "to finally tell you how much you meant to me. so please, can i be your boyfriend?" you gazed directly into his eyes, waiting for the dreadful answer. as you waited for sae's response, the tension in the air seemed to thicken, every passing moment feeling like an eternity. sae's gaze softened as he took in your confession, his eyes reflecting a mixture of surprise, uncertainty, and something else you couldn't quite place. you held your breath, your heart pounding in your chest as you awaited his answer.
finally, after what felt like an eternity, sae's lips curled into a gentle smile, a warmth spreading across his features. "know that i know how you feel, i don't want to waste anymore time." your heart skipped a beat as you felt a surge of hope and anticipation wash over you. could it be…? "sae," you whispered, your voice barely audible over the gentle hum of the wind, "what do you mean?" a soft chuckle escaped sae's lips as he took a step closer to you, his eyes sparkling with newfound clarity and determination. "i mean… i want to be more than just friends," he confessed, his voice steady and sure. "i want to be with you, too."
you felt excited and shocked and every other emotion there was out there. you uttered a single word, "really?" your heart felt like it was about to explode out of joy. sae nodded, his smile widening as he leaned in closer, his forehead resting against yours. "really," he whispered, his breath warm against your skin. "i've been blind for so long, but now that i see… i don't want to let you go." you wanted to cry, that's what. "you're so stupid for not seeing this...i never want to let you go too..." your voice trembled, you sniffled while saying it too.
"i'm sorry. i really am." he admitted, and without another word sae closed the distance between you two. time stopped, it was as simple as that. everything went to a halt as you tried to process what happened. the kiss was sweet and simple, just as you two liked it. in that moment, surrounded by the soft glow of the setting sun and the gentle rustle of the breeze, everything else faded away, leaving only the two of you lost in the sweetness of the moment. you pulled away after what felt like ages.
"happy birthday sae," you said softly, your voice at a barely audible level. "you're right, i did love you for this gift. thanks for everything." he smiled, his face totally different from his usual unemotional look. "no problem and," you held your breath for the next words you were about to say, "i love you." you felt at peace, you finally said what you've always wanted to say, "i love you too."

TEXTING.


tags: fluff, awkwardness in relationships, established relationships,
taglist: n/a currently.
characters: sae itoshi, reader.
word count: 970
extra notes: repost from my thread fic on here, again not gonna be all fancy sadly. will be writing some on here from now on.

sae itoshi was what people called an enigma. even after being with him for a little under half a year, you didn’t get certain mannerisms. why did he push his bangs back like that? what happened between him and his brother? why did his eyes show so much more expression than the rest of his face?
all of that seemed too distant to be solved. you just hoped he’d tell you one day. but in the meantime? you had to find small ways to help him with things he struggled with. namely, physical and verbal affection.
he was a bit better with physical affection. maybe it was because every small touch ignited feelings you didn’t know people could have. but you still had to think of a way to make him feel more comfortable.
that was why you had suggested this seemingly silly concept of texting while in bed. it was a way to communicate then build up to more. he didn’t realize you were serious until you directly told him you were.
why he cocked a brow before agreeing, you didn’t know. it still landed you on distant sides of his luxurious bed. he hadn’t typed a word, but he had been on your chat the entire time.
making the first move, you typed first.
— etc. is typing…
‘you remind me of a red panda.’
there wasn’t any noise in response, just shifting.
— saeitoshi. is typing…
‘What?’
you giggled.
— etc. is typing…
‘you remind me of a red panda. one of those big ones that look like they’re always mad.’
— saeitoshi. is typing…
‘Thank you?’
‘That doesn’t make any sense though.’
— etc. is typing…
‘does it need to?’
— saeitoshi. is typing…
‘I guess not.’
there was a second of a pause while he typed another message out.
‘You remind me of a starfish.’
— etc. is typing…
‘that seems mean??’
‘are you calling me lazy??’
— saeitoshi. is typing…
‘You can be’
‘Not why I said it though’
‘Seagulls are known for carrying around starfish. I carry you around a lot from place to place.’
you were about to type another message before he had to toss one little thing in.
‘Then you laze around in that place.’
— etc. is typing…
‘that was gonna be sweet :C’
‘can’t even be too nice for a second?’
— saeitoshi. is typing…
‘I was.’
— etc. is typing…
‘k then, would you still love me if I was a starfish??’
— saeitoshi. is typing…
‘??’
you could hear a scoff come from over your shoulder.
‘Did you suddenly turn into one or were you born a starfish??’
‘I wouldn’t be attracted to something born a starfish. I would take care of you if you were turned into one’
— etc. is typing…
‘so we aren’t star crossed soulmates?’
— saeitoshi. is typing…
‘I don’t get your whole deal with soulmates.’
— etc. is typing…
‘seriously??????’
‘soulmates are such a fun concept, you don’t want to be destined to be with someone for life??????’
— saeitoshi. is typing…
a pause.
— saeitoshi. is typing…
‘Maybe, it doesn’t seem realistic though’
— etc. is typing.
‘you don’t understand true love…’
‘i’ll pretend you undoubtedly believe in soulmates.’
shockingly, you heard a shift in the bed. as you turned your head around, sae had rolled over to face you. there wasn’t even a second of hesitation as you did the same thing.
then you had to think of another conversation prompt.
— etc. is typing…
‘your fave song doesn’t fit you like i thought it would’
you glanced up to see sae’s eyebrow raised.
— saeitoshi. is typing…
‘It doesn’t need to.’
‘It helps me focus while I’m working out, isn’t that enough to make it a favorite song?’
you let out a gentle hum. you could start to inch towards more pretty easily. all you needed to do was dip your toes into the water.
— etc. is typing.
‘then play it?’
‘C:’
there was pure silence. you didn’t look at your phone, instead at the soft expression of sae. he only shifted a bit before the virtual clicking came from his phone. his nail pressed against the screen before the music started.
it was enjoyable at first. you felt yourself ease in his presence. his eyes drifted to your’s.
“it still isn’t that good.”
sae hummed, “i think it’s good. you’re ust being picky.”
“like you aren’t the pickiest of them all?”
neither of you were actually intending this. it wasn’t a conscious movement, instead a natural one you weren’t even thinking about. yet as your body inched closer and closer, you started to forget about what you were saying. they were words without meaning. actions had ripped that right away from them.
your leg flopped on top of sae’s, and his arm rested on your waist. at some point, your head had started to press against sae’s chest. even though you both had to adjust to look at the other, it seemed like neither of you had noticed the position.
and once you noticed, you had absolutely no intention of showing it. “hey sae?”
“yeah?”
“your heart is beating really fast, did you know that?”
“oh,” a pause, “i’m sure your heart is beating just as fast.”
it was a rare notion of romantic confidence from him that you couldn’t help but smile at.
“it is.”
“… let me listen to your heartbeat before you go to sleep. i can even use your wrist to listen.”
“huh?”
as sae set his phone down, he grabbed your wrist and pulled it to his ear. the soft thumping of your heart sped up. only a very gentle scoff escaped him as a reaction to it. you hoped that meant he hadn’t noticed.
“sleep… sleep well sae.”
with a gentle kiss to the wrist, he spoke, “you too.” he really could’ve be a killer romantic if he wasn’t so awkward…

the boy you loved (sae i.) !

features: sae i.
contents: angst. hurt no comfort. mild swearing. toxic realtionship. nostalgia. reader flinches. door slam. breakup. it hurts sorry lol. 1.8k words.

to the world, sae itoshi was a catch. he is a pro athlete, beautiful, and rich, everything someone could ever want in a partner. sae itoshi is at the pinnacle of his sport at the age of eighteen years old. he was at the forefront of it for longer.
fame has changed sae itoshi.
you knew sae itoshi before the world did. you knew him before the flashing cameras and cheering crowds, back when he couldn’t even kick a soccer ball without falling flat on his ass. sae itoshi was awkward, dorky, and kind. sae itoshi was the boy you loved.
it all began to change when he slowly climbed the ranks of soccer. his goofy grins became more mellowed, shyness turning to aversion. but most of all, he was no longer kind. sae itoshi was no longer the sweet boy who would hold your hand as you walked to school. sae itoshi was no longer to considerate boy that made sure to have your favorite snacks at his home. sae itoshi was no longer the tender-hearted boy who you fell in love with.
sae itoshi is now a man who’s as foreign to you as a stranger.
yet, for some reason, you can’t seem to let him slip through your fingers. nor can he let you slip from his. in a never ending cycle one always ends up crawling back to the other. like some twisted kind of soulmates you can never escape each other.
you loved sae itoshi the boy, but sae itoshi the man is a whole other story.
loving the man, sae itoshi, is many things, but it is not easy.

loving sae itoshi is tiring.
sitting up on the couch of his apartment for the nth night in a row, waiting and watching the door like a dog for him to come home.
sae was incredibly dedicated to his sport, staying till the sun died. he just wanted one thing when he came home: to see you. the first thing he wanted to see when he got home was you. the notion had your head spinning and heart pounding when he so boldly proclaimed it.
but now, when you sit on the couch like a wilted flower, you begin to question just how flattering it was. your eyes ached from keeping them open for so long, the soft glow of the lamps beginning to slowly drive you insane.
this empty apartment is exhausting. but you couldn’t blame him. his schedule is bound to be busy, he is a professional athlete, after all.
the lock clicks as your head raises from the phone in your hands. he walks in and looks at you, before immediately walking away. your heart cracks a little more every time this happens.
he is a ritualistic man, it seemed saying “hi” or “missed ya” would throw it off too much.
so, you stand and walk to the bedroom, tucking yourself under the covers while the gentle flow of the shower lulls you to sleep.
you feel the bed slightly dip sometime later into the night, but the wave of sleep sweeps you back under the surface immediately after. what you do not feel: is warmth or an arm around you.

loving sae itoshi is stressful.
sae leaves for long periods of time consistently. you accept that he cannot always be home, but you ask that he at least texts you moderately.
sae has a habit of ghosting people when he’s away, then just coming back like he’s greater than thou. not like it’s the first time it’s happening.
he’s been gone for two weeks now and hasn’t said a single thing to you. no texts, no calls, nothing. you were worried. you trusted him, it’s not that. he’s just so far away, what if something happened and the last thing he said to you was “bye,” when he left the home for the airport two weeks ago.
you don’t want to think like this, but this new sae was brash in a way that would get him hurt one day. he spoke his mind with no sense of self-preservation, he had no idea of customs in other countries, and he wouldn’t take one damn minute to text you a single word.
so you call rin, asking him with a quiver in your voice if he’s heard from sae. he hasn’t. but can’t help the choked whine that slams in your chest, quickly thanking him and hanging up. your eyes begin to well tears as you pace the empty apartment that seems a lot more foreboding than exhausting now.
crystalline drops run over your face as you desperately try to calm yourself, you were being dramatic. sae always was there to hold you when you cried as a kid, but now you were crying alone because of that same sweet boy.
you fall asleep on the couch that night, not able to bear the vast emptiness of the bed that was meant to be shared.

loving sae itoshi is slamming doors.
sae was back soon enough, walking into the apartment as if nothing had happened. he watched as you remained seated, not rising to excitedly greet him like your normally would. his brow furrowed as he left it, leaving you on the couch again when he returned home to unpack.
sae itoshi would rather let a problem steep and fester than deal with it directly. the boy you loved would stutter out of concernwith the most adorable flush on his rounded cheeks. but this man was a shell of the boy who loved you, the boy who still holds your one and only heart.
“what’s up with you?” his words come out abrasive as he stands in the bedroom doorway, one hand idly towel-drying his hair while the other was poised against his hip. he had a way of making it feel like you were the problem.
“what’s up with me?! sae you ghosted me for nearly three weeks, do you know how worried i was?” your own voice punches out of your chest before you can bite your tongue to hold back the words. watching as his eyes widen and he gets that haughty look on his face, you hated that look, that sneer.
he spoke with a venom, green eyes drilling into your form. “i’m a grown man, you don’t need to fuss over me. get over it, we’re not snot-nosed brats anymore, y/n.” you felt yourself flinch back as he ended his sentence with a punctuated scoff. he turned and shut the door a little louder than needed, you flinched back as it slammed: slightly shaking on its hinges.
now that he was gone, the tears flowed free again. you really were still a snot-nosed brat, weren’t you? the thought was mocking as the vast apartment began to feel more and more like a cage.
you fell asleep on the couch with dried rivers of tears shed staining your cheeks, nose rubbed raw from incessantly wiping it on your sleeve.

