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[18:53 PM] from Jin

— You know I always joke when I say that my face is the prettiest around, but I think you are the most beautiful thing I ever seen.

delivered.

just say goodnight n go | prologue

pairing ↠ jin x reader, fuckboy!jungkook x reader

genre ↠ college au | love triangle | strangers to lovers | slow burn | fluff, angst, smut | multi-chapter

word count ↠ 4.7k

18+ | warnings ↠ mentions of death, a little bit of jealousy, swearing, no sex in this part, but I'll keep the 18+, because there will be soon.

summary ↠ when your mother passes away, you go back to your college student life, only to find out the guy you liked (and were friends with benefits with) had a girlfriend now. trying to get over him and your mother’s passing, seokjin, the friend of a friend wants you to give him a chance. will you find your way back to yourself?

A/N  ↠ hi, y’all. this is the first time I’m writing, English isn’t my first language, my boyfriend hates fanfiction (so I had to write when he wasn’t around)... anyway, I had 1000 reasons not to right this. but I just needed to let it flow. this is it. it may be shitty, but I like it lol so I hope you enjoy it too.

so here’s a playlist for you to listen while you read :) feedback is always appreciated, my inbox is always open

You've been through the hardest week of your life. It was the type of week we all know it’s gonna come, eventually, but in your case, it came just too soon. You look at your reflection in the mirror close to the door and what you see is the sight of a broken person. Dark circles under your tired eyes show a worn out expression, the reflexes of the events happening in your life for the past eight months.

Yesterday, you buried your mother. Alone, except for the presence of your best friend, Jimin. You understood the absence of your other friends, after all, you used to live in a city that wasn’t exactly close to where you study. But your brother Namjoon’s absence, though, was a little harder to understand. You were the one who dealt with all the difficult things regarding your mother’s health, since you got that goddamn call from the hospital. And now you had to deal with the post mortem paperwork, burial, relative phone calls and everything else, again, all alone. 

He and your mom didn’t have the best of relationships, that’s true. He never wanted to come back home, and you understood that. After your parents’ divorce, she became a darker version of herself. She used to lash out on Joonie when things didn't go her way. And you understood his bitter feelings towards her. It has been like that since your father left. But not with you, though, she always treated you differently. She was kind to you, in her own manner. You never really knew why. Loving her was hard at times, but she was your mother. The one who stayed, unlike your father. The one who cried and laughed with you. The one who cooked you dinner. The one who drove you to the train station when you moved. Looking back, she has always been there. 

She always took care of everything and, honestly, looking at yourself now reminds you of her. Since Jimin got your text with the heartbreaking news, he has been by your side. He didn't even ask if you wanted him to come, he just came to be there with you. That’s the thing about Jimin, he’s always so tender and attentive. He’s always there. You hope someday you'll be able to repay everything he does for you.

Right now, standing in your mother’s empty apartment, you feel as empty as the room. This is the place you lived since you were little. You can not describe the feeling in words, it's overwhelming. You feel empty. You don't know what to do and how to react to things, what to say to people or how to respond to the hundreds of texts you gotten since yesterday. You feel the touch of a warm hand on your right shoulder and turn around to face Jimin.

“Sweetums… Shall we?”, he asks with a soft voice, a comforting expression in his eyes.

“Sure, let's go”, you say as you take one last look in the empty room where you grew up. 

“Go ahead and wait for me in the car, I’ll handle the last details with the realtor, don't worry”, he says as you two turn to leave the apartment and hands you his car keys.

“Don't worry, Chim, I got-”, not really allowing you to finish the sentence, he grabs your hand and places the car keys on its palm. Defeated, you smile weakly at your friend and head to his car.

Sitting on the passenger’s seat, you start thinking about your life from now on. Nothing would ever be the same again. You had an absent father, who never cared if you and your brother were sick, well, dead or alive. Your only family now was Namjoon. Namjoon and Namjoon alone meant home to you, now. 

At some point, Jimin opened the car door and gave you a reassuring smile. You were too lost in your own thoughts to notice he was ready to leave. He got in the car and turned the car keys. Now you were going back to the life you left behind to take care of your mom, eight months ago. College, your friends, Jungkook.

But how? Your mind wandered as the car ride made you fall asleep. Something you haven't been able to do properly for a couple of days.

You feel your shoulders being softly shaken. Squeezing your eyes open, you find Jimin alongside Namjoon babbling something to you. You still don’t really understand what they say, but you flash their way a delicate smile as you take your back off the passenger’s seat. You didn’t really notice, but you must have slept through the whole journey back.

Before you could say anything, you feel your brother’s arms around you, holding you tightly. You didn’t do much, just allowed him to hold you. 

“Y/n, I’m so sorry. I couldn’t…”, he whispers that in your ears, his voice is so low, you can barely listen.

You don’t really know how to respond to that. Yes, you were hurt, you were aching, but the pain in his voice showed a vulnerability he didn’t show to anyone else, except you. You know how he felt about your mom, how he resented her. How their relationship was complicated. It was his weight to carry now, you had your own, but the two of you could help each other every now and then. You had to. 

You managed to wrap your arms around him, in a way to show him you were listening and that you were there for him, as always. You would always be there for him. The two of you had much to talk about, but today you just wanted to comfort him and to be comforted by him.

“Joonie, I’d love to stay here, but my butt is numb. I’ve been sitting in the same position for two hours”.

He chuckles as he lets you go of his hug. You get out of Jimin’s car and stretch, still feeling the numbness in your butt. You look at your surroundings and recognize Eunjoo’s condo. You didn’t realize how much you missed being back until this point. Being back at your best friend’s place, with your other best friend and your brother, it was almost like things were normal after the eight months you went away and after every shit you have been through.

You had decided to stay at Eunjoo’s until classes returned, which she was more than happy to hear from you. She had moved in with her boyfriend Yoongi after you went away. He was a very nice dude, a little reclusive, but nice. You’d be crashing on their couch for some days, but it was ok, because 1- you missed your bf and 2- the two of you had been 8 months apart, you had sooo much to catch up with (and no phone calls could replace being physically together, let’s be honest).

In the meantime, while waiting for the beginning of the term in college, you and Namjoon were probably going to start looking for a place to rent for the two of you. Back in your hometown, you were able to arrange things and the paperwork (with Jimin’s help, thank God) and rented your mother’s apartment. It was a good apartment, so you wouldn’t be in financial trouble. And luckily, in order to keep you and Joonie away, your father had agreed to keep on paying your child’s support. Yeah, he’s an asshole, fuck him. What’s really important here is that you and Namjoon would be able to get by until your graduation.

The boys helped you with your luggage up to Eunjoo’s place. Both of them wanted to stay with you there, but you were more than quick to send them back to their frat house, promising you all would get together later on. You not only wanted, but needed some girl time with her.

As soon as you got to her door, you felt excited. Something you didn’t feel for a long, long time. You knock at her door and, a few moments later, she opens the door with a wide smile on her face. 

“Oh, it’s so good to see you, lovey!”, she pulls you into a tight hug. “How are you? I know it’s a stupid question given the circunstances, but…”

“Yeah, I’m…”, you look at her and her expression shows that you don’t need to worry about finishing that sentence. She understands, as she always has. 

“You know what? Come on in, I’ll make you a cup of hot chocolate and we’ll watch 10 Things I Hate About You or whatever else you’d like to. I told Yoongi to go to Hoseok’s house so we could be alone today”.

And that’s exactly what the two of you do. You and your best friend spend the rest of the morning and afternoon on her couch, betweens sips of her famous hot chocolate, sobs and chuckles. 

As you got out of the shower, you hear your phone buzzing against Eunjoo’s sink. You dry your hands in the towel that wrapped your body and look at its screen.

[5:43 pm]  joonie: y/n

[5:43 pm]  joonie: what do you think of a little gathering here at the house?

[5:43 pm]  joonie: the guys want to see you

[5:43 pm] You: hmmm

[5:43 pm] You: ok, i guess 

[5:43 pm] joonie: it’s ok if you dont feel like it 

[5:44 pm] You: no, its ok

[5:44 pm] You: i think it will make me feel better being with friends 

[5:44 pm] joonie: i think so too

[5:44 pm] joonie: ok, then, see you in a few 

[5:44 pm] You: 💛

A part of you wanted to feel guilty for not staying home, feeling the sadness and the numbness your mom’s absence left behind. But the other part of you wanted to see friendly faces and be comforted by them. You decide to ignore the shitty part of yourself and start getting dressed to go to the boys’ frat house. You go through your luggage to find something other than the sweatshirt and the yoga pants you spent the day with. You decide to go for something simple, a shirt, a pair of jeans and your signature black converse.  

