Intrusive Thoughts Are Not A Fucking Joke - Tumblr Posts

Intrusive thoughts are bullshit am I right? And may I say that the whole “omg they/I let the intrusive thoughts win lmao xD” when doing something “quirky” or “silly” is fucking stupid. That’s not an intrusive thought bestie, that’s an impulse. VERY different. In fact, blurring the two together is very, very harmful. Being tormented by intrusive thoughts is awful, I’ve experienced it for years on end and it fucking sucks. It has been hard to simply function. For me, intrusive thoughts make me fear myself and make me basically gaslight myself saying that I’m losing my mind. This shit will bring me anxiety to the point of physical pain and has rendered me immobile before. I’d have full on breakdowns and meltdowns in the middle of class because of them. I’d lock myself away in my room holding myself and praying that I’m not insane or that I’d be locked away. All because before I didn’t realize these thoughts just happened because that’s how the stream of consciousness works.

But luckily lately I’ve been able to handle them better, so now when I get them I know that it is an intrusive thought only because of how alien it is to my mind. I just remember it’s an intrusive thought and I calm down a little, knowing that it isn’t me and it’s not something I would do. It’s just a junk thought in the stream of consciousness.

So please…. Please don’t confuse intrusive thoughts with impulse.