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One of my favorite Destiel moments is definitely when Dean stares dreamily into the distance and calls Cas a "weird, dorky, little guy."
Cas when Dean rolls up in heaven after the finale
I'd like to think that Dean just assumed him and Cas were together for a while and he thought Cas did too, but Cas was just pining for him, not realizing Dean thought they were already together. Like Dean just manifested it in his mind and Cas just had no clue.
Usually, when Cas died, Dean had his trench coat. He'd keep it safe because of how much it meant to him, how much it reminded him of his angel. But also a small part of him kept it just in case Cas ever came back and needed his signature coat back. But when Cas is taken by the Empty, all of him is taken, even the coat. So Dean has nothing but a handprint on his own jacket left of him.
Dean misremembering the purgatory portal scene is altering my brain chemistry in so many ways. What do you mean Dean remembered it as him not being able to save Cas because he wasn't strong enough, but in reality Cas let go??? We know he remembers some things perfectly like when Cas went into the lake because he had nightmares about that, but how many other things does he misremember? Does he remember Mary dying? Does he remember all his fights with Cas? Does he remember all the times Sam died? This was such a missed opportunity to do more. They could've made Dean even more traumatized by having him misremember something for so long, and then him having to learn it was completely different and having a whole crisis about it.
These lyrics right here. This whole song is Destiel coded.
Trees ll- McCafferty
Thinking about how, when Cas was working with Crowley, only Dean believed in him. And he was so sure that Cas was innocent, and his only reasoning was, "It's Cas, man." He believed him with every fiber in his being, even when all the evidence was stacked against him. He didn't believe it until Cas admitted it to his face. He believed in Cas' innocence over Bobby and Sam, his surrogate father and brother, you know, the one person he loves most in the world. He wanted Cas to be innocent. He didn't want to have to face the prospect that the man he believed to be an angel, both literally and figuratively, wasn't 100% on their side. He wanted to believe that Cas had changed, and he did, but not all the way. One moment in particular sticks out to me, and it's when Dean confronts Cas, even before all this, and says, "What happened to you, Cas? You used to be human, or at least like one." And I think it's such a stab to the heart. He wanted Cas to be human, to feel things, and experience things that he hadn't before. He just wanted to believe in him.
Dean's favorite thing to do is prepare movie nights for him and Cas, but after he shows him all the classics, he starts choosing ones with angels in them for the sole purpose of having Cas rant about how inaccurate it is to him.
All I gotta ask is, what do you mean "we are," Cas?!?!?! We?! Like the collective, royal we, or the 'me and you together forever' we? You can't just say that and then not fucking follow it up. Especially after Dean says, "nothing about our lives is real." And then Cas fr goes. "You asked what was real. We are?" What does it mean?????
Please please write Destiel fic Nym!
I'd love to. I definitely approached my Supernatural marathon with the possibility in the back of my mind. That many fans in love with a pairing can't be wrong, right? "Destiel" doesn't so much have a fandom as an army. I wanted to know what it was all about, and wow, did I ever find out! Their first ep/scene hits Supernatural like an antagonistic chemistry bomb going off, and it gets exponentially messier and angstier and more problematic and more emotive from there. My kinda pairing.
My functional capacity for writing is so low these days, and the recovery time so long after I try, I don't know if I can or ever will, short of learning to love completely surface-level little PWPs as much as I love million-word, angsty introspection and slow-build, but I'd love to write about these two. I think I could spend a lifetime exploring the Endverse alone.
"A part of him that's bigger than he likes just wants to beg, if he's got to. And that's not him. He doesn't do shit like that—except he has, for Cas, and would be willing to again right now. Just hit his knees and say that yes, it is stressful, and yes, they do struggle with it, and maybe it would be easier to just stop subjecting themselves to the same push-and-pull of complications they cradle between them, but he doesn't care. He doesn't care if they stay the exact fucking same, so long as they don't leave each other alone. He doesn't know how to leave Cas alone. "
Aching in the Absence of You by sobsicles on AO3 Explicit | Supernatural | Castiel/Dean Winchester | 95,000 words
I haven't even finished reading this fanfiction yet, not even halfway, and I'm heartily reccing it. I'd rec it just for that quoted passage alone. Talk about nailing it. It's one hell of a character study of Dean and his layered inner workings. And of the kind of monumental, anguished stupidity that two people can achieve by not having a conversation.
valentines is cancelled from now on its deancas anniversary only❤️
petty old men