You open the door of Eunjoo’s room (where you kept your luggage, at first, but when Yoongi returned, you’d have to keep your stuff at the living room, alongside the couch where you’d be sleeping on), bumping into her in the corridor. Your shoulder hurts, but she seems not to worry about that. You find her with an already worried expression, looking at her phone as she fidgeted her fingers. She gives you a smile, probably trying to convince herself (more than to convince you) that she looked just fine. 

“Joo, Joonie just texted me-”

“Yeah, I know, I was talking to him too. What do you think?”, she stops for a second after looking at you. “Well, I think you’re even ready, right? I’ll hit the shower and we can go, then.” 

But she’s still standing in front of you, still fidgeting her fingers, looking at you with the same weird expression. Something’s off.

“What, woman?”, you ask her with an unsure voice.

“I didn’t want to do this now, but I’ll have to…”

“What is it, Joo? Something happened?”, you start to worry about her. “OH MY GOD! ARE YOU PREGNANT?”

“What? No… I-I need to tell you something”.

“You’re making me nervous, Eunjoo… What happened?”

“Ok, let’s do this... You’ve been away for eight months, right?”

“Yes?”, you look at her still trying to understand where she's coming from.

“While you were away, things… Well, they changed a little around here”, she says that as she makes exaggerated hand gestures. “There’s no easy way to say it, lovey, so I’m just gonna cut to the chase, ok?”.

“Ok...”, you respond, realizing she expects your feedback.

“JUNGKOOK HAS A GIRLFRIEND”, she screams, while looking at the ceiling.

Her words hit you like a bullet. You just stand there dumbfounded, as Eunjoo looks at you with an anxious expression.

“Oh”, and that is all you manage to say.

“Just ‘oh’?”

Your heart was pounding out of your chest. You were still trying to make sense out of Eunjoo’s words. 

“What do you want me to say? We were never boyfriend and girlfriend, he can do whatever he wants” you say it and chuckle nervously, letting her words sink in. “Since when?”

“I think they’ve been together for 2 months, I’m not sure”.

“Why the fuck didn't you tell me this before? We text each other every day! Didn’t it occur to you that this is something I’d like to know beforehand?” 

“Y/n, you had enough on your plate already, I didn't want to make things worse for you”.

“There’s nothing on his Instagram, I checked it yesterday! What the fuck?!”

“I know, lovey… It fucking sucks. He sucks”.

“My life fucking sucks!”

“Don’t say that, lovey, things will get better. Fuck Jungkook!”

“Well, fuck me”.

Of fucking course you felt like shit. It was sucker punch kind of news. You and Jungkook had been friends with benefits in secret since your first year in college. He was a freshman at the same time as you were and you two instantly connected, both of you were into arts, especially cinema. You two spent a lot of time together, you took the same classes, studied together, hated the same professors and classmates. He loved photography and wanted to be a director. You also wanted to be a director, but he made you see the magic in being assistant director and you loved working on his projects. One thing leading to another, you two started hooking up, but no strings attached. 

Honestly, he was way out of your league, you were lucky he even looked at you. He was actually a dream. Super sweet, funny and to make matters worse, he was hot as hell. To make matters worse big time, he was a gym rat, so his body was chef’s kiss. And also he’s such a fucking talented singer. Like, he can really sing. It’s hard not to fall for him… Wait, did you say fall? Sorry, you mean, it’s hard not to be amazed by him. 

He was also a member of the fraternity Namjoon and Jimin belonged. Hence, he was friends with your friends and with your brother. That seemed to be the reason he was “scared of taking your relationship to the next level”, so you settled for just being secret friends with benefits. Of course, Eunjoo knew everything about it. She liked Jungkook, but she often said she didn't think settling for this “friends with benefits” shit was such a good idea. 

You two were “together” for a little more than a year, funny thing that in eight months he managed to find someone else and got himself into a relationship. Even funnier, it all happened behind your back, while you were out of town taking care of your sick mother. While you were away, he didn’t even text you. Occasionally, he sent you a funny meme or some shit. But he never texted you for real, like, to check how you were doing  and it was all you needed, really. You just wanted to know he cared. Now you know he didn’t and it hurted like hell. Losing your mother and then losing whatever the shit you had with Jungkook, to whom you were clearly attached to, was a nightmare.

Eunjoo is still looking at you, waiting for you to say something. You unintentionally frown and she notices, softly pulling you into a hug. In your best friends’ arms, you allow yourself to cry for, maybe, the hundredth time today. For a new reason, though. You try to say something, but you just babble unintelligible stuff.

“Don’t worry, lovey, I’m here for you”, she says as she caresses your hair softly. “Do you want to cancel the plans with the boys? I can call them and say I got period cramps or something”.

“N-No”, you manage to say as you sob. “I don’t even want to think about him today.”

“He’ll probably be there, y’know?”

“I’ll ignore him, whatever. If we stay home, the night will end up in tears and that’s not what I want”.

“Hey, sweetums!”, a smiling Jimin welcomes you and Eunjoo in the boys’ frat house with his usual amazing manners, even though the three of you were intimate friends.

And well, this was your brother’s house too, so you were used to being there all the time. 

Taehyung, another member of the fraternity was also home and seeing him was a breath of fresh air. He was always a nice person to be around, he’s always sweet and spirited. He was also an art hoe and you used to talk about it a lot whenever you got together (not very often, he was always on a date with someone, somewhere, the guy was cute af). 

Namjoon was also home and he was super worried about you, asking how you were feeling every 2 minutes. At first, you thought the “older brother mode” was cute, but now it started annoying the shit out of you. Maybe you were just taking your frustration out on your brother, because you know that any moment Jeon Jungkook is gonna come through the door and you’d have to see his stupid face. His beautiful stupid face. He’d probably bring his girlfriend along. And you weren't officially allowed to be mad or hurt, not in front of Namjoon and your friends, at least.

At least an hour had gone by and you hadn’t really noticed, too involved in this moment with your friends. Sharing laughs, jokes and rolling your eyes at your brother from time to time. At some point, the door swings open and through it walks in Yoongi, with his usual resting bitch face; a smiling Hoseok, aka Hobi, you were not really sure why the guys call him like that, but you do too. Hobi was also a member, but he moved out of the frat house, you were also not sure why.

Right after him, there was Jungkook (looking divine, as fucking always) and some other guy you didn't know. Your heart skips a beat and as soon as your gaze locks with Jungkook’s, a bittersweet feeling bursts into your stomach. 

His eyes were different. He knew he screwed up big time. Was he looking at you with… pity in his eyes? Or was it guilt? Is he fucking serious right now? Either way, screw that, you didn’t need that shit. You might be devastated right now, but you’d rather get hit by a fucking truck than letting him know that. You’ve spent too many years of your life working on your strong self for a guy to mess with you like this.

“Hello, sunshine!” Hobi greets you with open arms, inviting you into a hug, taking your attention away from Jungkook.

“Heeeey! I’ve missed you, Hobi”, you say as you wrap your arms around him. He gives a tight hug and it feels nice being in the arms of the people you love, the family you kinda chose for yourself.

“And how are you feeling?”, he asks, as he looks you in the eye. “Forget it, it’s a stupid question”, he states and laughs at himself.

“Yeah, honestly, I feel like shit”, you say that as you look unwittingly at your feet.

“We’re here for you”, he lifts your chin up with a delicate touch of his index finger and he says looking you in the eyes. “You have your brother. You have Eunjoo. You have us. You’re not alone, ok?”

You know that if you try to answer him, you’re gonna end up crying in front of everyone, so you just flash him your right thumb, smiling softly and he pats your head affectionately, smiling back at you. That’s the thing about Hobi, he called you “sunshine”, but actually, that’s exactly what he was. Whenever he walks into a room, he’s able to lighten up anyone’s mood. 

Right behind him, you see a very awkward Yoongi getting closer to you and then giving you a very uncomfortable hug, as you hear him say: “I’m sorry for what happened”. After that, he looks at Eunjoo and she smiles at him, like this was some type of rehearsed scenario (and you don't think it's unlikely to be just the case). 

After Yoongi, you know you can’t escape facing Jungkook. He comes over to you and you freeze. You couldn't believe how hot he looked with a fucking white oversized shirt and a pair of ripped jeans. Unfortunately, seeing him just made pretty clear to you how deep you were into your complicated past. The butterflies flying all over your stomach were there for a reason, that's for sure. Honestly, you could throw yourself at him then and there and you’d let him manhandle you as much as he wanted. 

But instead of that, you just stood in their living room and allowed him to wrap his arms around you in a friendly hug. My, my how you've missed his perfume. And his touch.

“Hey, beautiful. I’m sorry for your loss”, he whispers only for you to hear, lips close to your ear. You shiver faintly. He pulls away from the hug and holds both of your hands in his, looking you in the eyes. “How are you?”

“Well… as I told Hobi, I feel like shit” you let out a nervous chuckle, more related to you and him than to what happened to your mom. That's the effect this bastard had on you.