loving sae itoshi is nostalgic.
sae isn’t all bad nowadays. sometimes you could see the sweet boy that put bandaids on your scraped knees peek through.
in the light of the early morning, his eyes are bright and the soft glow makes his face feel more soft. it reminds you of waking up from sleepovers at the itoshi house, sae’s sleepy face and his messy bed hair.
when he plays football you are reminded of the boy who couldn’t shoot without falling flat on his face. you remember kissing the tip of his reddened nose while wiping the tears that threaten to escape from the corners of his sea-glassy eyes.
when he’s eating his dinner, you see the boy who stuffed his face with puffy cheeks. you see the boy who shoveled food into his mouth after practice, insisting that he needed to grow.
sae itoshi was still the boy you fell in love with, he was just a little lost.
times like this forced you to acknowledge that it was not actually his past self shining through. rather, it was you so desperately looking for any semblance of a shred of the boy who you once loved.
sae itoshi is no longer the boy you fell in love with, that boy died when he went to spain.

loving sae itoshi is hard.
this decision wasn’t easy. everytime the thought even crossed your mind you felt your eyes sting and your nose run hot.
but the truth was inevitable and unforgiving. passing moments of joy could no longer help alleviate the aching pain that echoed in the deepest expanses of your soul.
sae itoshi was no longer the boy who you fell in love with, it was the inevitable truth.
you didn’t believe that sae loved you any longer, rather coexisting with you as stability.
you don’t ever want to be a roommate to your partner.
you needed to break up with sae itoshi, to let go of the boy who was so long gone.
for once in your life, the apartment did not feel so bad. it felt like being in your childhood home for the last time before going off to college.
sae was off today, you planned it so he would be, not wanting to spring it one him before or after practice.
“sae, we need to talk."

sae knew he had messed up when he heard those words come from your mouth. but the safety net of your unconditional love had spoiled him. so he did not expect for you to leave.
when you said you were leaving, it began to wear. but it was still there, so he expected that you would be coming back soon.
when weeks turned to months with nothing but occasional passing conversations, he began to sweat.
sae itoshi, the ultimate catch, had just lost the love of his life.
the net snapped as he was left falling, plunging into an endless regret. sae itoshi was reminded of every single time he had given you the cold shoulder. every single time he was ruder than necessary. every single time he had forgotten he loved you.
sae itoshi knew he was no longer the boy you loved. but you are still the kid that he fell in love with, the only one who captured his heart.
and he pushed you away.
and damn, it hurt like hell when his apartment began to feel eerily empty without you, a bed meant to be shared becoming cold without another body in it.
sae itoshi realized how you had felt the entire time.

okkotsuus 23
typical shidou behavior !!!!!
Shidou: R u showering
Sae:no
Shidou: Without me? :/
Sae: i'm not showering
How about Rin x female reader x Sae?
This is so damn rare to see, I thought itoshi bro's x reader died😭
🍂Who would you choose?🍂
This might not me accurate💕

Summary :
Little did you know... football isn't the only thing the brothers fight about. If you dont wanna read the whole story go to U20 JAPAN VS BL11 MATCH or CONFESSION or just the endings!
4 alternative endings, Itoshi brother x you, fluff, Angst ofc, weird asf, random, fem! Reader, long story, manga spoilers, curses i think!

You still remember when You and Sae first met, it was in your young elementary school days... Sae was known to be a bitch and overall is the opposite of a nice person.
......
You were playing with your toys by yourself, until you spotted a lone boy playing alone with a ball.
As you start paying more attention to him, your mother notices and smiles softly "that's Sae Itoshi"
"He's really pretty" you replied to your mom, "Can I befriend him?" You questioned.
"Are you sure? He is quite mean to people he doesn't know" She ask but after you confirm she walks away to go do her own business.
"Be careful (reader) don't get sad and try, okay?"
"I won't disappoint myself and mama!"You promised as you held your pinky finger to them, in which they agree and hold their own pinky with yours... completing the pinky promise.
You start walking towards sae, you start having second thoughts It's not your scared... You're just nervous to approach another person you don't know that well.
Oh well it's far too late since sae just noticed you approaching at a high rate.
"Uhm... Hello? My name's (last name) (reader) and I want to be your friend!" You smiled as you held out your hand expecting a handshake.
"Go away, I bet you don't even know" any football stars" sae replied stepping on the ball, you were shocked this is what a child reply to you?
"Excuse me? I do know a lot of football stars!" That took sae by surprise but still stayed firm on his word of you not knowing any players.
"Name one player, and Noel Noah doesn't count"
"Hmm it's hard..."
"Finally giving up? Just leav-" you quickly interrupted then midway.
"hey! I was talking about how hard it is to select a player out of all the amazing players out there, but anyways Chris Prince"
"Good choice? You earned my respect I suppose..."
This time he finally shake your hand, you felt a sign of relief wash over your body as you smiled at him.
"I'm Itoshi Sae, and I also apologize for my behavior earlier" he shakes your hand as he returns the smile back to you.
You noticed the ball once again, it looked rather familiar up close... Your eyes start to sparkle when you remember what type of ball it was.
"Omg it that the limited edition Football!? Signed by the one and only" you exclaimed as you start shaking the young sae, the poor boy didn't know what to do since your grip on his shoulder was to tight.
He confirmed your suspicion and you started jumping like a kangaroo from pure excitement, sae looked at you like you are a mad lady... I mean the way you're acting is uhhh....
He once again tried to ignore how you were acting, "So... How did you know the player?" He asked which made you stop what you were doing "Easy I watch football matches with my father!" You replied.
That was not what he was talking about but whatever...
You started to ramble on all of the great things you and your father did when he's in the country, in which he just listens carefully surprisingly.
After a while you had to go home you said your good bye's and left just like that.
Sae itoshi
That was a good memory to keep..
She was somewhat weird the first time we met, i suppose... her understanding of football was the one intrigue me in to her.
It compelled me to the point we started to habg out often if i wasn't busy. The more time we spent, the more of this weird sensation i have, it was like love...
I didn't understand at first but one small click in the internet had me understanding that i fell for her.

That's all you remember as you see him outside the gate waiting for you, "Itoshi Itoshi! over here" sae turns in your direction, Holding a football he starts going to you.
"You know that you can call me Sae right?" You smile softly in return to his question and start nodding.
"I know! But your fan girls might kill me" sae raised an eyebrow, he was just 12 not many people will fall in love with a 12 year old right?
"Whatever just call me Sae, (reader) we've known eachother since fourth grade"
You simply nodded as you both, "Wanna hang out at my place, sae?" Sae turned to you, he didn't know why it feels so good when you actually say his name out loud.
He hides his now covered bright pink ears from you and nodded, as you saw his happening you got curious and started nagging him why did he cover his ears from you.
"hey sae, why are you covering your ears?" You ask as you start tugging on his uniform, he wanted to say but his pride is not letting him.
'Oh sorry my ears became a bright pink as you my crush said my name out loud'
No no...
Not happening in a million years
"Ah well I heard a mosquito..." That was a Lukewarm excuse to give, but did he care absolutely not.
You start dragging him again accepting his reason like all the other times you and him hang out at your place.
"Also did you hear, Kourtney And Abigail stop being besties?" You questioned, sae just furrowed his eyebrows.
He never cared about any drama in the school, it's lukewarm and not deserving of his time. But just for you he nodded which you scream with excitement.
"Omg you finally started learning some drama, It's been so long since you actually learned some drama~!"
You continue babbling your nonsense and start adding some more gossip in the school, sae just ignored it and kept on walking with you.
You kept on talking even as you both reached your destination, sae being quite annoyed softly (maybe not so) hit your head with his fist.
"Hey what the hell sae!?, I was just getting to the good part-" sae immediately cut you off
"We're here already... And stop babbling on such Lukewarm things" sae replied his hand far gone covering his ears, which turned to it's normal color.
You got an idea ...you lean closer as you give the most cheeky smile ever,sae immediately blush.
"Hey... Sae-chan~?" You have flap your eyelashes at him.
"Y-Yeah?" Sae replied trying to hide his blushing face. Sae just screams internally as he watches you lean a centimeter closer
Oh how pathetic...
Why did I say that? It's lm a damn idiot.
Omg what if she notices my face?
Oh fuck...
"You're so lukewarm (reader)..." sae mumble which you definitely heard.
"Huh, why sae-chan?" You inch a bit closer to him.
Sae turned more red from both you and what he just said to you. He's a complete mess and your still that close to him.
Oh fuck... What have I done!?
This is so damn embarrassing.
I wanna dig a hole and jump...
And if he couldn't be blushing enough by you, he heard a small compliment it wasn't a unique one he heard it multiple times in the media, but coming from your tongue... It felt magical, sae had butterflies in his stomach.
'Sae you know, your very handsome and especially with those underlashes' he recalls what you just said, that earned him to be another blushing mess.
As he finally made himself calm down, he scanned the room to find you once he didn't see you in the room. He figured you left to go to your room, which he was grateful for...
Calming himself by inhaling and exhaling, he soon followed it to go to your bedroom after he had stopped being a mess.
As the day goes by you and him had lots of fun chatting about Life... And sae's football career and what you two will do in the future.
You reveal your dream to him and he was quite surprise by it but nonetheless wish you luck on your own journey to success.

It's been a year now, your standing at the airport seeing sae leave for spain to play in real mandrid. And most importantly you're very comfortable using sae's first name.
"Sae, please text me everyday! And reply to my calls" you not so nicely reminded.
"Yes... I know (reader) I'll do it" sae sighs as he hugs you tightly. "I'm going to miss you" you smile and return the hug "I'll miss you too its been great having you around"
"Wait sae where is your family, I never got to see them all these years? Of friendship" Sae just pointed to the side, which in return have you looking embarrass of not noticing them.
You let out a long 'ooh' as you and him approach them, once you are standing infront of his parents. You left out a bow and introduced yourself, which amazed them and patted your head.
"Good day Mr. and Mrs. Itoshi i am (last name) (reader) sae's friend"
"Woah Sae never told us your friend was such a well mannered lady!" Mrs. Itoshi remark which soon followed by Mr. Itoshi to praise you.
As soon as Mrs. And Mr. Itoshi stop admiring your good manners, you scan around to find sae, once you identify where he was and start to proceeds towards his location.
As you draw closer and closer you make-out a younger version of sae but with dark green hair.
"Hey! Sae who's that with you?" You question which sae answered truthfully.
"That's my younger brother (reader)"
"Ooo! I never knew you had a brother" you start pinching the younger brother as start complimenting his adorable appearance, rin in response annoyingly stick his tongue out.
Meanwhile sae starts glaring at Rin unconsciously, is this the last thing he sees before heading to Spain? His first crush, his love, his number 2...
(I'm sorry it's cannon that he'll choose football over you)
He snapped out of his death glare to Rin when you suddenly ask a question.
"What's his name, sae?" You asked as you finally stopped giving the younger one attention.
Sae gave a force smile and introduced him to you "That's Itoshi Rin he's 11" you thanked him and started completing rin again.
That ticked Sae off deeply as he glared at Rin to make him realize to stop hogging all of the attention.
Rin seeing his older brother sulk start walking towards him and hugging him tightly.
Rin thought it was because of him leaving the country...(It wasn't obviously)
"It's okay Nii-chan, we will give lots of gifts!" That made sae quite confused, yet seeing you again gushing of Rin endearing attempt, Sae start acting like a good older brother just for you.
"I know Rin ill be sure to be the best striker in the world, promise" Rin smile having sparkle in his eyes, having you finally turn you attention to Sae.
"Sae remember to know that I'm your number 1. fan" you jokingly reminded, rin angrily replied with "No! im his no. 1 fan, plus your a girl you dont know anything about football"
You smile internally Rin was just like Sae, yet you still was pissed at his fabricate lie. But as you were about to scold him Sae already doing the job for you.
"Rin thats rude, we dont do that anymore."
"But..." sae again glared and signal to him to apologize to you.
Once Rin finally muttered an apology for his rude behavior, you gladly accepted and told him you were more than knowledgeable in the world of football.
Rin beamed with excitement after getting confirmation from sae that it was indeed correct.
"Can you play football...?" you nodded your head that seems to make rin eye's sparkle.
As the conversation continued, Sae was called by his parents, that briefly stopped the chattering between the three people.
Its time for sae to leave the country...
You stand there feeling a mixed of sorrow and cheerfulness for you friend. You never felt this mixed of emotions at the same time, your first friend leaving you to pursue his football career.
You wave sae goodbye... having a smile of your faceyou stop him midway and hugged him "I will really miss you sae... please don't forget about me"
"I wont (reader)... dont replace me with anyone, okay?" you nodded your head and then tried to joke abit to lighten up the tension in the air. "I promise to protect rin and be his guardian for you"
Sae laughed and then made joke "Make sure he isn't a brat when i come back" you laughed and promise.
its time for the family to say their goodbye's
"Take care of your health!" Mr. itoshi said
"Good luck, sae!" said the wife waving her hand as she continued smiling
"Nii-chan, have a safe trip!" said rin and having an expression of joy
sae responded by smiling " See ya." he pause "Im off to be the best in the world" you and rin smiled and wave to sae.
you see him carrying him luggage and phone as he smiles finnaly entering the plane to spain.

