Meltdowns - Tumblr Posts
I was having a meltdown, but this is actually pretty accurate for me
if you know me and only a small amount probably do on here, then you know this is 100% me.
When you’re a neurodivergent, it’s late, your meds are out of your system, and you’ve been avoiding a meltdown all day.. but now it’s time to talk.
“I don't know what I even said. I hope that it is something I won't regret.”
I wrote some poetry about autism when I was younger but now looking back on it I don't think I really liked acknowledging the fact that I was disabled by my autism. If anything I was desperate to prove how undisabled I am and now that I'm older and having more frequent meltdowns I'm starting to think I have some sort of complex around accepting the fact that I am in fact developmentally disabled
I wrote some poetry about autism when I was younger but now looking back on it I don't think I really liked acknowledging the fact that I was disabled by my autism. If anything I was desperate to prove how undisabled I am and now that I'm older and having more frequent meltdowns I'm starting to think I have some sort of complex around accepting the fact that I am in fact developmentally disabled
Why is this me tho lmao #witch #witchcraft #meltdowns https://www.instagram.com/p/CCJOiTsJd2p/?igshid=jyrihbs17b3u
had a friend group drop me because "I make people uncomfortable when I panic." Remember to support mental health issues, that means not just anxiety and depression. It's all for support until it makes you uncomfortable.
hi people of tumblr, any recommendations for stim toys? you may have seen my previous post a month ago about them but those were from somewhere else and because of how we got into a fight and they were mean, they took it away.
help an autistic adhd person out please.
what type of stim toys do i need to make sure that everything’s okay and doesn’t go wrong?
Words cannot properly express how much I hate being neurodivergent sometimes.
I HAVE to shower. Every day. If I do not. I am not okay.
Due to pots primarily, I overheat in my sleep. So literally every day I wake up I have got to shower. I can feel every inch of skin every strand of hair covered from sweat residue.
If I cannot wash that off every day. I become overstimulated immediately and extremely unhinged. I cannot think I cannot focus my mood is extremely negative I simply cannot function with that sensory status.
Today was day 3 of not having been able to shower (due to spoons and being a parent) and I snapped. I was shaking and crying and even yelled at inanimate shit in my house because I wanted to rip my hair out and shred my skin.
I finally had enough and I got into the shower.
Stood there a moment. Shaking. Crying. Bitching. Then berating myself for being such an unhinged pos. I got lightheaded and sat down. Cried more.
I have a little shower thing I say that helps. So I repeated it. Calmed down. Then I stfu and did my routine. Continued to improve. Kept saying my little thing every so often. Kept feeling better. Lighter.
Finally I just got out and did my after routine. Got dressed. I'm lying in bed still feeling stupid for the fact that 60% of my unhinged meltdown was washed away in the shower. My body is now all sensory goodness and we can all get on with our day.
I hate being like this. These not so whimsy sides of neurodivergence. I'm exhausted from the meltdown and from the task of showering itself.
Thanks for reading. Vulnerable snippet of my day today. Hope you're all doing better than I.