“I can only imagine… Again, I’m really sorry” he squeezes your hands in a reassuring way.

“Thanks, Jungkook. And how are you? Why didn't you bring your girlfriend? I’d love to meet her sometime”, you say that before you can give two thoughts about this sentence. 

You regret saying this the moment the words leave your mouth. Cool, now he knows you’re jealous. Eunjoo, who was sitting on the sofa right behind Jungkook, just widened her eyes and looked at you with a desperate expression, almost begging you to shut up. You just needed to throw a jab at him to get it out of your system. Jungkook looks at you with an awkward smile, barely looking at your eyes now.

“Oh, yeah… I-I’m good. Sure, yeah, I’m sure Seulki would love to meet you as well”, he pulls one of his hands away from yours and rubs his neck.

Seulki. You hated how he pronounced her name. 

“Why didn't you bring her today, man?” Namjoon asks his friend, completely unaware of the tension between the two of you.

“She was busy today, hyung. With her friends. Girl's night out and stuff”. 

“Maybe next time, right?”, you smile at Jungkook with the most plastic way you could. You know he knows you’re pissed (and hurt). And you’re... Still holding his hand. Honestly, why the fuck were you holding his hand? 

You pull your hand away from his hold in a soft movement as you turn to grab your wine glass on the coffee table, if there was anyone looking at you, they wouldn’t notice the tension. 

That’s when you notice there's a guy sitting right next to Yoongi, focusing on something he was showing him on his phone. Yes, the guy that walked in with the boys, you’d forgotten about him. You didn't notice it before, but his hair was fully bleached. Which is ironic, since bleached haired people are hard to ignore. Against all odds, he looked really good with this hairstyle. He was actually quite handsome, even more than Jungkook, whom you just left there standing, as you turned around focusing on your glass of wine and now, on this guy.

“Y/n, Yoongi has absolutely zero manners and didn't introduce you two”, Eunjoo says, as she stands up and gets closer to you. “This is Kim Seokjin, Yoongi’s former roommate”.

“Hi, Y/n, sorry to be an intruder here today, but Yoongi didn't want to leave me alone… been through some shit as well. Anyway, it’s nice to finally meet you, Eunjoo talks so much about you I feel like I know you already”, he also gets on his feet and puts a hand on one of your shoulders, tapping it lightly. “I’m sorry for your loss”.

He’s nice. His touch feels nice.

“Thanks”, it must be the tenth time you’ve had to say this to someone tonight, you wish people would just stop bringing it up all the time. You just flash him a faint smile. “I hope you’ve heard good things… I’ve heard a lot about you as well, Yoongi’s best friend, right? Also, bold hairstyle, I like it”.

You just needed to change the subject. About Seokjin’s hair, well… You really meant it.

“Oh”, he looks surprised to hear that and he lets out a loud chuckle, sounding more like a windshield wiper than a human being. You end up smiling as well. “Really? Do you like it? You are the only person, so far... When my mom saw it, she almost fainted”.

Cute, did he show his hairstyle to his mom?

“I liked it too”, said Yoongi as he shrugged.

“Yeah? But she told me first and she just met me, which makes you an ass”.

Yoongi just raises his eyebrows and looks at Seokjin with his resting bitch face as his friend laughs again with his kinda cute, kinda obnoxious loud laugh.

And that's pretty much how your evening goes, actually, with your friends helping you carry the weight of the loss of your mother, by simply being there with and for you. You haven't felt this relaxed in months. With them, right then and there, you could be and have fun again. Be the old Y/n. It was refreshing, even in the situation you found yourself in. 

As always, Hobi lightens up the mood of the room, but you couldn't help but notice how fun Seokjin is as well. Which is funny, because he was the complete opposite of Yoongi. They say opposites attract, don’t they? It must be true. You and Eunjoo weren’t really opposites, though, neither were you and Jimin… Maybe this rule doesn't apply to you.

Your normal self would kill Eunjoo for introducing you and Seokjin only at this point of your friendship. He was amusing and really good looking. But you do remember her mentioning he had a girlfriend back then. Was he single now? It's none of your business, anyway. You weren't ready for that right now.

And there’s Jungkook. 

You can't help but notice he seems a little off today. He’s way too quiet and you are sure you can feel his gaze burning the back of your neck every time you’re not looking. And even when you two locked your eyes, he’d stare. Well, fuck him and his puppet eyes. He had no right to look at you like this. 

“Earth to Y/n!” Namjoon shouts at you and waves his hand in front of your eyes. “Since I know you zoned out, I won't even ask if you heard me… Can you please go get the last wine bottle in the fridge? Your turn now”.

“Last one already? Ugh!”, you say rolling your eyes.

“Do you want to drink some more? We can go out and buy more wine, right, hyung? There’s always a convenience store somewhere”, Jimin asks as he grabs your hand, to direct your attention to him. Bless his heart, this man is always so sweet.

“No, honey, I’m ok”, you take a look at the bottles piled up by the coffee table and laugh, squeezing his hand affectionately. “Also… It’s been eight bottles already, I’m good. I’ll go get the last one”.

As soon as you get on your feet, you realize the amount of alcohol present in your veins was a little higher than you thought. You feel woozy and your feet feel heavy, so you make your way to the boys’ kitchen stumbling a bit. As much as you know this house like you lived here, you took your while to cross the kitchen door. You grab the fridge door handle and suddenly a hand is placed on top of yours. A tattooed hand you know very well.

Ch 01 ⋙

just say goodnight n go | chapter 01

pairing ↠ jin x reader, fuckboy!jungkook x reader

genre ↠ college au | love triangle | strangers to lovers | slow burn | fluff, angst, smut | multi-chapter

word count ↠ 5.6k

18+ | warnings ↠ mentions of death, a little bit of jealousy, swearing, no sex in this part, but I’ll keep the 18+, because there will be soon, drinking and smoking.

summary ↠ when your mother passes away, you go back to your college student life, only to find out the guy you liked (and were friends with benefits with) had a girlfriend now. trying to get over him and your mother’s passing, seokjin, the friend of a friend wants you to give him a chance. will you find your way back to yourself?

A/N  ↠ heyyy, y'all! I'm back with the 1st chapter... I don't have much to say, I just hope everyone can enjoy this story as much as I'm enjoying writing it. feedback is always appreciated :) and I hope you enjoy it!! and also: I'll be attaching a moodboard and a playlist here soon.

⋘ Prologue

Jungkook’s hand. His body was pressing onto yours from behind, while his face was buried in your hair, touching the back of your neck with his nose. You feel his hot breath against your soft, sensitive skin and shiver. Unfortunately, you realize you miss him a little too much.

Though you are drunk right now, you still hold onto your dignity like your life depends on it. The guy literally ditched you for another girl while you were away looking after your sick mother. You try to free yourself from his touch, turning around as fast as you can. Yet, the drunkenness seems to be affecting your logical thinking, you didn't realize doing so would have you trapped between Jungkook and the fridge, where you find yourself now.

He doesn't waste time, pressing your body against it with his own again. His crotch touching yours, which made your own burn with how much you missed being exactly like this with this man.

His dark eyes on you, his gaze so intense it burnt like fire into your core. There’s something so intense in them... An intensity you know very well, one that he doesn't show to other people very often. People generally get to know the cute, pleasent Jungkook, you know this one very well, but you also know the fierce, predator-like Jungkook. Then a name pops into your mind, one that must also know this particular look in his eyes as well as you do. Seulki. And just like that, you wake up from the trance you were in, averting his gaze.

“Did you come for the wine as well? Easy, tiger, I’ll bring it in a second”.

He doesn't answer. Jungkook puts one of his hands right next to your head and leans forward in your direction. You start getting nervous with the proximity of his face, of his lips. His body touching yours. You flinch slightly and he notices.

“You wanted that didn’t you? I’m not gonna kiss you, Y/n… They are all here tonight. Do you want your brother to find out about us?”, he says this in the raspiest voice he could manage, his mouth very close to your ear, sending shivers down you fucking spine yet again. But you refuse to give in.

“What's all this, then?” you say pointing your index finger to him and then to you. You push him away with your free hand on his chest, it’s not very effective, since he's way stronger than you. “And do I want my brother to find out about what? Get out of here, you're officially taken now…”

“I missed you, noona”, he touches your earlobe with his nose faintly. He’s a fucking bastard, that's what he is, he just knows how to make you weak. “We still got a lot to talk about… So much has happened since you left. And I’m also worried about you and everything you had to go through”.

You close your eyes and think about what your therapist used to say about self love and self respect. He could not win so easily.

“First of all: stop calling me noona, you know I hate it! I am only two months older than you and we have nothing to talk about, Jungkook, we weren’t a couple, ok?!” You whisper angrily. You bet acknowledging it hurts you more than it hurts him. “And what did you expect? You thought I’d be back and be all over you after eight months away? I do have a life, you know?... And not ONCE did you text me to check how I was doing, even Yoongi texted me a couple of times! Don’t come with this ‘I worry about you’ bullshit”.

