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I finished high school at a school for the blind and our local fire department went one much farther. They brought in two wrecked cars and not only had some of the students play the part of crash victims, they did very realistic makeup and prosthetics. My roommate had a mock broken leg with fake bone sticking out. It was gruesome but frankly quite awesome. XD

please i'm trying to figure out if my high school's administration was insane or something.

Reading about famous people who abuseAnd one thing I'm seeing in some of these pieces is that in some cases, especially in incidents where consensual abuse is part of the relationship dynamic, it seems like people aren't being clear with each other and there is a bunch of miscommunication going on. I'm not saying here that abuseIs not happening, because it clearly is in some of these statements. But I'm seeing what looks like bad miscommunication in there as well, where both parties consent to something early on and then later there's instances where something nobody talked about beforehand happens (very bad, don't do that) or something the people have done before happens but one person says it's something else suddenly (can be bad but is much more nuanced).

It's got me thinking about my limited and rather bad experience with relationships where it often felt like the rules were constantly in flux and never clear. That always threw me off, like getting in trouble for doing what was wanted before. This is almost certainly the tism talking and that in itself goes a long way toward explaining why I at least had so much trouble in this arena. People get really mad when they tell you to do something but through some other means expect you to just Know somehow that they mean something else.

Anyway, these are kind of two very different topics but they meshed together in my head.

I'm disabled. There's stuff I quite need when I go outside. Folding cane, dog bags, dog water bowl, car placard, reusable grocery bags because the only really cunty thing my awesome state governor has done was make single use plastic bags illegal so stores are charging for the only goddamn bags with handles now, etc.

@ people who carry bags everywhere what do you put in them what is there to bring other than chapstick, keys, phone and maybe a tampon why are you packing a suitcase to be outside for 5 hours

I've been meaning to make this post for years at least. XD 

A lot of folks who want art from me start off with small talk and I am here to say: it is okay to just open the conversation asking for art! :) 

I am very bad at small talk and nuance. When people come in my notes or dms in kind of just a chatty way, asking how I've been or talking about work, I have no way to know if this is an opening to talk business or if we're just chatting and I will not direct the convo toward commissions because that would be rude and presumptuous of me. So if you're wanting some art it is fine to say so dirctly to me. :) I know that's not true of everyone but I am a very direct person. 

This is not to say you can't just chit chat with me. I'm a well trained visitor and can happily talk about nothing with anyone for hours if I'm not too socially overwhelmed at the time. :D And I love a good chat about fandoms and things we may have in common. I'm even up for talking about weird stuff; I am asexual but I collect fetishes as an accidental hobby and it is interesting to me to learn what makes people tick in this regard. 

So! If you want art and that's why you're reaching out, please say that! It will save us both time and ensure that you don't miss out because I am too socially dense to realize when people want art if they're having a casual conversation first. XD

Been learning a lot about the intersection of brain worms (aka autism and adhd) and oh boy I did not know how badly concerta was fucking with me. o_o Apparently ritalin can be fine (though I have been wary of trying it again since I got off its extended form) but concerta will fuck you up, or at least it fucked me up. I feel a lot more alive and able to experience positive emotions in the past couple weeks off it, that's for sure! I learned the hard way that it was basically over stimulating my brain constantly but that wasn't apparent in Cowtown because there was almost no external stimulus. After several hours-long panic attacks and some quite spectacular meltdowns in a rather overwhelming working kitchen, I decided to go easy on the concerta and overall I'm having a much better time of things.

Basically, if you've got both ADHD and the tism, short actiing or no stimulants may be helpful sometimes as they turn the volume up on the tism and down on the screaming brain noise that is ADHD. But the long acting ones or at least concerta may overload you to a us unpleasant degree. And this is something that a lot of auti∵ics I've met already knew but I didn't meet one who told me until now. XD

This is an absolutely great podcast so far and is, as far as I could find, the only Pern podcast! There have been some one off eps of... one other podcast about Pern, but you guys are the first dedicated one! :)

And now I must be That Guy about just one thing. XD Pern realy is sci-fi even with the telepathy and specifically because as it. Something that's been lost in the modern day but which I lived in the tale end of is that it was a genuine scientific study in the 60s, 70s, 80s, and even into the 90s that people could have psychic powers. Things like telepathy were at the time very much sci-fi tropes for the most part because it was something people just assumed we would be able to do somehow. In the case of Pern, books set e)ly in the planet's history specifically mention that humans have been genetically altered to have mental powers.