Its been a couple of years, you kept the promise you made to sae to be the guardian of rin for all the years when sae was in spain. You still kept contact with sae by vc or just texting.
Itoshi family treated you as their own, and rin finally stop being rude to you as more time passed. You and rin occasionally hang out at the beach to get his mind of things with sae.
You were there for rin in every match he had, even practice.
this is one of your best interaction with rin...
...
"Hey Rinnie, do you wanna play a match with me?" you questioned which rin just nodded his head in approval. Tossing the football towards you giving you a slight advantage over him.
"Once i get the ball i win if you score you win, deal?" you nodded at the rule
You kick the ball to the left giving it a slight curve and started running, if you calculated correctly the ball will come back to your feet. But it's not that easy it's far more complicated than that...
And you know that, Afterall you saw his performance in the real matches, you know that he will catch up eventually and defeat you. But you wont make it that easy...
You hear heavy footsteps right behind you, rin was already catching up but just in time... The ball manage to came back. but as you were about to do something, rin interfered and got the ball before you got to do anything.
"(reader) you lost the game" rin said having a stoic expression. "good job rin, you were better than last time!" you smiled and gave a high five.
Rin returned the smile and high five you, you then added "Im sure sae will be impress by your growth!"
"You think so?" asked rin which you reply with "Im know so!" rin smiled from ear to ear
"Omg rin your just as cute when the first time i met you" you jokingly remark seeing his joyous expression.
"Hey I'm not cute!" rin bite back
you playfully rolled your eyes, "Whatever makes you sleep at night, i guess"
"Im literally taller now than before even taller than you!"
"So...? it doesnt mean taller people cant be cute"
"Hm. whatever you lukewarm girl" rin responded
"Oh come one have some originality will you?" you insulted in a friendly manner
"You forgot the comma" insulted back jokingly
"Oh shut up fancy pants" your eyes rolled back.
You both laugh at the weird interaction, then you suddenly suggested to buy some popsicle since it was still early.
Rin immediately screamed a yes, that caught you by surprise by his excitement. He started to drag you in a not so nearby ice cream shop.
"You'll pay right?" you nodded in agreement, as rin saw this his eyes light up and grab a quite cheap popsicle.
"I'll have this one!" you gave a nod and got your ice cream from the freezer near the entrance of the shop. you pay the money and surprisingly it was much cheaper than you expected it to be.
As yo both were eating away the ice cream rin suddenly tap your shoulder "(Reader) i won, look" you let out a smile and congratulated him.
"i got to practice again... i have to be the best after nii-chan!" rin added, you note that he is revolving around sae a bit too often, but that seems quite adorable to you.
"Okay then, i have to go back home, i have to help my mother by preparing a gift" now that statement got rin curious.
"Who's gift?" rin asked throwing away the popsicle
"My father, why do you ask?" you answered adding another question.
"Just got curious, wait father-?" rin asked once again.
"Yes for my father, what the hell are you on abo-?"
"i thought you were fatherless...." he admitted sheepishly.
He thought you would be angry, but then saw you laughing your ass your by hearing his confession.
"Wait really...?" rin nodded confirming what he just said, but seeing you laugh even more make him chuckle and blush from embracement.
You noticed it and smile still laughing uncontrollably, "i never knew the itoshi brothers could laugh"
"Oh come on! we still have emotions we just don't show it" rin snarled back having a slight cocky grin plastered on his face. meanwhile you just stared at him weirdly.
You swear you heard the same thing somewhere, after a few moments thinking where and who you chuckle a bit
"Gosh your just like sae" you sigh before continuing "He told me the same thing when he was still here"
"Wait are you serious?" you nodded and and he smiled dumbly.
"But be sure to not be an actual copy of sae, k?" rin gave a thumbs up "You are your own person and not sae itoshi's little brother"
"Oh stop, your not my mom" you smiled sticking out your tongue,, "but i am your guardian, i only want the best for you"
"Anyways i have to go for real now" you wave your hand and start smiling "dont miss me too much rinrin"
"I won't (reader)" he said ticking his tongue out.
...
From day that onwards you and him had one of the best relationship, he started being more kind to you and sometimes you guys flirted just for fun.
His teammates always ships you two together when your at his practice, which is always or every single time. Hell even his parents believe this. And that somehow ends up to you laughing it off while rin becomes a blushing mess
Rin itoshi
Have i fallen for her...?
A weird feeling, it was innocent at first but then the thought of her kept me awake at night, the way she smiled at me... the way how i felt safe around her.
She always told me to be me, and not the 'little brother of sae itoshi' she was the first to say that. How she somehow makes me chuckle at the worst joke, before i knew it i had already fallen for her.

this crap is boring you can skip it since i was trying to describe what happened in the manga.
4 years have passed since sae left to play in real mandrid, rin and his team was playing a match against a team called RIXIL . You were there supporting the team by cheering at the sideline.
The last few moments of the game rin had the ball while being press by a few defenders, dribbling pass them he runs forward towards the goal. Since you were quite knowledgeable in the world of football, you easily understand what will rin do in his situation.
His team screaming him to pass the ball with his coach, passing the ball to his teammate for that person to pass to another teammate near him to finally to finally pass to rin.
He scored the winning goal, screams of joy filled the area you quickly congratulate him on his win after the match.
"Rinrin that was an amazing goal you made!" rin blush and replied "I'll be the best in the world with nii-chan afterall!"
"You surely will, be the best with sae" you paused "What do you want for winning the match?" rin grinned at this, "Your hand in marriage, (reader)"
"If you be the world best with your brother" you smirked back.
"Oh you might as well marry me now" he stick his tongue out.
"Oh don't be so cocky with me" you feel your phone ring inside your pocket "excuse me rinrin i have to take this call"
Rin gave a thumbs up going to a bench to cool down before taking a shower, you took awhile chatting with the person on the other line.
After you ended the call you turned to rin "your mother hosted a family dinner to celebrate your win, rinrin" You gave a soft smile as you start preparing to leave.
"Where you going?" rin asked as he drink his water bottle "to help Mrs for dinner, anyways imma go now!" rin watches you leave then left out a sigh of relief
Why the hell did i say that?
That lukewarm shit was so risky...
Thank gosh she didn't notice it was real...
...
He watches his two teammates leave as it turned to a late afternoon, he note that it would probably be turning evening very soon. But he still wanted to train his skill..
He kicks a ball towards the goal, as it hit the net he think to himself how it wasn't in the spot he wanted. 'Ah. its snowing..' he thought to himself and heard a voice in the distance.
"Wasn't that shot a bit shoddy?" he looks a bit closer, it was sae his eyes lit up with joy after seeing him after all these years and blurted the word 'nii-chan'.
They both exchange pleasantries with one another, rin noticed sae wasn't feeling himself he looks... sad, unfulfilled? an emotion he never saw his brother have.
...
the clock hit (I have no idea) you started becoming worried, rin usually be home by now... thinking the worst you thought he was kidnapped, in this time many kids have been reported missing.
The more you think about it, the more you start being uneasy. note to yourself to check outside just in case rin was just running late, and if not you'll go to the football field.
You checked outside using a peephole and thankfully rin was just walking towards the door, relief washed over you and you opened the door.
"Rinrin! welcome back dinners almost ready" you smiled from ear to ear but rin just walked passed you, you didn't even bat an eye you guessed it was he got tired by practicing for so long.
You went back in the kitchen after the Mrs. of the house called your name, you helped with the last remaining dishes and prepared the table with her.
Everything has been prepared, "(reader) dear, may you please call rin down?" you smiled and nodded "Yes Mrs. i will" and there you go, going to rin's room.
As you were approaching the bedroom you hear a loud crash. Feeling fearful of what might be happening you run towards the room, you opened the door as soon you were infront of it. "Rin what happened!?" you screamed out of instinct.
"Get the fuck out of my room" yelled back rin
That startled you you never saw him this mad looking around the room you saw all of sae's awards, a few moment of silent rin gave a small sorry.
"Sorry (reader) i just had a bad day" you smiled and patted his head, "Dinners ready rinrin" you said and exited the door. You got awfully curious what happened.
As soon you sat down rin came and sat beside you, "Since everyone's here lets all pray first" said Mrs. itoshi
"Mrs?" you called out to rin's mother "May i take a picture to send to sae?" she nodded as she signal for everyone to hold hands to pray.
After praying you took out your phone and as intended "Say cheese everyone!" as you held your phone up high for everyone to see. You soon took the photo
" いただきます" (its Itadakimasu its said before eating) said the group
"Woah this is delicious!" said mr. itoshi "who made this?" Mrs. Itoshi replied with your name.
"You would make a wonderful housewife!" said Mr. itoshi
"Im flattered by your kind words Mr. itoshi!" you replied
"So are you planning to marry one of our sons, (reader)?" you nodded your head chuckling slightly
"I might marry one of them, or even both of them!" the parents laughed and you also joined in laughing
Rin blushed he had a chance getting with you? and even marrying you? that would be a dream come true, he just to make sure sae hadn't have any feeling for you.
After you finish eating your meal, you thank Mrs. Itoshi for inviting you as a guest.
You returned home safely, but as you were about to fall asleep you remembered the photo you took with the family. You opened the app and send the photo with the caption.
"celebrating rin's amazing goal!" and "wish you were here with us"
And then drifted to sleep... the next day you check you Messager app to see sae's respond to your text. It was the normal response but something caught your eye, the last message.
"I'm changing my dream i wanna be the world best midfielder" being the good friend you are you supported his decision with open arms.