“I didn’t want to bother you!” He looks hurted. Funny thing, you were the one going through all that shit by yourself and he’s the one who’s hurted. “I always asked Jimin and Namjoon about you. I know things got complicated back there, they kept me updated”.

“You could’ve asked me yourself… I still had my phone with me”.

“I’m sorryyy”, he whines as he pouts, placing a hand on your cheek tenderly. And then you’re done for. “I never meant to hurt you. You do know that, right? If there's anything I can do so you can believe me, I’ll do it”.

“Yeah”, you murmur. But do you, really?

“I can't lose my partner in crime in filmmaking, y’know?”, he smiles softly and tucks a strand of your hair behind your ear.

“All that matters is not losing your school project partner, right?”

“Of course not, babe”.

When he calls you his babe… that’s where he breaks you. His duality was always something that hurted and confused you. He was always saying he didn’t want a relationship, that he didn’t want to ruin your friendship, but he was never really able to let you go. You got used to your situation and at some point you realized you were in too deep, not really able to walk away from him.

And when he calls you babe… It’s hard. If Eunjoo could see you right now, she'd slap you.

“You know it, right?”, he tries again.

“Yeah”.

He looks at you deeply in the eyes, with his beautiful dark eyes and smirks. Who can blame you for not walking away? It was impossible to do that with a guy like him. Who could say no to his cute little face and his fucking sexy muscular body?

He knows you too well, maybe he saw right through your lie, but fuck it.

“Good. I was worried for a second”, he says, touching your chin with his index finger playfully. You jerk your head away from his grasp, just because you were petty.

“Ok... Now if you could be kind enough to move your hand away from the fridge, I’d love to get that wine bottle”.

“Oh, please, allow me”, he moves the hand he rested on the fridge to your waist and moves you to the side, so he could open it. “I saw how hard it was for you to get here without falling flat on your face, that's why I came to help”, he states it casually, like he wasn't cornering you one minute ago with his fucking crotch against yours. He opens the fridge and gets the wine bottle, turns around and leaves you right there, with a wink of his brown eyes.

Jin, as Seokjin asked you to call him, is actually a very funny person. From what you could gather from the couple of hours you've spent with him, he had a very unique sense of humour and the way he laughed was something else. Even though you two had just met, you felt he was an easy person to talk to, which was something you could not say of many people. Maybe it was the wine, but you two kept the conversation going.

You feel your phone buzz in your hand and take a look at its screen.

kookie

Text Message (sent now)

What the fuck? You choose to simply ignore it. You two were literally at the same place, if he had something to say to you, he should come over and say it. And also, note to self: you should definitely change his contact name now. Yeah, your feelings were all over the place right now, you didn’t need to make it all worse by reading his cute little nickname on your screen.

“Aren’t you gonna answer that?” Jin asks you, looking at you with intensely.

“Nah, it’s not that important”, you lock your screen again and put your phone on the coffee table, with its screen facing down the flat surface. “I’m tired of texting, this weekend I had to answer to so. many. people. I’m tired of looking at my phone”.

“Aish, I can only imagine”.

“So, you were telling me you think Matrix is the most important trilogy in the history of Cinema? What kind of blasphemy is that?”, he laughs, and you continue. “Have you ever heard of The Godfather? The Lord of the Rings? Toy Story? Shrek?”

“You know there are four Shrek movies, right?”, he states it as he lets out his squeaky laugh again.

“I ignore the existence of the fourth movie, thank you very much” you say, raising your hand dramatically.

“This is the first time I see a film student being so chill about those kinds of movies”, he says that smiling, his aligned white teeth calling your attention. Everything about his appearance is so perfect, what the hell?! His skin, his hair, his face proportion, his fucking teeth even!

“What? You think we spend our entire lives talking about Iranian art films and nothing more?”

“Uh, yeah?” he furrows his brows flashing you the most “captain obvious” expression you’ve seen in your life.

“She’s saying all this, but she does like Iranian art films very much, don't let her fool you with all this blasé film student talk” Jungkook’s voice startles you, you didn't notice he was now standing, back against the wall, glass of wine in his hands, looking at you with his dark intense eyes. It seems like he stole all the air from the room and you suddenly forgot how to breathe.

Why was this bastard so breathtaking? And wanna know the worst part? He knows it.

“Oh?” Jin shifts, sounding a little off now. He looks from Jungkook to you and something seems to change in his eyes, like he’s noticing the tension between you two. “So, all this cheap talk was some kind of scheme to sound more down to earth?”, he squints.

This bothered you. Jungkook had no right. Of all days… Today was the least suitable day for him to stake some kind of claim towards you. Especially, since he was the one who had moved on. He was the one in a relationship with someone else. Seokjin was just being nice to you, he didn't need to deal with Jungkook’s shit.

“Busted”, you raise your hands like you were surrendering. He laughs again, like there was nothing funnier in the world than silly old you. His laugh makes you smile too, you don't really know why. From the corner of your eye, you see Jungkook is still staring, in the same position as before. “Hey, Jin, do you smoke?”, you ask.

You honestly did want to stop smoking, you even promised your brother you would, but life seemed to make you break this promise every damn time. Promises break before the’re made, right? Cigarettes were something that brought you a weird sense of comfort, you were sure there was some chemical explanation to that (of course), but you didn't really care about it, so you never looked it up. Whenever you felt sad or stressed, the thought of going somewhere quiet and smoking a cigarette was comforting, it was a moment you could quietly enjoy your own presence, think things through.

The night had something that has always called you. Namjoon used to say both you and him were children of the moon. Yeah, your brother is a poetic man. You used to talk the night through, looking at the stars and the moon back at your hometown, where the sky was starrier. You still do that here, sometimes. Right now, you were at the frat house’s backyard, looking at the moon and feeling a bit nostalgic. You weren’t really sad, but you also weren’t really happy.

“So… How did you and Yoongi meet?”, yeah, you sucked at small talk, you know.

“We’ve known each other since we were babies, I guess. I don't even remember”, he smiles. “Our fathers work together, so they've known each other since God knows when and when we both found out we were going to study together here our families pulled some strings and managed to get us to be roommates. We were close already, but after living together we really became brothers”.

“Oh, that's cute. I love these stories... It was just like me and Eunjoo”.

“Yeah, I think it was luck. You’re just as lucky as me, Eunjoo is also an amazing person”.

“Yes, I am”, you take a pull at your cigarette and offer it to Seokjin, he waves his hands, dismissing it. “You lied, didn’t you?” you ask quirking one of your brows.

“About smoking? Yeah, I did” he says nonchalantly, crossing his arms in front of his chest. “Just wanted to keep on talking about the Shrek franchise with the expert… Aaaaand I thought maybe your friend wouldn’t follow us out here. He was staring like a hawk”.

“Oh, Jungkook? Don’t mind him, he feels a little uncomfortable around people he doesn’t know very well”, you just made that shit up and you probably didn't convince Jin at all.

Jungkook could be a perfectly normal human being in a social event, he was acting normal before you sat by Seokjin and he probably noticed. You just sounded dumb, but you felt you needed to give Seokjin some sort of explanation.

“Yeah, right”, he looks at you with suspicion in his eyes.

“What?”, you laugh nervously.

“It’s pretty clear that there’s something going on between you two, you know?”

You swallow hard. How the fuck did this guy found out? Fuck, maybe he saw you two in the kitchen, which makes this even more embarrassing. Of course you weren't going to ask that and give yourself away so easily. And if this guy you just met noticed, it means someone else could have seen something too. Wouldn’t it be neat? Your friends finding out you and Jungkook were a thing, when you clearly weren’t and couldn’t be a thing anymore, because he had a fucking girlfriend now. Didn't you have enough on your plate already?

“There’s nothing between us”, not sure if you sounded convincing, but you did try your best.

“Y/n… The way he was looking at you when we were sitting on that sofa… We were talking abouth Shrek and it looked like he was about to punch me! Come on, I’m not stupid”.

“I swear to you, Jin, there’s nothing between us. He’s got a girlfriend… And uh, she’s not me.”

“I see”, he says, raising his hands. “Not judging, ok? It’s none of my business”.

“Dude, I’m telling you! There’s nothing going on between Jungkook and I”, you say as you slap his shoulder playfully.

“Not buying it, Y/n, sorry”, he looks at you inquisitively and you sigh, defeated.

“Jeez, ok. Not anymore... And no one knows, so keep your mouth shut” you whisper aggressively.

“Oh, thank God”, he holds his hands in front of his chest, as if he was about to say a prayer and looks up and then, he starts laughing at himself. "I mean, I'm sorry, it must a complicated situation..."