On a different note, something I didn't learn until much later was that Anne was first and foremost a romance writer of a very specific genre that explains a lot of why all of her books are Like That in regards to more prurient situations. It is very much a reccurring theme even into her old age with books like the Freedom series. She was more or less always writing Harlequine style romances wearing a mostly sci-fi hat but also I think she just had a thing for the heroine encountering a brutish hero where both of them find a middle ground in their relationship later. It definitely doesn't jive with a lot of modern sensibilities (though this kind of thing is a very common fantasy according to quite a lot of research) but it does go a ways toward explaining things with Anne.

Pedantery aside, I love your show and I can't wait to hear more!

Episode #1: Dragonflight

In this episode we argue about genre, discuss the material culture of invented worlds, explore patriarchal sexual violence as an “automatic” component of peudo-medieval feudalism, and wistfully recall our time as horse girls.

https://dmmdipodcast.neocities.org/episodes/dmmdi-e1.mp3

Transcript available on our website!

Now that NaNoWriMo is dead after being ableist, fart huffing, AI-loving twats, I vote we all write our novels in January owhen nobody has anything fun to do or a bloated cultural event to endure. I don't know about anyone else, but I could never make it because Thanksgiving in the US and the start of the holiday grind wrecked whatever groove I could manage. Anyway, fuck the board of NaNoWriMo. Delete your account and get your words away from that organization if you don't want them scraped for the plagiarism wood chipper.

After not having a relaxing 3 day weekend, I've had A Day involving: nearly strangling my roommate, arthritis only letting me get four hours of sleep, the dog got very sick, then ran outside to eat plnts of unknown kind, the toilet exploded ("!) and as a treat I just had one hell of a hot flash. XD

Gawd it's almost 4am and I am just not capable of sleep tonight. o_o Hate to do it but I'm gonna call in sick today. Functioning on 4 hours sleep is one thing, but 2 or less? And my first class is two hours of crossing streets blindfolded? Nope.

It would seem my horrible existential dread that I can’t escape is cranked to 11 on stimulants. o_o Welp! It was a good ritalin but I think I’m back to being unmedicated after a decade of being royally screwed over by pills.

Making mashed potatoes and pot roast and the electric mixer is broken yaaaaay!

Okay it's been three days, stomach. You can stop having gastrointeritis any time now.

Every year I get this shit. D: At least I haven't been barfing everywhere but man. It super sucks catching it in the middle of an intensi?e training program where every day counts. Bleh.

Also I'm very hungry but can't eat anything but the hunjer panjs also hurt. Bleh. Going back to bed now. .

If I end up spreading this nasty gut bug to the whole city it is entirely Wallgreen's fault. Been trying to call them for literally three days now, they charged my card but Petey's meds never showed up so she's missed days' worth of her antibiotics and I'm out $120 I didn't have. So here I am on the bus, trying not to hurl, because every time I call fucking Walgreen's their phone service puts me in limbo until someone at the desk hangs up on me. child

Nothing like being woken up after a bunch of weird, mildly distressing dreams by intense stomach distress. Dammit, it's been a whole week, you were getting better, stop being sick, stomach!

Used up the last of my food stamps and one of my free Instacart orders buying a third box of crackers and more Sprite. XD Also apple sauce, which I forgot until today that you can eat when you're sick, so now my diet is three things, which is exciting for the novelty. XD

Finally, after almost two entire weeks, stomach might be settled enough for me to attend today's career fair...! Aaaaand nope, my shitty leg hurts so bad I haven't been able to sleep. 8D Yaaaaay!