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i have some thoughts on zar’s exit from the fandom & their decision to delete their fics and how the fandom is reacting to that. and the fandom is reaction horribly.

and the irony of it all! because, arguably, crimson rivers is what zar is most known for. crimson rivers, set in the hunger games universe, created by suzanne collins to criticize capitalism, the entertainment industry, and consumerism patterns of offered media and how it varies based on a social class. and zar’s work added so much nuance to what suzanne collins had written. zar had done an excellent job writing james, sirius, and regulus as victors and exploring their respective traumas when it comes to being in the public eye.

regulus (and james, too) constantly felt like he had no autonomy and no choice because he was thrust into the public light and pressured into doing exactly what was expected of him. and sirius? oh, sirius. sirius won his games and was made into this galaxy-sized celebrity by the hallows, expected to conform to every assumption made about him, to follow all the rules his new role as a mentor & a victor burdened him with. but most importantly—the hallows viewed sirius as nothing more than what he could offer to them. they looked at him and did not see the person.

zar wrote that, and tens-hundreds of thousands people read it and completely misunderstood. because zar wrote 865k words exploring how traumatizing it is to be made into an Image, to be stripped away of your autonomy for the sake of entertaining others. zar wrote that, only for the marauders fandom to do the exact same thing to them that the hallows did to sirius, to regulus, to james; to victors.

and that. that is fucking infuriating.

because, yes, zar is a brilliant writer, but first and foremost, zar is a person. and the way a large part of the fandom has been treating them is completely dehumanizing.

STOP saying “i respect/support zar’s decision but [insert a paragraph about how devastated you are and how you cannot stop crying]”.

STOP sharing the pdfs/epubs of his fics on literally all social media platforms when it’s the one thing zar explicitly asked people to not do.

STOP feeling entitled to the creative work that does not the fuck belong to you. STOP thinking that you have any right to demand anything from zar. STOP hiding emotional manipulation in-between words of illusory support and respect.

and to quote zar: for fuck’s sake, STOP calling them zeppazariel.

zeppazariel is a brilliant writer who was elevated within the fandom to a height so big that it hurts when you fall and crash, and the fandom pushed zar down. the marauders fandom made zar into a full-blown celebrity, but

zar is a person.

REMEMBER THAT.

just lovers (like we were supposed to be) peter pettigrew>>>>>>>>>>

jk rowling just didn’t know him like bizarrestars

listen i havent been a jegulus stan, like ever but 40-something chapters into crimson rivers and read through of just lovers and now im an emotional wreck over dead gay wizards... this hasnt happened since atyd

alright i found out about the entire zar situation just yesterday and heres my thoughts... ism really proud of him for setting his boundaries and frankly he is right, we're depressing fandom with characters who are mostly dead/die in the duration of the main series... that given those people who are sharing pdf and epubs and complaining about the deleted fics, you are the problem, along with the people who put zar on a pedestal... his most famous work crimson rivers is literally an essay on the effects of idolization and dehumanization of people, the people who are complaining about it the fics being down, yall missed the damn point... but anyways i hope zars doing well and i wish him the best of luck in the future and whatever he decides to do with his presence in this fandom... thank you so much for everything you were a beautiful writer and we will miss you dearly<3

its that time of month again where i reread just lovers in one sitting.

GIVE IT THE ATTENTION IT NEEDS

*Regulus with Zar*

Evan: Are we really going to let him keep that?

Dorcas: We kept Barty.

Since i am an absolute menace to both myself and society here is a scene i thought of while i was reading the "fake" breakup scene in just lovers

"i can't James... I just can't..." He feels his heart pounding staring at his "lover's" eyes. The cold air is thick and it's getting hard to breathe. "Why... What did i-what did I do.." Regulus does not meet his eyes "please Regulus tell me.. I-"

"Because in every way I'll just lose!" Regulus shouts tears are not streaming without a care in his face "In every way I'll lose James... If Lily agrees and is with you I lose, if she says no I still lose because you'll never love me the way you love her. Yet Merlin and Morgana I'll lose again and again just for you... You made me fool for loving you... "

Does anyone get this, like, anticipation feeling in their chest whenever they see anything from All the Young Dudes or Just Lovers?

Don't get me wrong, I absolutely adored both fics. But they were the first ones of the fandom that I ever read, and I've only even been able to read ATYD through once because of the indelible mark that it left on my soul. I've read Just Lovers a few times, but I still get this weird tight-chesty feeling whenever I have to look parts of them up for something or just see them referenced on here.

I don't know, man. I think I just loved the stories so much and they both changed me so irreversibly that I almost feel like I'm looking upon a deity or something and it feels like I'm not worthy.

Does anyone get this, like, anticipation feeling in their chest whenever they see anything from All the Young Dudes or Just Lovers?

Don't get me wrong, I absolutely adored both fics. But they were the first ones of the fandom that I ever read, and I've only even been able to read ATYD through once because of the indelible mark that it left on my soul. I've read Just Lovers a few times, but I still get this weird tight-chesty feeling whenever I have to look parts of them up for something or just see them referenced on here.

I don't know, man. I think I just loved the stories so much and they both changed me so irreversibly that I almost feel like I'm looking upon a deity or something and it feels like I'm not worthy.

Does anyone get this, like, anticipation feeling in their chest whenever they see anything from All the Young Dudes or Just Lovers?

Don't get me wrong, I absolutely adored both fics. But they were the first ones of the fandom that I ever read, and I've only even been able to read ATYD through once because of the indelible mark that it left on my soul. I've read Just Lovers a few times, but I still get this weird tight-chesty feeling whenever I have to look parts of them up for something or just see them referenced on here.

I don't know, man. I think I just loved the stories so much and they both changed me so irreversibly that I almost feel like I'm looking upon a deity or something and it feels like I'm not worthy.

my whole life revolves around and depends on my fav ao3 fics getting updated

Instead of being sad we don't get new CR content this week bc Zar is on break(happy birthday!!) Take this time to reread Just Lovers or BFB, and marvel in how wonderful their writing is.

bawling your eyes out and eating a bagel while reading ACT THREE: Part One of Just Lovers (like we were supposed to be) just hits different at 2 AM