"Yeah, I found out about her today... But... Whatever", you look away from him for a second.

"It's better to be unhappy alone than unhappy with someone, right?", you look in his direction again. "Aish, nevermind, it was way too cheesy".

Then he looks at you with the sweetest look in his dark eyes almost covered by his bleached fringe. And you could not resist, as random as this conversation has just been, you couldn’t help but let out a chuckle. Was he hitting on you? It was a little awkward, but kinda sweet. Plus, he was one the most handsome guys you’ve seen in your life, so it's a win/win anyway, he didn't need to be a fucking Shakespeare.

“But why do you ask? Are you interested?”, well, you had to ask.

If nothing, this was a great chance to show Jungkook you had moved on, thank you very much. Not that you really had, but it’s a process.

“Actually, yes”, he smirks.

And then, the atmosphere changes. You felt something shifting inside you with the way Seokjin looked at you when he confirmed he’s interested in you. He probably knew how breathtaking he looked and he was using his full player game right now. His eyes fell on your lips and he just stood there, with a smirk on his lips. His smirk made you notice how plump and sexy his lips looked, you imagine how would they feel against yours. You were not gonna kiss this guy today, of course not. But it was nice to know that you had the option, should you decide to.

“How is a guy like you not taken?”, you try your best to sound flirty, you end up sounding like an ordinary fuckboy you find in bars, but ok.

“You mean handsome, smart and funny, right? Yeah… Not anymore”, he answers as one of his hands rubs his long and totally kissable neck. “Lucky you, am I right?”

“Lucky me!”, you continue. “You must be the only person on this planet that doesn't smoke and doesn't get sick thinking about kissing someone who does”.

“Babygirl, the only thing that would make me not want to do that would be if you killed kittens or something like that…”, the pet name fell from his lips so naturally it was like you were used to it.

You were enjoying this… Fuck, why were you enjoying this? He was getting closer and closer to you, your heart beating faster and faster.

Suddenly, the back door swings open and you look in its direction right away. You don’t really move from where you are and, let's say, you are pretty close to Seokjin right now. Through it, you see Jungkook’s head emerging and he just had the sulkiest expression on his face. Of course he’d make up an excuse to come after you. Jin growls in frustration and for some reason, it makes you shiver.

He walks towards you furrowing his brow, completely ignoring Jin’s presence, eyes fixating on your figure. Jin’s eyes also never left you, you noticed it by the way and you felt the burn of his gaze on your cheeks.

“Aish, Y/n, aren’t you cold? It’s too cold out here”, he asks, placing a hand on your arm. “You’re definitely cold, let’s go back inside. Do you want a sore throat or what?”, he puts the other hand on your other arm, trying to guide you back inside.

You show him the lit cigarette between your index and middle finger, looking at him like he was out of his mind.

With a sudden gesture, he lets go of one of your arms and places his finger on each side of your cigarette and snatches it from your grasp. You look at him gawking as he takes an extremely long pull at the cigarette, finishing it right away. He puts it out dramatically in Taehyung's lilac ashtray.

“What was that for? You could’ve asked me for one, you know?”

“Sorry, it’s just silly old Jungkook worrying about your health”, he says ironically. “I’m happy to take that bullet for you. Excuse us, Seokjin”.

“Actually, no, I won’t excuse you”, Jin answers calmly.

“Well, then, it’s your own problem…”, Jungkook shrugs, his hands still around you.

“Why do you think you can come here and boss her around? Are you her boyfriend or something?” Jin stands up straight, folding his arms.

“What if I am?” Jungkook asks, sliding his arm around your neck.

You felt… weird.

“Then, you are really fucking stupid...”.

“What the fuck have you just said?”, Jungkook’s grip around you neck as he raises his voice at Jin.

Concerned, because you know Jungkook’s temper, you decide to act. You grab his hand that rested dangerously close to your boob and freed yourself from his grasp, turning to face him. You look deep into his eyes and he stares back at you, with a gaze so intense, you can feel its heat.

“Hey, enough!”, you (try to) state calmly. “I think both of you had too much to drink”.

There was something different about his eyes tonight, you were not sure why. They looked… possessive?

You knew he could beat pretty much anyone’s ass, since he was trained both in Taekwondo and Boxing. And he was much stronger than Seokjin. And both of them in fact had their fair shares of wine glasses tonight. This would not end well.

“I feel perfectly fine”, Jungkook answers you, cracking his knuckles as he stares Jin down.

You shoot daggers at Jungkook and he does exactly the same back to you. You decide not to pick this fight with him right now and you know he was expecting you to, since he knew your temper. This time you were going to be the bigger person. You felt angry, hurt, sad, excited and honey, all at the same time. But you definitely wouldn’t argue with Jungkook in front of Jin right now. Especially, because you didn't want this discussion to lead to something worse, the two of them in a fight would be hard to explain to your friends. The fact that Jin stood up for you, even if it meant getting into a fight with a guy who's much stronger than him, after stating he was into you was super sweet (and honestly, kinda hot).

“You know what? I am cold”, you say, looking deep into his dark, intense eyes. “I can get back inside by myself, I know the way. Thanks, Jungkook. You coming, Jin?”

“Yeah, right behind you”.

You didn't see it, but he smiles as he follows you back inside.

At some point, the ones who didn't live at the frat house understood the hosts had had too much to drink, Taehyung had already left to his bedroom, Namjoon was babbling about something you weren’t paying attention to a sleeping Jimin and Jungkook, the last one truly standing, didn't really stop scowling at you for the rest of the evening. And you also didn't really stop giving much of your attention to Seokjin. If Jungkook wanted to have it that way, so be it. You thought you’d have to sulk by yourself thinking about him tonight, but ironically he was the one who felt jealous. Good.

Eunjoo and Yoongi suggest it’s time to leave and you are more than quick to agree, having had your fair share of alcohol yourself. You don’t really worry about cleaning the place, despite Seokjin insisting it was the right thing to do. These guys were used to throwing parties all the time, cleaning after a small get-together wouldn’t be a problem, after all, they invited you.

Yoongi drives you and Eunjoo back to her place, Jin leaves by himself, even though Yoongi insisted on giving him a ride home, since he was going to Hoseok’s house.

You finally unlock your phone to take a look at the text Jungkook sent you earlier in the evening. He sent you this while you were talking to Jin for the first time.

kookie [1:08am]: 👀

Ok, confirmed. He was jealous. Good.

As soon as you two enter her apartment, she slaps your arm playfully and screams like a schoolgirl. You wish you could just scowl and leave her be, but you know damn well she had plenty of reason to react like that.

“I was about to explode!” she says as she laughs out loud. “Oh my God! Jin was hitting on you so hard!”

“You think?”

“Oh, fuck you. You know very well he was!” She looks at you anxiously. “So, what do you think of him?”

Well, truth is: you weren't sure. 1- you just met him. 2- you have just found out Jungkook had a girlfriend. 3- your mother passed away recently. You just don't need anymore drama right now. It was time to heal. Sure, you really felt like kissing him in the backyard, but it was due to the heat of the moment. You weren’t after any drama right now.

“He’s like… really handsome” you shrug.

“And?”

“And that's it, Eunjoo. This is really not the time for me to look for new dick in my life. I've had enough of it with Jungkook for the time being”.

“Uh- ok”, she says, getting closer to you, resting a hand on your shoulder. “But can I just say something? You need new things in your life. What you're going through right now… I can't imagine what it feels like, but I think you need a fresh start. Let the bad things in your past stay there, let Jungkook stay there. I know you like him, but he was never the right guy for you, I must have told you this a hundred times. You need to let him go. I’m not saying, like, you should start dating right now, but when you're ready, you should start again”.

You don't really say anything back, letting her words sink in. It wasn't gonna be easy, but she isn't wrong… You needed to move on, eventually. What you and Jungkook had was never a relationship, he was never really your boyfriend. You liked him, he liked you (you think), but he had a rule and you respected him, he didn't want to ruin the friendship. You never asked if he was seeing other people and neither did he ask you. You weren't, but who could tell if he was? It wasn't only his fault, though, you had only yourself to blame. You shouldn't have fallen for him.

Moving on from a guy like Jungkook was almost impossible, that's the truth. He was sweet, smart, handy, funny, hot (like, you can't even believe how hot he is, especially, when he was fully undressed, sweaty and looking at you like you were the only person in the world). Fuuuck your life, really.

The worst part of it all was: you would have to try to move on from a person that was part of your only group of friends. And you were classmates, as well. Not only classmates, you two were more like a team: he was a director and you used to be his assistant director. in. every. god. damn. project. You’d have to put on your best poker face pretty much everyday, especially when the term starts. Everything would have to remain as it’s always been, only you would have to pretend you don't feel like you feel. Yeah, it's probably gonna be a piece of cake.