It's been a few months almost a year by now, your relationship with him wasn't the same ever since that day. Rin was cold to you, not starting a conversation. he wasn't particularly rude just silent.
He was different as you kept noticing this you felt uneasy. You did try to ask him what happened yet he didn't answer, whenever you mention sae he just glared at you until you drop it.
That continued on... until he went to a facility called "blue lock" to be the best striker in Japan.
You couldn't able to contact him, you brush it off as he was probably busy. Being quite lonely you tried to reach sae but that ended in failure.
JAPAN U20 VS BLUE LOCK 11
"(Reader) quick your going to be late!" said your mother as she got the keys of the car to tossed it to you.
You catch the keys "Ma, don't worry" you quickly replied getting your purse.
"Gosh (reader) you got the front seats by the itoshi family hurry up!"
"I know ma! I'm very excited" you responded as you exit the house and got in the car.
"Make sure to give me and your father some gifts!" you agreed and quickly drive to the location.
You arrived just in time to be able to buy some merch, looking around the area you find the perfect thing, a rin plushie and a sae jersey its was hella expensive, if you didn't get a discount you would have been on the headline being the poorest person in Japan.
wait what time is it...?
Oh I'm actually going to be late.
Wtf i sound so calm!?
You start walking faster and by pure luck manage to get to your seat in time (barely...), you look around to find the couple that bought the seats.
Fuck where are they?
What in the actual ass!?
As you were silently in the seat thinking they cancelled the purchase, you felt a beep inside your bag. You took your phone to check what's up with it
"Sorry (reader), we both had an emergency and have to tend to it, your own your own" text by Mrs. Itoshi
Well that's a relief...
I was about to dig a hole and burry myself
Time to enjoy the game!
Getting comfortable in your seat you remembered the jersey you bought, 'Might as well wear it' you slid inside the jersey as you waited for the match to start
You watch eagerly at the entrance of the field where the players will appear, As you see both teams emerge from the shadows. The crowd screams 'itoshi sae' as soon you he appeared. even some screaming a popular defender name 'Aiku'
Joining in the screaming you loudly yelled sae's name.
"Sae, don't disappoint me, give me a good match to watch!" repeating sae's name like a chant while smiling from ear to ear. You remembered to cheer for rin also.
Gathering all the air in your lungs to scream the hardest you can you wave your hand franticly, closing your eyes you gave your all in that scream.
"RINNIE-SANNNN WIN THE MATCH, DONT DISSAPOINT!!!" you thought you were about to pass out from how loud you cheer, but that was worth it since rin looked to your direction, you gave the biggest smile as you were still waving.
Little did you know rin was stabbing daggers at what you were wearing.
Sportscaster and football commentator start talking you fell back to your seat feeling tired. Paying your attention to the field.
(if you wanted me to explain the whole match i aint doing it but check the manga if you are interested)
The second half was over it was so intense you were dancing with excitement on how good the match was, sae's first goal to seishiro goal then the last goal of the fist half made by rin himself.
It was truly amazing first half, the blue lockers having a one point advantage against the the U20, as bought a soda from the soda boy cooling down before looking at the field, there's rin looking at you.
"Rinrin! congrats on that amazing goal you made!" you yelled giving a heart shape pose while sticking your tounge out.
Rin flip you off. that was unexpected...
"WHAT THE FUCK RIN!?" you yelled almost causing a commotion but thankfully you control your temper, you didn't wanna just do nothing so you double flip him.
He just stick his tongue out in response.
You calm yourself down and got your phone out to text sae, you pretty sure that it was allowed.
(Second half has ended)
Amazing those blue lockers won against the U20
the final score was 3-4 first goal was sae, then seishiro, then rin, next two goals were the pink demon the zesty one called shidou, finnaly was barou and the last goal was isagi. Screams of joy filled the stadium both with the winning players and the audience.
And there was Isagi's speech!
Overall if you had to rate the match it would be (your decision), you quickly got off your seat to meet with sae just he had planned.
Waiting outside the main gate you stayed there until sae arrived.
"Sae! over here" you called as sae start approaching you
"Ah hello (reader)-" "Wait is that my jersey?"
"Oh fuck i completely forgot that i was still wearing this..."
"you look adorable..."
"what was that"
"Nothing..."
"Wait can you sign this jersey"
"Sure" sae's ears start becoming pink
"Thank you, ilysm!"
"i love you too..."
"anyways bye! get some rest sae!" he nodded as you walk away.
That conversation you had with him was much more... something. But that was fine, he is probably tired from the match.
You went home since rin wasn't able to go home just yet and it was getting late, you arrived home and went to your feeling exhausted.
CONFESSION
Its been a while just a week since the match, you have scheduled to meet in a private beach with rin and sae.
You manage to convince rin with some hesitation from his side surprisingly.
Meanwhile sae agreed with any hesitation now that really surprise you to the point you thought he was a doubleganger.
You awaited for their arrival but then you saw your reflection in the sea, your hair was very messy. So being a sane person you pull out your comb and brush your hair.
As you were about to finish the comb broke in two...
Sae came first with a bouquet of flowers and stand their Infront of you.
"(Reader) i love you, be mine" he said in the most deadpan tone you ever heard, you look closely at his expression you saw a faint blush.
What the actual fuck?
Is this a dream?
I need to wake the fuck up.
"WHAT THE FUCK!?" you thought that was you but you notice that you didn't say anything.
You see rin approaching no... running towards your direction holding a teddy bear in his left hand and a heart shape container.
Before you knew it rin punched sae in his guts, that scene looks like it came from a romance movie.
Then sae punched back which you assume was for self-defense, the more they fought the more you panic trying to de-escalate the situation.
In a last ditch effort you screamed
"Stop it you guys, y'all are fighting like animals!" if they ignore this you might as well enjoy the drama, eat some popcorn and and sit down.
Rin came to his senses first and stop, apologizing to you. Sae glared at him, and was about to throw another punch. As you were about to get some popcorn to eat sae stop mid-punch.
"Okay what the actual fuck is going on with all of you!?" you yelled.
"because that idiot gave you a lukewarm confession when i was suppose to confess to you!" said rin
"The only lukewarm thing here was your goal and existence, annoying pest"
"Wait rin you were going to confess?"
"Yes (reader) are you going deaf from his confession already?"
"Can i hear it?" you asked
"Not infront of him!" yelled rin
"just damn do it rin" you responded
he paused blushing from embarrassment, lowering his head an holding his arms out with the gifts he brought.
"(reader) be at my side and watch me be the no 1. striker"
"Woah that was extremely lukewarm, rin"
"Oh shut the fuck up"
"So who do you choose?"
HALF FOR EACH OF US
Gore, jjk reference, kidnapping, but don't worry you didn't die hopefully.

Ending :1/4 you reject them both
"I'm sorry guys but I'm not choosing any of you..." you saw the hurt in their eyes, you watch how their heart was broken, but when you tried to apologize again they scream.
"Fucking get away (reader)" rin yelled
"You'll regret this" you felt the air tense up once sae told you this so you left the scene.
You live your life with the guilt of knowing you broke their hearts.
You entered a coffee shop to meet up with a old buddy you knew, before you knew it there was a sharp pain at your forehead then you passed out.
As you opened your eyes you felt a wet liquid dripping down, as you tried to wipe it you notice you couldn't move your hand freely.
"Whoops your already awake" you heard a voice speak up "I'll inform them"
"What the-"
You saw a few people entered as your vision start becoming clearer, the only people you recognize was the itoshis.
"I'll take the bottom part"
"We know, you ass lover"
'What are they talking about?'
"Oh (reader) only if you just accepted one of us" you saw him gave a cocky grin but instead of laughing you felt uneasy.
"Shut up, rin" Rin rolled his eyes at sae reponse.
"Don't worry (reader) the operation won't hurt" sae added
"Operation?" you asked still feeling the sharp pain.
"We're cutting you in half, ill have the upper part and that ass lover be having your bottom" rin answered putting his hand on his hip
"The actual hell?"
They ignored you and signal the other people to take you to a room, there in the room they made you drink a liquid and you soon passed
yes i was being lazy i want to be done
Fleeing Japan to go to Spain
Childhood friends to lovers, Popular x Normal.

Ending 2/4 : You choose sae over rin.
"I choose you sae... I'm sorry rin"
"See rin you shouldn't have even tried, she always would choose me"
"I'm really sorry rin"
"Don't. be. (reader). i. fucking. hate. you. for. this."
You tried to apologize again but this time rin glared at you and you stop mid-way, "(reader) i have to go now." rin said as you throwed away the gifts he had in his hand to the trash.
You tried to get the gifts out of the trash but sae stop you, "(reader) those are dirty don't pick it up"
as you were about to argue with him that it's not that dirty anymore, you look at sae's eyes it was like the eyes of someone hopelessly inlove.
"I really do love (reader) im very grateful that you choose me... i will the best lover you'll ever have" you laugh at this and cup this face "Lets see Mr. prodigy~" you saw sae's face turned bright red and chuckle, sae hugged you .
"I wanna let you know a secret i always loved you from the start" you didn't know how to respond so you blush. "I love you" you nodded "I love you too Mr. Prodigy"
The moment you turned eighteen sae gave you the offer of flying to spain so you could both could live together at this luxurious penthouse. You gladly accepted because of the con's and since sae also offered to pay for your collage so you could achieve your dreams.
Be the no 1. lover
Brother's childhood friend, opposites attract.

Ending 3/4 : you choose rin over sae
"...I choose you rin" you replied pointing at rin direction, rin quickly jumped towards you and hugged you tightly
"I promise to give you the VIP seats when i become the best in the world" rin replied almost suffocating you.
"Im sorry sae" you apologize to sae and he started approaching you handing the bouquet of flowers, "I'm done with Japan, i only stayed for this long so i could confess to you"
He told you as he started walking away with his hands in his pocket, you felt bad for rejecting him but you still have rin with you.
"I love you so much (reader) thank you for choosing me and not him" said rin as he kiss your forehead. "I love you for eternity" as he approach your lips. and gave you a kiss.
That surprise you and rin notices "Im sorry (reader) im just so happy" you smiled at this and gave him a small kiss at his cheek, that ended up with him blushing uncontrollably.
"I love you (reader)"
"Me too rin"
You both smiled dumbly and went to get some popsicle. Once the blue lock project started, you just watch him at the bllk tv and texting him or calling him daily he made sure that you felt loved. He was sure the best lover you had.
Why not have the best of two worlds?
Two lovers, harem? i have no idea what is this

Ending 4/4 : you choose them both...
"uhm... i choose you both" they both stared at you in confusion, rin was the first to confirm what you just said, to his astonishment you didn't make a mistake of choosing.
"Well i call dibs on Sunday to Wednesday" said sae as rin glared at him, "I call dibs at the rest then." rin replied handing you the gifts he had bought to you.
"Your coming with me (reader) since it's Tuesday" sae said as he start dragging you to the local mall.
"Hey, that's not fair!" you heard rin yelled to sae but he didn't stop but just continued to drag you away from the beach.
And that's how your relationship with both itoshi brothers started, of course you manage to make a better way of dating each of them. But overall rin and sae were pretty much cool with eachother, no arguing, no drama, it was peaceful most of the time.
You will surely tell your future children how you met their fathers... You never felt neglected by them or make them feel neglected when you all were dating, even now you still look back in the past and wondered what will happen if you choose only one.
But you didn't think that deeply since you have two wonderful lovers by your side.

Did i lose motivation every single day and wish to have a proper sleep schedule? yes i did. Did i wanted to delete the whole fanfic since i thought it was cringe? i was going too but i made too much progress ANYWAYSSS TYSM FOR READING THIS PIECE OF CRAP <3 AND STAY TUNED FOR THE HEADCANNOS The whole fic was uncannon and cannon randomly since i kept getting distracted by the manga! My sleep schedule is ass :D
IM SCARED OF SOME SAE'S FANS, LIKE WHY DID I SEE AN IMAGE PF SAE PREGNANT😭😭😭
SOME OF Y'ALL GOTTA GO
How about Rin x female reader x Sae?
This is so damn rare to see, I thought itoshi bro's x reader died😭
🍂Who would you choose?🍂
This might not me accurate💕

Summary :
Little did you know... football isn't the only thing the brothers fight about. If you dont wanna read the whole story go to U20 JAPAN VS BL11 MATCH or CONFESSION or just the endings!
4 alternative endings, Itoshi brother x you, fluff, Angst ofc, weird asf, random, fem! Reader, long story, manga spoilers, curses i think!

You still remember when You and Sae first met, it was in your young elementary school days... Sae was known to be a bitch and overall is the opposite of a nice person.
......
You were playing with your toys by yourself, until you spotted a lone boy playing alone with a ball.
As you start paying more attention to him, your mother notices and smiles softly "that's Sae Itoshi"
"He's really pretty" you replied to your mom, "Can I befriend him?" You questioned.
"Are you sure? He is quite mean to people he doesn't know" She ask but after you confirm she walks away to go do her own business.
"Be careful (reader) don't get sad and try, okay?"
"I won't disappoint myself and mama!"You promised as you held your pinky finger to them, in which they agree and hold their own pinky with yours... completing the pinky promise.
You start walking towards sae, you start having second thoughts It's not your scared... You're just nervous to approach another person you don't know that well.
Oh well it's far too late since sae just noticed you approaching at a high rate.
"Uhm... Hello? My name's (last name) (reader) and I want to be your friend!" You smiled as you held out your hand expecting a handshake.
"Go away, I bet you don't even know" any football stars" sae replied stepping on the ball, you were shocked this is what a child reply to you?
"Excuse me? I do know a lot of football stars!" That took sae by surprise but still stayed firm on his word of you not knowing any players.
"Name one player, and Noel Noah doesn't count"
"Hmm it's hard..."
"Finally giving up? Just leav-" you quickly interrupted then midway.
"hey! I was talking about how hard it is to select a player out of all the amazing players out there, but anyways Chris Prince"
"Good choice? You earned my respect I suppose..."
This time he finally shake your hand, you felt a sign of relief wash over your body as you smiled at him.
"I'm Itoshi Sae, and I also apologize for my behavior earlier" he shakes your hand as he returns the smile back to you.
You noticed the ball once again, it looked rather familiar up close... Your eyes start to sparkle when you remember what type of ball it was.
"Omg it that the limited edition Football!? Signed by the one and only" you exclaimed as you start shaking the young sae, the poor boy didn't know what to do since your grip on his shoulder was to tight.
He confirmed your suspicion and you started jumping like a kangaroo from pure excitement, sae looked at you like you are a mad lady... I mean the way you're acting is uhhh....
He once again tried to ignore how you were acting, "So... How did you know the player?" He asked which made you stop what you were doing "Easy I watch football matches with my father!" You replied.
That was not what he was talking about but whatever...
You started to ramble on all of the great things you and your father did when he's in the country, in which he just listens carefully surprisingly.
After a while you had to go home you said your good bye's and left just like that.
Sae itoshi
That was a good memory to keep..
She was somewhat weird the first time we met, i suppose... her understanding of football was the one intrigue me in to her.
It compelled me to the point we started to habg out often if i wasn't busy. The more time we spent, the more of this weird sensation i have, it was like love...
I didn't understand at first but one small click in the internet had me understanding that i fell for her.

