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Voice dysphoria be like
THIS, THIS SO MUCH. Dysphoria can be a sickening, skin scrawling feeling. For me, sometimes it makes me physically ill.
Idk I feel like people on this site are supportive of dysphoric trans men as long as our dysphoria fits into a cute little aesthetic, but as soon as we talk about wanting bottom surgery, or packing, or wanting to gain more body hair, suddenly it’s “weird” or “gross”.
i almost always see gender dysphoria depicted as something soft, something quiet and almost wholesome.
it's always baggy hoodies and sadness, crying quietly into a pillow, hollow eyes, soft grief. it's so tame and palatable.
sometimes, dysphoria is like that. sometimes it's secret grief.
mostly, though, it's overwhelming. it is DISTRESS, it's a neon sign, it's feeling like screaming, screaming, screaming. it's anger. it's disgust. it's yelling I AM A MAN, I AM A REAL MAN at anyone who will listen. it's suddenly being triggered by tiny, inconsequential things that aren't even within the realm of things that are gender-related. it's feeling desperate for validation, anything to hear that you are a man, people see you as a man, a real man. it's feeling broken and fucked up. it's wondering if something's wrong with you. it's your head pounding.
dysphoria is not cute. i am not cute. i am not a soft sad boy. i'm a man, and dysphoria sometimes kicks my ass.