You notice Eunjoo looks at you like she was expecting to keep the conversation going, however you’ve forgotten what was the last thing she said, since you zoned out in your train of thought.

“Yeah… You’re right”, you decide the best thing here is just to agree with her.

“And also… Don't think I didn't see Jungkook following you around the entire night, ok?”, she smirks at you.

“Did you notice?” you cover your mouth with your hands, giggling like a schoolgirl. “I think he was jealous of me, can you fucking believe it?”

“You think? It was so obvious, Y/n. Thank God most of our friends are men, so they never really pay attention to anything in their surroundings, but when he followed you into the kitchen? And when you went out to smoke with Jin?! He was about to lose his shit, then Hoseok complained he was cold and he was like ‘Y/n is gonna catch a cold, I’ll go get her’”.

You know you really shouldn't, but when Eunjoo told you these things, you couldn't help it but feel funny. He’s so fucking confusing and you are so weak. Hopefully, he would see how much you two worked well together, how in sync you were, how he should be with you, instead of trying to find what you had with someone else.

“And in the kitchen… He kinda tried to kiss me”.

“WHAT?”, she gawks. “Y/n, that’s…”

“Don't worry, nothing happened”, you reach for your phone inside the back pocket of your jeans, unlocking its screen and flashing it into Enjoo’s direction. “And he sent me this while I was talking to Jin as well”.

She squints her eyes while looking at your phone, seconds later she scoffs.

"Well, you think a filmmaking major would have more to say than a fucking eye emoji", she hesitates. “Can I… say something?”

“Of course”, you smile softly.

“I’m saying this as your best friend. I know your history, so take my words under consideration, ok?”, she looks you in the eyes with a serious expression. “Just stay away from that guy. Don't let him play with you again”.

“Sure”, you wince slightly.

“Just "sure"? Y/n... Promise me?”

“Yeah”.

She looks at you suspiciously. You laugh nervously and punch her shoulder playfully. Well, of course you can't promise that, but she wouldn't leave you alone until you did. Eunjoo always had strong feelings about Jungkook and she had no shame to be vocal about them. You know this isn't the last time she'll bring this up.

“Well, you're an adult… I’m just looking out for you”.

“I know, Joo, and I love you for it”, you say smiling.

“Yeah… I love you too, but I’ll be watching you, girl”, she answers trying to keep a straight face.

Your phone buzzing in your hand startles you and on its screen you can see that an unknown number has sent you a message.

Unknown Number [2:26am]: did you get home safe?

Unknown Number [2:26am]: also: this is Seokjin, not a crazy stalker or anything

Ok, he was texting you already. No joke, he really was interested. Not that you’re complaining.

You [2:26am]: hey, jin!

You [2:26am]: yeah, yoongi drove me and eunjoo to her place, remeber? we r fine

You [2:26am]: did you get home safe too?

jin [2:27am]: sure did, I’m a man of the streets

You [2:27am]: aish 🙄

You [2:27am]: go to sleep, jin hahaha

jin [2:27am]: I will

jin [2:27am]: not cause you're telling me, tho

jin [2:27am]: I really am sleepy

jin [2:27am]: had too much wine, i guess

jin [2:27am]: goodnight, y/n

jin [2:27am]: it was nice meeting u, hope u still want to keep on discussing shrek theories

You [2:27am]: good night, jin, it was nice meeting u too ☺️ ttyl

“Did you give my number to Seokjin?”, you ask Eunjoo, as you slide your phone back into your pocket and cross your arms in front of your chest.

“Did he text you already?! Oh my Gooood, this is happening!”, she laughs. “I can already see you and him, Yoongi and me on double dates, like, my boyfriend’s best friend is dating my best friend, totally a dream come true!”

“You’re impossible, Choi Eunjoo”, you shake your head disapprovingly.

“Oh, come on. I’ve dreamt of introducing you two since day one, thankfully his ex is totally out of the picture now. Plus, he’s a much better catch than Kookie. He’s rich, really handsome, funny, gentle, caring, unproblematic… The list goes on, I can keep going”, you wave both of your hands at her. “Alright, you'll see for yourself. He's already super into you… Anyway, I’ll hit the shower so we can go to bed, will you wait for me?”

“Sure, I want to wash before going to bed as well”.

She nods, walking towards the bathroom. You lay on her bed and just stare at the ceiling, feeling the remains of dizziness from the wine you’ve had. It reminds you of when you two were roommates in freshman year, coming home from a party, drunk, hitting the shower, waiting for one another and then talking about what happened at the party. The two of you bonded so quickly it felt like you’ve known her your whole life. You’d tell her your adventures with Jungkook and she’d tell you how Yoongi was staring at her from a corner and smirking and etc.

As you were waiting for her and scrolling through Twitter’s timeline, rolling your eyes as you read some random guy talking shit about Avatar Aang (which had you keyboard smashing in the past while discussing with strangers online), then you received another text message.

jungkook 👺 [2:34am]: will u really leave me on read?

Was this guy for real? After the scene he almost started with Jin?

You [2:34am]: ??

jungkook 👺 [2:34am]: you didnt reply to my text

jungkook 👺 [2:34am]: is there a reason?

jungkook 👺 [2:34am]: or are u too busy talking to kim seokjin already?

You [2:35am]: you didnt really say anything, u know?

You [2:35am]: what reply did u expect for an eye emoji?

jungkook 👺 [2:35am]: you didn't answer to my question

jungkook 👺 [2:35am]: ok so are u texting this seokjin guy?

jungkook 👺 [2:35am]: am i interrupting the two love birds?

You [2:35am]: whats with you today, dude?

You [2:35am]: what do u want??

jungkook 👺 [2:35am]: idk, y/n

jungkook 👺 [2:35am]: i feel like shit when i think about how youve ignored me today

jungkook 👺 [2:35am]: it was like i wasnt even there, babe

jungkook 👺 [2:35am]: please

jungkook 👺 [2:35am]: i know we have a lot to talk about yet

jungkook 👺 [2:35am]: just dont ignore me

You don't really know what to say to him. There are so many things left unsaid between you and Jungkook, as he stated himself. And honestly, you felt like shit too. You were so hurt before, but the way he acted today… Jealous, caring, considerate. You were confused. And you missed him, like, a lot. Having him jealous of you today made you feel funny, it was wrong (you knew), but it made you feel very funny. Can you elaborate on that? No. You just know it was a funny feeling.

You [2:36am]: sorry

You [2:36am]: i wont

He mixes your feelings so hard. You are not sure you’re gonna be able to stick to your promise to Eunjoo.

jungkook 👺 [2:36am]: thank u for apologizing

jungkook 👺 [2:36am]: gotta go, babe

jungkook 👺 [2:36am]: night, Y/n 🖤

jungkook 👺 [2:36am]: i'll text you when im awake

You [2:36am]: good night, kook

You [2:36am]: ttyl 💛

Ch 02 ⋙

you guys....... for seokjin's birthday. i've been thinking about a few different scenarios to write about, but i was wondering if you'd prefer to read some new stuff or a just say goodnight n go look into the future.

lemme know.

cherry blossom avenue.

❀ genre: angst/fluff; arranged marriage!au; f2l!au;

❀ pairing: jin x reader; 

❀ length: 23.0k;

❀ synopsis: college would’ve been unbearable if it weren’t for your wallowing sessions with your best friend jin over a shared “forever alone” woe, so it really was only a matter of time until the two of you sealed a shoddy promise to betroth the other at the age of 27. perhaps it was only a silly joke to you then, but you should’ve known better nonetheless; because when a wedding invitation arrives five years later down the road with his name signed next to another’s, feelings that were once buried begin to blossom once again.

“Don’t be a homewrecker.”

What was supposed to be a light-hearted tease over your fleeting glimpses in his direction bears much more weight than even reality should have; and unbeknownst to her, even if your friend’s commentary strikes a fear in you, a fear that has some creature eating away at you and a horrifying drop in the twisted pain of your chest, the daunting knowledge of a potential truth behind her words pale in comparison to the anguish brought upon by a familiar face of the past. 

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[Everybody has a black mark on their body where their soulmate will touch them for the first time. When your soulmate touches you both your marks burst into different colors. Only one problem, your soulmate hates you]

This story is so cringy istg

Welp. Thanks for reading my trashy story. The next part will be out I don't know when.

(Warning: Angst is not my thing but I tried and it ended up like... this.)

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The next day Seokjin lay in bed, staring up at the ceiling. He couldn't help but think about the day before, and think about Y/n.

All the things he had heard about Y/n, all the thoughts he had about her, they all seemed to disappear the night before as he pulled her away from the ledge.

He couldn't help but wonder, did Jihye really tell him the truth? Everything she told him, there was no way Y/n actually did any of that. Of course he couldn't judge Y/n based on one night, but she looked so helpless that night. She didn't seem as if she'd be able to hurt someone smaller than her, let alone someone feisty like Jihye.