That's all you remember as you see him outside the gate waiting for you, "Itoshi Itoshi! over here" sae turns in your direction, Holding a football he starts going to you.
"You know that you can call me Sae right?" You smile softly in return to his question and start nodding.
"I know! But your fan girls might kill me" sae raised an eyebrow, he was just 12 not many people will fall in love with a 12 year old right?
"Whatever just call me Sae, (reader) we've known eachother since fourth grade"
You simply nodded as you both, "Wanna hang out at my place, sae?" Sae turned to you, he didn't know why it feels so good when you actually say his name out loud.
He hides his now covered bright pink ears from you and nodded, as you saw his happening you got curious and started nagging him why did he cover his ears from you.
"hey sae, why are you covering your ears?" You ask as you start tugging on his uniform, he wanted to say but his pride is not letting him.
'Oh sorry my ears became a bright pink as you my crush said my name out loud'
No no...
Not happening in a million years
"Ah well I heard a mosquito..." That was a Lukewarm excuse to give, but did he care absolutely not.
You start dragging him again accepting his reason like all the other times you and him hang out at your place.
"Also did you hear, Kourtney And Abigail stop being besties?" You questioned, sae just furrowed his eyebrows.
He never cared about any drama in the school, it's lukewarm and not deserving of his time. But just for you he nodded which you scream with excitement.
"Omg you finally started learning some drama, It's been so long since you actually learned some drama~!"
You continue babbling your nonsense and start adding some more gossip in the school, sae just ignored it and kept on walking with you.
You kept on talking even as you both reached your destination, sae being quite annoyed softly (maybe not so) hit your head with his fist.
"Hey what the hell sae!?, I was just getting to the good part-" sae immediately cut you off
"We're here already... And stop babbling on such Lukewarm things" sae replied his hand far gone covering his ears, which turned to it's normal color.
You got an idea ...you lean closer as you give the most cheeky smile ever,sae immediately blush.
"Hey... Sae-chan~?" You have flap your eyelashes at him.
"Y-Yeah?" Sae replied trying to hide his blushing face. Sae just screams internally as he watches you lean a centimeter closer
Oh how pathetic...
Why did I say that? It's lm a damn idiot.
Omg what if she notices my face?
Oh fuck...
"You're so lukewarm (reader)..." sae mumble which you definitely heard.
"Huh, why sae-chan?" You inch a bit closer to him.
Sae turned more red from both you and what he just said to you. He's a complete mess and your still that close to him.
Oh fuck... What have I done!?
This is so damn embarrassing.
I wanna dig a hole and jump...
And if he couldn't be blushing enough by you, he heard a small compliment it wasn't a unique one he heard it multiple times in the media, but coming from your tongue... It felt magical, sae had butterflies in his stomach.
'Sae you know, your very handsome and especially with those underlashes' he recalls what you just said, that earned him to be another blushing mess.
As he finally made himself calm down, he scanned the room to find you once he didn't see you in the room. He figured you left to go to your room, which he was grateful for...
Calming himself by inhaling and exhaling, he soon followed it to go to your bedroom after he had stopped being a mess.
As the day goes by you and him had lots of fun chatting about Life... And sae's football career and what you two will do in the future.
You reveal your dream to him and he was quite surprise by it but nonetheless wish you luck on your own journey to success.

It's been a year now, your standing at the airport seeing sae leave for spain to play in real mandrid. And most importantly you're very comfortable using sae's first name.
"Sae, please text me everyday! And reply to my calls" you not so nicely reminded.
"Yes... I know (reader) I'll do it" sae sighs as he hugs you tightly. "I'm going to miss you" you smile and return the hug "I'll miss you too its been great having you around"
"Wait sae where is your family, I never got to see them all these years? Of friendship" Sae just pointed to the side, which in return have you looking embarrass of not noticing them.
You let out a long 'ooh' as you and him approach them, once you are standing infront of his parents. You left out a bow and introduced yourself, which amazed them and patted your head.
"Good day Mr. and Mrs. Itoshi i am (last name) (reader) sae's friend"
"Woah Sae never told us your friend was such a well mannered lady!" Mrs. Itoshi remark which soon followed by Mr. Itoshi to praise you.
As soon as Mrs. And Mr. Itoshi stop admiring your good manners, you scan around to find sae, once you identify where he was and start to proceeds towards his location.
As you draw closer and closer you make-out a younger version of sae but with dark green hair.
"Hey! Sae who's that with you?" You question which sae answered truthfully.
"That's my younger brother (reader)"
"Ooo! I never knew you had a brother" you start pinching the younger brother as start complimenting his adorable appearance, rin in response annoyingly stick his tongue out.
Meanwhile sae starts glaring at Rin unconsciously, is this the last thing he sees before heading to Spain? His first crush, his love, his number 2...
(I'm sorry it's cannon that he'll choose football over you)
He snapped out of his death glare to Rin when you suddenly ask a question.
"What's his name, sae?" You asked as you finally stopped giving the younger one attention.
Sae gave a force smile and introduced him to you "That's Itoshi Rin he's 11" you thanked him and started completing rin again.
That ticked Sae off deeply as he glared at Rin to make him realize to stop hogging all of the attention.
Rin seeing his older brother sulk start walking towards him and hugging him tightly.
Rin thought it was because of him leaving the country...(It wasn't obviously)
"It's okay Nii-chan, we will give lots of gifts!" That made sae quite confused, yet seeing you again gushing of Rin endearing attempt, Sae start acting like a good older brother just for you.
"I know Rin ill be sure to be the best striker in the world, promise" Rin smile having sparkle in his eyes, having you finally turn you attention to Sae.
"Sae remember to know that I'm your number 1. fan" you jokingly reminded, rin angrily replied with "No! im his no. 1 fan, plus your a girl you dont know anything about football"
You smile internally Rin was just like Sae, yet you still was pissed at his fabricate lie. But as you were about to scold him Sae already doing the job for you.
"Rin thats rude, we dont do that anymore."
"But..." sae again glared and signal to him to apologize to you.
Once Rin finally muttered an apology for his rude behavior, you gladly accepted and told him you were more than knowledgeable in the world of football.
Rin beamed with excitement after getting confirmation from sae that it was indeed correct.
"Can you play football...?" you nodded your head that seems to make rin eye's sparkle.
As the conversation continued, Sae was called by his parents, that briefly stopped the chattering between the three people.
Its time for sae to leave the country...
You stand there feeling a mixed of sorrow and cheerfulness for you friend. You never felt this mixed of emotions at the same time, your first friend leaving you to pursue his football career.
You wave sae goodbye... having a smile of your faceyou stop him midway and hugged him "I will really miss you sae... please don't forget about me"
"I wont (reader)... dont replace me with anyone, okay?" you nodded your head and then tried to joke abit to lighten up the tension in the air. "I promise to protect rin and be his guardian for you"
Sae laughed and then made joke "Make sure he isn't a brat when i come back" you laughed and promise.
its time for the family to say their goodbye's
"Take care of your health!" Mr. itoshi said
"Good luck, sae!" said the wife waving her hand as she continued smiling
"Nii-chan, have a safe trip!" said rin and having an expression of joy
sae responded by smiling " See ya." he pause "Im off to be the best in the world" you and rin smiled and wave to sae.
you see him carrying him luggage and phone as he smiles finnaly entering the plane to spain.

Its been a couple of years, you kept the promise you made to sae to be the guardian of rin for all the years when sae was in spain. You still kept contact with sae by vc or just texting.
Itoshi family treated you as their own, and rin finally stop being rude to you as more time passed. You and rin occasionally hang out at the beach to get his mind of things with sae.
You were there for rin in every match he had, even practice.
this is one of your best interaction with rin...
...
"Hey Rinnie, do you wanna play a match with me?" you questioned which rin just nodded his head in approval. Tossing the football towards you giving you a slight advantage over him.
"Once i get the ball i win if you score you win, deal?" you nodded at the rule
You kick the ball to the left giving it a slight curve and started running, if you calculated correctly the ball will come back to your feet. But it's not that easy it's far more complicated than that...
And you know that, Afterall you saw his performance in the real matches, you know that he will catch up eventually and defeat you. But you wont make it that easy...
You hear heavy footsteps right behind you, rin was already catching up but just in time... The ball manage to came back. but as you were about to do something, rin interfered and got the ball before you got to do anything.
"(reader) you lost the game" rin said having a stoic expression. "good job rin, you were better than last time!" you smiled and gave a high five.
Rin returned the smile and high five you, you then added "Im sure sae will be impress by your growth!"
"You think so?" asked rin which you reply with "Im know so!" rin smiled from ear to ear
"Omg rin your just as cute when the first time i met you" you jokingly remark seeing his joyous expression.
"Hey I'm not cute!" rin bite back
you playfully rolled your eyes, "Whatever makes you sleep at night, i guess"
"Im literally taller now than before even taller than you!"
"So...? it doesnt mean taller people cant be cute"
"Hm. whatever you lukewarm girl" rin responded
"Oh come one have some originality will you?" you insulted in a friendly manner
"You forgot the comma" insulted back jokingly
"Oh shut up fancy pants" your eyes rolled back.
You both laugh at the weird interaction, then you suddenly suggested to buy some popsicle since it was still early.
Rin immediately screamed a yes, that caught you by surprise by his excitement. He started to drag you in a not so nearby ice cream shop.
"You'll pay right?" you nodded in agreement, as rin saw this his eyes light up and grab a quite cheap popsicle.
"I'll have this one!" you gave a nod and got your ice cream from the freezer near the entrance of the shop. you pay the money and surprisingly it was much cheaper than you expected it to be.
As yo both were eating away the ice cream rin suddenly tap your shoulder "(Reader) i won, look" you let out a smile and congratulated him.
"i got to practice again... i have to be the best after nii-chan!" rin added, you note that he is revolving around sae a bit too often, but that seems quite adorable to you.
"Okay then, i have to go back home, i have to help my mother by preparing a gift" now that statement got rin curious.
"Who's gift?" rin asked throwing away the popsicle
"My father, why do you ask?" you answered adding another question.
"Just got curious, wait father-?" rin asked once again.
"Yes for my father, what the hell are you on abo-?"
"i thought you were fatherless...." he admitted sheepishly.
He thought you would be angry, but then saw you laughing your ass your by hearing his confession.
"Wait really...?" rin nodded confirming what he just said, but seeing you laugh even more make him chuckle and blush from embracement.
You noticed it and smile still laughing uncontrollably, "i never knew the itoshi brothers could laugh"
"Oh come on! we still have emotions we just don't show it" rin snarled back having a slight cocky grin plastered on his face. meanwhile you just stared at him weirdly.
You swear you heard the same thing somewhere, after a few moments thinking where and who you chuckle a bit
"Gosh your just like sae" you sigh before continuing "He told me the same thing when he was still here"
"Wait are you serious?" you nodded and and he smiled dumbly.
"But be sure to not be an actual copy of sae, k?" rin gave a thumbs up "You are your own person and not sae itoshi's little brother"
"Oh stop, your not my mom" you smiled sticking out your tongue,, "but i am your guardian, i only want the best for you"
"Anyways i have to go for real now" you wave your hand and start smiling "dont miss me too much rinrin"
"I won't (reader)" he said ticking his tongue out.
...
From day that onwards you and him had one of the best relationship, he started being more kind to you and sometimes you guys flirted just for fun.
His teammates always ships you two together when your at his practice, which is always or every single time. Hell even his parents believe this. And that somehow ends up to you laughing it off while rin becomes a blushing mess
Rin itoshi
Have i fallen for her...?
A weird feeling, it was innocent at first but then the thought of her kept me awake at night, the way she smiled at me... the way how i felt safe around her.
She always told me to be me, and not the 'little brother of sae itoshi' she was the first to say that. How she somehow makes me chuckle at the worst joke, before i knew it i had already fallen for her.

