Im Autistic But Never Been Smart - Tumblr Posts

hey you know what's really FUCKING annoying? the fact that the only type of neurodivergent trauma anyone ever talks about is gifted kid syndrome.

i'm not trying to say that being a burnt out former gifted kid isn't terrible, i mean hell, i even relate to some of it what with having above average reading skills as a kid. but there are other things we need to talk about as well. like the troubled kids.

i was only allowed to stay in kindergarten if my mom was there with me to prevent me from having violent meltdowns, i would screech wordlessly when feeling pretty much any strong emotion and i didn't grow out of it until i was almost 11, and i ended up getting kicked out of 4th grade.

no matter how hard i tried, nothing i did or said ever resulted in praise or even acceptance from people around me. at a certain point, around 7 or 8, i just stopped trying and it wasn't until i was diagnosed with autism and put into a special ed classroom that i even moderately succeeded in math.

'troubled' and 'stupid' kids are significantly more common in neurodivergent communities and the fact that only gifted kids are talked about just strikes me as kinda suspicious considering that autistic people in our society are only considered valuable if we're quirky geniuses and ADHD experiences are only taken seriously if we're #relatable.

i'm not saying that gifted kids can't talk about their experiences, but i am saying that i think some of you need to take a step back and look at your own internalized ableism and how it might be affecting others in the nuerodiverse community