He sighed and rolled over. He didn't want to think about this so early in the morning. He'd ask Jihye about it later.

He heard notification ring on his phone. He grabbed it off of the table and clicked on it.

[(2) messages from Jihye❤]

Jihye❤: Have a good day today Jinnie~

Jihye❤: I love you~

You: I love you too

He turned his phone off and put it back on the table. Her messages didn't make his heart flutter anymore. The thought that she might have lied to him about everything... it ate him up inside.

He shook his head frantically. He reminded himself to ask her later, there was no point in wondering about it now.

He thought about how he and Y/n used to be friends. His heart seemed to twist the more thought about it. He smiled unconsciously, thinking about everything. His heart was fluttering as he remembering how she smiled when they surprised her on her birthday years ago.

But then...

He was hit with a realization. He had been in love.

All those years ago, when everyone he had seen her, he thought that what he had been feeling was normal. He thought it was normal for friends to feel that way to each other. He had asked Taehyung about it once, who had simply responded with "No, I don't have a crush on her...? She's just my friend."

He had assumed Taehyung was just being his weird self, but if he was the only one who felt that was about Y/n at the time...

He groaned and covered his eyes. Well, there was nothing he could do now.

He got out of bed. Stretching, he realized he didn't have Y/n's number, so how was he supposed to ask her about the soulmate thing? He did know someone who had her number, but he wasn't sure he would give it to him.

He went out of his room and looked around. Sure enough, Taehyung was on the sofa scrolling on his phone. Seokjin approached him a little warily, not sure how to ask him for what he wanted.

"What are you doing?" Taehyung asked, smiling up at Seokjin. Seokjin had been trying to creep up behind him.

Seokjin hesitated, then just decided to go for it.

"Taehyung, do you have Y/n's number?"

Taehyung's smile vanished and Seokjin felt bad. Obviously Taehyung still remembered what Seokjin had said about Y/n nearly a year ago, of course he would be hesitant to give her number to him.

"Why do you want it?"

"I just need it. Please, Taehyung."

"Answer my question."

Seokjin didn't know what he should say. How could he explain everything to Taehyung?

"Yesterday... me and Y/n talked. She told me that she would tell me something today, but I don't have her number."

Taehyung raised his eyebrow at him. "And you're telling the truth?"

"Yes, Taehyung, why wouldn't I be? Just trust me, please. I need her number."

Taehyung looked hesitant, but something about Seokjin's plea must have struck him, because suddenly he had pulled out her contact and was showing it to Seokjin.

"Don't say anything weird to her, okay? We haven't talked in a while but... I'm not sure she's okay. I want to talk to her myself but I don't know if I'd be annoying her or not."

Seokjin remembered what happened last night. He wasn't sure if Taehyung should know. For now he'd keep it a secret...

He thanked Taehyung and saved the number in his phone. He wasn't sure if she was free, but it wouldn't hurt to text her, right?

You: Hello, is this Y/n?

???: Who is this?

He paused. Was this really Y/n? Did Taehyung give him a wrong number? Had she changed her number? He couldn't risk telling a stranger who he was.

You: We talked last night

???: Give me your name

You: I can't do that...

???: Which Y/n are you looking for?

You: The idol? Part of a group called Echo, she's the maknae.

It was only now Seokjin realized how weird this must be. Y/n probably thought he was some crazed fan who got her number, no wonder she was pretending

It was a clever strategy now that he thought about it.

???: You've got the wrong person

You: This is seokjin!!

???: ...

You: Last night we met at the rooftop

You: You told me you'd explain something to me

???: OHHHH

???: I'm sorry, I always do that

You: Thank god

[Successfully changed ???'s name to Y/n]

Y/n: It's a bit hard to explain over text...

You: Then should we meet up?

Y/n: I would... but Dispatch is a bitch

You: ㅋㅋ yeah

You: I'm filming for a drama today. You could come visit once the filming's finished. Reporters aren't allowed back there

Y/n: Sure

Seokjin sent her the details and time, then closed his phone. He would have to go now otherwise he would be late for filming.

You put down your phone with shaking hands. How were you supposed to explain everything to him? You supposed Taehyung had given him your number. You hadn't talked to Taehyung in a while, so you couldn't help but wonder how he was doing.

Wait...

You opened the message again and looked at what Seokjin had sent. Drama?? HE WAS FILMING FOR A DRAMA!?

You inner fangirl was coming out and you gripped the phone hard. He was filming for a drama. No matter how much he hated you, you'd always be a huge fangirl, and all you could think about was actor Seokjin was coming!! You had been waiting for this ever since they debuted!

Moon had woken up beside you. At first she looked confused as to why you were there, but then she remembered what happened last night. You smiled innocently at her and she rolled her eyes. But she seemed to soften a little and she turned her head towards you.

"So did you have a nightmare last night?"

"Kind of..."

She frowned. You used to have horrible nightmares when you were trainees, and they continued when you first debuted. After a while they had stopped, but Moon was worried you were having them again.

You wanted to reassure her that you weren't having nightmares, but you didn't really know what to say.

"I didn't have a nightmare. I just... wanted to sleep with someone."

That wasn't entirely a lie. You were a very cuddly person, kind of like a koala, so it wasn't suspicious or anything.

"And why did you choose me?" Moon asked

"Cause you ask the least questions. Or at least I thought you did..."

"Come on," she said, getting up. "Let's go eat something."

She pulled you up and you followed after her into the kitchen.

You had to stop yourself from telling them about actor Seokjin, no matter how excited you were.

It was getting closer to the time Seokjin had sent you to meet him. Your hands were shaking. How were you supposed to explain everything to him? You asked Bamie for the car keys and told her you were going to meet one of your friends.

"But your ankle?" She asked.

"That's why I'm going in the car. You really think my ankle can't take it?"

She hesitantly gave you the keys and you sprinted outside (which would earn you a scolding from Bamie after you came back). Getting in the car, you drove to the location he told you about.

You parked the car and headed inside the building. There were staff rushing everywhere. Some of them peered curiously at you, making you pull your hat down even lower over your face.

You followed a staff member who was holding a a camera, and sure enough he led you to a place where they were filming Seokjin for something. Right now it didn't look like anything important was going on, they were just shooting some promotion pictures.

Seokjin caught your eye and waved you over. The manager told everyone to take a break and Seokjin walked towards you.

He looked like he was going to shake your hand, but he saw the bandages on your wrist and remembered what had happened last night.

"How are you?" he asked a little awkwardly. "Have your cuts healed?"

"Fine, and yeah my cuts don't hurt anymore I guess..."

You both sat down out of earshot of the staff, and you tried your best to explain. Truthfully, you could've told him all this over the phone, but you had your own question you wanted to ask.

"You must be wondering about the cuts, right?"

He nodded.

"I... I read about this online so I don't know if it's accurate, but when two soulmates don't touch each others marks, this happens."

"Cuts appear?"

"Mhm."

"But why? It was an accident, right? And why isn't it happening to me too?" Seokjin became more and more frustrated. "It's not fair that only you get hurt."

"...it wasn't an accident. I moved away on purpose."

"What?" Seokjin stared at you, confused, and though he wouldn't admit it, a little hurt. "Why would you do that?"

"It was kind of a reflex. I... I did it because..." You closed your eyes. "To answer that first I need to ask you my own question."

Seokjin hesitated, but he felt it was only fair. "Okay," he said. "Go ahead."

"Why did you save me? I thought you hated me."

It felt as if he had gotten punched in the gut. He was lost for words, what was he supposed to say to that?

"Why... Why would you think that?" It came out less than a whisper.

You swallowed thickly and spoke. "I heard you. I know it's kind of pathetic that I'm keeping a grudge on something that happened nearly a year ago, but backstage at an award show, I heard you. I- I thought you didn't want anything to do with me, and I didn't want to annoy you so I tried to keep out of your way. So when you tried to grab me on the roof my first thought was to twist away and- well, you know."

Seokjin could do nothing but stare at her. Never, never in a million years did he ever think she could have heard that. He wanted to scream at himself.

'Why would I say that? Why would I say that when she could've heard me? Why am I such an idiot!?'

"Y/n..." he whispered, covering his eyes with the palm of his hands.

You didn't hear him. "I'm sorry if I've ever done anything to you. I just-"

"Y/n," he repeated, a bit louder this time. "It's not your fault."

You looked up at him. "Then why...?"

There was a reason to why he had hated her. But he was starting to doubt it.

"Do you know Jihye?" He wanted to know if what she had told him about Y/n was true.

You face fell and you looked away, closing your eyes.

"Yeah, I know her. We collaborated with her once."

"Were you on good terms?"

You hesitated. "Would you believe me if I told you the truth?"

Seokjin studied your face carefully. You didn't look like you were about to lie to him. He decided to trust you, just this once.

"Of course."