this crap is boring you can skip it since i was trying to describe what happened in the manga.
4 years have passed since sae left to play in real mandrid, rin and his team was playing a match against a team called RIXIL . You were there supporting the team by cheering at the sideline.
The last few moments of the game rin had the ball while being press by a few defenders, dribbling pass them he runs forward towards the goal. Since you were quite knowledgeable in the world of football, you easily understand what will rin do in his situation.
His team screaming him to pass the ball with his coach, passing the ball to his teammate for that person to pass to another teammate near him to finally to finally pass to rin.
He scored the winning goal, screams of joy filled the area you quickly congratulate him on his win after the match.
"Rinrin that was an amazing goal you made!" rin blush and replied "I'll be the best in the world with nii-chan afterall!"
"You surely will, be the best with sae" you paused "What do you want for winning the match?" rin grinned at this, "Your hand in marriage, (reader)"
"If you be the world best with your brother" you smirked back.
"Oh you might as well marry me now" he stick his tongue out.
"Oh don't be so cocky with me" you feel your phone ring inside your pocket "excuse me rinrin i have to take this call"
Rin gave a thumbs up going to a bench to cool down before taking a shower, you took awhile chatting with the person on the other line.
After you ended the call you turned to rin "your mother hosted a family dinner to celebrate your win, rinrin" You gave a soft smile as you start preparing to leave.
"Where you going?" rin asked as he drink his water bottle "to help Mrs for dinner, anyways imma go now!" rin watches you leave then left out a sigh of relief
Why the hell did i say that?
That lukewarm shit was so risky...
Thank gosh she didn't notice it was real...
...
He watches his two teammates leave as it turned to a late afternoon, he note that it would probably be turning evening very soon. But he still wanted to train his skill..
He kicks a ball towards the goal, as it hit the net he think to himself how it wasn't in the spot he wanted. 'Ah. its snowing..' he thought to himself and heard a voice in the distance.
"Wasn't that shot a bit shoddy?" he looks a bit closer, it was sae his eyes lit up with joy after seeing him after all these years and blurted the word 'nii-chan'.
They both exchange pleasantries with one another, rin noticed sae wasn't feeling himself he looks... sad, unfulfilled? an emotion he never saw his brother have.
...
the clock hit (I have no idea) you started becoming worried, rin usually be home by now... thinking the worst you thought he was kidnapped, in this time many kids have been reported missing.
The more you think about it, the more you start being uneasy. note to yourself to check outside just in case rin was just running late, and if not you'll go to the football field.
You checked outside using a peephole and thankfully rin was just walking towards the door, relief washed over you and you opened the door.
"Rinrin! welcome back dinners almost ready" you smiled from ear to ear but rin just walked passed you, you didn't even bat an eye you guessed it was he got tired by practicing for so long.
You went back in the kitchen after the Mrs. of the house called your name, you helped with the last remaining dishes and prepared the table with her.
Everything has been prepared, "(reader) dear, may you please call rin down?" you smiled and nodded "Yes Mrs. i will" and there you go, going to rin's room.
As you were approaching the bedroom you hear a loud crash. Feeling fearful of what might be happening you run towards the room, you opened the door as soon you were infront of it. "Rin what happened!?" you screamed out of instinct.
"Get the fuck out of my room" yelled back rin
That startled you you never saw him this mad looking around the room you saw all of sae's awards, a few moment of silent rin gave a small sorry.
"Sorry (reader) i just had a bad day" you smiled and patted his head, "Dinners ready rinrin" you said and exited the door. You got awfully curious what happened.
As soon you sat down rin came and sat beside you, "Since everyone's here lets all pray first" said Mrs. itoshi
"Mrs?" you called out to rin's mother "May i take a picture to send to sae?" she nodded as she signal for everyone to hold hands to pray.
After praying you took out your phone and as intended "Say cheese everyone!" as you held your phone up high for everyone to see. You soon took the photo
" いただきます" (its Itadakimasu its said before eating) said the group
"Woah this is delicious!" said mr. itoshi "who made this?" Mrs. Itoshi replied with your name.
"You would make a wonderful housewife!" said Mr. itoshi
"Im flattered by your kind words Mr. itoshi!" you replied
"So are you planning to marry one of our sons, (reader)?" you nodded your head chuckling slightly
"I might marry one of them, or even both of them!" the parents laughed and you also joined in laughing
Rin blushed he had a chance getting with you? and even marrying you? that would be a dream come true, he just to make sure sae hadn't have any feeling for you.
After you finish eating your meal, you thank Mrs. Itoshi for inviting you as a guest.
You returned home safely, but as you were about to fall asleep you remembered the photo you took with the family. You opened the app and send the photo with the caption.
"celebrating rin's amazing goal!" and "wish you were here with us"
And then drifted to sleep... the next day you check you Messager app to see sae's respond to your text. It was the normal response but something caught your eye, the last message.
"I'm changing my dream i wanna be the world best midfielder" being the good friend you are you supported his decision with open arms.

It's been a few months almost a year by now, your relationship with him wasn't the same ever since that day. Rin was cold to you, not starting a conversation. he wasn't particularly rude just silent.
He was different as you kept noticing this you felt uneasy. You did try to ask him what happened yet he didn't answer, whenever you mention sae he just glared at you until you drop it.
That continued on... until he went to a facility called "blue lock" to be the best striker in Japan.
You couldn't able to contact him, you brush it off as he was probably busy. Being quite lonely you tried to reach sae but that ended in failure.
JAPAN U20 VS BLUE LOCK 11
"(Reader) quick your going to be late!" said your mother as she got the keys of the car to tossed it to you.
You catch the keys "Ma, don't worry" you quickly replied getting your purse.
"Gosh (reader) you got the front seats by the itoshi family hurry up!"
"I know ma! I'm very excited" you responded as you exit the house and got in the car.
"Make sure to give me and your father some gifts!" you agreed and quickly drive to the location.
You arrived just in time to be able to buy some merch, looking around the area you find the perfect thing, a rin plushie and a sae jersey its was hella expensive, if you didn't get a discount you would have been on the headline being the poorest person in Japan.
wait what time is it...?
Oh I'm actually going to be late.
Wtf i sound so calm!?
You start walking faster and by pure luck manage to get to your seat in time (barely...), you look around to find the couple that bought the seats.
Fuck where are they?
What in the actual ass!?
As you were silently in the seat thinking they cancelled the purchase, you felt a beep inside your bag. You took your phone to check what's up with it
"Sorry (reader), we both had an emergency and have to tend to it, your own your own" text by Mrs. Itoshi
Well that's a relief...
I was about to dig a hole and burry myself
Time to enjoy the game!
Getting comfortable in your seat you remembered the jersey you bought, 'Might as well wear it' you slid inside the jersey as you waited for the match to start
You watch eagerly at the entrance of the field where the players will appear, As you see both teams emerge from the shadows. The crowd screams 'itoshi sae' as soon you he appeared. even some screaming a popular defender name 'Aiku'
Joining in the screaming you loudly yelled sae's name.
"Sae, don't disappoint me, give me a good match to watch!" repeating sae's name like a chant while smiling from ear to ear. You remembered to cheer for rin also.
Gathering all the air in your lungs to scream the hardest you can you wave your hand franticly, closing your eyes you gave your all in that scream.
"RINNIE-SANNNN WIN THE MATCH, DONT DISSAPOINT!!!" you thought you were about to pass out from how loud you cheer, but that was worth it since rin looked to your direction, you gave the biggest smile as you were still waving.
Little did you know rin was stabbing daggers at what you were wearing.
Sportscaster and football commentator start talking you fell back to your seat feeling tired. Paying your attention to the field.
(if you wanted me to explain the whole match i aint doing it but check the manga if you are interested)
The second half was over it was so intense you were dancing with excitement on how good the match was, sae's first goal to seishiro goal then the last goal of the fist half made by rin himself.
It was truly amazing first half, the blue lockers having a one point advantage against the the U20, as bought a soda from the soda boy cooling down before looking at the field, there's rin looking at you.
"Rinrin! congrats on that amazing goal you made!" you yelled giving a heart shape pose while sticking your tounge out.
Rin flip you off. that was unexpected...
"WHAT THE FUCK RIN!?" you yelled almost causing a commotion but thankfully you control your temper, you didn't wanna just do nothing so you double flip him.
He just stick his tongue out in response.
You calm yourself down and got your phone out to text sae, you pretty sure that it was allowed.
(Second half has ended)
Amazing those blue lockers won against the U20
the final score was 3-4 first goal was sae, then seishiro, then rin, next two goals were the pink demon the zesty one called shidou, finnaly was barou and the last goal was isagi. Screams of joy filled the stadium both with the winning players and the audience.
And there was Isagi's speech!
Overall if you had to rate the match it would be (your decision), you quickly got off your seat to meet with sae just he had planned.
Waiting outside the main gate you stayed there until sae arrived.
"Sae! over here" you called as sae start approaching you
"Ah hello (reader)-" "Wait is that my jersey?"
"Oh fuck i completely forgot that i was still wearing this..."
"you look adorable..."
"what was that"
"Nothing..."
"Wait can you sign this jersey"
"Sure" sae's ears start becoming pink
"Thank you, ilysm!"
"i love you too..."
"anyways bye! get some rest sae!" he nodded as you walk away.
That conversation you had with him was much more... something. But that was fine, he is probably tired from the match.
You went home since rin wasn't able to go home just yet and it was getting late, you arrived home and went to your feeling exhausted.
CONFESSION
Its been a while just a week since the match, you have scheduled to meet in a private beach with rin and sae.
You manage to convince rin with some hesitation from his side surprisingly.
Meanwhile sae agreed with any hesitation now that really surprise you to the point you thought he was a doubleganger.
You awaited for their arrival but then you saw your reflection in the sea, your hair was very messy. So being a sane person you pull out your comb and brush your hair.
As you were about to finish the comb broke in two...
Sae came first with a bouquet of flowers and stand their Infront of you.
"(Reader) i love you, be mine" he said in the most deadpan tone you ever heard, you look closely at his expression you saw a faint blush.
What the actual fuck?
Is this a dream?
I need to wake the fuck up.
"WHAT THE FUCK!?" you thought that was you but you notice that you didn't say anything.
You see rin approaching no... running towards your direction holding a teddy bear in his left hand and a heart shape container.
Before you knew it rin punched sae in his guts, that scene looks like it came from a romance movie.
Then sae punched back which you assume was for self-defense, the more they fought the more you panic trying to de-escalate the situation.
In a last ditch effort you screamed
"Stop it you guys, y'all are fighting like animals!" if they ignore this you might as well enjoy the drama, eat some popcorn and and sit down.
Rin came to his senses first and stop, apologizing to you. Sae glared at him, and was about to throw another punch. As you were about to get some popcorn to eat sae stop mid-punch.
"Okay what the actual fuck is going on with all of you!?" you yelled.
"because that idiot gave you a lukewarm confession when i was suppose to confess to you!" said rin
"The only lukewarm thing here was your goal and existence, annoying pest"
"Wait rin you were going to confess?"
"Yes (reader) are you going deaf from his confession already?"
"Can i hear it?" you asked
"Not infront of him!" yelled rin
"just damn do it rin" you responded
he paused blushing from embarrassment, lowering his head an holding his arms out with the gifts he brought.
"(reader) be at my side and watch me be the no 1. striker"
"Woah that was extremely lukewarm, rin"
"Oh shut the fuck up"
"So who do you choose?"
HALF FOR EACH OF US
Gore, jjk reference, kidnapping, but don't worry you didn't die hopefully.

Ending :1/4 you reject them both
"I'm sorry guys but I'm not choosing any of you..." you saw the hurt in their eyes, you watch how their heart was broken, but when you tried to apologize again they scream.
"Fucking get away (reader)" rin yelled
"You'll regret this" you felt the air tense up once sae told you this so you left the scene.
You live your life with the guilt of knowing you broke their hearts.
You entered a coffee shop to meet up with a old buddy you knew, before you knew it there was a sharp pain at your forehead then you passed out.
As you opened your eyes you felt a wet liquid dripping down, as you tried to wipe it you notice you couldn't move your hand freely.
"Whoops your already awake" you heard a voice speak up "I'll inform them"
"What the-"
You saw a few people entered as your vision start becoming clearer, the only people you recognize was the itoshis.
"I'll take the bottom part"
"We know, you ass lover"
'What are they talking about?'
"Oh (reader) only if you just accepted one of us" you saw him gave a cocky grin but instead of laughing you felt uneasy.
"Shut up, rin" Rin rolled his eyes at sae reponse.
"Don't worry (reader) the operation won't hurt" sae added
"Operation?" you asked still feeling the sharp pain.
"We're cutting you in half, ill have the upper part and that ass lover be having your bottom" rin answered putting his hand on his hip
"The actual hell?"
They ignored you and signal the other people to take you to a room, there in the room they made you drink a liquid and you soon passed
yes i was being lazy i want to be done
Fleeing Japan to go to Spain
Childhood friends to lovers, Popular x Normal.

