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My heart continues to beat for someone that will never arrive.
The person I want the most, is the person I cannot have. Death had come between us and that separation is not fixable no matter how hard I bargain.
I think and talk of you so often that people don’t realize you are dead.
I am returning to a place that has become home. And the person I want to see the most won’t be there.
I will love you longer in death than in living.
I hate the when people tell you to “move on”. As if I wanted to sit let go and forget the person. What if I don’t want to forget or let it go. Let me decide that since I’m the one living it.
Grief does not care where you are at. It appears as clearly as the wind blows.
Even the sunny days can seem darkest.
Beautiful Bones 🦴 (my death and grief movie and lana del rey music video)
Grief is just love with no place to go.
– unknown // Art piece by Ikenaga Yasunari
I work at a cemetery. Most ppl i bury are strangers. Today i buried some one i had known for a few years. Not that close but she was always nice to me and would bring food and drinks for the crew. I wanted to tell her family how sorry i was to hear about her passing and all, but it didnt really feel appropriate. All i said to them was "she was good to us". Her daughter seemed glad to hear that, like that was the kinda woman her mom was, taking care of everyone. Ive been feeling a bunch of emotions about it. Sad and all at work is different for me.
I work at a cemetery. Most ppl i bury are strangers. Today i buried some one i had known for a few years. Not that close but she was always nice to me and would bring food and drinks for the crew. I wanted to tell her family how sorry i was to hear about her passing and all, but it didnt really feel appropriate. All i said to them was "she was good to us". Her daughter seemed glad to hear that, like that was the kinda woman her mom was, taking care of everyone. Ive been feeling a bunch of emotions about it. Sad and all at work is different for me.
loving you was worth the pain it cost me to lose you.
happiest of birthdays to the extremely kind and talented sunny. i hope you have a beautiful day, lovely!! @southfarthing
It's weird how,
when we grieved the same person,
I grieved in stages,
bewildered,
and chaotic
But you grieved tidy,
slow and steady
And so,
Though we grieved the same person
I grieved alone
And you grieved away
So we grieved, at the same time, but past each other.
Just… gimme a minute… y’all. These two need to have this conversation. These two have gone through so much and to see this drawn so beautifully AND with a written snippet just ugggggg my heart.
I need a hug yall, these feelings getting too intense to keep dealing with by myself 😆😅😭💔💙✨
The hologram of his loved one sizzled softly in silence till the blue light disappeared, leaving the stars twinkling sadly before them. Casey can only feel his throat closed up with a choking sob yet no sound comes from it but the gentle sniffles of grief. Grief, he almost laughed, grief is supposed to be something that happens once in a while yet for him it’s everyday, for him it’s Master Raph, for him it’s Master Donnie, for him it’s his loving mom, for him it’s Commander O’neil, for him it’s Master Michelangelo, for him…it’s Master Leonardo, and now everyone until he is the only sole evidence his world exists. He doesn’t want to get attached to this world, to the people who are still living, and breathing and so alive because inevitably- they will disappear, just like everyone who he loved in his life. “You know…” the young Leonardo spoke uncharacteristically, without charisma, without energy, without anything that made Leo Leo. “I don’t know what it’s like to lose everyone in one day.” he whispered, the turtle’s hand still holding onto Casey in a reassuring manner with his gaze still stuck on where his holographic future-self used to be “But I know what it’s like to grieve.” he chuckled tiredly, Casey could only lean close yet he still refuse to look at Leo “There was this line dad said when he finally opened up his trauma to us.” a silent pause took place for a moment, until he continued “There is a type of love that is only experienced through sadness, and a type of joy that is only experienced through grief.” In the cold wind and the gentle lullaby of twinkling lights, his eyes slightly widen. “Pain is the price that we pay for love, and the only way to not feel pain is to never feel love.” Casey finally looked at Leo, his sole reason on wanting to get rid of these fond feelings when he sees this worlds’ family, the feeling of where Raph will teach him how to wrestle, where Donnie will rant about science, where his mom will call him into crazy adventures, where Mikey will make him eat different types of food, where April will teach him about the outside human world, where Splinter will let him watch TV with him, or where Leo will make so many bad and cringey jokes. Where everything made Casey so happy. “But love is what makes life meaningful, so don’t stop loving Casey.” “Because we sure hell will never stop loving you.” Casey felt safe arms around him, hugging him in such a familiar way it made him finally burst. To cry out how unfair the universe is to him, how unfair that he has to grow up in a time with no rest, with no moment of clarity, with no moment to tell everyone he loves that he misses them, he misses them so much. Leo didn’t say anything anymore, yet his soft hums will tell Casey- ‘I’m here, we are here, we will not leave you anymore.’ And for a moment, and maybe tomorrow, that would be enough for him to keep on smiling, to keep on being genuinely happy, to keep holding on. ‘Anatawa Hitorijanai.’ He could hear Master Leonardo whisper to him. ‘Anatawa Hitorijanai.’ ———————————— (some lines here are from Cinema Therapy because those guys can make me cry like a lil bitch, so anyways, we need more angst fuel for my boy Casey cus my man needs to reach his angst potential like our turtle bois >:((( )
(I also apologize if there is typos, its been long since i ever type a long ass story!!)