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I love your work! I'm not going to be oddly specific so... Chuuya pure angst :) Thanks and take your time ❤️

the reason?

pairings: chuuya nakahara x reader

contains: angst haha

wc: 374

a/n: of course!! im sorry if it's not that pure angst, and thank u for the request! mwah mwah <3

The place was filled with smoke, bodies of agents dying, blood everywhere, and both of you. Chuuya stared at you in anger, holding himself to use his ability.

“Open your fucking mask.” he groaned, slightly in pain on his left forearm. He didn't knew who was under the mask, he wanted to kill you.

“..name? Is that.. really you?” his voice was cracking, he couldn't process any of this. Didn't you die? No, you're supposed to be dead. You got stabbed, there's no way you're alive. His thoughts were filled with it, he really didn't know what to do.

You laughed, slowly opening your mask revealing your face. His eyes went wide, looking at you in horror. His body was trembling, tears was forming his eyes.

You looked at his face, you didn't know what to say either. He was supposed to be by your side, comforting you, protecting you, stay with you. And guess what? He didn't. He broke your so called ‘promise’. You took a deep breath then sighed, walking to him. He was about to cry, fall into tears, falling into his knees.

“T-there’s no way you are alive! I-i saw you died..” he sobbed, trying to hold your hand. Before he did, you slapped his hand away from you, looking at him in anger.

“Watched me die. You.. watched me die!” you screamed, your voice cracking since you're about to cry aswell. You couldn't hold your anger, you really couldn't.

“What? N-no.. I saw you..”

“You watched me die and did nothing, is that what you meant?”

He couldn't give an answer, he broke into tears, now falling into his knees. He didn't mean any of that, he.. had a reason, right? Seeing him you immediately kneel down too, gripping both of his shoulders.

“You stood there, watching me slowly die and didn't even think to fucking help me? There must be a reason, right? What is it? What is it, Chuuya!” you cried, tear welling in your eyes finally rolled down on your cheeks. His mind was blank, he didn't think about it, about the incident that happen. He didn't even know what was the reason, the reason to leave you to die. Did he even have any reasons?

why do u guys love angst so much... (me too :3)

dreaming

characters: dazai osamu, oda sakunosuke, ango sakaguchi, you

contains: fluff totally

wc: 390

a/n: im currently sick but hey it's holiday:3 ALSOO inspo from a scara+ei tt i saw where nahida controlled his dream~ (by that means nahida = reader)

An ordinary night where Dazai, Odasaku and Ango hang out together at the Lupin Bar. Talking about their work activities that they done today while drinking together. Dazai always look more ‘alive’ when he’s with them. Life never felt much alive when they are together, chattering, drinking together. Dazai smiled looking at Odasaku and Ango talking about work, suddenly he joins in the conversation.

“Wanna know what I did today?!” he asked to them, his amber eyes beaming full of excitement to tell.

Seeing this, Odasaku and Ango looked at eachother then nodded their head as an answer. Dazai’s smile widen seeing at their answer, starting to ramble about it.

“I got a partner for now and he's Chuuya Nakahara from-” he explained to them, which Odasaku and Ango is interested in hearing. Dazai has never been this happier seeing someone, no, people willingly to listen him ramble about his day. He wishes the night could continue and never stop, he doesn't want this moment to stop. After he rambles about his day, Ango talks about his, so did Odasaku. It was the best night ever.

Dazai sighed, which got the attention of both of them, they looked at him slightly concerned. Dazai smiled at them,

“I wish the night continues. I never had anyone listen to me talk..” he sighed, suddenly Odasaku’s hand on his shoulder, patting it.

“I’m glad I listened to you.” Odasaku replied, softly smiling at Dazai. Ango seeing them having a ‘father-son’ interaction, a smile formed on his lips. Why couldn't the night just last forever?

Odasaku looked at Dazai, his hand still resting on Dazai’s shoulder.

“But it's time for you to wake up.”

Dazai hearing those words, his eyes slightly widen, his face giving a confused look.

Before Dazai asked what Odasaku meant, his eyes opened, his body waking up from his sleeping position which is on top of his desk. He looked around, he was in the office, it was all a just dream. You were sitting beside his desk, a smile on your lips.

“Ah, you’re finally awake!”

“Did you do that..?”

He asked, looking down, tears forming in his eyes. You could only smile at his question, shooking your head.

“Who knows?” you replied, seeing his tears finally flowing out of his eyes.

He could only cry knowing it was just a dream. Happiness doesn't stay forever, huh?

a wish.

pairings: dazai osamu x reader

contains: angst, death

wc: 1,229

a/n: haii~ :3 ill start posting weekly now!! also this request from the (same) friend <3

The night appeared, the sky was dark, while the moon and stars were shinning brightly. You were walking up a hill, which is a favourite spot of yours to stay and enjoy the view. While you were walking, you saw a boy with brown hair, bandages wrapped over his right eye. He was wearing a black trench coat, under it was a white shirt and a black tie.

Your mind was deciding the choice between leaving or just ignore him. You know what? Just sit beside him, and ask who is he! You agreed to your ‘totally smart’ choice. Your figure sat down beside him, looking at him not in a creepy way. He was enjoying the view he saw, but then you came. You took a deep breath, before bravely asking him.