Ending 2/4 : You choose sae over rin.
"I choose you sae... I'm sorry rin"
"See rin you shouldn't have even tried, she always would choose me"
"I'm really sorry rin"
"Don't. be. (reader). i. fucking. hate. you. for. this."
You tried to apologize again but this time rin glared at you and you stop mid-way, "(reader) i have to go now." rin said as you throwed away the gifts he had in his hand to the trash.
You tried to get the gifts out of the trash but sae stop you, "(reader) those are dirty don't pick it up"
as you were about to argue with him that it's not that dirty anymore, you look at sae's eyes it was like the eyes of someone hopelessly inlove.
"I really do love (reader) im very grateful that you choose me... i will the best lover you'll ever have" you laugh at this and cup this face "Lets see Mr. prodigy~" you saw sae's face turned bright red and chuckle, sae hugged you .
"I wanna let you know a secret i always loved you from the start" you didn't know how to respond so you blush. "I love you" you nodded "I love you too Mr. Prodigy"
The moment you turned eighteen sae gave you the offer of flying to spain so you could both could live together at this luxurious penthouse. You gladly accepted because of the con's and since sae also offered to pay for your collage so you could achieve your dreams.
Be the no 1. lover
Brother's childhood friend, opposites attract.

Ending 3/4 : you choose rin over sae
"...I choose you rin" you replied pointing at rin direction, rin quickly jumped towards you and hugged you tightly
"I promise to give you the VIP seats when i become the best in the world" rin replied almost suffocating you.
"Im sorry sae" you apologize to sae and he started approaching you handing the bouquet of flowers, "I'm done with Japan, i only stayed for this long so i could confess to you"
He told you as he started walking away with his hands in his pocket, you felt bad for rejecting him but you still have rin with you.
"I love you so much (reader) thank you for choosing me and not him" said rin as he kiss your forehead. "I love you for eternity" as he approach your lips. and gave you a kiss.
That surprise you and rin notices "Im sorry (reader) im just so happy" you smiled at this and gave him a small kiss at his cheek, that ended up with him blushing uncontrollably.
"I love you (reader)"
"Me too rin"
You both smiled dumbly and went to get some popsicle. Once the blue lock project started, you just watch him at the bllk tv and texting him or calling him daily he made sure that you felt loved. He was sure the best lover you had.
Why not have the best of two worlds?
Two lovers, harem? i have no idea what is this

Ending 4/4 : you choose them both...
"uhm... i choose you both" they both stared at you in confusion, rin was the first to confirm what you just said, to his astonishment you didn't make a mistake of choosing.
"Well i call dibs on Sunday to Wednesday" said sae as rin glared at him, "I call dibs at the rest then." rin replied handing you the gifts he had bought to you.
"Your coming with me (reader) since it's Tuesday" sae said as he start dragging you to the local mall.
"Hey, that's not fair!" you heard rin yelled to sae but he didn't stop but just continued to drag you away from the beach.
And that's how your relationship with both itoshi brothers started, of course you manage to make a better way of dating each of them. But overall rin and sae were pretty much cool with eachother, no arguing, no drama, it was peaceful most of the time.
You will surely tell your future children how you met their fathers... You never felt neglected by them or make them feel neglected when you all were dating, even now you still look back in the past and wondered what will happen if you choose only one.
But you didn't think that deeply since you have two wonderful lovers by your side.

Did i lose motivation every single day and wish to have a proper sleep schedule? yes i did. Did i wanted to delete the whole fanfic since i thought it was cringe? i was going too but i made too much progress ANYWAYSSS TYSM FOR READING THIS PIECE OF CRAP <3 AND STAY TUNED FOR THE HEADCANNOS The whole fic was uncannon and cannon randomly since i kept getting distracted by the manga! My sleep schedule is ass :D
IM SCARED OF SOME SAE'S FANS, LIKE WHY DID I SEE AN IMAGE PF SAE PREGNANT😭😭😭
SOME OF Y'ALL GOTTA GO

“HIS RED FLAGS” what does he do that make him an obvious red flag?

╰┈➤: ̗̀➛ headcanon

࿐*ೃ feat : michael kaiser, sae itoshi, ryusei shidou, alexis ness
࿐*ೃ fandom : blue lock
࿐*ೃ extra : gn! reader, angst.
࿐*ೃ trigger warning : bodyshaming, profanities, manipulation, mention of intercourse, stalking, toxic relationship

MICHAEL KAISER
╰┈➤: ̗̀➛ He is an arrogant and egocentric man, always bragging about himself on daily basis with you. Frequently, he belittles you and pressures you into improving yourself more. He wants to make sure you're worthy to stand next to him to maintain his distinguished image as German prodigy. Since he views himself as embodiment of perfection, you must be as perfect as him. Insulting your insecurities whenever you experience low self-esteem is his way to motivate you to better yourself.
“Stop eating that unhealthy junk. You will gain weight.”
“If you don't start working out and get rid of those fat, I'm gonna fucking dump you.”
“I don't care! Starve yourself to death or anything. If you still love me, then stop whining.”
SAE ITOSHI
╰┈➤: ̗̀➛ Living in Spain for years and learning the harsh reality of life at such young age damages his emotional growth as a teenager. He grows up as an ignorant man who lacks empathy toward others' feelings, even his own significant other. Engaging in relationship with Sae is like one-sided love. It is only you who is always concerned about the relationship and strive hard to maintain a stable relationship. Sae, in the other hand, could care less of your feelings and emotions. Often being bluntly cruel and hurting your feelings, intentionally and unintentionally. His career as soccer player is his sole priority after all.
“Can't you see I'm tired? Leave me alone.”
“Why should I waste my energy and time on a stupid date? Just stay at home.”
“Stop being mean? I'm merely being honest. It's not my fault that you're too sensitive.”
RYUSEI SHIDOU
╰┈➤: ̗̀➛ Ryusei is one manipulative partner, messing with your mind and emotions frighteningly often in order to force you to stay by his side despite how toxic the relationship is. He is selfish, obsessive and possessive. He makes you believe nobody else will love you as much as he does, even tricking your mind into believing he is the only one in this world who accept you as who you are. If breaking your mind is the only mean to turn you into an obedient doll for him, he will resort to such cruelty. He also despises talking things out when conflict brews up between you and him. To him, the sole way to make peace with you is through intercourse. He never force himself on you but he frequently seduces you into having sex as distraction to avoid having serious talk. You can never resist him and always submit yourself to him willingly. His words of temptation...is irresistible.
“Break up? There is no one better than me out there.”
“Oh, sweetheart...you can never find another person to love you. I'm the only one capable of doing so..”
“Have you forgotten? You're all alone, sweetheart. Who else will be by your side when you're at your lowest?”
ALEXIS NESS
╰┈➤: ̗̀➛ Alexis has major trust issue and inferior complex. Often attempting to be the dominant one in the relationship by controlling you. He easily misunderstands your words or action. He unhealthily believes his words as the only truth, frequently coming up with his own speculation and accuses you of mistakes you never commit. Once he loses his mind, he becomes quite violent yet he tries to resist himself from hurting you physically. He usually suppresses himself by throwing objects on the floor to relieve his anger and warning you. However, sometime he only verbally attacks you by comparing you to other people; specifically his exes. Considering his trust issue is extremely severe, he stalks on you whenever you go out with your friends or by yourself.
“What? You want to see your friend? What's wrong with staying home with me all day? Have you lost your feelings toward me?”
“Who the fuck is that bastard with you earlier? Are you cheating on me?!”
“Shut the hell up. Why the hell are you like this? All my exes are not as annoying as you.”

࿐*ೃ thanks for reading this headcanon! likes and reblogs are deeply appreciated ♡
AWWW ARGH
i'm sorry but i get super bad vibes from sae and rin's father. also, what the heck did he do to sae.
why is he standing like that lmfao, creepy


if you're abusive, it's over for you
𝐓𝐚𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐃𝐞𝐦𝐨𝐧𝐬.
𝑆ℎ𝑖𝑑𝑜𝑢 𝑅𝑦𝑢𝑠𝑒𝑖 𝑋 𝐹𝑒𝑚𝑅𝑒𝑎𝑑𝑒𝑟 𝑋 𝑆𝑎𝑒 𝐼𝑡𝑜𝑠ℎ𝑖
Not even Blue Lock could rein in Shidou Ryusei, but you could at least tame him temporarily. He just didn’t know the man outside his little prison was already winning you over to use you both for his own benefit.
Warnings: 18+ MDNI • Shidou is a warning • smut Shidou only • Dom FemReader SubShidou • spit play • foot play • bondage play • Shidou is smitten in his own messed up way • degrading • 🌶️ • Sae has plans bruh • toxic relationships•
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“He is acting out of line, again, can’t you do something more permanent? Castration perhaps?”
You laughed, head tilting in the direction you held your phone to it, as your finger wrapped a strand of hair around your finger.
“It’s in his blood and mind, not his balls Ego, his testosterone is an entirely different issue.”
“Yes, which is exactly why you come in, somehow you keep upsetting him and it’s causing more issues than he already is.”
“You love the drama and seeing them all riled up, so don’t act like it’s entirely a bother. Is he in the usual room?”
“Outsiders aren’t supposed to be here and your visits are becoming more frequent.”
“You asked me to come, remember that. They’re getting more frequent because you’re pumping him up and stirring the pot, you know what he’s like.”
“Whatever, be here within the hour, you’ll be escorted as usual.”
“Ego?”
“What?”
“Take him off the standing restraint, tie his hands behind his back, his ankles together and put that nice little chain around his neck f’me. Muzzle on.”
The call has ended….

