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Technoblade is gone, but his memory lives on, even as we grieve. I’m grieving, but hopeful that through him good will come, I’m sure through him good has already been done. I will miss his updates but many others will have a more direct feeling of his absence. I wish only the best for his friends and family, as well as other fans like me taking the situation as a blow to the mental health I thought I had gotten more stable.
It’s weird but I really wish I had gotten the technoplush when it was out, I didn’t have enough money then and even now I don’t have my paycheck yet but I really wish I had some other things, when I’m feeling bad about a specific situation I guess I gravitate towards my things that relate to them and I only have his shirt, though my mother mentioned she might get me one of the hoodies he’s now selling. She left to get food and even if my brothers still here I feel pretty alone right now… I may just cuddle the lmanburg flag honestly- my heart hurts. I may just post updates that are vent like today because I don’t know how else to let out my feelings, talking is hard and typing is less hard…. I hope everyone is doing as well as they can be… have a lovely day whoever you are reading this….
I know this may seem like a fucking,, idk “feel bad” thing I don’t know how to say it… but I really don’t want to talk to my family about feelings that make me like,, internally feel selfish I guess, I want one for the physical representation of him, maybe I can make something or commission someone to like,, knit me a pig plush with a crown, but for now I don’t have a physical him and I wish I did- it’s strange…
I don’t know if it’s a sensitive skin thing but my face is burning from crying, so that’s fun…
One of my brothers kittens just came over like “you need something to cuddle? I’m right here idiot”
A person who tells someone that is grieving, “time heals all wounds” has never known the grief that shatters your entire being to the core of your soul. The day that happens to them. They will realize time doesn’t heal anything.
Where did my zest for life go? It died when you did.
Even the sunny days can seem darkest.