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Thinking about how Laurence views his mortality after The Nether.

Cause obviously it can't be the same after becoming the irl corpse husband. And as we know Laurence is choosing to pass up immortality purposefully, so he has to to have considered what actually dying would mean for him, right?

Especially with his chosen career.

We know that Ru'aun has a sense of reincarnation. But we don't know how the realm of Ru'aun views the afterlife, if they have an idea of ideal afterlife at all.

But whatever they believe it has to be better than The Nether. Because that's all that's lined up for Laurence.

If I'm not mistaken, mortal Shadowknights become shadow-souls when the die? Which are the souls of former Shadowknights but like- kinda bound to the Nether (sometimes).

Has Laurence considered that? The implications of that?

That is so heavy! Despite all his fighting, all his battles, all his wins and losses, despite everything he has ever and will ever do in his lifetime. In the end, he will be right back to The Nether. For eternity.

Does he think about that ever? When he's fighting those shadow-souls does he ever stop to think, "one day I'm going to be an aimless monster"??? Like, sir thus is a Chillies 😰

He has to have thought about it, with all the time he has spent in The Nether, with his choice to not pursue immortality, and again, his life as a guard is to put his body on the line to protect others. The threat of death is not new.

But Laurence has it different in compared to other guards, Laurence has it different in compared to most people. He knows exact where he will go when he dies. And he knows that it isn't a good place.

And yet he risks his life anyway. Risks going back to that place, to The Nether anyway!

That is so intense.