Your heels clicked through the empty halls, echoing with each step you stood signalling there was life throughout this huge, almost clinical looking building.
Shidou Ryusei, the bane but also the excitement in your life. Truly a foolish person to be involved as heavily as you were with the insanity that he brought into those lives around him.
That door slid open and close, your little tour guide not hanging around a second longer than he needed to. The dull lit room was cold as usual, only light being above where Shidou was on his knees on the floor. His head bowed and retrained exactly how you’d requested of Ego.
On his knees that were spread apart but ankles tied together, hands behind his back and a chain around his neck loosely hanging to the floor.
“Heh, knew the minute they restrained me like this your ass was on its way,”
You hummed and stepped forward, Shidou lifted his head a little, just so his eyes could look at you.
“You sound disappointed, Ryu.”
“Disappointed? Been fucking rocking a semi the whole time,”
He lifted his head fully, the chain rattling as he moved. He straightened his back and leaned back slightly onto his legs.
He groaned looking at you, white shirt all ironed perfectly, buttons undone showing your cleavage. Pencil skirt hugging your little waist showing all the curves you had to offer, he knew you had hold ups on under it, he could see the little lace topping from the slit in your skirt.
“-and damn you didn’t disappoint.”
“So what did you do this time?”
You squatted down, reaching out to run a finger along the chain that ran down the front of his body.
He shrugged, his fingers already flexing behind his back as he felt the need to reach out and touch you —fuck how long was it since you fucked? He couldn’t remember. His mouth watered at the thought of it, he never forgot how good you tasted, how good you felt.
You plagued his mind and fed his obsessive behaviour in a way that ran far from sane and he loved it.
He’d given up long ago on other girls, empty fucks and the thrill never lasted because he’d dominate them without seconds, to put it simply they just weren’t you. It was no challenge.
Men? Yeah he could do it, it still felt fucking good but it was just pure sex, but he still ended up thinking about you after it and there was good reason for it.
It’s why you were here.
His high to his little addiction.
Your hand tightened around the chain and you tugged him forward, tip of your nose meeting the muzzle he had on. Inhaling deeply so he could take in that perfume you wore, mixed with your natural scent.
His dick hardening in his joggers the painful angle of it needing to be released.
“You not gonna tell me, Ryu?”
“You gonna tell me if you’re marrying that fuckin’ guy?”
You smirked at him, eyebrow also raising slightly surprised at his words, his tone was vicious as he practically spat it out.
He’d unknowingly just given you his answer, he’s obviously had access to his phone and read one of the stupid articles from the press. Your CEO father being the one to cause a scene by drunkly blabbering on a night out with his fellow business men, stating he wanted an arranged marriage to some other CEO’s son to push their businesses forward into an empire.
You tugged the chain causing it to tighten around his throat and he gagged, mixed with a hint of a moan.
“Cute, I didn’t think you were the emotional type, isn’t it all just cum dumping for you?”
“So you’re in love? Fuck off hahahaha-ngh.”
You tugged again and it cut off his amusement, boredly looking at him, his pink eyes glowing in this dull light and hair all messy.
“Well you’ve given me your answer, I’m a little surprised though.”
He rolled his eyes and shifted, the retrains groaning as he tried to move his stiffening body.
“So, you gonna fuck me or what? Cause I’m hard as hell,” he grinned at you, leaning back giving you some kind of cocky ass flippant look.
It dropped when you stood, bringing the chain with you and wrapping it around your hand tugging him forward roughly, your head tilted to take him in with absolutely no amusement on your face.
“Fuck you? I can’t fuck you Ryu, I’m in love with someone remember?”
You weren’t expecting his face to fall as much as it did, to see his mind all but shutting down at your words before he started to assess your honesty of them.
You didn’t know his heart kicked in his ribs fighting to stay in place before it fell into his stomach to burn in acid. You didn’t know the air left his lungs and something hot, yet cold washed over him.
His mouth was watering, he almost felt nauseous.
But god you seen his face fall for a few seconds, only to harden into something vicious.
You stuck your foot out to press against his hard dick to distract him, still keeping tension on the chain and he choked out a moan.
“I can still help you cum though Ryu, you still can’t without me hmm?”
Fuck, fuck, fuck.
Was this what hate felt like?
It boiled in him, rage splitting through his veins to leave him bleeding open before you. You pissed him off so much yet at the same he just couldn’t get enough of you, that annoyance over you disappeared when he buried his cock in that drooling, tight cunt of yours and he melted for you.
His cock still throbbed regardless of how he felt at the moment, his body betraying him as always. Pre was leaking from the slit to drool into his clothing and he was sure by now he had a small wet patch forming on his blue joggers. You rolled your foot forward, the sharp heel of your stiletto pressed into his balls the ball of your shoe resting along his thick length.
And he moaned, head dropping back he hissed through his teeth as you pressed harder, eyes closing as he rolled his hips the best he could to gain something.
You listened, you noticed and you helped him, foot rolling in a way that brought the skin of his dick to roll over the head in some fucked up hand job. It felt sticky, hot and he started to get uncomfortable with need for his cock to be released from his joggers.
Frustration started to bite over his body like insects, pricking under his skin like an itch he couldn’t scratch but it only made him harder, his dick solid under your foot.
The harder you pressed with your foot the more he moaned and he honestly he was ready to cum. He always did cum buckets, the amazing thing he had for staying hard and being able to go multiple rounds because his stamina was off the charts, his sex drive a demon in itself.
“I-I- hah- fuck, I knew you’d come here - god damn it that feels good.”
You hummed and tugged the chain, choking him out to stop him from talking, pink eyes now half lidded and looking up at you through his lashes, head tilted back and his hips rolling up into your foot. He started to drool as it spilt down the side of his mouth to his chin.
“You talk too much, Shidou.”
When he tried again you pulled the chain harder and this time he actually looked like he struggled with the tension, you held it for a few seconds then released. Choking out he sent spit flying and he leaned forward, voice a little shakey but still carrying its hint of amusement, he panted his words.
“S-Shit, you’re pissed, huh sweetheart?”
“You look pathetic,”
He did, truly but god didn’t it make you fucking wet seeing him like that, it was hard to not simply straddle him and ride him until you satisfied yourself using him —he’d enjoy every minute, he always did.
It was tempting with him chained like that, unable to really move.
“Keep talkin’ like that and I’ll cum,”
“Funny, you say others don’t make you cum yet you do so easily with me, sound like you’re the one in love Ryu.”
You mocked, cold words without much behind it despite the heavy meaning of them.
He laughed and looked up to you, sparkling life back in those pink eyes but it wasn’t loving, he looked near to pissed —vulnerable almost. Trying to hide it behind that demonic smirk that crept across his mouth.
You’d got under his skin today, more than you’d ever been able to previously and it almost made your heart ache for him. Shidou Ryusei was a lost cause, he’d make someone see the sky before watching you splatter to the ground, but he never hid his insanity —anyone knew from the start what they were getting into when they wanted that wild ride that Shidou was.
You knew this, the highs and the lows, the games, the obsessive nature he had. He is the guy who no one could ever fix and you never tried. He embraced his crazy and he didn’t care who was in the way of his rampages, he was the definition of toxic love. He’d mock people saying they knew what he was like, what else were they expecting? Sex was cum dumping for him, nothing more or less.
“Heh what if I am?”
Your eyes widened briefly, your heart thumped in you chest as his response caught you off guard.
Love was a concept you didn’t think Ryusei understood or was capable of processing, much less admitting it in a way you almost believed him. His tone, his eyes and his body wasn’t lying he was just trying to hide the depth of it behind that shifty ass smirk.
The doubt you had for him strongly swayed any belief of honesty from him, logical thinking was your saving grace with him and it told you he was high at the moment and running on pure lust, he needed to cum and he was being teased in a way that made him feral.
It’ll disappear when he’s emptied his balls.
His breathing was heavy, he was drooling behind that muzzle and his dick was rock hard under your foot and shoe, you could feel him flexing it under it as he pushed his hips in to feel it pain him further.
Hardly the scene to admit your apparent love for someone.
“You look surprised, doll.”
“Your balls that full you’re delusional, Ryu?”
He shrugged and straightened himself again, smirk waivering as the weight of annoyance started to put pressure on his attempt to cover it up.
“How about you empty’em and find out? C’mon doll, I’ll blow m’load all over them pretty feet if you press harder and keep talking to me like shit. You know I love that attitude if yours, s’fucking hot. Can’t we just hate fuck it out again? Know I love watching it in your pretty eyes full of hate f’me whilst we make love~!”
You rolled your eyes at his blabbering attempt to taunt but pressed harder on his dick with your foot and the moan he gave was unholy, pink eyes glassing over as he tilted his head back, rutting his hips forward into it to create more movement.
“F-Fuck, c’mon-“
“Harder?”
He nodded quickly, his jaw slacked slightly and you took the opportunity to lean over him.
“Keep it open,”
Pink eyes met yours and he smirked, sharp canines glinting through the bars of the muzzle holding his tongue out knowing what you were gonna do.
“You’re disgusting, you know that Ryu?”
He nodded dumbly with his tongue out, looking almost desperately excited as he kept his gaze with yours above him. Hips rutting into your shoe and you pressed harder.
“You wanna cum?”
He mixed an airy moan with a grunt in response, nodding subtly as you watched him start to zone out, hips moving less steadily as he started to get messy rutting against your foot.
“Then you gotta behave for the next three weeks, otherwise I won’t come here again when you fuck up, do you understand?”
You could practically see the cogs turning in his head outweighing his options, wondering if the risk was really worth it and if you actually meant it. He knew you were stubborn and usually meant what you said, but he’d like to believe you’d get frustrated I’m not seeing him either.
“How about four and y’tell me if you’re actually marrying that douche bag,”
“Five and you tell me if that’s why you acted out to get me here.”
He laughed, eyes twinkling sickeningly like he was lovestruck.
“Fuck I love it when you’re like this, you’re so fucking hot.”
You pulled your foot back slightly in warning and he frowned.
“Fine, fine, shit you’re such a brat today -seen that post about you marrying and it pissed me off, thought if I just swatted some bug here that glasses freak would get you here. Worked a treat huh? C’mon, you gotta admit you’re happy to see me again right? Surely you’re cravin’ a good dicking.”
The only response was his reward of your foot pressing harder against his dick again.
“Do it yourself if you wanna cum Shidou, keep your mouth open when you do.”
You watched as he moaned, fucking himself against your foot painfully as he took himself over the edge, the unholy moans leaving him that made goosebumps rise over your skin, you pulled the chain to choke him a little more until his eyes glistened.
“M’cummin,” he slurred with his tongue out, refusing to close his eyes as you let spit leave your mouth to drool past his muzzle catching on the bars, as soon it hit his tongue his eyes rolled back. Hips stuttering against your foot as his dick flexed as he came hard under it. His body convulsed as he rode it out.
Those moans of his would haunt you, they always did. He always looked so fucking good when he came, like his entire soul was feeling it. Everything ran into overdrive for Shidou, like he felt everything ten times harder.
He swallowed whatever spit he collected on his tongue, eyes meeting yours again whilst his heart kicked on his ribs as they heaved coming down from his high, he was panting, body twitching as your foot kept moving against him.
“Wanna know somethin’ doll ♪”
You removed your foot and released the chain, letting it hit the ground and it pulled him forward a bit, his body a little lax from his come down.
“That was a nasty load, shit it’s still comin’ out always make me blow my entire load, looks like m’balls are empty huh? ♪” he sang behind you, a laugh echoing behind it as he watched you turn your back, as he heard your heels clicking on the floor whilst you stepped away to once again leave him in this shitty room.
The door opened, bright light flooding the entry and just as you were about to disappear from view he shouted out the words you had always dreaded to hear.
“-and I’m still in fucking love with ya! None of this bullshit post nut clarity! Like hell any douche bag is gonna keep me from you doll, enjoy it whilst you can cause I’ll kill the fucker then fuck ya over him ♪”
You sighed when the door shut, pinching the bridge of your nose and closing your eyes for a second trying to ignore how hard your heart was thumping in your ribs, how that anxious feeling spread through your body.
Your eyes stung from how overwhelmed you felt, frustrated that you thought you had control over yourself from him, tears threatening to spill because of that stupid prick and his bullshit. You shouldn’t be feeling like this about him, not anymore…
Not when you had…
Opening your eyes when you heard a slow, almost sarcastic clap to see that very thing standing before you.
Itoshi Sae.
Your eyes met with teal, apathetic as always. Looking at you like he was above everyone else in the world, like nothing was worth his time but only a use for him to be where he wanted.
“Quite the show,” Sae shoved one hand back into his pocket, the other reached out to grip your chin tilting it up to look at him, “-can’t say you’ve ever taken attitude like that with me.”
Sae leaned forward, nose brushing against yours and his eyes keeping contact, seeing something burning behind them now he was closer.
“Perhaps I’d be jealous, if I were a weak ass.”
Your eyes turned away feeling unable to really meet his gaze at the moment, heat crawling up your neck from him just being here —the only guy who had ever emotionally dominated you, the only one you never found yourself fighting submitting to. Not even Shidou had put you into a sub space like Sae could and it made you melt for him.
“Think you’ll be good leverage for the little demon in there. I want his ego for myself on the field.”
Teal eyes were now looking past you, over your shoulder to the door that was shut containing Shidou Ryusei.
“Realise he swings both ways right? He’d be eying a guy like you, you don’t need my help in manipulating you’re perfectly good at it yourself. He’s obsessive Sae, so it’s easy when you play on it and give him a high.”
“Hmm..”
Sae turned his gaze to meet yours, ignoring your little dig at him for being a good manipulator, tilting his head he gave you the once over whilst his mind worked out the options.
“Then this will be easy,”
Sae’s thumb brushed over your jawline, in some pathetic attempt to show his affection, you knew it was fake and he was using this to get what he wanted. You doubted he cared about you at all, in fact, you considered yourself another mere pawn in his little game.
“-and I’ll just keep you to myself.” Incredible how Sae could say something like that, yet hold no weight behind the words because they came across as just that. Words.
You thought he was genuine to start, until he started asking about Shidou and Ego had spilled the details about you. You found it hard to believe him but it made your heart race none the less and you hated it.
He leaned forward, tucking a strand of hair behind your ear, pressing his lips to your cheek before grazing them to your ear where he spoke into it, breath crawling down your neck.
Your gut screaming at you to get away before this ends badly, but your mind wondering if Sae could control Shidou and mange that toxic behaviour…
“Just imagine how feral he’d get watching you get fucked when he’s restrained.”
Then this could be the ride of your life.


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Idk if I actually like sae tbh like FUCK HIM BUT AT THE SAME TIMEEEE LIKE UR SO QUITE AND MYSTERIOUS 🤭🤭🤭 BUT AT THE SAME TIME FUCK YOU LUKEWARM BASTARD 😒😒😒😒 LIKE SERIOUSLY FUCK U BUT LIKE HES SOOOOOO
SAE U FUCKING BASTARDDADDAD FUCK UUUUU HES UR BROTHER LIKEEE WAHT WRONG WITH U 😒😒😒 YOU HEARTLESS DICKKK



(i bawled my eyes out when I read this chapter for the first time🙁🙁🙁 ik like spain changed sae and shit but man fuck u sae☹️☹️)
I MADE MORE SINCE IM STILL BORED ASFFFF‼️‼️‼️










Cutiesss😝😝😝 (feel free to use them idm!!)