Resignation - Tumblr Posts
It's done.
Now to deal with the guilt of leaving my staff and possibly of having to bum gas money off my wonderfully supportive and uplifting woman.
He would tell me I'm trash. And no matter how many times she reassures me of the opposite, it's his words that seem to stick.
I'm resigning from my job tomorrow. As of right now i will be without work at the end of the month ( if he doesn't fire me first).
Deja-vu
Yesterday I got reamed out by my boss for doing what he asked me to do. It's very familiar.
I gave them until October 25. I was too generous.
Depression is hitting pretty hard. The last few job prospects were not what i thought they were.
My last paycheck will be November 15 and i have nothing to replace it.
My woman has already insisted she buy me snow tires, because I advised that I won't have the money to buy them at this time. This makes me ashamed. Especially since she has been stretched thin lately herself.
And a quick flashback to a conversation with my Father yesterday who helpfully reminded me that i "shouldn't be depending on anybody." Thanks, Pops, for the pep talk.
And i still have to go to this place for another 8 shifts. Once again, I'd like to ask why I have to be in this discouraging position while my shithead, incompetent, mysogenist boss suffers with none of it.
Actually, I do know. He has probably spent his life bullying and manipulating people into doing what, when, and how he wants while devaluing themselves and their contributions.
He must have worked with people that didn't call him on mistakes, oversights or inappropriate behaviour that he tried to heave on someone else.
He told me once that he takes credit for everything that happened at his workplace because that's how you get ahead. I told him it was more in my nature to praise my team, since they do the heavy lifting. He said that humility doesn't exemplify confidence and I am not promotable.
I called him on being contradictory. I called him on it when he was being abusive. I called him on it when he tried to manipulate me. And I called him on it when he tried to run my department. It wasn't always graceful, and at times I was consumed with self doubt. But i held my ground, and I can't tell you how proud of myself I am.
I also had a good relationship with my staff and he envied that. I believe you earn the respect of your team by valuing what they do and treating them like people. He believes you demand respect from the title you hold and being at the top should make you invincible.
Well. I found out he resigned from his position. Funny how that all worked out.
Not that it particularly matters, but that interaction with my boss was the last one I had with him. No good luck wish, no hand shake, nothing.
He hated me to my very core and I have no idea why.
Wanderer: (gruff cowboy voice, wheat stalk in mouth, wedged between bottom teeth) Sometimes… sometimes a man gotta come to terms with a few hard truths in this world.
:*Stares off into the distance, crackling of campfire*
:The Sun comes up. God ain’t here no more, and sometimes you just gotta dive in and learn how to draw furries because that’s where the money is.
:*Rips a cig, the wheat catches on fire*