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I wish bottom dysphoria got as much attention as top dysphoria. There’s nothing wrong with wanting to have a penis and needing to pack and/ or get surgery. The stigma around that doesn’t make much sense to me.
i know people talk a lot about top dysphoria on this website but remember that there is nothing wrong or embarrassing about having bottom dysphoria, with packing, with getting bottom surgery. your trans experiences are just as valid
Frankenstein’s Monster
Tried to draw some pastel gore.
The quality is kind of bad, sorry about that. Krita is not cooperating with me right now so I had to use a different program to animate it.
I feel like I’m running out of time. The longer I wait to start my medical transition, the more dysphoric I get and the more hopeless I feel.
Ppl be like "gender isnt real" and think that isnt transphobic
I’d be bad rep because I call myself transsexual instead of transgender, wish more than anything to be a cis guy, need bottom surgery, am a gender conforming guy, I pass and I feel really uncomfortable when I’m not stealth so I plan to be stealth for the rest of my life. Oh, and I don’t even consider myself to be a member of the lgbt community and I don’t have any pride in being trans.
rb this and tell me why tumblr would deem you bad lgbt rep
I’m in this photo and I don’t like it.
My biggest problem in my life right now is my bottom dysphoria. Relationship problems? Fuck it. Not where I want to be in my career? Fuck that, too. I would die happily if I could be post-op right now. I’m so fucking done with living with this.
I need testosterone.
Edit circa 2022: it’s alright guys I got my t now lol lessgo
Your boy is finally seeing a gender clinic! I’m everything goes alright I will be able to start testosterone when I am 16. I can’t wait! Also I am using my older art style as opposed to my newer one because the newer art style made me look like a baby.
I get the phantom dick feeling. if I take off my dick I still feel it being there, and not having it there can be really distressing so I have to wear some sort of prosthetic at all times.
Does anyone else get phantom packer feelings?
Like, you take off your packer and still feel it there for hours. Or are sitting without it yet it still feels like its there?
It's a pleasant thing, I think, because it just feels right to have something there. But I was wondering if anyone else ever felt this? And if it was positive or negative for you?
Voice dysphoria be like
Made a trans flag in the style of Soviet posters. Currently using it as my banner.
I HAVE REDRAWN THIS please reblog this version instead.
This is a positivity post, it’s not meant to invalidate others. If your experience of being trans differs from mine, that’s perfectly fine, you’re still trans. Please do not bring discourse on this post.
Edit: this post has gotten a lot more attention then I ever imagined and I couldn’t be more thankful. This is the most important thing I’ve ever made and I’m glad people are seeing it. One addition I wish I made is to not shit on people who say that we were born trans because the “born this way” things is definitely true for a lot of us. Anyway thank you all relogging and liking.
New comic time.
ok I saw that anon you got that said you should accept being queer and not hate your body and all that crap, and I just wanted to send you a message bc thats a really incredibly shitty thing to say! I’m also a binary ftm transsexual and you absolutely do not have to call yourself queer and you aren’t “””sucking up to cis people“”” or whatever! Some of us just want to be MEN and that is absolutely fine, regardless of how people like that anon think trans people should be. Im happy to see you standing up for yourself and your identity, and I hope they didn’t make you feel bad about it!
It wouldn’t make sense to accept being queer since I’m not queer. I’m trans and I accept that, but trans in my case doesn’t equal queer. I don’t think the anon meant any harm but telling a transsexual that he’s “sucking up to cis people” cos his identity isn’t woke enough is cringe. No hate to the anon though. I don’t do things for the comfort of people around me when it comes to my transition. The reason I don’t use the term queer is because my whole life I’ve felt a sense of community with cis guys, specially cishet guys, and since I was able to come out early I feel like my experience as a teenage guy isn’t that different from theirs. Sure I am trans, but I don’t feel like I’m “other” when compared to cishet guys. I’m not denying that I’m trans (well I am stealth but my medical business is my own and I get to chose who I share it with), rather that it’s an aspect that doesn’t define me nearly as much as some people think it should. Also, not all trans people wanna stand out against cishet society and that’s fine. We as trans people don’t exist for the sole purpose of being flip offs to cis people. I just want my dick and a gf and to live my life man. That’s not to say I wont stand up against transphobia or let myself get bullied by cis people, but that I don’t see myself as part of the queer movement.
Society being progressive isn’t gonna make dysphoria go away for a lot of us because we were BORN with it. Even like 100 years in the future when gender roles are completely different and stuff there will still be trans men who need a dick and who need to physically transition. I didn’t grow up with the notion that you need to have a dick to be a man and I’ve still had bottom dysphoria since I was very young, because in my brain there’s an intrinsic need for certain parts. If anything the people around me shit on me for needing lower surgery. My dysphoria doesn’t come from societal expectation because I’ve had it even before I knew I was a guy, it’s just something that kind of exist in isolation. This isn’t meant to shit on anyone who’s dysphoria lessened after they stopped comparing themselves to cis people btw, just that it doesn’t work for everyone and you can’t just claim that everyone’s dysphoria is societally caused. Idk sorry if this came across as aggressive I’m just real tired of seeing post like “In the future trans men wont need a penis or t because there wont be a gender binary” because what I am and what I was born was not cause by society and people like me will exist forever.
No Nuance November: The reason we're seeing trans kids with less dysphoria isn't that they're transtrenders; it's that as trans acceptance progresses and trans people are better represented, kids are exposed to tons of different ways to be men and women and both and neither. Like, you're less likely to think you need to have a penis to be a "real man" if you've seen tons of real men who don't living happy, authentic lives. If you aren't forced to compare yourself exclusively to cis people, you're less likely to focus exclusively on things that differentiate you from cis people and more likely to focus on what makes you feel comfortable and seen and understood.
THIS, THIS SO MUCH. Dysphoria can be a sickening, skin scrawling feeling. For me, sometimes it makes me physically ill.
Idk I feel like people on this site are supportive of dysphoric trans men as long as our dysphoria fits into a cute little aesthetic, but as soon as we talk about wanting bottom surgery, or packing, or wanting to gain more body hair, suddenly it’s “weird” or “gross”.
i almost always see gender dysphoria depicted as something soft, something quiet and almost wholesome.
it's always baggy hoodies and sadness, crying quietly into a pillow, hollow eyes, soft grief. it's so tame and palatable.
sometimes, dysphoria is like that. sometimes it's secret grief.
mostly, though, it's overwhelming. it is DISTRESS, it's a neon sign, it's feeling like screaming, screaming, screaming. it's anger. it's disgust. it's yelling I AM A MAN, I AM A REAL MAN at anyone who will listen. it's suddenly being triggered by tiny, inconsequential things that aren't even within the realm of things that are gender-related. it's feeling desperate for validation, anything to hear that you are a man, people see you as a man, a real man. it's feeling broken and fucked up. it's wondering if something's wrong with you. it's your head pounding.
dysphoria is not cute. i am not cute. i am not a soft sad boy. i'm a man, and dysphoria sometimes kicks my ass.