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My heart continues to beat for someone that will never arrive.

How sad it is to find the one that sets your soul on fire. Only for them to be torn from you by death.

Why is it that when the story ends,

we begin to feel all of it?

Meeting you… was the reward of my life.

I will come as the rain.

I will come as the first snowfall.

I will beg the divinity… to let me do just that.

- Kim Shin (Kdrama Goblin)

Injuring Eternity (Chapter 5)

I told myself I was over it, but heck no, I’m not. My brain keeps going back to this and I’m not complaining about it, because I’m proud to say I’m a fan of Mono. She writes the best fanfics of RariLight.

I wanted to share this with my followers, and maybe Mono (haha) but I don’t know if this will draw her attention. It can’t hurt to try!

Well, let’s get to the point of this blog I’m posting. I’ll be sharing my favorite lines from Mono’s fanfic Injuring Eternity.

This is from Chapter 5:

Even when Twilight felt like the whole world was crashing around her. Rarity was still able to make it seem like everything was okay; like they were just saying goodbye for a weekend part, not for the rest of Twilight’s life. The alicorn moved in to hug Rarity, burying her face in the crook of the other’s neck. She breathed in the scent of perfume, knowing it was the very last time, and she felt tears wet her eyes.

“Rarity, I…” she faltered, her chest hurting. “I’m going to miss you,” she weakly finished, her voice cracking. She had missed Rarity before the time-traveling escapade, and now she’d miss her a thousand times more. Even there, holding her in her forelegs, she’d already begun missing her.

“Shh, love, don’t cry,” Rarity soothed, leaning her head against the top of Twilight’s. She brushed the lavender mare’s mane with one of her hooves as she spoke. “Oh, my darling. You won’t miss me much longer. Soon, you shall find wonderful friends who will make you happy, and I’ll become nothing more but the faded memory of a pony you loved once upon a time.”

Twilight shook her head, tightening the hug. Faded memory? Never. Rarity’s smile, her eyes, her laugh, her scent, her voice, her everything. She would never fade away or become just a vague memory. Twilight would never allow it.

There’s just something about this that makes me go back to it every time and re-read it over and over again.

Maybe it’s because I long to have someone to love me like that, or I want to love someone like that.

When I read this fanfic, I was touched. I nearly cried. It was so emotional and sorrowful, and also a little happiness. It was like someone took out all of my feelings and wrote them down and turned it into a book.

When you love someone so much, you never really forget them. Everything reminds you of them. The tangled sheets on the bed, the lingering scent of them on the pillows, a favorite song you’d always sing along with them on the radio, things you used to do with them, now hurts you the most when they’re no longer here.

What if we never forget the way they touched us? The feeling of their hands against yours, the warmth as they squeeze tighter, showing how precious you are to them.

What if we never forget the color of their eyes? The deep, but bright blue eyes staring at you, and you could just get lost in them forever.

What if you find their old sweater they left behind, and it breaks you down into tears when you catch a whiff of their scent on it? It brings you back to the days when they’d wear it, and you’d ask if you could borrow it sometime, but you never remembered to give it back. And they didn’t care, because they loved you.

What if you never forget the way their lips curl into a smile? The world shines brighter whenever they smile at you, and your heart melts at the sight of it.

You wish you could rewind time and re-live it all over again. To go back to those days where you were foolishly and hopelessly in love, and there was nothing stopping you both. You want to hold them in your arms again, and never let them go.

But you could only live in the present, lost in the world you used to be in with them, because you don’t want to leave. You want to stay with them. Re-play the memories over and over again, to ease the heartache, but that only makes it worse, doesn’t it?

That is what I think of when I read this fanfic.

Thank you, Mono, for writing this.

I love you so much.