Mindless Rambling - Tumblr Posts
It's kinda funny how my Leona pieces/comics are always the ones that get the most notes. Especially when I'm always like that when I draw them:
Hey guys!
Just to say you can now support me on Ko-Fi! If you can and want to drop a couple bucks in there, I'll be forever grateful ❤
Managed to farm enough drinks to upgrade Lilia's spells to max o// He's literally my only Lilia card, gotta keep him preciously.
(Gotta see if I can get enough drinks to uncap him now *weeps*)
WHO THE F*CK KEPT YOU WAITING YOU GODSDAMNED F*CKING A*SHOLE?!!!
I can't tell whether I hate him for always coming at the guaranteed only, or whether I hate myself for being unable to keep myself from pulling everytime he's on a banner.
I was supposed to wait to check what next month's events were gonna be. I could've always pulled for him next year. If I mess up my next pulls I swear-
Same here! Glad to see another artist who's also on the spectrum
Hey~y~y~
It's always very funny for me to see how other autistic artists work.
Like, I've been following this one auDHD woman on Insta for years and wondering how come she manages to always draw about the same characters again and again when I kept jumping from hyperfixations to hyperfixations, and now I'm in a situation where I'm doing just like her because of Twst x)
Honestly though, I rarely ever had such a strong hyperfixation and I feel like Tumblr and the asks are feeding it, that's probably why I'm still perfectly fine doing fanarts for Twst. It's comfortable not to jump on something else every couple weeks honestly. I haven't gotten that horrendous down time in between hyperfixations in a long time thanks to it.
...Why am I even rambling about that?
Anyway, yay, twinsies!!!
Its a bit weird that Tumblr doesn't let you see the tags of Mature posts without showing the whole post.
I mean... tags are where the content warnings are. What if I'm fine with some violence and not others? Do I have to avoid all posts marked as Mature even though some could interest me? Do I have to risk sneaking an eye at the post just to see the tags?
(Yes this is about my Wings!AU, what's the point of adding content warnings if they're hidden?!)
I just had a ~☆thought☆~
The new birthday cards series is about pyjamas and morning routines right?
We got Jamil without any makeup right?
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That means we'll see Rook’s freckles again RIGHT?!
Being an artist is wanting to flex and then crying because you have to put in the hard work.
For each cries, yells, and threats (lol) I receive on my Wings series, my laughter becomes 5% more diabolical.
I am regularly annoyed at AI generated art, but I think nothing compares to doing researches of traditional clothes and only finding sexualised AI stuff that is most definitely not traditional apparel.
Ok, for those who have the same problem, here's a relatively safe way to get accurate traditional clothes:
Look for old paintings or engravings. Preferably from people native to the places you are looking for (because even centuries ago painters loved to sexualise "exotic" people) though you can find pretty accurate representations from people foreign to them too.
Here's an example from Edwin Long:
Or one from Utagawa Toyokuni:
I am regularly annoyed at AI generated art, but I think nothing compares to doing researches of traditional clothes and only finding sexualised AI stuff that is most definitely not traditional apparel.
Sometimes being the mum who exists in fandom spaces leads to awkward, even concerning, conversations. Such as the one which happened this morning. The mum of my daughter's best mate asked me if one of their mutual friends had sent her a specific message. This message was a link to a fic on ao3, if this had been a G rated fic this conversation would not have happened. It was not G rated. It was an E rated fic. Our kids aren't even 12 yet. As it happens, both of our kids have their internet access heavily locked down and monitored. They have phones because of how their school manages homework. The mutual friend, however, is not so monitored. Or she wasn't, given what her mum found she's about to be. This kid had found a fandom, joined it, and found it chock full of antis. The fic had been sent to her by one of them as an example of the sort of terrible people out there who need to be harassed and attacked because they wrote a smutty story.
Someone thought it was appropriate to send written porn to an 11 year old to encourage her to attack the author.
This resulted in a very awkward conversation where I had to explain to multiple horrified parents the anti culture that is becoming so prevalent. The fact that there are adults who use that purity message to groom kids. The way they escalate and how it bleeds into real life. One parent told me she'd wondered why her 14 year old was suddenly concerned about the two year age gap between her parents. The more I explained, the more absolutely ludicrous it sounded and the more baffled these poor mums looked. More than once I was told "but the characters aren't real, it's really weird but it isn't hurting anyone". Which is the point. The fictional situation isn't hurting anyone. The person who sent porn to an 11 year old is.
Was the person who sent it the author? Doubtful, that thing was tagged in the extreme. Was the person who sent it an adult? Almost certainly. The parent who's child received the original message has found more concerning stuff and gone to the police, but from the language the person doing the sending was in the US. We aren't. Did my daughter receive it? No, she isn't interested in that fandom and therefore wouldn't have bothered with it. Is this the fault of the author? No, they didn't send the link, they didn't ask to be harassed, they wrote a story and put it on ao3, the website created in response to rampant censorship and designed to allow for all kinds of fiction. Is this the fault of the parents? Partially, they should have been looking at their daughter's internet use and clocked what was happening sooner. Is this the fault of the child? No, she's 11, she didn't know better.
This has been a difficult day. Multiple parents have had their eyes opened to parts of fandom culture they had no idea existed. And the thing of it is, they aren't concerned about the why of anti rhetoric. They don't care about the adults writing about teens or rape or incest or torture or any of the rest, because they looked at the clearly tagged and rated fics and figured that it worked the same as a warning on any streaming service. They only cared because some utterly vile individual decided to expose their child to something this girl might not have looked at for years.
Proshippers did not cause what I have spent afternoon helping several sets of parents navigate. Antis did. Normally I'm fairly quiet about the whole debate because I just want to get on with my life and share my experiences. Today I got dragged into that mess in my every day life and the adults in the equation didn't react the way Antis like to think they would. They didn't condemn the author. They condemned the anti who shared the work with a preteen.
Me whenever I find N2 or Wings fanarts in which I have not been tagged:
LET ME GIVE YOU MY LOVE GUYS! I PROMISE I DON'T BITE!
Leona just kicked Kalim's ass in front of Jamil in my Guest Room.
I have so many questions :'D