"She hated me," you spat out. "I don't know why, I had never met her before that, but she had it in for me. Ridiculed me, hurt me, promised that she'd make my life hell in every way possible. She stole my lyrics and passed them off as her own, and then claimed I had tried to steal them from her. I'm sure she was insane because she promised me she would make sure my soulmate never loves me, and that he already loved her..." you voice trailed off.

Your eyes widened in realization and you turned around to face Seokjin. The look on his face was pure shock. He slowly shook his head after you finished speaking and stood up.

"You can't be serious."

You didn't answer him and stood up as well, looking up at him.

"You're dating her aren't you?" You breath was becoming a little shaky as you spoke. "What has she told you about me?"

"Exactly what you just told me, and- and more..." he opened his mouth as if he was going to say something and closed it again, stepping away. "Who am I supposed to believe? How do I know you're not lying?"

You looked down. Jihye was right. She really could take everything away from you. For a second you thought you really could have a soulmate who loves you, but she had taken that away from you too.

"Forget I said anything." You started walking away as Seokjin stood there, not sure what to do.

No wonder Seokjin hated you, Jihye had been telling him lies all this time. She had taken your lyrics, your reputation, and now your soulmate.

You had already started driving away when Seokjin came to his senses and realized what had happened. He told his manager he was going and then got into his own car.

He drove towards Jihye's place. When he reached he parked his car outside and hurried out, ringing the doorbell.

She opened the door and looked up at him, a bright smile on her face. It soon vanished, however, when she saw his cold expression. She brought him inside, laughing nervously.

"Why are you here, Jinnie?"

"Jihye, everything you've ever told me about Y/n, is it all true?"

She laughed nervously. "Of course it is, Jin-"

He grabbed her by the shoulders and locked eyes with her. "Promise me. Promise me you weren't lying, and that this whole time I haven't been trusting you in vain."

"I promise." She held his hands in hers. "I promise, everything I told you was the truth."

Her eyes never once wavered from his. Seokjin wanted to believe her. He really did.

"What if I told you Y/n was my soulmate? What would you say to that?"

"Well... it's not like you love her. You love me, don't you?"

Seokjin bit his lip. "I- I do, Jihye, but I don't know if you've been lying to me or not."

"Why would I lie to you, Jin!? And even if Y/n is your soulmate, after everything she's done, would you still-?"

"Of course not," Seokjin whispered.

"I love you," Jihye said suddenly, hugging Seokjin tightly. He hesitantly wrapped his arms around her and returned the embrace.

"Oh! That reminds me," she chirped. "I've got something to show you. Wait here."

She ran into her room and Seokjin could hear her scuffling about. He couldn't help but feel like she had changed the subject a little too quickly.

He heard a phone ding and immediately started searching for his own, but realized it wasn't his making the sounds. He looked over on the sofa and saw Jihyes phone laying there, her screen lighting up from the notifications.

He knew he shouldn't intrude her privacy, and he wasn't going to, until he saw who sent it. He struggled with himself for a second, then picked up her phone.

[You have received (7) messages from Y/n]

He shot a glance towards the doorway of her room and clicked on the notification.

Y/n: You've won

Y/n: Is that what you wanted to hear me say?

Y/n: You won, Jihye

Y/n: You've taken my reputation, half of my career, and now my soulmate

Y/n: I hope you're happy

Y/n: I have one request, treat Seokjin well. He didn't ask to be fucking manipulated by you

Y/n: Whatever you said to him, it worked. Just stop with the blackmail, you've already got everything you wanted

Seokjin scrolled further up the chat and saw... everything. Y/n had been telling the truth. Jihye had been taking her lyrics, blackmailing her, and a number of other things.

Jihye reappeared into the room, bouncing happily. She saw Seokjin holding her phone and glaring at her, and froze.

"Jinnie, what are you doing on my phone?"

"You did lie to me," he whispered. "What have you been doing to Y/n?"

Jihye's expression changed. Her smile was wiped off her face, and her mouth turned into a kind of snarl.

"Well, why do you care anyway? It's just Y/n, and it's not like you've been the nicest to her either. Why are you shifting all the blame to me?"

"You made me hate her!! I believed you, and look where that got me!!

She scoffed. "It got you a beautiful girlfriend, didn't it?"

He opened his mouth but he isn't know what to say. He was so mad at her, he just- he didn't know what he would do.

"I'm breaking up with you," he said simply and started walking out.

"What!?" She grabbed his arm. "You can't just do that-"

"I can and I have." He pulled her hand away. "At least Y/n didn't fucking trick me into wanting to love her."

He walked out and slammed the door behind him. Getting into his car, he started driving towards Y/n's dorm. When he got there he jumped out of the car and ran up to the door of her place.

He knocked on the door and was greeted by Keun. "What are you doing here...?" She asked.

"Can I talk to Y/n?"

She slowly let him in and he ran towards where your room was. (It wasn't hard to find since you had pasted your name on it)

He opened the door a crack and saw you sitting with your legs crossed on your bed. He couldn't exactly make out what you were doing, from there it just looked like you were staring at your fingers. He opened the door a bit more and walked in. You looked up at him, confused.

"Sorry...?" He mumbled, then shook his head. "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have believed her without proof I'm so-"

"Don't be," you interrupted. "How did you find out?"

"I saw the messages you sent her." He gestured towards the phone laying next to you. You looked up at him with a slightly parted mouth, you didn't think he was the one reading them.

"Can we talk?" He asked. You nodded and moved up on the bed, letting him sit down next to you.

You two talked until the sun went down. By the time Seokjin realized he had to go home, you had already fallen in love.

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Boyfriend!Seokjin

He is the actual embodiment of boyfriend material

Everything from his head to his toes is boyfriend material

Very cute dates

Very romantic dates

Picnics in meadows

Hot chocolate on cold nights

Showing up to your door with flowers just to say hi

Giving you his jacket if he sees you shiver even a little

Always holding your hand in public

Carrying your bags if you go shopping

BACKHUGS

Lots of hugs in general

Cuddling under soft blankets and watching movies and bad sitcoms

Cheesy lines

“Are you comfortable?”

“Of course, I’m next to you.”

Out compliment fights when you both insist the other is more attractive

Until he agrees with you that he is indeed very attractive

Then says you are too

“We’re just an attractive couple”

Coming up behind him and leaning your head on his broad shoulders

Mario tournaments

Family dinners with all of BTS

Cooking meals together

Softly singing to you right before you fall asleep

Waking up to him cocooned around you

Always asking about how the other’s day was

Chocolate every year on Valentine’s day

Very elaborate and thoughtful gifts on birthdays and holidays

Never forgets any important event 

Always has the best gift for said events

Playing with his hair until he falls asleep in your lap

Showing you his lyrics and music before anyone else

Making up little songs just for you

Doing everything to make you comfortable in any situation

Protecting you the best he can if you feel uncomfortable

Cheek kisses

Buying you candy “because you’re sweet”

Again, very cheesy

But very adorable 24/7

Lots of honest communication so fights are extremely rare

A mature and sweet relationship that everyone says is relationship goals, and it definitely is because it is so obvious you love each other

City-themed Yellow and Black!Seokjin moodboard! About time I made one for my bias. 💛🖤

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This actually sounds so good! Can’t wait for chapters to drop!

GOOD GRACES ( index. )

kim seokjin doesn’t believe in luck. he’s someone who knows that in order to have good things coming your way, you have to work damn hard for it. however, that might not be the case when it comes to bad luck, because after a video of him goes viral wherein it looks like he’s screaming at someone’s grandma, he begins thinking maybe luck does exist—and it just so happens that he’s now being subjected to a lot of unluckiness.

he’s being cancelled. his career is getting destroyed. his manager is forcing him to take a hiatus. and on top of that, as if things could not get worse, the only hope he has on redeeming everything he worked hard on depends on you, the director’s daughter of the theater show that could propel him back to where he used to be.

that should have been a piece of cake. if only you weren’t his ex who he dumped via phone call and got threatened by to never show his face to ever again...

pairing: seokjin x reader

rating: NC-17

content: fluff, light angst, humor, exes to enemies to friends to lovers au | ft. theater actor!seokjin + himbo energy!seokjin lmao, podcaster!reader + nepo baby!reader

gen. warning/s: swearing | mature themes | might contain implicit sexual content in future chapters!

MINI PLAYLIST: ♫ i really like you — carly rae jepsen ♫ good graces — sabrina carpenter ♫ don’t go breaking my heart — elton john, kiki dee

THE PARTS: ( 00 / 10. )

✧ EPISODE 01.

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note. this drabble series is product of this idea. i love only murders in the building and i think that was mostly the inspiration in coming up with this fic! updates will be sporadic (if you’re familiar with me, you might have already expected this lmao), so no schedules whatsoever hehe,, i will however try to update as often and as quick as i can ♡