I Don't Want That - Tumblr Posts

Do you sometimes, when you're seeing a person you are slowly getting attached to, feel like you're falling for them ? But second later, after coming back to reality, you think "I can't. I can't fall for them because I have no chances, because I don't deserve to be loved, I CAN'T BE LOVED !"

And then you feel just anger....you are angry at yourself that, even for a second, you thought that you might love someone....that someone might love you...and this anger ? Letting all those emotions run free was a mistake and you know it will be hard to collect them again and lock them in a cage as before...

When something like that happens to me, I take a piece of paper and I just, with all my mighty and strength, make lines...as deep as possible so I can get rid of those weird feelings....then I put the paper in an envelope named "don't fall in love"....I want to see how much I can be vulnerable and stupid to think that someone might love me...

Fuck!

This man makes me feel obsessed

Insane

Stupid

Ugly

But also so fucking in love

But there are few 'buts'

He's not real (but actor is)

The actor lives so far away

And I have no chances

He's the reason why I can't sleep

He's constantly on my mind

I don't want that

I feel bad physically because of that

I want to get out of my skin but im scared dirt and dust will stick to me