“Um.. hai! who are you?” trying your best not to come off rude nor suspicious.

His gaze turns to you, brown eyes that looked dead and empty.

“I'm Dazai! You must be name, right?” he asked, a smile appearing on his lips. Dazai knew you because you had a nickname, people said you were a strong ability user, a young one. He searched informations about you by asking people around the place you lived at. Your expression changed getting slightly suspicious of him. How did he knew your name? Dazai sounds.. familiar. You stood up to your feet, taking a few steps back from him, just to make sure.

“Get to the point, what do you want?” you asked in low tone, preparing to use your ability.

Dazai seeing you step back can only smile until he stood up aswell. He sighed, “No violence, please. My right hand is broken right now..”

Believing his words wasn't easy, he could just use his other hand or something. You groaned, putting your hands on both side of your hips, clearly waiting for an explanation. Should’ve left, instead staying.

“As you can see, I'm here to bring you.. to Mori, Port Mafia’s boss.” he explained, with a smirk on his stupid face.

Mori Ougai, Port Mafia’s boss. He used to be a doctor from what you heard but somehow he’s the boss of port mafia.

“What does he want?”

“He wants to meet you, name.”

And now, you’re the member of the Port Mafia. You didn't understand yourself why did you accept his offer, you were supposed to be a hero. Sometimes, a hero change their mind. After years working under the Port Mafia, being partnered up with Dazai and Chuuya was the happiest thing to ever happen to you.

But, happiness doesn't stay forever.

You never saw Dazai for days, weeks, months, and now years. After he left, no, betrayed Port Mafia including you and Chuuya, you never saw him ever again. It just like he disappeared from this world. Dazai leaving did made you feel miserable. Chuuya felt the same thing, because of that he celebrated by opening the 89’ wine. You could only join and watched him, the person's memories will always be remembered by the person who got left behind.

——

How did things go south? Why is he, trying to take your life away.

Your eyes went wide seeing Dazai infront of you, after years of disappearing. Finally, he decided to show himself to you. But, the reunion wasn't the one you expected. The person who left you behind, he who left you behind is trying to take your life away.

You tried to use your ability against him, but he managed to nullify it. Heavy breaths, fog everywhere, everything gone wrong. Dazai didn't want to do any of this, but it's part of his mission, his stupid mission. He would sacrifice you just for the world.

“You used to say to me that.. it's us against the world, but now why are you with the world?” you laughed at him, preparing to use your ability again. The only thing you can do is laugh at his ‘words’ that was from the past, sometimes everyone is just bunch of liars. Also sometimes, a villain changes their mind.

Dazai stood still for awhile before slowly walking closer to you, preparing to end you. Raising your hand again to the sky, fire particles appearing. Throwing fire orbs and particles non-stop at him, and somehow he always managed to nullify or dodge it. Burn marks starts appearing on your skin which is a result using your ability too much. You didn't want to stop, you didn't want to lose, you can't. But, fate said otherwise.

Your body became weak, burn marks everywhere. Right after your half-consicous body fell on the ground, he ran to you, fast. Dazai kneel down, holding your figure close to him, embracing you. He knew he couldn't save you, just like how he couldn't save Odasaku. He could only cry, watching you die on his hand. You can only smile seeing him again, even though this is the last time you will meet. Your body was burning, it hurts, but you could only hiss at the pain.

“Name.. please, tell me-”

You cut him off before he finishes his sentence, looking up at him,

“Can we..”

Telling the promise you both made.

Both of you were on top of the same hill you first met, having a peaceful moment while watching the sky, moon, and stars shinning brightly. It was rather cold but both of you were wearing coats. Dazai was enjoying every moment with you alone, until–

“Psst– ‘samu, we should watch the shooting star together!” you mumbled, hugging him tight from behind his neck. The brown haired boy sighed,

“Shooting star? For what?”

“For a wish, dummy! Don't you have a wish?”

“I don't believe in those. But, I guess we can..” he mumbled, trying his best to show that he’s not interested but failed anyways.

Watching the shooting star with Dazai was your last promise. A smile formed on his lips, he nodded his head before carrying you into his arms. It took some time before going to the same hill, the hill you first met, the hill where something started.

Dazai slowly sat down, with your body in his arms. The night was beautiful. The sky, the moon, the stars were shinning brightly.

After a few moments, shooting stars started to appear. He looked down at you,

“Hey look, it's the shooting star! Quick make a wish.” he said, pointing at the sky, where there was stars.

You looked up at the sky, before looking at him back.

“My wish? Please promise to not tell anyone, okay?” you muttered, letting out a sigh before telling your wish. I hope, my wish became true. He nodded his head as an answer.

Before you told your wish, your hand came to cup one of his cheeks, caressing it. You smiled for the last time in your life,

“My wish is.. I hope we’ll meet again in another life.” you told him your wish, before your life was taken away due to blood loss. His eyes went wide, he tried to say your name out but you didn't say anything back. Finally, tears were rolling down his cheeks.

Dazai hugged your dead body, while tears continuesly rolls down his cheeks. He was muttering sorry’s on your ear nonstop.

“We will.. meet again, love.”

Why does this have to happen to him, twice?