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HE’S LEAVING ME
Pairing: Jimin x Reader
Genre: Breakup Angst
Word Count: 650+
Summary: Your world ends at the hands of the man you love. The man who brought you back to life, only to kill every bit of you in the end.
AN: Jimin just enlisted today and I don’t know how to cope. This is me breaking. I listened to Eric Nam’s “Lose You” as I wrote this. I am not a professional writer. I’m sorry for any errors. The Photos are not mine. CTTO.
It took me a day to acknowledge that I am not okay. That my world is slowly crumbling down before my very eyes and that there’s nothing I can do to reverse it. To stop it. To fix it. Time has totally run out on me. It took one sleepless night before I finally snapped out of the numbing trance, which now tastes like fresh panic at the tip of my tongue.
Jimin is leaving me.
He is ending the only good thing I have ever had in this life.
He is ending us, and practically ending me— killing every living, hoping, and loving part of me.
Five years worth of memories flash before my eyes. I feel like there’s no amount of tears that could wash away this excruciating pain he has left me. My breath leaves me over and over again as I tear through every flashback, every fleeting moment, and every echo of him.
I can’t breathe. It’s too late to undo this hurt. I am not even sure I understand how we ended up here— hating each other, breaking each other, hurting each other.
“Did you even love me?”
My voice breaks as I chase after him. He stops just right before the bedroom door. But he doesn’t turn around to face me.
“Did you even love me!!??”
I scream until my lungs give out and my frantic voice shatters the stillness in the room.
“Answer me you f—cking asshole!!!”
My own outburst shocks me and I regret it as soon as I had said it. But it’s too late for that now. My hands are cold and shaking, tears flowing like rapids and it tunnels my vision.
My breaths are labored as I wait for him to say something.
Anything.
He turns around and looks straight at me. And I don’t recognize the man in front of me anymore. There’s a look on his face that I can’t place.
Is it regret, hurt, resentment? I don’t know anymore. He’s not the same guy I fell in love with five years ago. And as soon as it hit me, I break even more.
I break the eye contact and fall to my knees. It’s too painful to even look at him now. So I stare at the hardwood floor.
Something in me bursts with the realization that this is it. The end of everything I’ve worked hard to build. The love I sincerely believed to be the one to save me.
I break, and the sound I make as I cry my soul out scares me. It wrecks me.
“Stand up. Stop it. Don’t do this.”
His voice is void of emotion. He sounds nothing like the man who had held my heart in his hands from day one. Trusting him with every piece of it, but only to crush it five years later.
My mind is chaos. I struggle to understand when exactly did I start losing him. It might have been months or years prior. I feel like I have been blindsided. I’ve been hit hard without knowing what hit me. We’re both in the same room. And I have been staring at perfection up until this point. But he’s now about to wreck it.
He starts to say more but I’m already starting to crawl into myself. I feel myself let the pain rush into every space in me that’s left until everything turns numb, and the image of Jimin is nothing but a speck in the hollow of my mind.
I let him kill everything that is me.
I let go. I give up. I stop fighting for the man I still love. The man I lost somewhere down the line.
There was nothing left to fight for, so I let him leave.
And as I hear the door close after him, I feel every part of me really start to die.
Pairing: Jimin x Reader
Word Count: 700ish
Summary: Seeing your ex-boyfriend again after ten months since the breakup. He looks better than he has ever been. You try to show him you’re okay, but little does he know, you’re not.
Featured Song: “How Are You?” By Dylan Brady and Rosie
AN: Hello everyone! I’ve started a new writing series featuring songs that I personally love. I like sad, angsty songs. So I’m giving you a heads up on the songs I’ll be featuring. They will most probably be the type that’ll rip your hearts out and make you remember every sad breakup you’ve ever had. I listened to “How Are You?” By Dylan Brady and Rosie while writing this one. This wasn’t heavily edited, So I’m sorry for any errors. I personally made the banner for this fic. I don’t own any of the pictures.
Time seems to stop the moment you found his eyes. You were walking in while Jimin was walking out. The little cafe you used to frequent with him suddenly was filled with a nostalgic air that hurts you but awakens something in you at the same time. The memories cripple you and you stay planted where you stand. But your eyes have never left his.
Jimin is your ex-boyfriend. It still feels so wrong to call him that. It’s like your whole being hasn’t been acclimated to the fact that you’re nothing but mere strangers now. The denial is still there—alive and kicking, like the breakup only happened yesterday.
In reality, You’ve probably meant nothing to him since that cold December day. It has been ten months. He doesn’t know it, but he still means the world to you until now.
“How are you?” His deep honeyed voice still sends a shiver through your skin, leaving goosebumps in its trails like it’s the first time.
You bit your tongue and just smile.
“I’m good.” You lie.
You could lie to him and to everyone else, but you couldn’t lie to yourself.
You were not good. You were far from being good. You were not okay. There’s this big hole in your heart. The same heart that hasn’t been beating since Jimin ended things.
You were barely living. But here you are. You’ve managed to act like you still have a life, when all you really were was a shell—hollow on the inside, devoid of anything that resembles life.
Perhaps Jimin doesn’t realize that he had taken everything with him the moment he left. Everything. Including your heart and all the love and hope that had breathed life into it.
It’s been months and months of barely struggling to survive. Months and months of drowning in your own pool of tears night after night. It feels like forever now but you still find yourself replaying the night you lost him, wondering how you could have prevented it, how you could have done more, how you could have made him change his mind.
Every night you look at the ceiling in your cold bedroom, thinking about Jimin and how he said he didn’t know how to love you anymore.
Every night you cry and wish you can change it all. Every night you whisper a silent prayer for him to come back.
Deep inside, you wish he’d known how bad it hurt to lie. To say you’re okay when you’re not. Like what you’ve been doing since he left. Every time someone you knew would ask you how you were doing, you’d say your fine. But it rips you to pieces each time.
The pain is so bad that you want so desperately to say you’re not okay. That it’s hard to breathe. That it’s hard to live. That your world has been upside down ever since he hasn’t been in it.
But here he was. He looks better than he has ever been.
He dyed his hair that honey blonde you’ve always liked. His cheeks are full and rosy. He has that sheen of happiness radiating through him. Just like the Jimin you remember. The Jimin who was yours.
It’s nowhere near the Jimin who broke your heart. The one who begged for you to let him go, to forget him, to stop loving him, like it was so easy.
This Jimin is full of life. This Jimin looks so happy now. This is the Jimin you fell in love with.
How is he not dying even just a little bit?
How is he already over things?
How is he already over you?
“It’s… been a while.” You add, looking into his eyes. Those angel eyes that had you weak in the knees then, as you are now.
“How are you?” Your voice faint, almost a whisper. But Jimin caught it.
You manage to ask back like the hole in your chest isn’t burning just looking at his perfect face.
He gifts you a smile. Soft and knowing.
And just like that, you break all over again.